February 20, 2007


I'm leaving in few hours..Gaa..Guess this blog would be taking a long break (unless unexpected things happen and I need to spill that out in here). IELTS is coming this Friday (apakah ayat seperti Tora Datang Lagi pule?) and I hope I would do my best. Aihh...this is just so..freaking frightening. Pre-IRP exams is next on schedule. I dont know how I'd perform but I just hope things would go okay-okay sajerk.

Till next holiday (starts March 10, I guess?), bye blog.

February 19, 2007


...I'm so stressful?

  1. I don't feel like human
  2. I don't feel like woman
  3. I don't know who I should turn to
  4. I miss THAT old memories
  5. I miss my old shoulder(s)
  6. I haven't found a new suitable shoulder
  7. I'm turned down by my very own bestfriend
  8. My digestion tract is not functioning properly
  9. My mesntrual cycle sucks big time
  10. I don't get what I want
  11. I am not a super genius
  12. I am not skinny
  13. I am not fair
  14. I don't have someone to take care of me (d'uh)
  15. I don't have enough time to shop
  16. I have to go back to school
  17. I have to work my ass off for exams
  18. I have to wait for the uni application result
  19. I have to put on fake happy face on certain ocassion
  20. I want something that I won't get
  21. I kept on breaking my very own promise
  22. I betrayed myself

I am so sorry. I shouldn't ANNOUNCE my ungratefulness. This reflects my weaknesses and how infirm I am. Oh jiwa saya sungguh kacau.

if this is PMS, oh please.....cepat2la berlalu..............

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

February 18, 2007

I Just Can't Blog

I-Just-Cant-Blog Syndrom is attacking me.

  • Went to PD on Saturday. 'Twas fun
  • Went to Mid on Sunday (right after I got home from PD). I'm really a good actress and I can really act
  • I am seriously in need for dieting. I'd rather die for slimming rather than live in this stressful body.

I'll be back when I got myself back.

February 16, 2007

Limau Mandarin bergolek

Makhluk-makhluk oren menggegar KMB sempena Tahun Baru Cina. Life-sized limau mandarin bergolek2 di perkarangan KMB!

Oh yea by the way, my blog has been discovered by one of my classmate, Hadzirah (the one I circled in red) She insisted to have her photo posted on my blog, so yeah, Hadz, this is for u. Truth be told, she really couldnt get that "peace" hand out from her pose(S) We even had to remind her "Haaddddzzzzzzzz....jage tangannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.." But I dont have any idea how this picture terlepas. Haih...Hadzz..hadzz..

February 11, 2007

Ultimate celebration

People, come with me and celebrate

the much-awaited day

the day I fall out from love and done with the unsettled feelings

and landed into my friends' arm

I am blessed.

Syukur Alhamdulillah. My deepest gratitude to THE ALMIGHTY for showing the right path, and shone my life.

1:6 Guide us on the straight path;

1:7 The path of those whom You have blessed, not of those who have earned your anger, nor of those who went astray

Need more eleboration? Buzz me, O my buddy!!

Memories that live in us as memories are just plain hipocracy. They don't deserve even an atomic size of space in our brain. Ditch 'em, bitch bout 'em, and smile to the world. The victory is ours.

February 09, 2007

Dark Side

The darker side of me would appear if things go against my way. It bites, it stinks and I dont like it but I think it has been inserted into my genes and it would be expressed when the time comes (Zack, now do I sound like u? haha...)

Truth be told. If someone upsets me, I wont be able to talk/sms/chat/look=> communicate with him/her (by any means).One key point : this is just me. So during that sensitive period, pls bear with me. Trust me it wont last long once my temperature starts to cool down. Just now I did it again (oops I did it again) to some friends who turned me down coz they could not make it tomorrow.

Earlier this week, they told me, everything's fine, so yeah just name the place, they are on it!

Then they told me they are busy. So okay, I put aside the picnic trip to Sg Congkak plan and went ahead with the karaoke plan.

