December 30, 2006

happy doesnt seem so lucky

What is Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD)?

There is evidence that a brain chemical called serotonin plays a role in a severe form of PMS, called Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD). The main symptoms, which can be disabling, include:

* feelings of sadness or despair, or possibly suicidal thoughts -> The day before yesterday, I was so sad that I felt like giving up with the workload and some conflicts even worsened my day
* feelings of tension or anxiety -> We got some difficulties to find the correct Sports Planet because there were 2 sports planet which are within that area. At first we headed to the wrong Sports Planet, toured around the place thrice, until Fien called and led us to the right direction. I've been torturing Wani and was quite upset with her
* panic attacks-> I kept on worrying that we could not make it on time. Started from picking up the movie tickets (Night at The Musuem rocksss!!!!) until postponing the booking made at Sports Planet. I could not help from panicking
* mood swings, crying->Mood swings-a big yes, crying-not REALLY
* lasting irritability or anger that affects other people-> Ask my friends. I know they felt like killing me but could not do so because nobody would send them home later. But I heard Wani said "takpe dah biase" Is it???? Have I been the pain in the ass all this while?? Gee..I guess I didnt realise it...
* disinterest in daily activities and relationships-> At one point, I just felt like going back home and be alone in my room....
* trouble thinking or focusing -> I drove wrecklessly jeopardizing our lives and nearly been hit by a bus. Anyway, I dont know why but I feel my friends do not really trust my driving skills. I know I scratched my car more than twice, met accident twice (which was so not challenging) but they just need to put some confidence on me. I may have trouble with my parking skills but I've done it several times, lantak pi la kalau senget ka apa. When they started to scream,giving out directions I lost my focus and stressed up
* tiredness or low energy->I've been exercising this week just to ensure my stamina is okay throughout the 60 minutes game. Even so, at the middle of the game I was exhausted and played a slower game (less running.less chasing ball).Plus, my stomach was aching like helllllllll....
* food cravings or binge eating->I was craving for seafoooooooooooooodddd last nite and kept on muching the chocs eventho I'm not a choc-freak.Anyway,had my lunch cum dinner cum supper at Gazebo last night. The food was okay but still missing the touch of the TRUE seafood taste.ngeee..
* having trouble sleeping->Before the day, I could not sleep eventho' I am sure that my body is tired and need a sleep. I was so worried that I could not get up early as I had to fetch Shera and Chemi early in the morning but to my amazement, I woke up at 5 am!
* feeling out of control->Still got myself under control although I've been tormenting other people.I knew I've been totally shitty and I've even apologized but still, I knew they were quite unhappy with my attitude..Sorry friends
* physical symptoms, such as bloating, headaches, and joint or muscle pain->My stomach cramped during the game.My back was so aching that forced me to swallow 6 pills of panadol muscles&joint to relieve the pain.

To Fien, Fiqah, Wani, Aina and Alip ---- thanks for joining the game
To Wani, Ida, Chemi and Shera ----thanks for everything

December 28, 2006

will happy go lucky??

Ngeee...I'm effin' happy today. I knew I could do it. I knew I'm not that lazy. Ngeee...

Actually there are plenty more to be done. At least i'm done with the most tedious and deadening tasks. I've just completed 2 tasks but it takes one whole day minus the 5 mins prayer time and 15 mins dinner (i dont even take my bath!!!!!!). back is aching right now. Hopefully it wud be okay by tomorrow or I might be swallowing the pain killer because tomorrow we'll be playing futsal!!!!!!!!! yeaaayyy!!!!!!!!!!! At last..we are back like we used to be..

I'll be sleeping over shera's hostel cum house with wani and chemi. Ngeee...we are planning on a real berpoya2 so it wud be better if I sleep sumwhere else or mom wud nag incessantly (ok..a lil bit exaggerative) Anyhoo..i hope everything's going fine tomorrow..I really hope Ida can make it. Fuzah is not here. Zack is not here. If Ida is not here, it would be worse. =( I miss my white alpha team...
I am very excited u know. The thought of tomorrow had driven me high-spiritedly to complete my tasks. Ngeee..frens...u shud know how deep my love for all of u...

I think I shud have my sleep right now or else we will only be playing futsal in my lalaland~ Hopefully everything's okay tomorrow.Badan,kaki,tangan,jangan ngade2 nak sakit ye esok..

Sorry, I dont mean to be cruel but u need to be slapped hard so u wont go any further. Let's just hope that we know how to confront each other after what had happened.


December 27, 2006

streamyx gay

Exclusively for my blog readers, i present u, The Famous Curlymon~~~
Curlymon and Cutenad

Streamyx is completely gay. I've been trying to send an entry since past 7 hours but failed. Ida said one of the broadband cable broke down due to the earthquake at Japan so, yeah, cant really put the blame on the tm berhad much.

I am quite sad this few days. Oh...penat sungguh. Anyway it's good to be sad. Because when I'm sad about somePARTICULARthing, I wud start to work out. So yesterday I ran on the treadmill and dance the inches off. Huhu, it was fun tho. At least I know I have target.

Well I got my 2nd Hep B jab yesterday. Guess what, I saw Jalaluddin Hassan at the medical centre. He and his arrogant look, drove his hyundai sonata and brought some clothes into the medical centre (me and my paparaziness! haha) Finally managed to exchange movies with ida. Haha..not really exchange actually. I was the one who took almost everything from her. Cinta, heroes, gol&gincu the series and some other movies I cant remember. Ida could only took step up and high skool musical from me.Sori ida..By the way I've got prison break complete episode season 1 already. The next time we meet up, i'll give u, okay? Heee...

I managed to finish off gol&gincu 13 episodes in one day! first the show was quite slow.Anyway i just cant take my eyes off the screen and started to hook up with the show. I slept at 3.30am last *morning* because I just cant wait to know the ending. Blame it on ida, tanak gitau...jahattttt... =P

My friends are planning on an outing this friday. CheMi is in Malaysia so we are meeting up, doing what we used to do..*suatu ketika dulu* I'm dying to play futsal and manage to ask few McB frens to join me. I hope Wani is okay coz she didnt sound
so happy about my plan.Anyway let's just hope our plan will go well.. =)

I've been bad. I didnt reply his msgs. I didnt pick up his call. I just cant go on with this anymore. I'm afraid i'll be drowning, deep in the ocean and no one's there to save me.I'd better walk safely by the beach, rather than dying lonely in the middle of the sea. =(

i'll be back


December 25, 2006

another sad day.....

I don't feel good today..

At some point, I felt he was just one step further from me..

But now I think I won't let him move anywhere closer to me

Enough of this uncertained feelings

Enough of this, i'm letting go...

U'll be going for ur unreachable dreams.I'll be diverting to another path

And i'll be sleeping off the sadness, and hope for another dream to step in

Moving on, i'll be searching on another dream. U are now just another nitemare. I wanted to warn u, opt to blind urself. Wishing u all the best in ur life.


updating the outdated

People, if any of u has a job to offer me, pls do so. I need more money monay monay.

Hee...Last week was a week of non stop jln2. On Thursday, I met Fuzah at MidVal. After failing to find any suitable suit, I decided to go to Subang Parade. Before we departed, met Kapes, Fuzah's friend. He's not bad..Tall. Interesting. So I think,Fuzah it's a green light to u to move on with Kapes..ngeee..As for that particular guy, u shud start moving on with ur pathetic life. Go study and get ur ass out from Msia ASAP.Remember,if u are the groom on fuzah's wedding day, u'll never see me in ur guest list. I'll just send a refrigerator as a gift.Fullstop.

