July 31, 2007

A 20-y-old me

Thanks to Fuzah, Wani and CheMi.
Thanks for the seafood-treat and the outing.
You made my day =D
I Love u all to bits

And those who wished/called/YM-ed/texted/testi-ed
You guys are much appreciated.
Thanks for remembering =D

Ida, I miss you~
Zack I miss miss you
Why-lah kite takde teleport/pintu doraemon.

My 20th bday wasn't that bad.. =D
Plus..I've got an EARLY BIRTHDAY PRESENT which I'll treasure throughout my life.
wow gile sentimental..
Haha but really. That day. That single click. That moment. It was really a day to remember =D
Kekuatan kenangan terindah yang memberi saya semangat untuk terus tersenyum hingga sekarang
What was it?
Biarlah rahsia~

And of the utmost important (walaupun tgh conflict luaran skit skang)

July 30, 2007

It's the 30th of July

Happy kah birthday saye?

Huerm...we'll see..

By the way I feel really old.


I miss my friends )'=
tahannnnn...jangan nangessssssssssssssss..

Dun wanna be an old, grumpy lady. Me wanna be a happy no-longer-teen-agers.

Edited 10 mins later : I promised myself not to cry. But I failed. Tsk..azam gw hancur lagi..Wani called and I cried.
I miss the friends so much.
Very-very much indeed.
But friends gw sume busy.
So I'd better get busi-er than them.

July 29, 2007

Full is kenyang

Ucapkanlah kasih
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
Mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada dalam rinai hujan
Dalam terang bulan juga dalam sedu sedang
Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam hening malam cinta terasa ada

Went to Busu's hse for BBQ today. Aiseyh...BBQ-ed chicks,fish& sotong + mihun at 10pm???


Hancuss diet gw.......

P/S I : Aura happy lingered on. O God please let this happy feeling lasts longer this time....

Puhleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee...Double pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....Triple Superduple pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......

P/S II : Kak Ra said "jangan blajar masakk"

Bile pandai masak => slalu masak
Slalu masak => slalu makan
Slalu makan => u know the consequences... la blaja power2 masak kannnn..kannn?? kannnn????

P/S 111 : Start counting days to Klantan. And start planning on how to enjoy the scrumptious ayam percik, nasi dagang kerabu and whatnots without gaining even a single kilogram...

yeahhh....ganbatte ne!!!

July 27, 2007

Langit Ketujuh

A sudden decision of escaping my job (or properly declared as PULANG AWAL KERANA KECEMASAN) at 4.30pm is surely worth the effort.


The McB @ Otago-ers Baccalaureate 05/07

Sent off my dear classmate, Mr. Muhammad Iqbal Mohamad. Goodbye my friend. He was unique. He was nice. But he'd surely carved his name in my mind in my life.
Bak kata saya, lepas ni susah dah nak jumpe Iqbal..
Bak kata Nabila, lepas ni kite tgk dier kat paperrrr jee..
Erm...Wanted ke dah kene bom..??
Matila lariiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~~

Anyway I'm happy...
Dun ask me why I'm just super duper terribly happy


Melompat hingga langit ketujuh...naik lift to the ninth cloud~~~~~

July 26, 2007

Laptop for sale.

Laptop Anyone?
A brand new laptop
Normal Price RM 7000++
Selling Price : RM 4000++

At first I asked my uncle to find me a good laptop. But apparently somebody mahu bagi laptop pula pada saye for free. So had to help my uncle to sell this one out.

Mari la beli~~~

Processor Up to Intel® Core™2 Duo Processor Processor T7700 (1.8GHz, 800MHz FSB)

Operating System Genuine Windows Vista™ Business 32/64

Displays 14.1" WXGA (1280x768) TFT

Weight Starting at 5.0 lbs.

Dimensions 335.5mm x 237mm x 27.6mm - 31.9mm (13.2" x 9.3" x 1.09" - 1.26")

Memory 1GB DDR2 667 (512MBX2)

Hard Drive 80GB 7200rpm

Wireless Intel® PRO/Wireless 3945 a/b/g

Optical DVD-ROM, CD-RW/DVD-ROM Combo II drive or DVD recordable drive

Battery 4, 6 or 7 Cell Lithium-Ion (14.1" widescreen)

Graphics Integrated Intel® Graphics Media Accelerator X3100
NVIDIA Quadro NVS 140M (128MB)

July 24, 2007

Planning A & Planning B

~Plan off day saye~

First I thought of visiting the lonely Wani at UIA..
Then when I found out she'll be available only after 3 pm so I cancelled...
Then I spoke to Fuzah bout cycling and karaoke-ing (READ : Makcik ini lepak di umah saye sminggu ini.lalala~)
Out of a sudden Laily texted me on futsal..
And now I felt like going to Sunway Lagoon..

