June 18, 2006

balik dah

Zack, I Miss You lah..


Well as expected, nothing can be done at home except the facts that I got myself a new shoes, new pendrive, and get those questionnaires photostated

I'll be shooting to McB in 1 hour time I guess
So walla, time to say goodbye

Last kiss ~

P/S: am going for ayu's bday party b4 going back.for the sake of kawan kan...

June 15, 2006

bad results

Sometimes when you fall from a very HIGHHHHHH place, you are hurt so much that you feel like giving up life. Right now I am seriously suffering from the pain that I created it myself.Well as expected my results are dissapointing.Terribly dissapointing.I dun know how am I going to do my Uni application =(

I can feel the dissapointment of my result but the outcome is worst than it is supposed to be.In sem 2 I was a lazybump and I admit that it.

Rasa sangat nak menyesal sampai nak mati tau..

Somebody out there please help me out?

This week we are only allowed to go back after 2.Mak has told me to "dah lepas ni jangan balik tiap2 minggu dah"
Oh that is soOo...hurm..ntahlah

July will be the busiest month.1-8 July is our postponed sports carnival. The next week is our Minggu Penghayatan Islam n the next next week is my Kem Sastera thingy.I'll be only going back on the last week of July...Abg's engagement is on 1st July n I am going to do anything as long as I can attend that precious event

My inferiority complex worsen la.I feel like everyone is looking down on me.

June 11, 2006


It's the end of the world and I'm going to hell in 2 hours time, I guess

Havent packed anything.I just.....dun wanna go back to that place

Argh...I hate myself for not being strong, committed, and dedicated.I also hate myself for letting this hatred thoughts controls me.

Help me? Anyone out there do have the ability to help me out? Coz I just cant stand this feeling anymore (paiseyh layan lagu plak)

Anyway my holiday was a fun holiday.Byk gler duit kuar n membazir banyak gler ok??
I had fun with my girls, my frens.I went back down the memory lane n I seriously miss all those memories

To zack, thanx for being a good co-pilot n rakan membazir n penasihat shopping.
p/s:duit nak crop dah gune utk beli benda bukan2 T_T, takpe next time aku janji, mesti aku beli gak crop kat zara tu.....btau tau kalo zara ade sale >.<

To fuzah : thanx gak sudi turun jauh2 n join us.Whatever happens, be strong beb.

To semua2lah : i love u all

To so-called bad boys : grow up.stakat merokok cam nak mati tapi perangai tak macho langsungg.Sumpah menyampah gler tgk prangai korang.Umur dah 19thn lah!!!!!!!!!!!!! budak umur 17thn lagi menyeronokkan dari korang.

Oklah.So gonna stop bergoyang2.Nanana..shakira shakira..Tahi2..B*bi2..Sebab kat sane I automatically surpress my kebiadapan demi menunjukkan imej muslimah yg tak la sejati sangat~~

U r not going to see my true smile thruout this 1 week.Plus, we are not allowed to go back becoz of the sports carnival thingy.Shit la weyh..

Slamat mati~~

June 10, 2006

part of us..

Y can they just throw away their stupid childish attitude n just mix up with other ppl??Who do they think they are? Whattaheck???

They think they can live with their bad boys clan forever?? Huh stupid stupid sangat2
To anyone who came across the sains slangor so-called bad boys of 0004, run for ur life.Coz they are totally useless fuckin creature who's presence is very annoying n irritating.Jangan la kawan ke kawen ke ngan diorang neyh.Buat merana hidup jer!

Anyway the reunion is quite ok la.The turnout is..quite OK.Except for the presence of bad boys who did not want to pay because they came just to meet up each other but ended up eating lots n lots.F*ck la wey.Abisla makan tak berkat~

Met with my frens..Hwa hwa..I miss themmmm sangat2...Berbuat gila berjoli gembira.I was so happy to see them.Each of them.Each faces are very important to my life.They are the colours of my life n I love them~

Towards the end we took pixies.Then talked with the f5 junior dah beshar besharrrrr dah....I think they are 100X better than the bad boys.

Thanks to ida,z, n fuzah who took the trouble to cook the food.U r superb la my girls.*Clap clap clap*.Then to bad epul n whoever involved directly or indirectly.Thanks a lot.