Then they told me they are super duper busy that they wont be coming after I wasted 2-3 booking calls to the Redbox Ria.

Damn it. I'm super duper tired of carrying the planning tasks.

So fine! We'll just have a plain outing with a plain planning. No need to frown, let us celebrate Wani's bday happily.

The thing is, I am SELFISH. Very-very SELFISH, indeed. To me, what I think, applies to everyone too. Since I got very upset when my birthday(s-->refer to several yrs) are left uncelebrated, tried as I might, I want to throw up any kind of celebration or appreciation on my friend's birthday. Be it, Cheap budget or high-cost party, I'll try to realize it. Money and time spent just could not cover how much I value them.

I hope I wont start to give up on them like what I did onto certain ppl. Tuhan tabahkan diri gwe..lalala~

Today I did not realised how I miss MakPah so much, until I went to her house. Mak Pah, I miss u!!
And now that I'm home, I miss Cik Pi so much!!! My good friend back on those days.

Aih...growing up is not fun at all. We kept on losing things and to start off with new things, they are just f*ckin hard.

February 04, 2007

My Driving Skills? Ade skill ke?

<- Me & Satria - 1st baby, paling sayang woo!!

I'll be getting my permanent driving license this February 23rd. Time flew very very fast I guess. However, I admit that I'm still an incompetent driver. My parking skills suck, my roundabout skills suck, everythings are so sucky.

Me & Savvy->
I love driving alone, or with someone who doesnt know how to drive. This is because I can drive the way I want to without having ppl instructing me to do this and that or even do that pressing-the-imagination-brake-action.

<-Waja-current buddy

Just now I drove my inauspicious brother to clinic. Something went wrong with his arm ka legs ka I 'm not quite sure but I know it's painful because whenever we bumped he would go "ouch",screaming silently. He was injured while playing rugby yesterday. Aihh.. I drove extremely careful whenever I saw holes or bumps, something that I don't usually do. But when
he told me how to drive at roundabout, I had a fit and drove faster, tapi tak smpai hati la nak langgar holes or bump. huhuhu..I'm not that mean..

Anyway, my bro is going to be warded since the doc at clinic referred him to SMC. I guess I should be going now or else I'll be late and Mr T would be glad to get me grounded. Yeap, people, I'll be GROUNDED, for real! Stupid hell. I dont want to be grounded since I want to go home next week. I promised Fuzah to go for bowling. Besides, Wani's bday is on Tuesday and I havent got her anything yet. CheMi's back in Malaysia so I guess next week would be a good week to go back.

Me & Perdana

February 02, 2007

That's Why I Don't Like To Watch Bersamamu

Self-taken pic during interview. Gelabah2 pun sempat lagi..hehehe

Sidang pembaca blog sekalian, I'm so sorry for the uber cacat previous post of Boyz-II-Men Concert. It was written on last Wednesday and I've just completed it 5 mins ago and I had lost the momentum lah kan. So it's a lil bit "hang" cam computer yang dah overload sbb takde ram 1GB cam Zack. *huu....

I am watching the program Bersamamu at Tv3 right now. Shitto this is why I dont like to watch this kind of show. Not that i'm cold-hearted ke insensitive ke ape. The problem is I'm too sensitive that I might burst into tears looking into the life of the unfortunate ones. They are currently showing the life of En Michael Soosai (mengapakah nama ini sungguh familiar skali?) who suffers from physical disabilities (his limbic system ke apetah) and had to work his ass off to feed his family which inclusive of 2 disabled children. See how life challenges us? I know the program has been exaggerrated here and there to add the melancholic effect but still, the story of their lives themselves are enough to make me ponder and be greatful on how great my life is. Teruk kan, feeling happy over other people's difficulties?

Flood victims in Parit Sulong, Johor. Taken during my visit to kampung on the last Eid-Adha. Me, mom and mak tip decided to stopby at the school tgk2 dorg jap..