On Friday we went to settle Fuzah's untouched Celcom number. I tell u, Celcom is just sooOoOoooo annoying. They cheated the customer, threaten them with laws and all. After started our day with loads of anger, we picked up Wani and Ayu at UIA PJ. Made our "panic decision" and went to Pyramid. They were so anxious to watch CicakMan so yeah, i had to agree. Review? huu...just wait..After the INTERESTING-OH-SO-LAME-movie, we rushed to send wani and ayu back to Uia as they had match to catch up that night

Saturday was my big day!! I felt like 4-yr-old child on her first day to kindergarten. I could not help but felt nervous, anxious and excited. It was my first swimming class. I can FLOAT!!!! I dun need anyone's help to lift my butt in the water.I DID IT MYSELF.Yeeeeaayayyy!!!!!!!! I was floating and I was swimming fo'real y'all.......ngeeeee....I was so excited!! Altho I was the slowest student to catch up, but I;m still proud of myself. Considering the fact that I am traumatize by an incident back at '98, I am really proud of myself for pushing the boundaries. In 1998, I went to Tg Bidara for a school trip. I dunno wut happened but I drowned in the pool, panickly pull my friend with me. So, both of us were drowning and all I saw was the blue,monstrous water. Luckily, abg Nizam saved us. Thank u...U r my hero..

After the swimming class, went to Klang to pick Ida, went to Asia Jaya to pick Wawa, went to UIA (againn?!?!?) to pick Wani and off we went to The Curve. Picked up our 2pm tickets, and decided to have our lunch at 1.40pm. We were starving so had no choice but missed the first 30 mins of the story.Haih...They said the movie is hardly comrehensible so I put my 100% focus (altho the moment we went in, the conflict has started.ngee). I managed to catch up with the story and got really excited. It was approximately 5 minutes left on the clock but *POOOF!* the screen was black. Siot gilak..We thought it would last for 5-10 mins so we stayed and made our own conclusion. Fuzah said it was a gimmick from the producer. Wani started to produce her own story. She said we might be attacked by terrorist. I added the spice onto Wani's story by planning on how we should save our life if the terrorists caught us. We were reluctant to lift our butt and walked off from the movie hall but after there were only about 10 of us left,so yeah, we made our way out. We planned to claim for refund but's only 5 mins left do u thang they will agree??
So we left The Curve with extremely bengang mode but I still feel happy because at last we are having our girls day out, again

On Sunday I sent Fuzah to commuter and attended my swimming class. That day, we learned 3 things, breaststroke, trading and water confident. We had to jump in the 2metres-pool all the way to the base of the pool, kick the floor and float to the wall. Of course I was so nervous that my body started to shiver. It was like a nitemare, especially when u had nothing to cling on and knowing that u wud be drowning if u screwed up. So yeah, I did it altho I didnt do it well. Menggelabah gile dalam air but managed to reach the floor and kicked all the way up.Heee...But I failed to push myself to do the trading. Ngeee...takut seyh..But I'll never give up. I'll prove to myself that I'll be able to swim perfectly one day. Yes, Nad!!! U can do it!!!!1

December 24, 2006


Got this from Zarf's blog.Tho he didnt put down my name specifically, but he did, tagged anyone who reads his blog.

Since I am still recovering from the-deleted-picture trauma, so here goes :

• Nad (almost ALL of my friends)
• adik (close family only)
• Kak Jiah (among the cousins)


• sAd_aNgeL (been using this nick since f3.byk kenangan seyh T_T)
• nZra (ym,msn,skype)
• nz --- ends with sth2 (emails)

• my body, obviously
• my teeth (i'm planning on wearing braces, what say u?)
• my feet (oversized-susah carik kasut.haih)

• Malay
• Malay (bugis)
• Malay (java)


• Not going to oversea
• Losing the loved ones
• Being alone T_T


• My cellphone (haha)
• My laptop (hahaha)
• Water (xde idea sbnanyer)

• Familia
• Friends
• My accesories

• A 6 ringgit baby tee
• Polka dot short pants


• the fray
• JT
• xtina aguilera
(susah la sbnanye soalan nih.i dun have any spesific interest)

• Mimpi yg Sempurna (Peter PAn)
• My Love (JT)
• Hurt (Xtina Aguilera)
(currently lah eh.maaf saye tgh boyan skang)

• Jazzing around with friends
• Shopping
• Blog-hopping

• Shopping (with extra budget pls?)
• Homework (but still left unattended)
• Watch Nite@Museum


• Great Barrier Reefs (diorg kate syiok)
• Paris (girlsss..)
• Bangkok (nabila ah ni)


(i'm sorry. i have to find the father's name first :P but i'll prolly gonna put ahmad and nur in front of their names kot)

• perform haj
• travel around the world
• learn to play musical instruments,master the swimming techniques


(am i supposed to be answering this Q?)
• i can catch up the boys talk quite fast
• i drive wrecklessly
• ape lagi eh?

• the girls talks
• shopaholic
• emotionally unstabled (ngeee...)

• hot bods. (6 pack muscles.fabulous abs..uuu.simply irresistable.)
• the smile
• hair

• Fahrin Ahmad (i love uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...)
• Patrick Dempsey
• Chad Michael Murray (that smile.that lips.uuuu)

• Syahir
• Ida
• Zack
and those who came across this entry.wajib! hahahaha

I'll be back in the near future.
at first i wanted to update on our activities today

unfortunately i accidentally deleted the pictures that we've captured today

i feel like committing suicide


gambar kat the curve

gambar swimming

smua ilang


akan kembali setelah gua tenang

December 22, 2006

Mission ? errrm....quite accomplished!

Gagaga, seriously I'm not a morning person. But now it's only 7.07am but I've already hitting the keyboard. So my first success :

Wake up earlier

Thanks to waqi, my warak classmate who took the trouble to wake me up. Your effort is much appreciated.

As told before, I went to Mid Valley yesterday. Yesterday, I would declare it as "hari mari jumpe kawan2 lame dari kecik dulu" (pls read it using doraemon's intonation when he came out with a device) Surprise2 I met Nur Fatin Amira, my friend back in primary sch at Hicom. I didnt realise until she called me and I was "hah???? Fatinn??" Hahaha..I havent seen her since 2000,maybe? Tho we live in the same area and we cud reach each other's house within 3 minutes drive or 7 minutes walk (precise gler)

Next I met epul, (at the same place I met Fatin) with his frens. Didnt talk much tho. I think he's catching up movies but me and Fuzah had to continue with MY mission.

Wont elaborate more on my MISSION until it is fully accomplished.

I stumbled upon my senior's photopage and guess what, some of them have already married. I guess time really flies.Back then, she was my Presiden Pengawas Pusat Sumber (a glamorous name of Librarian) She was not one of those hotthecouple nor hotkebebeh ( bkan smss tak paham kot) but she's already married! My ex-2nd head prefect, kak mum is expecting her 1st baby! 1st baby weyh, not even married, but is also expecting baby! Huiyooo...I cud still remember how I used to immitate her soft voice.

"Kalau kesalahan A,korang terus buat,jadi kesalahan B.Kalau kesalahan B,korg terus buat..jadi kesalahan C,kalau terus buat,jadi kesalahan D.."

My seniors, cudnt remember ALL of their name but I cud recognise my x roomates, kak day-o&kak kt. Ade kak alin,kak ainul,jemir,rashid,daud barieng,kakzubeq,kak eli,edren,kak zack pastu ade cam mat che' kot.Hoho, tak ingat sgt sudah..

I 5 years time, among my batch, who would be the first to tie the knot eh? I'm so excited to know what would happen next. My theory is, I dont think those who are in love and couple bagai nak rak would be the 1st to step further. He/She/They might be the ones yg low-profile...Hahaha..They??? I mean, like marrying each other (in our batch)?? owhhhhh...touch-wooddddd.....hope it would not be me!! I know how my batchmates are. I also know to what extent they cud stay to be pain in one's ass. Hee...So let's hope that all of us will reach the ultimate happiness, tho our path will never crossed again.

P/S : Today's plan? Erm.Ayu and Wani is dying to watch CICAKMAN.Huh..sabo je lah

December 21, 2006

Nidji-Hapus Aku

Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

I need to do some changes.Aiyoh...Abandoned workload.Eating loads of fast food.Waking up late..

now, come and repeat the mantra with me
Must do my work.Must exercise.Must wake up earlier.
Must do my work.Must exercise.Must wake up earlier.
Must do my work.Must exercise.Must wake up earlier.
Must do my work.Must exercise.Must wake up earlier.
Must do my work.Must exercise.Must wake up earlier.

