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August 02, 2017

I left the 20s

Jaga-jaga. This is the kind of post that was written in unstable mental state with no proper train of thoughts.




You've been warned.











So...I've turned another year and left...the 20s. On the day itself, I was attending a conference, but yet I still get to celebrate my birthday with my favourite people. I am thankful to Allah for the chance and the space and His mercy.


Had a good breakfast, went for a good lunch, and finished with a good dinner.  I was going on a full eating spree mode last Sunday. I didn't have a balloon nor a cake nor a candle, but I got to spend time with those who cared, so that mattered more, innit?


Actually I'm running out of words to what to say. So imma stop here and write a better post.

Apelah masalah aku ni pun tak tau.

But just wanna say I am happy, I might have cried once during my birthday but that was it. I was happy generally.

Dahlah. Bye

July 27, 2017

How Do I Live Without You

From handling A to B to C to D to E to F to G to H to I to J.....probably going on to Z, you were mostly there. How would I manage without you?


This is an appreciation post - kepada yang penyabar melayan.

I hope I still can survive should I lose you anyhow in the future (which I really hope I don't have to)

July 23, 2017

Hey, I still love you, okay?

It has been a one tough week, mentally and financially mostly. Began my week with preparation for Eid celebration at my workplace. Volunteered myself to make a 2-tier pulut kuning. Never did that before, but managed to pull it off albeit being a bit sloppy here and there.


The celebration went well and very festive in my opinion. The team did well. There were slight unhappy tragedy but I don't want to go there again and talk about it. I woke up at 5 that day after a night of busting my ass making the chicken rendang and shaping the pulut, went to and fro making sure everything went right and yet some people won't just understand. Just for that one day. Takpelah, kita move on dan jangan dikenang semula.


My 2-tier pulut kuning, with eyeless duckies and comots sana sini 


Later that day after the Eid celebration, I received a bad news about the house I rented out. I jinxed myself huh? There were  problem with the water tank, and the water dripped off the ceiling, wetting the bedroom and the desktops! Later the spilled water went bad enough to cause short in eletricity and it went black out. The tenants went berserk. I went panic. What could I do? I was helpless.


After giving some tips that I got from my previous tenant things got under control. It happened again today, fortunately not as bad as last Wednesday and the plumber fixed it, hopefully things are okay now. That's my 400 gone just like that.


Last but not least, my car was knocked from behind last Saturday. It was at traffic light, while we were not moving I wonder how it happened but the boy claimed he passed out. I was dumbfounded, just got back from my side job on my way to Cikpi's house and that happened. But thank God at least the knocker came from a family that can afford paying for the damage. We ended up going to the workshop and it takes a few days before I can have my baby back :(


I was quite worried being carless, how am I going to work....? For some reason I went mengadu to Fuzah..because I normally have some go-to person I talk to that I know will reply me instantly like Wany. I mean, I have few good friends around but not all would reply to my text messages that quick because well, people are busy living their lives. Thank God, Fuzah's car is with her brother and he's not using it so I got myself a car to drive around these few days..



All in all, I lost almost thousand ringgits for some damage control...and mind you it has been 40 days since my last pay. Thank God for side jobs.


I was a bit depressed this morning. Refused to wake up early and just wanted to lie down. But I pushed myself to do things.


Despite all that happened He still reminds me that He still loves me. And that dugaans and onak duri that He placed onto me is because He just wanted to test me, for He knows I can accept the test. He didn't leave me alone.

He lent me shoulders to lean on and listening ears to calm me.

He sent Fuzah and Mamat to lend me car.

He sent Dr Y to give me the extra money from the side job that I supposed to get.

He tested me with accident so that at the same time I can send my car to be fixed and repainted.


Went for a briskwalk and slow jog this evening to ease my mind out.

May tomorrow comes and bring a new hope. Ya Allah, please ease everything. 

July 17, 2017

A lil bit relieved....

Urusan tukar masuk penyewa is completed, Alhamdulillah. Out with the old, in with the new, insyaAllah. To avoid the trouble of getting to and fro Shah Alam-KL countless times I resorted for an agent to deal with bits and parts of the process.


With the new tenants, I prepared an agreement making sure all of us are at the same page and took a deposit too, albeit a bit too low from standard. So glad I had extra pair of helping hand to deal with the contracts and explaining to them because I really really really hate doing that. Things like this make me so grateful for that hands❤ Tsk. Sebak nak nangis rasa dia! Tapi sengal ubi jugakla rasa macam kena trap dengan budak-budak ni because I ended up providing washing machine, curtains and standing fan for them. With that rental rate, niat aku nak sewakan rumah kosong je lepastu pepandai la kome hidup. Tapi apakan daya hatiku tisu kesian tinggi nasib ada orang sound takyah nak bagi lelebih 😅


A few more things to settle at the house (boleh pulak kipas dia tetiba rosak lepas budak-budak ni masuk), and I can focus on the other 2 things. Can't wait to beautify my own space soon walaupun sekangkang kera je ( or mungkin anak kera. Kahh) But the thing is, I went to Ikea to find curtains for my rented house and ended up hating it. Sesak nak mampus and I don't find myself enjoying the place at all. Apakah sebab aku bitter jugak sebab semuorang datang nak menghias rumah bersama keluarga tercinta. Kahhh..Or maybe feel tak sampai lagi sebab kunci tak dapat lagi. We shall wait and see. I ended up at Jusco Maluri and found what I've been looking for. Happy dan tenang!

July 07, 2017

Percaya Pada Rezeki


 Aidilfitri, this past few years have been dull for me because at certain age, you either enjoy one being a child, or being with your partner or your own child. Stuck in this age and this situation, I chose to just stay low before. But this year I have decided to just embrace my life, and just live the fuck outta it. Invited a few friends over my house last night. So glad my plan went well, despite having a lil panic attack when the chicken rice was all gone when only half of the guests has arrived. Underestimated the numbers actually but managed to do a quick fix so all was okay. Maybe ada la makan tak puas sikit gitu.


The past few weeks, I got really worried of my tenant quitting the rent, in the middle of me buying a new property and planning to travel. It's like everything coming all at once. But luckily it happened around Ramadhan, and I managed to calm myself down a lil bit and strategized ways to earn more.


Despite the hiccups here and there,  I have found a new tenant insyaAllah moving in next week, and let's hope things go smoothly after this. It's gonna be a lil bit tough this coming few months until at least end of the year, but I have learned to percaya pada rezeki, and leave it to Him to pull me through this test. All I need to do is to work a lil bit hard more, so I can enjoy a lil bit later.


The same goes to almost all situation and worries I am having now. Percaya pada rezeki, percaya pada Dia. For He has planned everything for me, and I shall just go with the flow.


Syukur, ya Allah for what I have in my life now, and will always try to remind myself to trust Your plans whenever I feel down or lonely.