The greatest love of all

Happy Mothers' Day to the one who brought me to the world. Who provides me with love and shelter. Who remains all patience and calm when I throw tantrum and act shitty. Who constantly giving me support and be the driving force in my life.

Ya Allah, kasihanilah ibuku sebagaimana dia mengasihaniku sewaktu kecil dahulu. Peliharakan lah kesihatan dan keselamatan ibuku.

This is also dedicated to all my aunties and grandma, happy mothers' day. Not to forget to every mom who's blog I read and anyone who came across this too :)

I hope when the day has finally come I would be able to be a good mother to my kids, insyaAllah. (waahhh blum apape dah berangan jauh~)

The day another father is lost

Losing someone we love is definitely something too painful of a news, eh?

Mak Pah : Assalamualaikum...adeekkkk atok dah takdeee *sound all cheerful and giddy up*

Me : Mak Pah ni janganlah cakap macam tu sedih tawww *started to cry again*

Mak Pah : Ala dekkk..nak buat camne. Ajal dan maut di tangan Tuhan..Tengok atok (referring to my atok pisah) tu senyumm je

Mak Pah : (and she repeated) tengok atok tu..senyum je..

That's why I wanna be there. Coz if I'm here alone I will keep on crying like a baby. But being around the aunts and uncles will definitely turn the atmosphere the other way round. >.<


To the man who raised up my mom and 12 other wonderful and kind hearted (eventho at times, very blunt :P) aunties and uncles..

To the man whom I always look up for a definition of a father (coz mine has *gone* long time ago)...


To the man whom I always call whevener I have big exams (UPSR, PMR, SPM, IB Exam) to ask to pray for my success..


And not to forget to the man whom genetics and facial resemblance I inherited from, for it has been a long 17 years (and more to come) without you,

Al Fatihah. May Allah bless the both of you.

And thanks for everyone especially Alya for the comforts. Your kindness-es are much appreciated :) Altho every text came in will always trigger another series of brokedown. (I don't know why I'm so cengeng like that) Maybe because I miss the family too much kot.

Rest assured I'm recovering now.

Summer hols - The Summary

I arrived Malaysia on the 3rd of June.


Dragged my friends to PD from 11th til 13th of June


Went to Australia from 23rd of June til 8th of July


9th of July I departed to east coast of Malaysia for 3 days


On July 13th I went back to my alma mater, Sekolah Menengah Sains Selangor for SMSS 10's


From 29th of July until 2nd of August I was having splendid time with my birthday surprises prepared by my girls


On 9th of August I had my primary school reunion at Hotel Singgahsana PJ


Saturday of 16th August the brother is engaged to one very beautiful lady


On 29th of August despite the strong attack against the concert, I became one of the fans who sang loudly to the songs in Stadium Merdeka (and needless to say, I am still proud of being a Malaysian)

On September I have started to prepare mentally and physically to go back

Somewhere in between of those dates I had days out with my girls. OU, Sg Wang and Mid Valley had been our favourite hangout places (I am never a fan of KLCC. hehehehe)

• During this holiday, I didn't really use the public transport despite the raise of oil price. I even drove to KL by myself several times. Even to the traffic congested places like Jln Imbi, Jln Bkt Bintang, Jln Tun Razak, Jln Bkt Nanas..etc,etc...must say I am very confident with the roads la nowadays. hehehe..Thanks to my hero, WIRA WLQ..hehehe..
• I didn't hangout at Mid V as much as I thought I would. More time are spent at Sg Wang like seriously?? Hehehe..pastu I didn't go to KLCC at all.
• Meeting my ex schoolmates are one thing that I looked forward but never tot I would meet my long lost primary school frens! hehehe..
• Managed to play futsal and swimming despite having a recovering patella. Hehehe..
• Very satisfied as I managed to drag my girls for a short holiday at PD. Hahaha..I am very pushy tauu...they MUST miss this one hell of pushy friend :P
  
• Managed to meet up all my family members and merasai kemeriahan bersama mereka. I love them chooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
• Spent A LOT of money. Deadbroke already *menangis kuat-kuat* Di Ireland for the first few months had to be a cheapo. No spending spending *cewwwahhhh*
• Crossed out almost everything in my must-eat food list (mental one only arr) Thanks to my beloved Mak for matearilizing it. heee...
  