P/S: I'm going to MidVal today.Hopefully my mission will be accomplished.Pray for me owh jealous and pyscho-ed friends.haha

December 19, 2006

tatau ape nak kate

Swimming Lesson Mission

Swimming suit (READ:swimming suit=the shirt and the pants.bkan yg hot2 itu ye), Goggles,Swimming cap. Tick!

Bag : TQ Syahir!! Haha

Interview Suit Mission

Boot/Shoes.Tick (credit to JJ Bkt Raja-hahaha..jauh2 ku carik sini ku jumpa)

Love this one.But cudnt fit into the pants.. T_T

Dying for this one.But the pants is too big T_T

Went to Subang Parade with mommy but failed

Today, went to OU and The Curve with Wani and Nadiah but ended up with a Fila bag and this expensive...ek eleh nasik goreng blacan je nama cam gmpak!!!

Next location : KLCC.Haih..if this mission failed.Gonna drag Fuzah to MidVal and my last resort : Subang Parade, and any tailors shop T_T

Gengster Kg Dusun circumcised

At MakPah's home
(an ads in "Argh...bosannye...bosannye hari Ahad ni"
Newly-circumsised-pissed-and-bored Syukri : Woi....aku ni lagi bosan tau kena duduk je!!!!!!!!!

(Sorry, forgot to take his picture. I was busy bugging Mak Pah gorenging Mihun Singapore)

At Mak Tip's home

Me : Ayin!!! Hahahahahaha (evil laugh)
Ayin : Boring...boringg....
Me : Ayin jom maen bola sepak
Ayin : .......
Me : Ayin, jom ar maen!!
Ayin : Hah...okeh! Jomm!!! (trying to untie the string and his kain batik)
Me : Haha..lilex la Ayin..Slasa ni bkak ah
Me : Ayin, sakit tak sunat?
Ayin : (Note: during the circumcision, he was so cool. He even talked with the doc and sang songs) Takk!~
Me : Kalau kak jiah, tepuk sikit bleh tak..
Ayin : (look worried) Aa..taknak!
Me : Alaaa...sikit je...hahahahahahaha

December 17, 2006


Gwe ngak bisa tgk batman lagi

Gwe ngak bisa makan McD kat Mid tngkat atas lagi

Gwe rase pelik tgk wayang

Berambus dlm idup gwe skarang

Gwe benci loe!!


December 15, 2006

Mood-less moooooo....~

Asian Games has ended.How would I survive the lonely days?? What should I do once I got up from bed? Who should I turn to when I'm bored to death???

Japanese quartet 4X100

Naosu Tsukahara.100m silver medallist

Volleyball men's final.Korea vs China

Jiang Fudong of China

Roslinda Samsu.The one n only Malaysian stood on the athletics podium.Muke tak ikhlas giler~~ She reminds me of Petra Nabilah.Wheretheheck is she??

TaeKyong(Korea) Liu Xiang(China) and Malaysia's Robani Hasan on men's hurdle 110m.Do u realise sthg about Robani? Heeeee...I leave the answer to u..LOL

Tried to find Qatar and KSA volleyball's player but failed! One of the KSA player, Ibrahim looks exactly like Snoop Dogg! Hwahwa..go shizelmynizel (ok I dun know how to spell it out)


- I had not eaten any NUTRITIOUS food since Monday. Pathetic isn't it?
- I ordered McD from the delivery service at 8.50pm, but could only ate my dinner at 10.30pm!

When something is not right, everything doesnt seem okay

December 14, 2006

I sat down and wept. tsk

Quoting Paulo Coelho..


I think that perhaps we always fall in love the very first time we see the man of our dreams, even though, at the time, reason may be telling otherwise, and we may fight against that instinct, hoping against hope that we won't win, until there comes a point when we allow ourselves to be vanquished by our feelings..

Most favourite

Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering

Most motivating
Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream.
Most nagging

Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time

Currently reading : By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept by Paulo Coelho.
Hurm..Next..I should think of Alchemist, maybe?

You => Sori.TERberemosi pula.Huhu.Plus i'm sleepy,tired,starving.

December 13, 2006

the games of your life

So far, the national anthem (Negaraku) has only been heard 6 times at Qatar, and most of the time, it is being played at Qatar Bowling Centre. Up until this moment, our target of at least 7 gold medals is not achieved yet. We've lost several potential gold medals in karate, pole vault,and diving but not to worry, there's still nicol david and azlan to save the contigent's ass...

Here's some highlights on Asian Games, as far as I've watched lah.

1.4X100 men final won by Thai and I strongly agree with the commentator's opinion on how courage and high spirit has sent the team to the top. Compared to Japan and KSA, all 4 sprinters of Thai are just on average (except for Wachara Sondree-he got bronze medal in 100m) but they managed to clocked 39.21s to secure the gold medal in this event. U can tell their exuberance just from the way they sang to their national anthem during the victory ceremony.

2. Msia women hockey team finished at 5th position and I should say that is very mengagumkan (siot, word searching error) I managed to watch them playing against Taipei and I've already started to admire them. Hebat seyh! They are so petite, compared to the opponents tau.

3. I'd like to announce that rugby isn't really the roughest game. Sepak takraw is more violent,eventhough it does not involve any boisterous physical contact. I mean,just look at them jeopardizing their arm, feet and body spiking the ball and doing "bicycle kick".Seriously, I admire their skills!!

4. One of the many factors I love this event, is seeing the diversity of cultures and countries. I'd just love pronouncing the thailand's name like Narongchai Vacheebaran,Pansira Purich etc etc. Hohoh, it just slip out of the tongue smoothly. Oh, to strengthen the fact that I'm an ignorant I was surprised to see that Kazakhstan facial features are more like the white people. All this while I thought, as long as the name ends with -tan, they will possess facial features like pakistani, or indians or bangladeshi.huhu...

5. China, Japan and SOME Thai athletes (in athletics esp) are good looking!! huhuhuhu (xde kaitan)

Reminiscing the abandoned memories of my school's sports events, I must say I'm quite proud of myself, especially my hands (haha masuk bakul angkat sendri) Yelah, though I could not contribute much for running nor sprinting events in the sukantara, I redeemed myself in my own field.

2001 - Silver for shot put, Gold for javelin -> credit to MIMA for teaching me the techniques to throw the javelin properly. I owe u bro!
2002 - Gold for shot put, silver for javelin (siot, Trex robbed the gold from me) plus, a bronze for MSSKL javelin
2003- Silver for shot put-> again, beaten by Corinne Elsa
2004- Gold for both shot put and javelin. Such a sweet victory. Managed to outdo Trex and broke the shot put's record. What was the secret? I imagined Pa and Toye (some of the QM boys) in front of me and I'm throwing the ball towards them.Failed to win the MSSKL shot put. Damn, the others were just too good. Really dissapointed they didnt choose me for javelin. Trex went, instead. Siot gler!!!!!!!!!!! Nasib dier x menang(dengki)

I aint that bad in sports, aite?


P/S : To=> you! Erm, sorry for the late reply. And sorry, I'm not into the bawangs. Go ahead and watch those bawangs quarelling while I'll be drooling over some hot guys in the Asian Games. Fair n square, isnt it? =P

December 12, 2006

Cinta? Sebuah kisah ttg kasih...

My enthusiasm had nearly blown up after my question on "How's CINTA the movie?" is replied with "sgt best!!" "best gler!!!" "it's a must-see movie!!" Ouh, fine! Since everyone has been talking bout CINTA and had watched it already, i'll go wit my lil cousins! >=P Oh by the way, someone has got some problem on the title. He said he couldnt really tolerate the theme, so fine!! I'll go watch it by myself!
Director : Kabir Bhatia
Casts :(ranked from the most touching story)
1st :Rashidi Ishak(Harris), Rita Rudaini (Airin) err..Lis? (superb!)
2nd :Dato' Rahim Razali(C.Elyas), Fatimah A.Bakar(Rubiah), Ngasrizal Ngasri (Amin)
3rd :Nanu Baharudin (Dyan) Q Haidar (Dhani) Sofi Jikan (mat rock apekah namamu gua terlupa)
4th :Sh Amani(Arianna) Pierre Andre(Taufiq) Khalif?
5th :Eizlan Yusof(Azlan) Fasha Sandha(Azura)

The stor(ies) take place at the busy city of Kuala Lumpur. 5 LOVE stories revolve around the city where each and every stories differ from one and another by its own uniqueness but somehow,the characters are coincidently connected thru locations & under certain circumstances.

