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What is Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD)?

There is evidence that a brain chemical called serotonin plays a role in a severe form of PMS, called Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD). The main symptoms, which can be disabling, include:

* feelings of sadness or despair, or possibly suicidal thoughts -> The day before yesterday, I was so sad that I felt like giving up with the workload and some conflicts even worsened my day
* feelings of tension or anxiety -> We got some difficulties to find the correct Sports Planet because there were 2 sports planet which are within that area. At first we headed to the wrong Sports Planet, toured around the place thrice, until Fien called and led us to the right direction. I've been torturing Wani and was quite upset with her
* panic attacks-> I kept on worrying that we could not make it on time. Started from picking up the movie tickets (Night at The Musuem rocksss!!!!) until postponing the booking made at Sports Planet. I could not help from panicking
* mood swings, crying->Mood swings-a big yes, crying-not REALLY
* lasting irritability or anger that affects other people-> Ask my friends. I know they felt like killing me but could not do so because nobody would send them home later. But I heard Wani said "takpe dah biase" Is it???? Have I been the pain in the ass all this while?? Gee..I guess I didnt realise it...
* disinterest in daily activities and relationships-> At one point, I just felt like going back home and be alone in my room....
* trouble thinking or focusing -> I drove wrecklessly jeopardizing our lives and nearly been hit by a bus. Anyway, I dont know why but I feel my friends do not really trust my driving skills. I know I scratched my car more than twice, met accident twice (which was so not challenging) but they just need to put some confidence on me. I may have trouble with my parking skills but I've done it several times, lantak pi la kalau senget ka apa. When they started to scream,giving out directions I lost my focus and stressed up
* tiredness or low energy->I've been exercising this week just to ensure my stamina is okay throughout the 60 minutes game. Even so, at the middle of the game I was exhausted and played a slower game (less running.less chasing ball).Plus, my stomach was aching like helllllllll....
* food cravings or binge eating->I was craving for seafoooooooooooooodddd last nite and kept on muching the chocs eventho I'm not a choc-freak.Anyway,had my lunch cum dinner cum supper at Gazebo last night. The food was okay but still missing the touch of the TRUE seafood taste.ngeee..
* having trouble sleeping->Before the day, I could not sleep eventho' I am sure that my body is tired and need a sleep. I was so worried that I could not get up early as I had to fetch Shera and Chemi early in the morning but to my amazement, I woke up at 5 am!
* feeling out of control->Still got myself under control although I've been tormenting other people.I knew I've been totally shitty and I've even apologized but still, I knew they were quite unhappy with my attitude..Sorry friends
* physical symptoms, such as bloating, headaches, and joint or muscle pain->My stomach cramped during the game.My back was so aching that forced me to swallow 6 pills of panadol muscles&joint to relieve the pain.

To Fien, Fiqah, Wani, Aina and Alip ---- thanks for joining the game
To Wani, Ida, Chemi and Shera ----thanks for everything