I'm too tired to type anything.Plus I am so freakin piss off dengan setan2 brengset itu.Let da pixies + short video do all the talkings

June 09, 2006

fasi ilim

Without realising,actually many people do have SPLIT PERSONALITY.Including me, obviously.The smile I put on my face whenever I'm with my bestfrens is umsimilar with the smile I've shown at McB.I tend to not showing the true self of me when I dun feel comfortable to do so.

Hence when I got the chance to show my true self I feel relieved.A superb undeniable feeling of relieved no one wud ever understand it (yeah..I'm exaggerating). Met my ex-schoolmates at ILIM@Bangi. The skool called us to be the so-called facilitator to help our dear juniors.All of them are mostly my close fwens so I feel vary happy to spend time with them.Had our crazy times together bergoyang2~~


Went there and do almost nothing.Just watch them do something.Help them a lil bit..
Then had fun.Eat.Sleep.And at the end we got cert n rm50! Wahahaha thanks a lot pn roslina n smss!!!! Felt guilty,seriously! Thanx a lot anyway

big dan n the gang.

Surprisingly wan (bella's bro) still remember me n he knew I took perez as my pet bro.Hehe.Old story.Perez is supposed to be in this batch but he was expelled from my skool when he was in f3.I still remember the date, July 30,2004.Where I had my worst day on my bday.I did ask him but we were not oficially declared pon.But I've promised myself he's the one n only person I'd take as my pet bro.Even if he doesnt want.Seriously.I may have many2 ppl in my usha2 list but in my heart there's only 1 person will remain in my heart.Paiseyh terjiwang plak..Perez did come to ILIM but didnt get the chance to meet him..I wonder how he looks now..

Sadly it's only a 3-day chance to enjoy with them and I have to get my ass back at "homestay perkampungan jawa" bak kate syahir.Tsk..My work is not done.Lantak.I dun want to think bout it nemore.

me n epul cacat

Tomorrow is our reunion.Thinking of the turnout is nerve-wracking.I dunno who's coming n who's not.Hopefully everything will be fine.Thanks to Pn Roslina for providing many things for us.I know u love us all n we love u sangat2!! Infinity n forver.Best teacher forever2 n ever2.

SMSS won the best all-rounded school in last PPM.Hey, partly, it's our share too, okay? Coz the points are accumulated n it takes the achievement of school in 2-5 years time! So,I feel proud for u

Erm..this post is i-miss-smss version..So anyone who r not from this school, just bear je la with my jiwang words

June 07, 2006


Do we have to tolerate with people around us? Satisfy them? Huh..

When u are in a community which is very different from what u are..How am I supposed to react? Just be myself n face the music? Or I have to behave exactly like they want to?

Huh..tensen tul ade cultural difference ni.I'm a person who usually takes other ppl words' into matter n I am soOoOoo disturbed when ppl perceived me negaively (tho it happens all the time~)

But now I think I have to learn to close my ears, open my eyes wide n move on with my life. So what if I'm not a wanita melayu terakhir? So what if I like to go out with my girls? So what if my frens r ROCK?. So what if we love to go berjoli? so what????

I live in this city since I was born.I've been nurtured in this environment.I grew up n see the hustle bustle of the city,see ppl wearing clothes like this n see ppl living life like that.I absorbed all those things I've watched, blend it n live my life according to my own prescription.How can u expect me to change in a blink of eye,especially in a place where I cant wait to get my ass home each day n every weekend?

If I have to be hypocrite all the time, I think I shud have just commit suicide just like "Sensei" in Sosuki Natsume's Kokoro. I hate pretenders!!!!!!!

June 06, 2006


happy bday...erms...anyone also caN AH..

got nothing to say...

i got myself a new baby..nokia3230 aja...gue bkan nye hi-tech nye addicts..i'm satisfied as long as it matches my taste =)

to my ex-baby 3200, take care.Thanx 4 being with me thru ups n downs.U've done so muchhh..

~~ tribute to 3200 baby ~~

June 05, 2006

futsal futsal

they rock my sock~

Yeah..I love my girrrlllssss..~
Yesterday we had our healthiest girls day out. The plan went smoothly except for the *tuuttuut* part..nyehehe.

