September 28, 2017


Taking a break from the serabutness for a while, so here I am.

A few things going on my plates this coming few weeks. Office's family day. Expected to receive the key in a week or 2 so I need to start thinking about renovations. Going for my trip at the end of the month. So many. So money. This month alone my expected expenses went double from my usual. Dengan travel lagi, roadtax mati lagi, new property lagi. Pergh. Such a nervewrecking month, this is.

At the moment I'm getting headache with planning of the family day. You see, if budget is not a concern, I could be buying anything, no worries. However, we have to plan wisely, and try to make this as festive as possible. So that's a bit stressful. Hopefully all goes well.

On the other hand, the trip is pretty much 70% complete in the itinerary and bookings, for my part that is. Just I myself need to prepare a few more stuffs. Bag dah ada. Jacket pakai apa ada je. Baju pun lebih kurang la. Around 1 month to go before we finally go for the trip. Belum ada excited nya lagi sebab tengah serabut dengan macam-macam. Lagi seminggu dua nanti after family day datang la feel dia kot hopefully.

Oklah dah ada cleaners nak vacuum bilik

September 11, 2017

A little here and there update

Been a while since I last posted here. Well, nothing much to be updated anyway. Since my last my post nothing much happened. Received my car around 5 days after the accident, all shiny and almost new. I was so happy because I've always wanted to do some facelift to the car but kept on delaying it because of money issue and there were just too much to be done. Due to the incident, at least half of the damage was paid by the other party. Ada hikmah disebalik kejadian kan? 

Another one and a half month before I'm travelling. Half of me is pretty excited because I've always wanted to go there, but half of me is a little bit half-hearted because emm...something. Still looking for a decent shoes for the trip...thinking of buying a comfortable one but that would be  a little pembaziran isn't it? Already bought a do I still want to spend on shoes? Hmm..we shall see. Mana tau ada rezeki terpijak boleh beli kasut kan. 

Yet to receive the key to my studio. Dah tazabar nak renovate ni (walaupun duit nan hado, oh please la lepas nak keluarkan EPF ni) Expected to have it by the end of this month. At the same time I'm hoping my EPF application will be approved. Kalau tak sesak juga la nak travel nak pakai duit, nak renovate lagi. Mau ada nanti mampu beli kipas dengan lampu je kat studio tu kang 😩

That's all for now I guess. Will update more when I have the time. 

August 02, 2017

I left the 20s

Jaga-jaga. This is the kind of post that was written in unstable mental state with no proper train of thoughts.

You've been warned.

So...I've turned another year and left...the 20s. On the day itself, I was attending a conference, but yet I still get to celebrate my birthday with my favourite people. I am thankful to Allah for the chance and the space and His mercy.

Had a good breakfast, went for a good lunch, and finished with a good dinner.  I was going on a full eating spree mode last Sunday. I didn't have a balloon nor a cake nor a candle, but I got to spend time with those who cared, so that mattered more, innit?

Actually I'm running out of words to what to say. So imma stop here and write a better post.

Apelah masalah aku ni pun tak tau.

But just wanna say I am happy, I might have cried once during my birthday but that was it. I was happy generally.

Dahlah. Bye

July 27, 2017

How Do I Live Without You

From handling A to B to C to D to E to F to G to H to I to J.....probably going on to Z, you were mostly there. How would I manage without you?

This is an appreciation post - kepada yang penyabar melayan.

I hope I still can survive should I lose you anyhow in the future (which I really hope I don't have to)

July 23, 2017

Hey, I still love you, okay?

It has been a one tough week, mentally and financially mostly. Began my week with preparation for Eid celebration at my workplace. Volunteered myself to make a 2-tier pulut kuning. Never did that before, but managed to pull it off albeit being a bit sloppy here and there.

The celebration went well and very festive in my opinion. The team did well. There were slight unhappy tragedy but I don't want to go there again and talk about it. I woke up at 5 that day after a night of busting my ass making the chicken rendang and shaping the pulut, went to and fro making sure everything went right and yet some people won't just understand. Just for that one day. Takpelah, kita move on dan jangan dikenang semula.

My 2-tier pulut kuning, with eyeless duckies and comots sana sini 

Later that day after the Eid celebration, I received a bad news about the house I rented out. I jinxed myself huh? There were  problem with the water tank, and the water dripped off the ceiling, wetting the bedroom and the desktops! Later the spilled water went bad enough to cause short in eletricity and it went black out. The tenants went berserk. I went panic. What could I do? I was helpless.

After giving some tips that I got from my previous tenant things got under control. It happened again today, fortunately not as bad as last Wednesday and the plumber fixed it, hopefully things are okay now. That's my 400 gone just like that.

Last but not least, my car was knocked from behind last Saturday. It was at traffic light, while we were not moving I wonder how it happened but the boy claimed he passed out. I was dumbfounded, just got back from my side job on my way to Cikpi's house and that happened. But thank God at least the knocker came from a family that can afford paying for the damage. We ended up going to the workshop and it takes a few days before I can have my baby back :(

I was quite worried being carless, how am I going to work....? For some reason I went mengadu to Fuzah..because I normally have some go-to person I talk to that I know will reply me instantly like Wany. I mean, I have few good friends around but not all would reply to my text messages that quick because well, people are busy living their lives. Thank God, Fuzah's car is with her brother and he's not using it so I got myself a car to drive around these few days..

All in all, I lost almost thousand ringgits for some damage control...and mind you it has been 40 days since my last pay. Thank God for side jobs.

I was a bit depressed this morning. Refused to wake up early and just wanted to lie down. But I pushed myself to do things.

Despite all that happened He still reminds me that He still loves me. And that dugaans and onak duri that He placed onto me is because He just wanted to test me, for He knows I can accept the test. He didn't leave me alone.

He lent me shoulders to lean on and listening ears to calm me.

He sent Fuzah and Mamat to lend me car.

He sent Dr Y to give me the extra money from the side job that I supposed to get.

He tested me with accident so that at the same time I can send my car to be fixed and repainted.

Went for a briskwalk and slow jog this evening to ease my mind out.

May tomorrow comes and bring a new hope. Ya Allah, please ease everything.