February 11, 2016


He is the kind of guy who has a very kind, caring and protective heart. I used to like him since long long time ago but at one point I knew that we cannot go more then just friends.

For some reasons I avoided him that one time. Feeling some kind of guilt and kinda missing having a go-to person like before I tried to rekindle our friendship.

Still the same guy who would make sure I'm safe inside the house before he leaves everytime he sends me home. I was kinda unwell today and was coughing like crazy when he came to my workplace to send something and he immediately told me to get it checked and get an MC. I told him about a guy who have been bugging me and out of 3 guys I shared the story with, he was the only one whi suggested punching the guy. Although, other person, of course has been checking on me almost everyday asking me whether he's still bugging me or not. Kihkih.

Entah kenapa tonight I felt like writing about him. May Allah blesses his soul and ease his way in whatever problems he is having. I genuinely sayang him and wouldn't want him to get hurt because he has such a kind heart. May Allah guides him to the right path. With all my heart, I really hope he gets the happiness that he deserves.

February 10, 2016


He took my fingers, ran through my nails and flicked his fingers on my nails.

"Tengok ni kuku panjang.."

Further checked on my nails and examined my fingerbed

"Ha..ada kotor-kotor ni"
"I masak apa tau"

I tried to cover up.

"Okayla..balik ni i potong kuku"
"Potong esok la..potong kuku elok hari Isnin, Khamis, Jumaat"

My kain got stucked on the seat while I got out the car and I almost tripped. Almost. I was kinda sleepy kinda unfocused at that time. In the car I heard him nagging I thought I might have broken the thing ke apa.

"You ni hati-hati la nak keluar ni. Ngantuk ke?"
"Sorry-sorry. Patah ke benda ni"
"Benda ni tak kisah la, terkeluar boleh masuk balik. Patah boleh biar pasang balik. You tu, jatuh nnt..bla bla .."

Kinda amused to see him like that. I think that was the first time seeing him nagging like that. Sent him a flying kiss and shut the door sambil dia membebel. Kahkah..

A text came in that read "please take care dear"

Kahkah. So funneh. 

February 04, 2016

Perempuang menghave-have

Dilema perempuan mengada-ngada ialah, lagi jumpa, lagi rindu teruk. Tak jumpa kalu, boleh behave duduk elok elok je. 

Betul la dia ni mandrem iols. Sebelum ni takde pun clingy mengada-ngada camni. I was such a tough person. 

Now let's remind myself I not a wonderwoman?

February 02, 2016

A costly mistake

It was quite late that night. I just got back from Zawara Bukit Jelutong because I was craving for Churros. Went there after my night job. Had a cup of coffee which I don't usually do except if I need to workout. I was quite tired.

Right after Hicom exit I sped a little bit like I usually do. Saw the motorcycle already but in a split second I heard a loud bang. Feck. 

So I hit a motorcycle, yet again. Thank God he was not harmed. I really didn't see that coming at all. I had my signal. Entahlah up until now I still think it wasn't 100% my fault. I got out my car. Another 3 motorcylists helped the guy out. I kept on apologizing to the guy. He was reluctant to see my face or tell me what he wanted. I was alone. Almost broke down into tears and finally we exchanged numbers and the guy let me drive home that night. 

I reached home and he called. He was calmer. Told him I'll pay for the damage. Went to shower, and he called again. Started to have weird feeling and I put my guard up. He asked me where do I live bla bla and the last question - "dah kawen ke" to which I immediately replied "dah" without thinking long. Kahkah. I heard him saying "ala..dah kawen pulak" This is the second time I hit a motorcycle and both times also the guys ended up being weird. Maybe I should tone down my apologetic face, but I needed something to calm them after causing problem to them aite? 

The mistake costed me almost 500. Takpelah ada la tu mana-mana gaji tak berkat tu. Iols redha dan pasrah.