So many things yet so little time...

Ohhhh hari Khamis Off day ku...cpat-cpatlah menjelmaaaaaaa....

When you're gone..


The songs that occupied my playlist (and being played repeatedly...incessantly =P)

  1. I'll be there (in my noks 3230 jua)
  2. Menghapus jejakmu
  3. Hari yang cerah untuk jiwa yang sepi
  4. Terlalu cinta
  5. When you're gone
I don't know why..I just feel like listening 'em.

And oh by the way today I was surprised to see bunch of my KMB friends in MPH. I was "busy" (bajet lah busy ke buat2 busy??) searching for books when suddenly I saw familiar faces and somebody said my name out aloud "eh Naaaaaaddddd"

And I saw Iman, Nisya, Nazi, Wan Maisarah (the one that Cik Imah told me about. bout her mom. bout her house and the snake that sneak into their yeke?), Aisyah Kaulah, and my dear classmate Ezzathy! Erm..ramai jugak yg ade tadi ade la ala2 rombongan Cik Kiah but I just could remember these names only T_T. Neway just managed to salam-peluk Iman n Wan since I had to handle the cash machine at that time.

Speaking bout KMB, I could finally see Baccalaureate 05/07 Yahoo Groups functioning well. Before this I thought It'd always be a medium to gather the Baccalaureans 05/07 (ade ke term cam ni? slamber lah buat kamus sendiri =P) , just to exchange news and asking what's the best movies/activities to be done during hols and all. But after the results ppl started to worry about the placements and YG has been the best medium to channel their worrisome without having the usually-cool-and-smiling Pn Sharifah turns into green and lost her patience, when they bombard their questions.

Anyway I could do nothing but bersyukur kehadrat Ilahi for clearing up the path for me (for the time being). Pity Puan Sharifah need to work her ass off to find placement for them Mara scholars and pity them Mara ppl scholars..menunggu penuh debaran tentang nasib mereka yg seterusnya. And to those who felt under the "what to do next" category, be grateful to The Almighty for his nikmat and kurnia (and this serves as a reminder to yours truly too!). Alhamdulillah...

P/S : Mengapa aneh dengan nAzira? It's a part of my name too, hokay? I's 75% of my name tauuu (compared to nAd 37.5% jeeeee...)

I tell u....sometimes I need nAzira-ness in my life. Too much of a nAd-ness lowers my self-esteem y'know?
And yeah...All NAD and no NAZIRA makes NADZIRAH a dull girl.


July 23, 2007



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Isnin, 13/08/2007 Flight AK6*** Depart Kota Bharu (KBR) at 21:40 and arrive in Kuala Lumpur LCCT (KUL) at 22:35

Kelantan here I come~


July 22, 2007

the HAIHHHH......

"Ko tau dek..MakPah tu dah beberapa kali pitam2. Buat keje umah byk2 sampai pengsan"

"Mak Limah dah cakap suruh je anak2nye tolong. Pastu dier kata..aku tanak anak2 aku jadi cam aku..."

It feels like a big fat rock came down on me.
I feel guilty.
God gave me brain to use it well. He gave me the ability to study well and all this while He helped me to get good grades. He put me in good place(s) to study and I got good teachers and friends to get along with...
Din with his SPM, Ain with her PMR, Mira with her UPSR and yet MakPah need to juggle between household chores and preparing her children for the major exams.



Harry Potter and the ugly price war? was supposed to be a big day yesterday. I reached SACC at 6.05am and thought I was running late. But heckkkkkk...tipu giler hokayyyy??
So we did our preparation despite the boycott. Thank God, people of Shah Alam were all so nice and kind-hearted. They listened to our explanation and just went on with their purchase. But them ppl in Mid V had to face a lot of angry and upset customers. And I heard many of them canceled their purchase too?



CikPi made a kenduri for his new house in Puncak Perdana. The house is quite big, spacious and resembles my house a lot. Simply because the contractor is the same person, Su'ud the great! Huhuhu...Su'ud is my mom's favourite contractor. He can do almost everything. From piping to wiring, renovating house or even repainting my house.

I'm glad to see those faces who I've been missing. My bucuk Fariq Imran yang dah blajar salam orang dgn muke poser dier tu...

Pada suatu petang yg hening...