My left eyelid has bergerak2 since yesterday. A sign I'm gonna cry like the old ones said. Cisss...belum apape dah ade sign2 kan. Dah lah balek sorang2. Sure lebih tragis. Must sleep all the way long so I wouldn't cry the whole journey. Hehehhehe..

Rombongan Cik Kiah is leaving tonite. Hiks. See uols on Sunday.

Harapan untuk balik2 ada internet jua hancus disitu. Huu...might take sometime before I could go online again :'(

In the meantime, I would like to wish all of u the best of luck in the last round of Ramadhan and an advanced Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Thanks to my Mom, Bro, the rest of the family, girlfriends and friends for having me throughout this holiday.

Till we meet again, next year, Malaysia oh tanah airku :')

The last moment

It has been a ritual for our family to have potluck every Ramadhan. But since both of my grandparents' health condition are kinda worrying, we had to postpone it to the very last minute (for meself la). Alhamdulillah it still went on as planned.

At first I lost hope oredi.Tot they will never be a potluck for me this year. Hikhik.. Eventho the number of participants is lesser this year (Mak Limah, Uncle Halimi and Kak Jee couldn't make it) I still thank everyone from the bottom of my heart to make it happen..

Awal2 dah standby depan food. hihihi..

Heartiest thanks to Mak Pah for the awesome cookings. Kerabu kerang, sambal sotong, ayam masak kicap and special appearance of my bekal - RENDANG. And to CikPi for suggesting it out.

Menu of the nite : Scrumptuous daging masak lemak by Mak Tip, Yummy Ikan Goreng Masam Manis by Cik Kam, Tasty Bening Pucuk Paku with Mouthwatering Sambal by Cik Imah and the other 3 dishes aforementioned.

I said : Cepat2 pose ni untuk Mak Semah~

hikhikhikhik. Thanks everyone. I love uols. Mmmmmmwwaaahhhh!

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A part of my must-do thing during Ramadhan also is to visit Pa's kubur at Ampang. Urmm..tanah perkuburan Ampang also placed some other prominent figures like the late Saloma, P Ramlee and other big names. The place is as old as KL I guess. Tahun 1938 punya pun ado (T_T)"

My late father's late father. Urm..never had a chance to know him. Info about him pun I got from the biography book made by my cousin. Nobody really told me how he was, personality-wise (or I didn't really make an effort to ask? urmm). He was an ex Police and one of the top man in BPR back then if I'm not mistaken..

Pa's. He passed away during Ramadhan 1992 at JB. I was 4++ years old at that time. Quite young eh? urm..

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After we are done at kubur, we went to BB Plaza. I need to get another pair of jeans and my "bekalan cinta."

Bekalan cinta. XOXO

Some of ppl who didn't really understand my passion (acheehhh...) would go against me going through all the trouble to get copies of Shin Chan.But, u know love is blind. Hikhikhik..I need this to enlighten my bad day. I need this to "settle my business". I need this to go through the rainy days. huu...


To date, I have only these edition..

1, 2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 10, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 32, 33, 34, 35, 43, 44, 47

Urm..must keep that in mind. I've bought two copies of #17 and #41 already!!

In the future, I would tell my future offspring "dulu _____ (insert appropriate title here) dpt SPM 10A sebab bace Shin Chan aa..."

And if anyone asked me how to survive IB and score a 42 (statement berlagak nauzubillah. kill kill kill die die die), I would say "bacalah Shin Chan". hikhik..

p/s : Anyone know where can I get a complete set of Shin Chan?? Please...pretty pretty please???

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And tonite I had this sudden craving of A&W's float and waffle. Took all the trouble to drive my nearly emptied-fuel Wira to A&W USJ. The journey was nervewrecking. The traffic was not good, the fuel kept on hitting the "zero" mark and I have only RM20 in my purse (deadbroke di akhir cuti. tsk. *menangis kuat*) but at the end of the day, I am one satisfied and happy lady.

At first I planned to hangout with Fuzah at A&W or Old Town White Coffee tonite.I texted her asking what she's doing tonite. But the message was still pending until now. urm...her phone might go crazy again or maybe urm whatever..

sugar high baby. grrrr....

Ahh..begitulah kisah hari-hari terakhirku di Malaysia. hurm.....

Next up - Summary of my summer holiday. hiks.

p/s : kak diah tag tu postpone dulu eh. heee...