Normally I dont feel this sad because before this I they brought up the issue of the life of the orphans and their desire to have a taste of living in luxurious life. This is because they are sheltered in orphanage home which MAY has been receiving sponsors (especially lepas dah masuk Bersamamu) from the so-called generous Malaysian who publicize their replica cheque in the news.*sigh.(Read : I may not be the one who should criticize them because me myself hasnt contributed much since my tokens put in the 2004 Tsunami and Johore Flood victim funds are not that much as compared to the amount on the big replica cheque. I admit that) But this time around, my heart is touched by the luahan hati of Mrs Letchumy (Mr Michael's wife) on her hope to see her 2 children are able to at least walk because they cant afford to send them to physio centres ke ape. Come to think about it, who would be taking care of them if one day God took both Letchumy and Michael's life? Their eldest son, Edwin is just 13-y-old whom I believe is too young to shoulder the responsibilities. Where would they end up?

Enough of those stories. Let's just hope their life would be better. Pray, people if u cant contribute physically. At least ur prayers would be heard by The One and He loves un-selfish people who prays and seek His guidance and aid . Anyway my life has never been interesting. I went for KMB Bowling Frenzy at Sunway Pyramid just now. Joined for the sake of nak balik rumah coz it would be easier and nearer to my house. Anyway managed to get one strike so it was not bad, considering the fact that I'm totally suck in rolling balls and keep it safely on the lane, pointing towards the pin. Coz they always end up in longkang. After almost 6 months (or more??) I left this game, I guess I played well. Me and my slow motion, distorted-terbalik hand and kaki terkepit style. Ugly but effective.The ball rolled smoothly on the lane until they hitted the pins. I got 16th place out of 34 persons who competed.

Gambar sekadar hiasan..suatu ketika dulu.. *_*

I handed in all those World Lit, Extended Essay and Theory of Knowledge essays and right now I should be concentrating on my studies and IELTS. I've been hearing ppl receiving offers from Uni. Haish..good for them. I hope my turn will be coming up soon! Anyway, though I am worrying about Uni, studies and other related stuff, I still couldnt get my eyes off the Korean drama :Full House. Hehehe, yeap ppl. I'm REVISING the stories because before this I fast-forwarded some of the parts just to ensure I wont be staying up for another 1 night and darken my eyebag!

Rain/Bi..Aimi calls this pic gambar peluh! Naa...that's yucky. Call it CUTEY, instead. Will ya?

I guess I'm moving on well. Things have not been good lately so I decided to do what I always do..Step back and wait until the right time to step in back! I tried my best to produce more endorphine and achieve the state of euphoria. I'm sick of feeling leftout, sedih2, longing for my frens. Be it, no fren or many frens, I will still survive. If I'm bored, I have long list of movies and dramas to be watched. No point of contacting and remembering those who dont even remember my name! (exaggerrate pula..aww..) I'm grateful for what I have now. My REMAINING close friends and my assabiqun-wassabiqun team rugby cum dinasour keeper friends, they are all what I cherish right now.

P/S 1; Congratulations to my dear friend, Zahidahtul bzwoman Kamaliah Saharun upon passing the driving test! I'm counting the days for u to be my driver!!!
P/S 2 ; I'm wishing ALL THE BEST to the one who dedicates his blog to moi, Ahmad curlymon Syahir Mohd Soffi upon becoming Med-student in OZ. Be a good student and good doctor, will ya??
P/S 3 ; Good luck to my dearest babe Zahirah zapin Md Yusoff with her dance performance which I believe would be on her 20th bday (20 zack!?!?!!? no more --teens!!!) Hope u wouldnt trip and hope u would attract someone handsome and rich with ur tarian lemah gemalai~~
P/S4 ; To Epul Eu Jin, keep on reading my blog, will ya? She would be very lonely without ur shoutouts~
P/S ; I love all of u! Ta~~