Ika : Name kamu sapeeeee..
Me : Nazirah...
Ika : Alaaaaa...betul2 kamu sapeeeeeee
Me : Nazirah la..
Ika : (double the volume) Name betul2 btul kamu apee...
Me : Okay la okay saye Kak Jiah..
Ika : Haaaaaa....baru btulll..Kak Jiah....


P/S : Kamaliah, jom la kite plannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...

P/S : U. I miss u~

P/S : Haihhhhhhhhhhhh...

July 19, 2007


Just at the time I was thinking & calculating the best time to quit the job, I received this letter of appointment today. Now how ironic is that???
Huhuhuhu...Signed the agreement, and yeah, I'm officially the MPH family today! (rase dlu cam dah announce kan? huhu)

My first pay slip. With my first EPF & SOCSO segala bagai2! exciting!
So this leave me a big doubt..last Saturday I checked my account. And to my amazement, the amount has increase by few hundreds. Later I asked Aimi, rakan seJPA gue to check her account too. And today she replied, yes. It might be the IELTS fee. Apakah itu bermaksud jika saya check account saya esok amountnya akan bertambah lagi??? Tehehehehehehehehe....$$mata wangan!

And I got a birthday gift voucher too! Anyway as always, I got my early birthday gift from my beloved mom. A wardrobe! Yup! Last yr I got a dressing table from her. But I know her hidden agenda...A bigger wardrobe for me means more spaces for her to tumpang her excessive baju! wahahahaha... =P

And I introduce u, 2 of my colleagues yg senget n sewel. hahaha...this pic was NOT a candid pic. The pose was specially for me. It reads : Mari korek hidung rakan dari jauh. heeee...busuk giler!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow-> FULL shift. Next Saturday I need to be there by 6 am for Harry Porter 7 day. Uuuuuhhhhhhhhh...endurance Nazira.....bertahan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just call my name, and i'll be there~

Yesterday wasn't a very good day.
It was a VERY bad one, indeed.
But at the end of the day, being at home, dining together with mak and abg & had a gibberish talk with Wani were such a pain relieved.
Again, family & close friends. The 2 Fs that made me a me. I love u all!!
(emo kejap bergenang airmata)

AlFatihah to the 6 RMAF armies..
And to the rest of Moslem around the world who has left the world..

My favourite song. This one goes to everyone who cared, and will always care.

You and I must make a pact
We must bring salvation back
Where there is love
I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you
I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name
And I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you
I'll build my world of dreams around you
I'm so glad I found you
I'll be there with a love so strong
I'll be your strength
You know I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness well it's all I'm after
Just call my name
And I'll be there

I'll be there to protect you
With an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name
And I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new
I know she better be good to you
'Cause if she doesn't
Then I'll be there

Don't you know
I'll be there
Just call my name
And I'll be there

Just look over your shoulder
Just call my name
And I'll be there

P/S : En.Zarif, IF ever u read this la..sorry ya. Saye da tdo time kamu ym... and this song goes for u too =P

Kak Su : keje sampai bile ni?
Yours truly : tatau lagi la kak su..
Kak Su : Ala..tunggu la sampai akak balik cuti
Your truly : tu la..ingat nak tunggu akak abis honeymoon jadi benda macam2 ni..pnat2 lagi, saye rase ESOK JUGAK NAK BERENTI!

Tuhan,maafkan diri yg tak pernah bisa menjauh angan tentangnya..

July 18, 2007


saye keje morning shift esok (am busuk. saje tukar shift). jam menunjukkan kul 4.23 am tapi saye masih segar bugar malahan mampu untuk diajak bermain futsal?

huermm...mixed of feelings and emotions tonite.
sdikit benci.
sdikit down.
mixed that up that--> kappoooooffffff saye jadi half insane ini mlm.

Been asking Zack n ZaiRiN what to be prepared + bought before going..
+ Z suggested buying stocks of undies. Ohhh apakah? And few others underground thingy..
+ Zrn on the other hand suggested buying stocks of maggie and cili sos?? Oh apakah??

Well if I were to complete my to-do/buy list, the whiteboard I bought (purposedly for the so-called preparation) wouldn't have enough space.
Anyway whatever it is, here goes my wishlist..