Early in the morning, after several trials to wake Z n Nadiah up, we shot off from my home at about 8.20.Picked up Wawa at Intec n went to Tasik Shah Alam. Wani arrived a bit late coz "Che Mi kate lift tmpat dier rosak" we moved on with our 1st agenda. "Party Breakfast" at a gazebo there. Wani brought fried maggi n rice n me,fuzah,nadiah n z prepared tuna n egg sandwich, the nite before. We had our time together,took pixies as always, reminisce reminisce the days..Hehe..


bday girlsss

ex maju

Then approx at 11 we went in the Wetworld.haha..joli ronggeng2 mandi like lil kids. We made havoc at the slide haha...perempuan2 tua bermain mandi dengan gembira tak maluu~~~ We had fun....until my pants is torned when I slid down the big gelongsor..tsk.Embarassing siak..I dunno how many people have witnessed my pink tuutt..hehehehe...


Then..the peak of enjoyment...futsal~~~ We went to International Sports Planet at ss16.Hehehe..met Kacip there n he was so surprised to see us..

Kacip : Ish..korang buat pe kat sini??
Me : la..buat pe lagi main futsal la..
Kacip : Main futsal ke? btul ke? Sape je ade lagi?
Me : Ramai la..wani che mi fuzah nadiah ida smua smua ada
Kacip : Ha..yeke??

Haha..we moved to a bit hidden turf coz there were kacip n his intec frens nearby. Malulah nak tunjuk skill in first appearance kan.Haha.We divided into two, black n white team.Hehehe..First 10 mins, we were so kelamkalibuthuruhara.8 people (except the goaly la of course) went chasing one tiny ball.Running here n there (excited) laughing2 summore (to our foolness). Hahaha..we were lacking of stamina ler..first 10 minutes slowed down already.Pancit~~ Then..we got better until the end of the game.My team won!!! Nyeeahahaha..Thanks to our active n quick defenders @ midplayers ida n che mi. I scored 2 goals, chemi,fuzah n z each scored 1 goal..nyeahaha..N the opponent scored 1 goal.Hahaha..try harder beb~~ We were so exhausted n tired n bla bla bla. All face went red n we were running out of stamina inthe end of the game.
But we were so satisfied with our 1st attempt.Even made the decision the make this event monthly akaka ye la tuh~~

winning team, z (striker/keeper>, chemi (mid/keeper), me (SCORER haha, striker,keeper), fuzah (striker/keeper), ida (defender/keeper)

losing team..akaka, nadiah,wawa,nadia,wani,nadz,syikin

Then we went to Che Mi's house for Zohor n Asar prayer.Had our "hi-tea" at Giant 13 yum yum yummy. Hehehehe...

All in was a great attempt to have a healthy day out! =) =)


Eh eh..I have one thing...REMPITisme menular di Shah Alam.I hate hate hate hate hate hate them all. On our way back, we were disturbed by Setan Setan Rempit.Euwwwwwww...They are like pests n bugging n benci gler siut. BENCIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
I've ordered Z to make an ANTIREMPITicide so we could just kill them, make them suffocate n waaa...see them suffer.Yes..yes...yes....killkillkilldiediedie benci


June 03, 2006

grendha sandal

Went to MidVal last nite..It took us half-an-hour before we could get parking..caish..

my favourite pink grendha

Well,thanx to Studio R MidVal for realising my dream..nyehehehehe.Got my sandal oledi..Nyehehehe..I'm lovin it.So nice,simple n sweet.Hehe..tho' I love shopping,the reality is I'm very choosy n fussy especially when it comes to buy shoes.Hehehe..Plus..I'm very saving tau, especially when I dun have lots n lots of money, and I'm saving my money to buy other mom? huh..she wanted to "train" me berjimat-cermat amalan mulia..tehehehe.But she doesnt give good examples tho..ceyt..she always come with the reason "mak takpe,mak dah keje..".Ouh ok fine mommy, u win~

my favourite nike with oh-so-cute tapak >.<

June 01, 2006

a carrot,an egg and a cup of coffee

Carrot, Egg or Coffee?
This is too good of a life lesson not to pass on!

A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee...You will never look at a cup of
coffee the same way again.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how
things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make
it and wanted to give up. She was tired of figuring and struggling. It
seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and
placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she
placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she
placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the
carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and
placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a
bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see."

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did
and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to
take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the
hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the
coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter
then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same
adversity ... boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went
in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the
boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile.
Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after
sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The
ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling
water, they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your
door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which am I?
Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt
and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the
heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a
financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and
stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and
tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water,
the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it
releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things
are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you
elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you
a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, and enough hope to make
you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The
brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go
forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.