Azlan and Airin is a pair of married couple, and they have a daughter, Alisa.All this while Azlan devotes his life for his family but Airin breaks Azlan's heart and life to pieces when she turns him down for other man. This couple teaches us the power of love that would eventually make us let our beloved ones go for the sake of his/her happiness. On the other hand, Vanidah Imran's split-2nd-appearance also tells us grass is greaner on the other side.

"He must be somekind of man."
"No, he's kind"
"Papa,Lis nak ikut papa. Lis xnak papa sedih lagi"

Cikgu Elyas is suffering from Alzheimer and what's left on his memories are the fact that he is a teacher and is taken care by his son, Ahmad. Rubiah, a newly-moved restaurant owner happens to be attracted to know C.Elyas better. Amin, C.Elyas's grandson who is responsible for him is forced to take the biggest decision ever- to send C.Elyas to nursing house. Eventually, Rubiah willingly volunteers to take care of C.Elyas. This story teaches us : despite illness and age, love will land into anybody's heart. Just anybody.

"Isteri bukannya hak milik, tapi anugerah"
"Kadang2 org yg kita paling syg lah org yg paling susah nak syg"

The tragic story on siblings' eternal love where Dyan and Dhani eventually "united" yet separated. Dhani, a street artist who's fighting for his right of choosing his own path with her older sister, Dyan, a successful and rich architect. Dyan accuses Dhani for wasting his degree while Dhani blots his hatred towards Dyan's for intervening other people's marriage. Dyan sacrifices her erm..i'm not sure what for the sake of Dhani's life. This story proves the peribahasa : air yang dicincang takkan putus.

-no significant quote-

Arianna&Taufik , Azura&Azlan are 2 couples that eventually united by the name of love. They need to go through some difficulties and survive in the hardship before they finally "announce" their love. These stories teach us : t be honest in love. Don't be afraid to express your love and love drives us into doing anything (even if we have to beg on bended knee to win our love.

+ I love just everything in this film. The takes are superb. Each and every scene is meaningful and touches my feeling. Just name it, from the scene of throwing out rubbish from the window, to where Vanidah Imran suddenly pops out of nowhere
(cam hantu plak), they are just wonderful
+ The main casts are also superb! They have really united into their character and presented it brilliantly.
+ The songs blended well with the story. The impacts are big though some of them are just normal songs that have been frequently aired before
+ The movie might not win any international awards as the theme of love might be too common but it surely wins the heart of Malaysian.No need to bring out spectacular issues. Simple yet strong and effective is preferable.

- It's quite hard for me to digest the scene where Azlan and Azura had their dinner with the mini orchestra. Ergh..tipu sikit =(
- Malulah kuar2 movie hall muke mata smua merah nangis teruk..hehe.

=I cried incessantly during Harris and Airin's scene.
=This story doesnt tell us new definitions of love. It just remind us on the true meaning of love


With respect to the movie, I would like to share my "observation" (plainly dari kacamata/contact lens nzra.not usman awang nor shahnon ahmad) on how CINTA turns a frog into prince and kills the god of death (haha..sori. currently reading the deathnote manga so got carried away by the unfinished story)

In my life, I've seen how my friends have slowly changed when love strucks them. Before this, we might have been talking behind those who are madly in love and act weirdly but eventually, I realised that the one that I've been talking about is right in front of me.

Love drives us crazy,as crazy as smiling to ourselves when the one that we love just passed through us. Love makes us wear something that we dont usually wear.

Sometimes, love "moves" us to somewhere far far away. It also takes us away from friends and family and the normal life.

Love holds us back from letting someone/something go. Some things are better left undeleted/undiminished/untouched forever just to make sure the memory is alive.

What's more important, love makes our life brighter, put the smile on our face and make us appreciate what we have, more.

Dahlah.geli plak tetibe je.

OK tata~

December 11, 2006

As promised. Highlights on my life for past few hours + days + weeks

Of University Application
Dec 4- And so the green application form has finally been submitted to Pn Sharifah. Been devoting my weekend (right after the Chem Exam) to the application essay though all 6 of us will get to be interviewed (insyaAllah) For the time being, all I need to do is to brush up my communication skills, my language and my utmost fear, my nervous system. I think I am suffering from a severe neurological problem that my nervous system would fail me each time I feel..nervous? Even so, I would like to thanks those who have been helping me with the "There is no cure for birth and death save to enjoy the middle" essay. Thanks Nabila and Syed for "the wisdom". Thanks Miss Nina? for erm..apapejelah.

Of Tests and Mini Exams
Dec 2,5,6 - The broken-promised-sem-3-xde-exam tests were held on those dates. They were chemistry, agama and biology, respectively (to the dates). Chemistry? Limited time (though the time is neither shortened nor lengtened LOL) Agama? Incomprehensible questions but, hey, huhu, let's keep this secret among my team rugby. Shh..Biology? Oh, what's with the Caretta caretta turtle species questions? They were so...torturing?

Of Taska Sayangku (hah..changed name to Taska Annur??? euuuwwwwhhhh...) Graduation
Dec 6 - After the torturing biology test, I had to drag myself to the LT 1 for the graduation. Although my body screamed for a nice rest on my bed, I strengthened myself to be comitted and helped them with the preparation. After we prepared the LT, we went back for maghrib. I came late because I stole the time to do my Malay essay (yeap, managed to settle it within 1 hour). Soon after I came into the preparation room and grabbed Ansor to help him changing I've forgotten all the pain and tiredness.

NotTecherLatifah(sori I forgot her name) : Okey. Cepat2 siap. Ansor tukar baju cantik!!! Cepat!!!!
Excited Ansor : Akak!! tadi mak kite tepuk kuat2 time kite nyanyi!!!
Tired Me : La...yeke?? Akak tak smpat tgk Ansor td. Akak dtg lambat..
Excited Ansor : Laaa...yeke?!! Nape akak dtg lmbt?? Kite dah abeh dah nyanyi ngan menari
Tired Me : Ala...akak lambat mandi la...takpe lepas ni ansor nak berlakon kan? Akak tgk nnt tepuk kuat2
NotTeacherLatifah : Alamak!!! Salah2!! Cepat2 tukar balik baju tadi!!!!
Terkejut Me : Aiseyh ansor arini kite maen superman la. Cepat tukar2 baju!! Camne nak pakai samping ni?? Farid!!! Samping ni dier nye belah kat tepi ke kat tgh eh?!?

LOL.Moral of the story. Believe in yourself. If sumthing went wrong, it's not u. It's the torned-samping's fault. =)

Of Lowyat and Eating Metal Sponge
Dec 9 - Managed to drag Ida along with me to satisfy my craving because I'm in serious need of an external hard disk to occupy my nearly overload laptop. Heuheuheu..Before I went to fetch Ida, Syahir texted me and luckily, he was thinking of the same place too. I parked my car at KL Sentral and took monorel to Imbi Plaza. Surveyed almost every place that sells external harddisk (yg perasan je la. didnt manage to stopby at places within our "blind spot" =P) and finally we decided to buy the cheapest external hard disk among the ones we surveyed. Though the casing was a lil bit....unattractive but, hell who cares. By the way, it differed from the other by RM8! That is just the same amount as the parking fee at KL Sentral u know? (no wonder other ppl didnt even dare to park at that place) Syahir and his curly hair (no, they are not separated =P) tagged along with us after we finally settled down at the shop. Went to Shokudo and after some serious thinking, we ordered our food. Syahir managed to make friends with mr-pat-on-the-back (LOL) and I got my mr-refill-icelemontea? Oh by the way, my tasteless-kuetiow had some additional ingredient in it. It was a piece of detached metal sponge (the one that u use to sental periuk.Yeap, that shiny metal sponge)! Oh yummy!