  1. macbook (pro kalo bleh)
  2. 4 boxes of contact lense. (2 for each right n left eye. ye power saye tak same dan jauh gak beza)
  3. new specks too
  4. oh n shades. that'd be super cool
  5. new watch. the last watch i bought for myself was like 3 yrs ago. since the watch pun da tak brape rupe watch, i started borrowing my mom's free gift watch. till now 3 dah pecah. currently using my mom's elle but..i cant wear metal watch..
  6. new purse. purse saye mmg dah uzur gle. tatau knape tak beli2 baru smpi skarang.
  7. new boots. my one n only boots is being used almost everyday. really need a new one!
  8. a guitar + a teacher as well. been wanting to play this thing since forever. ade yg sudi membantu but ermm...takut?
  9. stars. okay a lil bit ridiculous. nobody knows i like stars coz never showed it off before. secretly, i've been admiring the beauty of star day in day out since forever aih..
  10. digicam.
  11. sport shoes. preferably multipurpose punye. futsal.jog.sume bley..
  12. white gold ring. makkkk soriiiiii...cincin dah ilangggggggggg
  13. a set of makeups. haha.
  14. a set of transformer nye merchandise. oklaa dpt satu pun jadi laaa..
  15. oh..of utmost important new sets of clothes. erkss..
  16. new bagS (that wld include handbag,multipurpose bag, bagpack, etc etc)
  17. new shoeS
  18. a complete set of sinchan comics
  19. n the list goes on n on..
huerm...anyone? from Apple? MAC? Guess? England Optical? Menara Optometry? Toys' R Us? Nike? Adidas? Poh Kong? Canon? care to sponsor?
Okayla..if no one else cared...i'll ask from Mr Genie la..Mr Genie..I need 3 wishes, to be wished for another 3 wishes (that would be 9 wishes) and to be multiplied to another 3 wishes..and another 3...

July 17, 2007

Hehehe...anyone care to step up? -> RESULTS!

Create your own Friend Test here

So..a few ppl took up this test. A few clicked on the link, but didn't try it.
You don't know me?
Afraid of getting low marks?
Ahahaha...this is just a simple test. NO. U don't get punished for getting low marks but I've intended to give ppl who scored perfectly a lil treat from my 1st pay but aahhh..too bad...the time's up, ppl! =P

So here goes the Q and A! Tidak perlulah anda mencube mnjawab lagi and score perfect marks smata2 mahu mnghabiskan duit gaji saye ye..Pluang itu dah ditutup~

Question #1
Smua ini adalah nickname underground nickname saye within family kecuali...
NOBODY IN THE FAMILY EVER CALLED ME NAD! Mom n bro calls me Adek. When no other adek's around, i'm called adek. Or else they wud just call my name without the D (and H at times). My paternal family calls me Nazira(h). And i'm the KakJiah among the lil cuzzies.

Question #2
Dulu kecik2 nyaris2 saya dinamakan .... oleh atuk saye
It's SABARIAH. Maybe I've been showing off my impatient-ness since I was born so he thought the name would change me! OMG I couldn't imagine if that is really my name..

Question #3
All-time favourite tagline saye..
What u give u get back. Been using this since SMSS. Since form 1. Selak buku BUDI and u'll see this words under my name. Just love it. And sometimes I made my judgement based on it.

Question #4
Shopping complex yg saye tak brape gemar..
KLCC wud be the place. I just don't know y. Despite MidV being the place of every teary/emo moment of moi, my love remained strong.OU is better than KLCC and Summit USJ is just the perfect place to let off the tenseness..tehehehe..

Question #5
Perkara yg paling menghilangkan kesabaran saye..
That would be org bawak kete lambat. Everytime I bump into this slow movers, I'd go half insane, cucuk2 the car until it speeds up or change lane. I've no problem waiting. As I've been waiting all this while. Patiently or not is another case la kan. Buat keje ngan org yg saye tak suke is another thing that I could tolerate. I could still pose a smelly smell with ppl I don't like. I can remain calm (but slowly breaking inside la..) and Workload burden is just another piece of cake that been eaten throughout my school yrs. tarahalll punya~

Question #6
Negeri di Msia yg saye dah lame tak lawat...
Been to Terengganu and Kelantan several time last year. And Johor is tanah tumpahnya darah ibuku, nenet and atokku serta 17 (minus 4) anak2 mereka. Kedah is the best option I guess?

Question #7
The untrue combination of my fav songs..
The key would simply goes to the singer that i don't like. I dislike Kylie Minogue. And Kaiser Chefs' everyday I love u less and less is simply annoying. And other songs? I just love 'em. Saye layan dangdut dikala saat exam yg tension just to keep me awake and alive. Juga dikala sesi kariyoke bsama dua hot chicks saye. (tp saye n Fuzah je beautiful liars.oh beyonce beyonce~ shakira shakira~) Last Night is my msg tone. Kernaku sayang kamu is the tone for SMSS folk (harus tukar jap agi nih. smpena cinta yg dah mati~)

Question #8
Name foreign atheletes yg saye suke sbb nama dier enak disebut..
Simply NARONGCHAI VACHEEBARAN. Thai's footballer. Don't ask me why. U go figure it out yourself. Cube sebut...tak rase enak ke??? Enaknyeeee...Anyway most ppl got this Q correct I guess u're agreeing with me la kan? kan? kan?