Breaks my heart to pieces

Yesterday in the midst of lala land I was woken up by my mom's thunderstorm lightning order to get up and be prepared to go back kampung. Apparently my tok pisah who was just discharged from ICU last Tuesday was attacked by high fever.

So we went to Kajang to pick up my aunty, Mak Limah and off we went to Kampung. It rained cats and dogs when we reached Muar and being the one behind the wheel, it did make me a lil bit distracted. But Alhamdulillah we arrived safely at half one..

The moment I stepped into the room where Atok Pisah was placed, my heart breaks to thousand pieces (baca : hatiku retak seribu). There she was lying helplessly on the bed. Mak and Mak Limah quickly went to her, hugged her and comforted her. Once again hatiku pecah seribu seeing that one heartwrenching scene. I was this --> <-- close to tearing but managed to suck up the feeling and acted all cool in front of them. Huhu...over la kan tetibe nak nanges..

Yesterday I have witnessed the proof of ultimate love. The love of children to their mother. How my grandparents nurtured and shaped their children to become a very selfless person. Willingly to put other things apart just to attend to the very one person who brought them to world and brought them to who they are now. Although it's only Mak, Mak Limah, Cik Aris, Cik Man and Cik Udin at Muar with her yesterday, I know how worried are the rest of my uncles and aunties of atok's condition. Calls kept on coming in from my aunties and uncles to check up on atok. I know tho without their physical presence in front of them, the rest of the children might not stop sending do'a for their health and betterment...

By the time we left Muar at 9pm yesterday, atok's condition had improved. The temperature has cooled down to normal and she has started to consume more food compared to the 3 spoons of porridge she had earlier. Mak was kinda reluctant to leave atok especially when atok said "laa...tak sampai semalam lagi nak balik?" but since Mak Tip and Cik Pi was on their way back, we eventually left Muar..


This one song that Cik Udin kept on singing to tease Mak Limah. He was trying to make Mak Limah cry but everytime Cik Udin started singing, Mak Limah will make her way off Cik Din. Hahahahha...kejam..kejam..

Kau sinaran bulan
Menyerikan bitang-bintang
Kaulah fajar yang menerbitkan pagi

Kau sirami embun
Menyegarkan pepohonan
Kau bukakan tabir siang untukku

Kau berikan mama
Kasih sayang maha suci
Betapa agungnya
Tiada ternilaikan
Oh mama, oh mamaku
Tiada cinta yang suci
Setulus cintamu

Ku suntingkan mama
Sekuntum mawar putih
Sebagai lambang kesucian cintaku

Kemana menghilang?

For the past few days I've been preparing and packing things to go back urm..second home?

When people around are messing about balik kampung - tickets are not sold yet, no extra busses etc etc, I'm diverting to another route which is not the typical balik kampung way.

But, hey I am trying my best not to complaint. Saya sedar tanggungjawab saya, bagaimana dgn kamu? Sudahkah kamu mengundi? --> Lawak lame di bulan Ramadhan. (oh speaking about lame jokes recently I realised I have been making stupid lame jokes which put me on par with other lame jokes that I detest! Not good not good. better stop making one!!!)

On Saturday I went to Kak Diah's house for berbuka. The next day I went to Carrefour to buy things that I'm bringing back second home..

plastic Carrefour with box to be sent by MasKargo

line of bags. wey korang aku dah tak bawak beg gedabak dah balik sana. nida ko dah tak bleh tumpang beg aku dahhhh *insider jokes

And as much as I loathe packing and leaving, I still need to do this earlier. I need at least 3 weeks to make sure everything is in and also be assured of that too. I don't want the moment I step into the plane, I started to slap my own head coz I left this and that at home. Gwe kan suffers from mild OCD. Hihihihihi...

Oh by the way I've cut my hair shorter. Habis sudah rambut yang ku simpan selama ini..Went to my favourite saloon - 'D Aida of Section 18, Shah Alam. Not too short, not so long. But enough to be tied back la. I don't like the situation of hair where it is not so short but not long enough to be tied. Rimass!

more or less like this la. panjang sket je lagi..

On a different, serious note, both of my atoks at Muar, Johor are not so healthy now. tok pisah was warded in ICU for the past few days and atok aron stayed at home almost helplessly. Mom's siblings take turns to go back to take care of them. I hope my atoks will get well soon. Pray for them, will you? (if you happened to read this lines)



ahh...i'm losing my grip in blogging...