Of Half-day Balik kampung
Dec 10 -Went back to Muar on Sunday morning with my mom. She wanted to send the newly-bought radio to my grandma so she could spend her days listening to some ceramah and Quran recital. I know, for some reason my mom really wanted to go back and see her parents so I agreed to accompany her. I'm such a nice daughter =)) Since mom was sleepy and tired, I drove from Muar to S.Alam and had a terrifying experience when it suddenly rained cats and dogs. takut gilerrrrr....

Of Mid Valley
Dec 11 - I've finally watched CINTA!!!!!!!!! Had to strain my tears gland so it would not burst out. Brought along my lil cousins, mira and ain since ALL of my friends had watched the movie. Nuff said, wait for my next post for CINTA - movie review, and CINTA, the universal feeling. Nabila, be prepared, this is the part where I'm gonna put u in!

(a happier, smiling me)

Ade lagi ke yg tertinggal eh?

December 10, 2006


Recently I've been meeting my SMSS friends. Actually, I've always looking forward to meeting them. It's been a long time since we got to sit nicely and talk about our life. However, suddenly I've started to feel reluctant to meet them.

No, not that I'm putting them away from my life. I just could not help from the gloomy feeling whenever they question on my ex-sahabat, Ahmad F Roslan or better known as Pj@Amd. People, i'm telling u, i've been working my ass off to concentrate on my life and rub his name out of life. Being in the same college with him is enough to torture me but now you are bombarding me with those questions??

Pueng told me I'm the one who should start mending the broken friendship. Ai told me it's not good to end a friendship but do I have the power to make things better??!?!?!?! Despite me telling u he's no longer my friend, I did, texted him on few occasions. I wished him on his birthday. I asked him to my house during raya and at the end of the day I was the one who'll be dissapointed! Thus, it is clearly written on the sky that we are not meant to be friend, anymore.

He used to occupy some space in my heart and now it is left unattended. I'm just too paranoid to let myself start to trust people again. After what had happened, I always tell myself : I don't even deserve to have a bestfriend. How would I deserve a place in anyone's heart?

I've once prayed, may Allah wont tear us apart, and put us in the same college. Because I need him, and he's one of the bestfriends that I always turned to. Allah granted my wish, but I forgot to pray for our friendship so it'll last forever. Right now, all I wish is just send us far away from each other and erase the memories forever.


P/S : Too "disturbed" to write anything happier though there are lots of things to be shared out. I'll be back with a big smile once I got myself back.


November 30, 2006


My malay oral is like....soooo.......damn!

November 26, 2006

a detailed one

Ah yeah, so as promised before, a detailed post..

Major event(s) last week :

+ IUMC (Ireland University Medical School COnsortium) Briefing. It was on Tuesday when almost 180 of us had to cramp in the so-called Lecture Theater (camni ke spell dier ah?). We had to wait for about one hour because Miss Leslie were stucked in the busy traffic. Yada yada bla bla and bang boom bang. At first we were presented with the brief explanation about Ireland and the universities (Trinity Col. Dublin,Univ Col Dublin, Galway, Univ Col Cork). So there were ooohsss and aaaahhsss and we were so excited. But then reality strucked in and we were like...
"MasyaAllah susah giler weyh!"

So here goes the requirement to, at least, be shortlisted for interview :
+ Application form (LOL,obviously lah)
+ An 800-1000 words essay : "There is no cure for birth and death. Save is in the middle"

But Alhamdulillah, a little lucky me I might not have to worry about being shortlisted to the interview coz there are only 6 of us doing dentistry in Ireland so Miss Leslie said all of us will be called for interview. HOWEVER we have to take IELTS(International English Language Testing System) and score at least 6.5! I was so.....shocked and felt like comitting suicide. D'uh. Interview is in the middle of January. Say...we have to sit for IELTS at around February, which is also my English oral. Intec Student had about 1 yr to prepare for IELTS but hecckkk we have to take the IELTS before the IB exam!And the postponed Sem 3 exam shud be also around that time. And my Major IB Exam is on May. Ahhhhhh..rase cam nak giler!!!!!!

People, pray for me, please? I'd really wanna go to Ireland, Trinity College Dublin, specifically. THough there are only 6 of us, the number of university is also limited. Only Trinity Col Dublin and Univ Col Cork offer Dentistry programme so I really need some luck there...pls pls pls....

Next 2 weeks I'll be put under extreme pressure. I have Malay oral (IOC) and lots and lots of tests. I have to complete the application essay and yada yada so many lah! Tension gwe! Cepatlah cutiiiiiiiiiiii...I need a rest!

On a happier note, yesterday I went to Mid Valley. My murni mission of bringing my McB friends to mid had finally accomplished! I went to McB at 8++ am. Arrived at Mid at 10.15am. Went to watch DEATH NOTE. Had our lunch at Kenny Rogers. The best part was, meeting my ex-schoolmates!! Hoho...At first I met Daud and Timah (rattatttatt). Then Wakleng said he's in mid with afan n the others. I was so excited to meet wakleng,afan and the rest. We talked a lil bit and I had to make a move coz I need to go to my othe McB friend, Nabila's house.

Sape2 who made a promise, u'd better make that real. Or else i'll claim it at ur funeral. Hoho kejam gilerss..


Let's go back to the Movie Review!

Death Note by Shusuke Kaneko
Casts : Tatsumi Yajiwara (Light Yagami @ Yagami Raito) Keninchi Matsuyama (the creepy L) Erika Toda (MisaMisa mari-menggemukkan-rakan-anda-sbyk-5kg)

This is an adaptation story from a comic. Light Yagami finds a book called the Death Note which has the power to kill, decide the death of anyone whose name written on the book, or pieces of the book. At first he uses it to punish the criminals but slowly,he's turning into a devil (better looking devil, compared to the cartoon-looked Shinigami-the death god). The police and FBI started to hunt down the so-called KIRA, the name popped out (i dunt have any idea how they got that name)after a series of unknown murder occurred. Then,this one creepy kiddo who might be suffering for diabetes melitus because of the excessive sugar he takes daily comes into the play as the so-called World's Best Detective. Together with the police, they tried to find who is KIRA. On the other hand, Light@Kira has started to kill anybody who go against them. An all out battle between the greatest minds on earth begins, the winner controlling the world.

+ New input : Do u know L, Shinigami(the creepy so-called god of death love apples?. Ceit tipu btul
+ Ok I was so tired after I watch this movie because my mind worked so hard to solve the unconnected dots in this movie

- Can u pls, make the Shinigami looks a lil bit real?
- Entahlah

In a nutshell, citer ni cam pelik.But I'm looking forward for the sequel of this movie!

Step Up by Anne Fletcher
Casts: Drop dead hot Channing Tantum (Tyler Gage), Jenna Dewan (Nora Clark), Mario (Miles Darby)

Every second chance begins with a first step. Tyler, a gifted street dancer had to accomplish his 200 hours communityservice (ala-ala CAS lah.haha) at Maryland School of Art after going against the law. His dancing talent draws Nora attention and she asked him to replace his dancing partner since her previous partner is injured. Sparks fly between them and romance and dance progressed at the same time. One turning point, the death of Tyler bestfriend's brother, Skinny hits Tyler and Mac with the reality and Tyler realizes he need to do just one performance to make a big step up in his life.

+ The dance lah obviously. Sgt hot sgt best. Nuff said

- Plot expectable. Xde twisted plot ke ape pon

In a nutshell, this movie made me go gugu gaga and bought two dance vcd.

wah pjgnye post saye..

November 25, 2006


Ok penat
Tomorroe I'm gonna return with proper update.
This week sgt tensen.

Went to Mid today.
Brought my McB friends.
Met my SMSS friend.
I'm tired

Let's move to the groove.
Anybody wud like to step up?

November 19, 2006

the miserable weekend

Hey, I can finally walk and talk as if I'm a normal person again.

Yesterday was a disaster. I didnt know what I ate but I do know that my stomache is suffering for whatever I've eaten. I cudnt walk properly. I barely left my bed. I slept a lot. I've to cancel my plan to go out yesterday. I didnt have the guts to drive to run errand. So there goes my plan. I have certs and one 600pages book to be phostostated, a broken camera to be repaired, a list of things to be bought and all of them were left unattended.