Question #9
Pakcik saye yg paling geng skali..
This one is u know me, then u wud definitely know this too. Zack saje yg ilang ingatan. Cikpiiiiiiiii is my fren of 13 yrs u know? All of them stayed with me (of varied periods la). But only Cikpi is my true fren! (tapi kalau jawab test ni sure gagal nye! haha)

Question #10
Soalan bonus...siri Sinchan number bape yg saye blum ade? hahaha mmg bonus pun! rugby should never answer 17 and 44 hokayyy??? Yg korang slalu dok pinjam tuh sila peka skit dgn numbernye! Eventho buku tu cam dah worn off skit tp kena peka! I'm starting to collect ShinChan. That day I went to LowYat Plaza I bought 4 series (1-4. sebab wani x kasi bli lebih2 nnt overspent tak ckup nak beli bag) Then I got extra money, I asked Wani to buy number 5-8 2 weeks ago (still hasn't got it till now. bile la nak jumpe wani ni..aihh)'s interesting to see how ppl went tembak-ing the Qs. To my amazement, encik Musnaz whom I know just a few hours ago managed to outdo Epul n EncikZarif! Ni sure slalu gune dadu time exam neyh~~~ And Ida n Nab maen tipu eehhhhh...amik 2 kali..takde2 aku takkan blanjenye..mase dah tamat!

Thanx to those who tried. Hahaha..tidaknye saye kecik hati kamu score low marks ke ape...


2 days ago I was told by my Sr Exec to help MPH Tesco Klang with their Stock Take (ke Tick? ke Check? err...not quite sure). I was told to be there by 7 am.

Apeeeee...7 am??????

So yesterday morning, after sahur (psstt..smalam 1 Rejab) I didn't sleep back, but had to toughen up myself, took shower on that freezing cold morning. 6.40 am sharp on the clock I departed from my house, drove 130km/h to the destination..
and to make it worse, I left my purse at home!
I drove crazily with very high chance to be summoned by the authority without a license. That would double the compound y'know????

But Praise be to The Almighty nothing bad happened. I continued with the ST. Miss BL was there (one of the upper level MPH mngr). She kept on nagging on every single thing against her favour...
"Ini damage apsat manyak sgt aa..u tak bleh tau...ini kena return.."
"Haiya...apa pasal ini Kilometrico stock manyak sgt haaa...??"
"Haiya..ini buku u tgk..tahun bile punye aaa...4-5 years ago tau..ade olang bace lagi keee??"

and on and on and on...

Approx at 11am I shot back home for the left purse. Managed to touch up the make up and rushed to SACC. Arrived. Settled the claim (every single km + toll + parking..pheeww..makcik kayoo!!).
And yesterday was the happiest day in my working life, I should say. No that pain-in-the-ass ppl. No bad things.
I was merrily arranging the children books. Lalala~ Lalala~ Siap buat housekeeping lagi..until my boss rase aneh dgn kerajinan saye..huhuhuhu...
Then I held up from bursting into laugh when there was one not-so-girl (i hope u understand) daringly asked A for his number. Mmg kellles ko mak...I tabik spring! hahaha *lariikkk*

Syahir, cmon join the club. Zack pun da keje tau...But I couldn't imagine what type of work would suit u best? tehehehe..

July 14, 2007

Rain rain..go away..come again another day

"I don't feel guilty. I feel blamed"

"It's okay. The Almighty is fair. If this mistake somehow is not mine, He'll let me know, anyhow anywhere"

If before this, Chi Dim Sum Cafe turned me into a devilish angel..I guess MPH is leading me towards becoming an angelish devil....

Day after day...I became more fond of working.
But day after day, things kept on coming and lowered my enthusiasm.

P/S : I saw someone whom I've been avoiding for 2 years? today. *Lariiiiiiii*

July 12, 2007


Yes, I'm declaring DNR upon the nearly dead emotions.

Today, as scheduled, I went for MPH Orientation Training at Mid V. It was such an experience since all this while I've been going for training/talks meant for school kids. But this time around, talk no more PELAJAR GEMILANG OR TERBILANG, we are dealing with real, business profit chasing world, you know!! Speaking bout business...pssttt...brag skit, i'm one of the 21 ppl who scored a 7 in Business&Management Studies. Opss..riak pula, Astaghfirullahalazim..But, seriously, I do love BMS subject and that's how I prove my love towards 'em. =D

The orientation was conducted by Mr A.E. of HQ and he is such a funny guy. Yup, the room was freezing cold and the 4-times-provided-food is undeniably delicious (and calorie-ful too!!!!), and when both elements united, a very soothing and conducive atmosphere for dozing off was magically been created. But being surrounded in a 4 depa X 6 depa (sorry, measurement saya kuno skit..) room, being watched by HR Manager from HQ and Security Mngr of Mid V with a total participants of 18 ppl, I guess no one ever dared to fall asleep. =P

So what I learned? Many things, of course.

And I also got inspired on the appropriate time to quit the job so I'm eligible for the Punctuality and Full Attendance Incentives =P (I lost this month's incentives because of the KMB incidents T_T)

P/S : I strongly believe I'm in dire need to workout. Warghhhhh............Nad!!!!!! Exercise!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cinta Mati yg telah mati

Dengan ini (s/d)ukacita saya isytiharkan cinta mati saya buat kenangan di Sains Selangor mati disini.

Kerana jika cinta mati ini terus-terusan membunuh segenap jiwa saya, ada baiknya saya berhenti.

And yes, I'll be holding onto this formula :

Love someone 90%, and keep the 10% to yourself. For when your love fades away and leaves you, you won't lose everything.

July 11, 2007


Someone threw me vulgar words and wished for my discontinuity of life
And he is someone that I knew since 7 years ago
And yet he could say those words?

But did he stayed for my explanation?
I gave him time to vomit out his deppression
But he left me no chance for explanation...

Now despite everything I said about the awful outing with them boys, I did not run from them. Nor did I went home without acknowledging them. I stayed with 'em. I declared myself as just plain stupid because I did not tell him straightly, I was not comfortable with the outing.

Truth is, I don't hate anyone that strong, when I said so. Hatred is just way too deep to be felt. Saya kutuk orang, saye marah orang, sebab saye kecewa dgn dia.
Saya merajuk ngan orang ke ape, sebab saya sayang dia.

And people, when I'm gone, do sedekahkan Al-Fatihah will ya?
When everybody back there hates me, those who knew me inside out, please, do come to my funeral will ya?
Those who know how much I treasure my friends, pls note that I love ya, no matter how I treat ya. Through bad through good. During ups and downs.
And forgive me for all the wrongdoings. Ampun dan maaf kepada smua yang terluka with my words or my acts. Even kalau saya dah tiada, just zap me off from ur mind, don't remember me because of your hatred towards moi.

Hwaaa...when I'm gone, will I be remembered? Or to rephrase my doubt clearly, will I leave good memories or the bad ones?


Ya Allah, ampunkan segala dosaku..

While waiting for a proper entry...

A Leo Women

She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman is normally tall or rather tall. You will hardly see a short thick woman. When she walks she walks like a queen, confident and does not look around, though as if there is no one around her. She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confident of what she chooses to wear.

Do not buy cheap cloths where they sell in dozen for her as a gift, she will hate it. Also do not buy cloths that do not reflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange cloths and accessories. Being different is what she loves. If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selective about people she mingles with.

She’s open minded, but yet she is not letting people get to close to her easily. She likes sweet words and compliments, but not too much. She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader. She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct. She is a graceful woman, and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough competition. (P/S = Nadzirah in Arabic means, ketua yg dihormati pelopor kaum. Adoih...bkan niatku nak gila kuasa...hahaha)

She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge her confident. She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like an innocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her old photo albums with her ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy.

She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic. She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it’s a plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills. She is a sport type and love sports.

If you want to date her, prepare to spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand, but better be the best place in town. She is a generous person, so do not be surprise if she gives you a gift more expensive than what you gave her. She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please.

Being poor or broke make her depress. If you do not have lots of money, be creative and make your own gift for her. It’s unique quality and times spending making it for her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.

P/S : Found this zodiac traits when I was bloghopping.So yeah, I'm a leo lady. When I went through this post I could just read : MATERIALISTIC. But naaaaa...I'm not that ambitious/materialistic..

P/S P/S :
Not so true
Quite true
Not quite sure whether it's true or not

July 10, 2007

Dancing in the moonlight/sunlight?

dancing in the moonlight
everybodys feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

SAYA SANGAT PENAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bila penat saya emo.
Bila emo saya...saya emolah.

Nanti nak suruh bro afdlin buat movie emolah, tp suruh MPH yang sponsor.

July 09, 2007

Hari Yang Cerah Untuk Jiwa Yang Sepi

Awalnyaaaaaaaaaa saya bangun harini!!!