Tension tahu!?

And dear syahir (if only u read this BEFORE u leave Australia),

Hwaaa..!! My mind is not really stable. I cudnt think of any thing when actually I should prepare a long list for u.

Tension lagi!!!

Anyway, next week, I've 1 movie and 2 dramas (soap opera to be exact) to be watched
Step Up, Grey's Anatomy epi 7 and Grey's Anatomy epi 8.
Hopefully there will be nothing big next week. (except for the university application briefing)


November 18, 2006

so sick

I'm so sick today
Couldnt even hold my head up
My tummy is killing me
Am supposed to hang out today
Chilling around, watch some movies
But I ended up being alone at home
Ergh...this is sickening

Am really hoping I am strong enough to drive

November 15, 2006

at last....

It has been one of the most painful weekend in my life but yet, I can mark this as one of the wisest move I've ever made in McB..

We got one off day on Monday and I DIDNT GO BACK. Yup, call that a sacrifice, greatest sacrifice. Starting from Sunday, I've been giving my all towards the workloads. I've been working on IA, EE, and TOK since the moment I open my eyes, early (i mean very EARLY) until I re-closed my eyes....

I'm proudly announcing..............

Business Internal Assessment - final draft submitted
Malay Extended Essay -2nd draft submitted
TOK Essay - 1st draft submitted
World Lit - completed.

Alhamdulillah.....I would like to express my gratitude towards those who've contributed directly or indirectly towards this achievement..

Monday-November 13, 2006
It's a day to remember =)

COunting days for the next Fridayy...nak balikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk


November 13, 2006


Surrounded by the academic buildings, burdened by the haunted TOK essay, loaded with piling stacks of ununderstood stastistics questions...

Have you seen this worst scene senario? Worry no more coz I'm bringing u, exclusively from an oil-palm-surrounded area, the moment of a student is on the verge of breaking down..

Brief historical events past 7 days?

Monday - Wednesday :TOK ESSAY-Gathering infos
Thursday : TOK ESSAY-Extracting ideas
Friday : Lepakness day
Saturday : Exploring Alamanda day. TOK Essay-Organising ideas
Sunday : The Jogathon escapism. Mission accomplished.
TOK Essay-Attempt to write. Failed.Changing topicS?!?!?????????????????????????
Monday : A bangun terkejut day. Laundry struggle day.
TOK Essay-testing patience while surfing the net.

Oh...I am in serious need to settle the TOK Essay so I could breath as usual again. Ya Allah, pls ease my burden and lead me to the correct path.

P/S: Nak balik!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nak tgk Grey's Anatomy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


November 05, 2006

i dun wanna go backkkkkkkkkkk

Dear Unlucky Nadzirah-oh-mampuslah-kau,

Your 3 weeks cruise has ended. Please pack up your things now and get lost from your paradise. Your hellkeeper is waiting and dont try to make them angry.

You are reminded to complete all the tasks given. Alas, we've decided to replace the taken semester exam with tests of the same level. In fact, there's no difference. Just the name.

Send in your glorious TOK essay, magnificent Business IA, wonderful Extended Essay to your guardian angels by this week. Or else u'll be sentenced to death. Yes, an immediate execution. We will never entertain any implores.

With love,
McB u have to lovin' it parapapapa


OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's the end of the world. I can feel the oxygen is lacking. I'm suffocating. Each and every second I can hear the death is creeping slowly, and the pace is getting faster. I live each and every tick of clock with fear and tears.

So a bit wrap up of my 3 weeks holiday..

1st week - Went shopping with Fuzah n Ida. Sent out the raya cards to my friends. Waiting for the postman. Tidied up my room. Cooked (hahaha)

2nd week - Raya!!! Went to visit my papa's kubur. Went back to Muar, Johor from Sunday to Friday.Had a wonderful raya.Babysit affrina maryam (bila bunyi bersatu kau milikku!!) Went to Fuzah's Afan's and Wawa's (that is all.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) houses.Beraya to PakLong's house

3rd week - Practically nothing. Been a couch potato. Lazied around my house. Went to watch THe Covenant. Cik Man's wedding. Went to Tok Busu's house.GRIEVING!

I suppose this is my last post during this precious holiday. I dont think I will be able to return next week since that s****d place is forcing the kids to run for the sake of collecting the money. So guys, I am going to suffer next 2 weeks. Hopefully I wont die.

Thanks a bunch to :

+ Ida. For the loyal company
+ Fuzah. For the motivation to come back
+ Afan.Daud.Shera.Azahari (and friends).Zahirah.Wani.Wawa.Dalila.Aizat.Hakim.Kacip.Toye.Radin. for going through the troubles to be able to attend my mini open house
+ THe family for making the raya wonderful
+ U know who u are - for being there.

eh speaking about radin, yesterday we sent CIk Man to her wife's house at Seri Petaling (markas tabligh wey). U know the name of ALL of the roads have the name RADIN.HOhoh. Jalan Radin 1, Jalan Radin 2 and Jalan Radin Yada Yada Bla Bla..hohh..

November 04, 2006

still got the blues

School's opening.

I just can't take this anymore.

Maybe I should just stay away from anyone.

Maybe I should just sit in the lonely valley.

I need something. I need SOMEONE.

November 03, 2006

a picture worth thousand words

My father's cribs

ngantuk.tido jap

kami keluarga Haron would like to wish asmah, amalin and adeeb the best of luck in german. God bless

The saddest moment,I swear!

November 02, 2006

the covenant. omg caleb is damn hot

So much for the review. It's kinda addictive, u know?

The Covenant by Renny Harlin
Casts : My damn hot Steven Strait (Caleb Danvers), Taylor Kitsch (Pogue Parry) Chace Crawford, Tobby Hermingway

It's about 4 young men who belong to a supernatural legacy (inherited from the Ipswisch family) are charged with stopping the evil force they released into the world years earlier. Another great force they must contend with is the jealousy and suspicion that threatens to tear them apart. Caleb Danver, Pogue Parry, Tyler Simms, Reid Garwin are the 4 young and HOT men with way to cool supernatural power, inherited from their ancestors. They have extraordinary power and it gets more powerful as they are getting older.Caleb, the olders among them would be the 1st one to receive the ultimate power and he has been threatened by Chase, who claimed that he's the fifth member of the covenant.

+ Kepala ho! Caleb Danvers is damn hot man! What is more, he swims. He made me go gugu gaga..~
+ Actually all 4 of them are cute too.
+ It's a less-thriller movie. Lite-lite only. I love it!
+ Tho the fighting scene is kinda ridiculous, but i can live with it. takla katun sgt~
+ First time I saw their boarding school.Tho it's kinda creepy, but the facilities are marvellous!

- Again, the throwing up scene. I thought it's only Mamat Khalid but international directors do have difficulties to make it look real eh?

Moral Value of The Covenant

1. If u know u are a good looking guy with hot bods, dont act in a swimming scene. It makes all girls go gugu gaga
2. If u have SEDUCTIVE power, CONTROL it! Go get a gorgeous girlfren or sumthing else.
3. If u have bad dreams, someone of ur covenant is creating trouble.
4. Dont misjudge ur bestfren. Sometimes they tell u the truth and u dont trust them, it hurts

mak semah's departure to Brussels, Germany

strange number : hey, what are u doing?
me : sending my aunty at klia. she's going to german. hey where hv u been?
strange number : how did u know it's me? i lost my sim card. this is my bro's number
me : i have psycic power. are u hungry? ouh, please dun eat ur simcard even if u're starving


We sent Mak Semah at KLIA just now. She's off to Brussels, German for 3 years. Her husband, Uncle Deeb is going to be Kastam Diraja Diplomat or sumthing else there.

Tata Mak Semah~ We'll be missing u

Mak Pah burst out. They've been bestfrens for life u know?

I'll upload the pixies later. The blogger's pic manager is going nuts currently


p/s : hopefully they can send me next year *fingercrossed*

November 01, 2006

rocking gubra-ly

I made a record this nite. I watched 2 movies in one night! *claps*

Now that's not the main story.

Ok fine I know I'm a bit late, but hey, better late than never kan!?

For the 1st time ever, let's have a movie review in moi blog!

Rock, by Mamat Khalid
Casts : Hasnul Rahmat, Q Haidar, and a few rockers who think they are macho enough to act in a film

+ the hero looks good
+ the storyline is stupid but i can still finish it (tho at times i did skip to other channels too)

hey, 2 is good enough

- the throwing up scene. tipu cam sial jer
- what's the real motive of this film actually?
- oh cmon, be realistic. 15 years do change people differently ok?
- it's too..stupid

Moral Value from this story
1. Girls can rock too
2. Working in post office is boring
3. But sometimes u'll be very excited when u found ur old letters. Love letters to be exact
4. Stamping letters is boring
5. An arbok can own a studio visited by rockers. Arbok and rockers can really mix together

Sepet by Mr Yasmin Ahmad
Cast : Saripah Amani, Adlin, Jason oh-so-comel

+ Amani's kebaye and hairstyle
+ Jason. *hot*
+ jgn ingat citer mlayu tak ade censored eh. Astro is very very particular now!
3 is good enough

- A girl picking up hair on a Chinese boy's nipple. wtf?
- U confessed with the wife of the man that u've been dirtying aroung that u had sex 8 times (u actually counted that???)
- Imam's family babysits prostitute's son
- A nearly repent prostitute learn how to read muqaddam without wearing tudung

Moral Value in Gubra
1. Before sending ur father in hospital, at least put a proper attire. Or else u'll end up in someone's father cloth
2. Take lots of pixies with ur current bf.Who knows when he's dead his looking-good brother might replace him
3. Choose a good and pious neigbour. They'll eventually lead u to the right path
4. Dont steal from an ustaz's neighbour
5. Love everyone. Just everyone


i miss u v w x y z

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep
I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick, strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home
And stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me
You're already a voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me
You're already a voice inside my head


One day in moi life. Am supposed to be doing my assignments but hell didnt even touch it. Went to spend fuzah @ pizza hut SACC. Luckily dpt gak lunch hour nye offer. Best2. Sangat worthy. Sgt reasonable. Rakan2 saye promote la makan kat pizza, from 11.30 am to 2.30 pm. Worthy and very fulfilling.

Ok I am not stable.
Simply because of u.

October 31, 2006

once upon a time

Today, Tomorrow & Hereafter
vocal : Nirina Zubir, OST Heart
hari ini dadaku bergetar
terguncang memilu dan mengerang
ku yakin ku tak salah
karna hatiku tak pernah dan takkan berdusta

cinta cinta cinta
aku jatuh cinta

esoknya ku pikir rasa itu
akan menghilang dengan seiring waktu
namun ternyata tak berubah
aku makin tergiur pada dirimu

cinta cinta cinta
aku jatuh cinta

dan seterusnya rasa ini selalu terjadi
dan tak pernah berkurang
hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
aku bahagia hanya bila kamu bahagia

esoknya ku pikir rasa itu
akan menghilang dengan seiring waktu
namun ternyata tak berubah
aku makin tergiur pada dirimu

cinta cinta cinta
aku jatuh cinta

dan seterusnya rasa ini selalu terjadi
dan tak pernah berkurang
hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
aku bahagia hanya bila kamu bahagia

dan seterusnya rasa ini selalu terjadi
dan tak pernah berkurang
hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
aku bahagia hanya bila kamu bahagia

October 30, 2006

raye @ muar

lalala..comeylnye muke terpenyetttt

cik din & cik lin

cik cho & family

mak semah & family

mak tip & family & the gangsters

uncle halimi & family

my family

I love my family. I love beraye with them. I love every single thing with them


October 28, 2006

open house. citer raye kat johor coming soon

Oh uh..I'm back at home! (=

Since there're too much to be typed out, i'd choose to explain things from the most recent, to the least one

My Open House

So it was totally unplanned so-called open house. At first I have this intention to gather all my friends (bak kate afan reunion) and hence I tried to find a suitable date. Since most of them are going to be stucked in the exam hall by next week, I think this is the best day so I quickly told my mom and she agreed to me. Alhamdulillah..

I texted all my friends but most of them couldn't make it. I took the trouble to send msgs to ALL friends, and I really mean ALL. Friends, enemies. U named it. Not to forget, the numbers that I've been deleted and am trying to delete from my life. And almost ALL of them couldnt make it. What I got was the same "sorila. ade hal itu la ini la..apela.." So I was a bit demotivated. However since I know that my girls are coming so I tried to cheer up and prepare for the makan2..

That morning I woke up and helped mom with the preparation. I rushed to sate samuri awan besar to buy, of course, satay. I kept on trying to tell myself that they will be arriving very very late so I dont have to prepare earlier but I failed to keep to my promise. By 1 pm I am ready with my baju-tak-kurung and also my tudung. Thanks to someone, his messages accompanied we through the 'hard moment'

As expected, the girls came so late. My bro has been teasing me, since the house is still empty eventhough the clock has strucked 2 pm. But I know, they will come eventually. I waited, patient and impatienly and I am really close to breaking down when my bro kept on asking where are my friends..

The 1st car to arrive was daud, afan and shera. I was quite happy to see them. Especially afan. was so nice being around him. Then they finally arrived. Azahari came with Zahirah and the other 2 friends (ezarif and zubai if i'm not mistaken). And the last one to arrive was kacip, radin and toye. So they have another plan that evening but wani at first told me maybe they are not going to pa's house. I was quite happy since I think if they stayed at my house longer, I'd have time to chitchat with them.

Radin and toye wanted to go to pa's house and they asked the girls to follow. Actually I really wanted them to stay longer but I know it's not fair. I kept on telling them to wait but I can see that radin and toye didnt really look comfortable and hence I finally say bye2 to them. I dont know why but I broke down and even cried to myself when they left. I really wanted to spend time with them but I know who am I to hold them back. Luckily nabila and her girls + syed , and aizat and hakim came. I held my tears and layan them as tuan rumah should treat their guesses.

Oh nabila sweet giler ko dengan syed aku nak termuntah kejap sebnanye tadi. Sorry terejek.

Nabila and her friends left since they have another house(s?) to go. So it was all me and aizat and hakim. And we talked about many things. Friends, studies and all. Every year, hakim would praise me for every single change in myself. *blushing* Hahaha..he used to be my crush back when I was in primary 3 (and 4 and 5?) haha..We were in same class for 4 years can u imagine?? From 2 Elok to 3 Elok to 4 Budi to 5 Cekap to 6 Cekap. Oh..was that 5?? So he could see my progression ever since I was little sloppy nad to a better nad. *haha* Every year he would tell something and I really appreciate it. Baju cantik ka, muka ok ka, badan kurus skit ka..huhuhu..thanks pal.

By 12pm I've settled things down but I still couldnt feel better after they left me. Erm...hopefully tomorrow I'll wake up with a better mood.

My umbrella, i really need u

John Tucker Must Die

While waiting for the guesses to arrive I hide in the room so I wouldnt hear my bro kept on teasing the empty house. SInce the internet has been quite sucky today, I finally decided to watch John Tucker Must Die. I was so dying to watch this movie and hence I care less about the poor quality of this pirated-bazar-parit-sulong-nyer-cd. JT really reminds me of someone in SMSS who's qualities really similar. Sweet-talker, hot body and all the other aspects that normal girl couldnt really resist. The story was quite OK and I really enjoyed it. Brittany Show was so not Izzie Stephens and I really couldnt imagine they she is really, Izzie Stephens.

P/S: kenape minggu ni takde grey's anatomy?????????????????????????????????????


October 22, 2006

off to muar

slamat ari raye. maaf zahir batin

October 21, 2006

ombak jahat

One of the most touching raya ads. *cries*

Blabber #1
Ever felt like losing hope when something didnt work out? Well I guess one would rather exchange his/her life just to avoid such things happen. Anyway things don't really go like what we wished. U can make an advanced, well-prepared plans but u can never change His plans. He knows what's the best for us and he won't grant us with challenges if we are not able to make it through.