Waking up early is so refreshing. I wish I could do this everyday... (Yeah, I wish!~)

A shoutout posted from a guy with a bigmouth friend reads : Suddenly feel that working at this time is not appropriate...bla bla..

And yup, this is one of the very few occasions I'm agreeing to his words ( offence fuz)
Family and friends. The two Fs that made up my whole life, and yet I'm leaving them behind to satisfy my shopaholic desire?
Tika saat ini, I should spend more time with mom and bro (but they're working. and they are VERY busy)
Tika saat ini, I should spend time with my Beloved Friends (but they're busy studying)
Tika saat ini, I should grab the chance to visit my separate-hundreds-km-away-KMB friends
(tiada alasan)
Tika saat ini, I should help MakPah's children with their preparation (tiada alasan)


Y has been telling me to quit the job. But adoihh...when I reviewed my shopping and to-do list, they just won't let me to do so. I know, mak is more than mampu to give me the $$ but...I just feel....GUILTY?

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku....

July 08, 2007

Jadilah pelanggan yg bijak

Another disastrous day has passed.
Weekends are definitely nightmare. Books are everywhere. People coming in and out incessantly. People queuing up for payments nonstop.
My legs are aching. My body is starting to produce INEEDREST hormone.

And today, is a series of unfortunate events for Y. A customer (young, teenage girl) claimed that Y mistakenly gave her balance :
  • girl gave him RM50 for a magazine priced at RM5.50
  • girl claimed she got only RM2 for her balance
  • girl said he didn't give her any receipt
  • girl made her purchase at 1 'o clock
  • girl came back to MPH at 3 'o clock
WTF?!?!?!?!?!? My opinion :
  • the exact balance should be RM44.50, and that's quite a big amount. biar btul she cudnt even differentiate between 2 keping kertas RM1 and 4 keping RM10, 4 keping RM1 dan beberapa sen duit syiling. are u just a plain bimbo??
  • purchase at 1. REALISED that her change is short off few ringgit at 3. ape tuuuuu???? 2 jam tu buat apeeee????? tak kemane2 keeeee??????
  • usually, when we give the change, we'll give away the receipt as well
Anyhow, we just pay the girl since she's threatening to report this thing to the HQ and all. Pity Y and Sh they had to "tong tong" the loss. We didn't want to complicate things so might as well settle everything there and that.

Ape tuuuuuuu????

Later in the evening, a customer came. He bought a book titled "100 ways to say I Love You", plus a red gift box.
Awhhh....sangat sweet okay? I wonder who's the lucky lady..
If only somebody could be that romantic, and me being the lucky woman...
HAHAH tak mungkin! Dream on la weyyyyyy...

July 07, 2007


Now that the results are known...something else came up pula..

I started to feel the need to spend time with my family and friends.
And the urge to shopping started to kill me from within.

But I have commitment towards my job. Currently, the shop looks even worse than my room at its messi-est time. It's not nice for me to suddenly quit the job when everyone else is getting headache..Kak Zura is on her sudden one week leave. Kak Su is busy with her wedding preparation. And Y has started to feel like giving up the job..Kept on nagging due to the excessive workload. (ye, kami sangat banyak kerja!!) His friend offered him a job somewhere at PADE (Pusat Akuatik D.E.) , with extra pay, of course. I managed to talk him to postpone his plan to quit MPH and I'm quite sure if I leave, he'll definitely follow suit. Haha...excuse me prasan skit..But seriously, I'm telling the truth. And by the way, he even asked me to join him at PADE too...jeng jeng jeng... >=P But still, Y won't be working there for good pun. He's a petro scholarholder, still waiting for the first posting so I guess whatever pun he's still leaving. It's just a matter of time.

Haiihh...What should I do? I think I'll try to hold on for another few weeks. At least until at the end of July. At first I planned to work until end of August but, yeah, we'll see. If thing goes well and I can juggle between the job and social life nicely, I'll try to go with the flow as long as I can.

Berusaha Naddd...Bertahannnn!!!!!

P/S : Ida, thanx for the SecretRecipe nye treat!

July 06, 2007


Syukurku kehadrat Ilahi atas segala nikmatNya.
Terima kasih atas anugerah ini, Ya Allah...

I'm just extremely happy.
Tho I sucked in HL subjects..but...wtffff...getting above 40 is not even in my dream.

Thanks to the friends who stayed by me.
KMB friends who stayed by my side. Motivated each other so we never give up.
SuperDearieSayngGile friends..the ones who stayed by me during ups and downs.Giving me strength to move on. Accompanied me here and there, even if I dragged them to spend holidays in library to do my EE research..
Mom and Bro who kept on supporting me..