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. " -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

Blabber #2
The most crucial time in our one-day life is the moment when we open up our eyes. It determines our destiny and it fixes our mood for the upcoming 23hours and 59 mins. Well, if u woke up on the wrong side, wrong time, or probably wrong ppl, the whole day will be affected. The same goes if ur supposedly-sweet-dream is shuttered by nitemare.
And this brought us to the main topic today, which is about my disturbed-sleep. My dream was intruded by a very unwanted person. I was there. In my class. Sitting besides someone. Nature's call. I went to toilet. And then, out of nowhere SHE (a long,big-nosed skinny chick) came in. And took my place. What scares me most is the significance of the dream. She had once took away my "happinesss" and I cant afford to lose someone to her, again.
I guess it's time for me to come back to the lonely valley and meet my loyal ally, the misery. Life is just unfair, eh? Cmon, I'm just about to climb up the 8th cloud. I havent really been to the cloud nine, yet.

October 20, 2006

in the kingdom of boredom

Your Birthdate: July 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate.

You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken.

And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted.

Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved.

Your strength: Your flair

Your weakness: If you think it, you say it

Your power color: Scarlet red

Your power symbol: Inverted triangle

Your power month: March

Lalala : I've got ur cards. It's really "special"
Me : Heuheu.Told u. U've got to keep that card forever
Lalala : No problem. When I'm rich i'll build a museum to put ur card in
Me : (Ciss..)
Lalala : Woops, forgot to say. Thanx
Me : U're welcome

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

I would like to express my deepest gratitude to Zahidahtul Kamaliah and Mahfuzah for taking the trouble to accompany me yesterday. *heuheuheu*

Went to, again, SOGO and MidVal yesterday. (I just cant get enough of those) This time around, it was Fuzah's and Ida's day. I didnt buy anything at SOGO. I am craving for the diesel's blouse!!! *sob sob* Anyway I bought a pair of jeans and an "isteri-lanun" blouse (says who? says fuzah) I am so happy tho. COz I am finally satisfied with my newly-bought clothes and jeans. *WeEee..*

Mom asked me to join her break-fast at PJ Hilton. She's spending her staff and nearly-resigned boss. I would like to go..but I dont really like to mingle with "older" people. What am I going to do with them?? But since I havent been to buffet for ages, I wudnt want to miss this chance...Haih..

I watched my all time favourite movie, A CINDERELLA STORY last nite. So much for the fairy tale lah kan but I digged that movie from the 1st time I saw it, until the 8th time (plus 1 last nite). Siotlah. Ye ye, I know the story is totally auta and crap but hey, give me some space and let me fly in my own fantasy land, okeyh? The story was so..sweet. The songs are wonderful, plus, mr hottie chad michael is playing football *drools* Anyway I am still waiting PATIENTLY with my 4th-time-downloaded JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE. I hope this time around, it will work.

October 19, 2006

just to keep me preoccupied

Just like the title tells, this post is just to keep myself preoccupied. (Ohoh..the NST ads is very effective, i tell u. I feel like using the word all the time) Well I managed to ask my 2 loyal companions out for shopping. So I'd better not re-sleep or else I wont be having enough time to scan through all the clothes and shoes and pants and jeans *sigh*

Oh well yesterday was my bad break-fast day. I was home alone. Mom and bro got some function in their offices so I am all by myself. Decided to fry the kuetiow and Ohh, I got a brilliant idea!! U know, back at McB, I had MURTABAK MEGI almost 75% of my puasa-days. I kinda addicted to the MURTABAK MEGI (a.k.a pizza megi) and so I just cudnt help myself from buying it, whenever I see it.So *lalala* I cooked those two things as planned and the murtabak megi looked good. But....the kuetiow...didnt turn out to be quite good.

As clock struck 7.01pm I oficially broke my fast, alone for the 2nd time, and OMG!!! The kuetiow was very..squidish? I remembered how I innocently poured air-sotong to the kuetiow and it ended up to be very...squiddish *sedih*. Lucky me I had my side-dish cum main-dish murtabak megi. *sigh*

And I put the blame, mainly on someotherone who disturbed me just before I cook. And he kinda made a statement that I'm not a good cook and of course, my fried kuetiow will turn out to be crappy. Blame on u, mister! He said I wud ended up eating McD and hey, he was quite right. I just felt like calling McD to get some porridge or whatevetheheck is for my late-break-fast. But hey, I've promised myself. No extra fast food pls.

To whoeveryouare, pls dont disturb me just before I do my cooking eh. Coz u cursed me! And I broke fast with megi while u were heavenly eating all ur delicious mom's cookings. It's not fair okay?

He hasnt received my card yet. Erms..I think I got his add right. Who to be blamed? Postman?Hey, I took all the trouble to find a suitable card for him tau. Please make sure he is able to read it!

See,people. I am, playing with the flame. I know I'll fall from the highest place ever and no one would ever catch me or at least prepare a mattress for me. But, as far as I'm concerned, he shud I say? Very close to me. To my surprise, he wrote about the same things as mine on the card. *terkujat* He came to me, INSTINCTIVELY when I really in need of sumone. He knew how to cheer me up. So I guess all I need to do now is constantly remind myself to prepare for the greatest fall, ever. *cries*

Ohoh. I dont know until when, am I able to enjoy this kind of feeling. I need sumone who can treat me more like a girl, rather than a geng. (I guess that's how HIM got into my life and stucked there for quite a sometime kot. But I know he is totally different from HIM, although they have the same structure of reproductive system. *nasty naughty me*

Oklah. I guess I have to stop blabber. Or else I'll go deeper, as deep as deep things. Before I rest my case, I would like to urge all bunch of holy crap out there, to repent and turn a new leaf. Because u are totally useless people, harmful, dangerous, hold the highest degree of stupidity, physically ugly and bunch of libidoss. Mengabehkan boreh orang je!

X Mat Rempits who attacked police stations go into hiding
X Students exposed as Mat Rempits
X Amaran keras redakan kegiatan rempit

and etc etc. banyaklah. Busuk giler ok? Now u have all spotlights on u. Arent u satisfied !? Pleaselah...bile nak ade rempiticide ni....I dont want them to end up listed as new terms in kamus dewan bahasa...........

October 18, 2006

the essence of greeting cards

The one that I've been waiting for is here. So I guess no point of waiting mr postman anymore aite? *sigh*
**Thanx.U made my bored-day =)(=**

Yesterday I went for raye shopping with miss ida. To be frank, I like to go shopping with her because she was such a wonderful shopping assistant and consultant. She'll give good comments and I guess most of the time, I listen to her advices (except for the jeans lusuh la kan..hoho) We were quite late yesterday. I picked Ida at about 11 ++ and we arrived mid at almost 12pm. Decided to go to SOGO and we took commuter to Bank Negara.

SOGO is the heaven for baju-bajus! I loike! I felt like taking all those clothes into the troley and go back home with a big fat smile! But sadly, financially, I am not allowed to do so. I bought 3 t-shirts and 1 jeans. And I am still craving for :
+ Diesel Blouse
+ One more jeans
+ .... (havent decided yet)

Due to the time constraint, we have to leave sogo and rush back to Mid. Bought a pair of PINK sandals at Mid. At first, we planned to have iftar with fuzah and fadzrul. Then, cancelled it due to the heavy rain and busy traffic. Suddenly, last minute, ida told that she didnt really like the mid's prayers' room so we decided to just go against the heavy traffic and dropby at intec. We ran ran ran (note : this is our second marathon after the first one where we had to distance ourselves from a bunch of rempits junior at ktm bank negara.eEeee..busuk giler!!) like crazy people to buy titbits since we were very sure we'll have to breakfast in the car! We went to and fro and eventually decided to buy TAKO and ice lemon tea. Hoho..

Luckily the traffic werent that bad. We departed from mid at 6.40pm and arrived at intec at about 7.15pm. We broke-fast as soon as we arrived Shah Alam roundabout..UuuUu...Alhamdulillah...

I wanna go again!!! Still not satisfied!!!!!!!!!!! Uwaaa....anyone care to be my company?

Tak fit.duk jap

jom tangkap gmbr ngan rel ketapi

ida tak nampak.cubelagi!