I Love u all...mmmmuaaahhhhhhhhhh
thanx.....thanx a lot I come~

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2 years of pain.
Countless efforts.
Infinite heartbreaks.

Mental endurance. Hang in there Nadddddd....

Ya Allah. Ku berserah segalanya kepadaMu. Permudahkanlah perjalananku Ya Rabbi. Perlancarkanlah jalan hidupku Ya Rahman. Kau kurniakanlah aku kejayaan Ya Rahim. Sesungguhnya kepada engkaulah aku berserah, dan padaMu jua ku meminta pertolongan. Bantulah hambaMu ini Ya Allah..

July 04, 2007

Pessismism or just plain realism?

  • Hazel
  • Posted 28/06/2007 23:04
  • shit. i just got to know that in kmb, sket gle lulus biz..kalau camtu, kms lagi la teruk. waaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's a testi. I accidentally bumped into it when I was frienstalking. Shit. What was that? I mean, getting 5 is not our main concern now but getting a pass?!?@?#@?&*(*%#$!*(!~@#$%^#$%

Pass is like...0-29 marks and we are not even that good to get above 30 marks??????????
2 years of *hard study* learning Business&Management. Brain cracked. Studying the case study like hell and this is what we got?!???!?!!?

Okay saye sangat emo. I know it's a rumours. But rumours don't come just like that. Tanpa pokok angin tak bergoyang. Okay??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!?!

And this is from

Your results will be published on 06/07/2007 13:15:00 GMT. Please try again then.

The time is currently 12:32 GMT on 04-Jul-2007.

For more information about the IB, visit


July 01, 2007

Different faces..the vivid colours~

Working in a bookstore, u could see the many faces + attitudes of ppl from different range of age, genders (male/female/and the unidentified ones.haha) + races. And of course, they went in with different reasons. Just to read books. Seriously want to find books. etc etc...

And my biggest fear type of customer is....lil kids. Especially those who ran into the shelves and treat them books like their own toys. In the store, we are assigned with our own department. So, yeah, the junior dept is under my supervision and heckkkk it is the most...disastrous place especially during weekends. Lil kids wud go in and out, incessantly, ruining the nice, neatly arranged books. And today, the kids went extra CREATIVE by intruding the wrapped books, and play with the cards included in the books.
Sabar je lah.
Mereka main kad dgn sukehati ~lalala~ tanpa memperdulikan org lain.
But I did not stop them.
Nor did I scold them.
I just passed through them. *Brokenhearted*

And, Abg Deng is so generous that he gave my 2 days off on 5 and 6 July. What the fffffiiisshhhh????????? I don't want to be at home on those 2 days. Especially on th 5th. So I went menggetik with Sh to exchange our off day.
Hahahaha..luckily Sh agreed. So tomorrow I have to convince Abg Deng that I really need to settle things on Tuesday, that I wanna exchange my Thursday off with Sh.

Oh by the way...MrT&S came today. And also Wani's fren, Amir, whose mom owned a craft shop in SACC, who bumped into Wani when she visited me at MPH last Thursday but Wani didn't introduce me to him so I had to introduce myself in the friendster. Haha gile tak malu..So I guess the day went quite well today, despite The Thing arrived unexpectedly. And treatment is going on well and I can't fast tomorrow.

Haih...super duper haih...triple quadruple haihhhhss...

R to the E to the S to the U to the L to the T.

Additional infos case u are suspicious what the heck was the spark of World War III, it was nothing.
It was big, but I'll just classify it as NOTHING but big. Big enough to tear my heart. Nasibla big girls don't cry nemore. They just work hard, dig more $ and go for retail therapy. Tehehehehe...

Next week, I'm planning to start fasting. No, this is not puasa ganti (remember? I've probs with my menstrual cycle. so far I had 2 perfect Ramadhan!) It's sort of a tool to comfort myself. Gathering inner strength to face The Results. The extra bonuses are of course, saving up my meal budget for the big spending day and also adding to the effort of slashing off the calories.
But I have feelings that The Thing is just around the corner. The symptoms are here. A pimple on my forehead. The mood swings. The raising adrenaline because of small things.
Aiyarkk....this is either a good or bad news. The good news is, my treatment with Dr Reena is going on well. But the bad news is, my appetite will start to increase dramatically and I can't fast too!!!

Ahah busuk btul gi citer pasal ni plak.
P/S : Esok saye full time. T_T

P/S P/S : Nak tengok TRANSFORMERSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Uwaaaa....Optimus Prime!! Megatron!!!! Uwaaaaa...I miss you!!!