The day I felt like a true anak yatim.

Don't be startled by the title. I have always been anak yatim since '92, remember?

By the way saya minta sesapa yang terbaca post ini sedekahkan AlFatihah to my dad. May you rest in peace, daddy.

Back to the main story..today mom went back to kampung after she got news that my atok Pisah pulak fell ill. Mak went back to kampung with MakPah (WITHOUT ME SINCE I WAS ABOUT TO SETTLE SOMETHING TODAY BUT HEY IF SHE TOLD ME EARLIER I WOULD HAVE CANCELLED THE THING AND TAG HER ALONG OKAYYYY). Bro went out breaking fast with the loved one. And I was left alone to experience the ultimate feeling of being a loner. Hahaha...emo drama queen exaggeration disitu, tapi wtf, memang betul ia sungguh mengharukan.

And it's even sadder when I only got to know that I'm gonna be left alone for today about 2 hours before Maghrib with high possibility that I'm gonna be stuck in the traffic jam (meaning => I have NO food for berbuka). But luckily thank God the traffic wasn't that bad afterall. It took me about 30 minutes to get home from Subang Parade (from the usual 15 minutes) and the slow traffic kinda give me chance to think what should I eat for berbuka.

Stopped by at the shops in my housing area. Bought macaroni from the convenient store and bought soup from the tiny mini so-called bazar Ramadhan. After everything had happened today I kinda lost my appetite already so I settled for this :

Macaroni with soup.

MAK SEMAH, KALAU MAK SEMAH BACE JANGAN RISAU ATOK OKAY JE. ADIK PUN TATAU TOK SAKIT APE LAGI SEBAB MAK BALIK KAMPUNG CEPAT2 TINGGALKAN ADIK SORANG2. HUU..PASTU ADIK TAK CALL LAGI MAK TANYE KHABAR ATOK SEBAB TERLUPA. KALAU DAH TAU NANTI ADIK BTAU MAK SEMAH YE

p/s : non-mak semah are not allowed to question further on the abovementioned statement. Thank you.


oh by the way here's a picture from our small get together at Hakim last nite. It's unplanned actually. Earlier yesterday I met up with Chemi, Shera and Fuzah for berbuka puasa since Chemi is gonna leave to Indonesia tomorrow and this might be the last time I see her for the next erm..11 months? Later that nite my ex roomate texted and ajak-ed us to meet up so I ajak-ed Syafiq and the other to join us to heat up (menghangatkan?) the mini gathering. So walla, this is the end product!

picture credit to mamak hakim yang tak abis2 dingorat Mala. haha

P/S : excuse the language. Gwe dah ala ala pening ni memikirkan kebangkrapan yang melanda diri setelah melakukan kemaskini akaun hari ini. Huuu.....

Cerbar (cerita bergambar)

9.00 am

Dik!!! Bangun dik!!! Kemas bilik!!!! Eeeee...nanti diorang nak datangggggg...Makpah dah nak sampai dah!!!!!

*rubbed my eyes*
Cursing silently in my heart (NOT to my mom). Woke up. Cleaned up my room a little bit.



11.00 am

Went down to the kitchen. Had my breakfast. Decided to cook ayam masak kicap. When finally Mak Pah arrived.
Did my limau assam boi for Mak Pah. She loved it so much. Ngehngehngeh.
Went upstairs to accompany this lil kiddo. Kasihan melihatnya keseorangan keboringan.
We talked a bit. Fooled around a bit. And then she decided to play with MacBabe. I introduced her to Mac's Photobooth. Played around with the effects and she was disturbed to have seen her face transformed into pencil-lookalike just like my bolster.
Maaakkk..muke malia jadi macam pensellllll...

3.00pm

Went to the shop nearby to take the kuihs mak ordered before with Malia. Ohhh before that she was surprised to know I can drive.

Sape bawak kete? Kak Jiah tau bawak kete keeeee.....

Haha..ciss disitu!

3.30pm

Tok arrived from Johor with Cik Aco and Cik Syikin. Then came Maktip,Maklimah and the rest of the crew. Came in bising-bising a bit. Kecoh-kecoh here and there and started their work again.

Mak Tip, Mak Limah and Cik Syikin preparing the hantarans. While MakPah busy commenting. Ngehehe..

Time is running out. It's close to 6pm already..

While the adults are busy preparing things, the kids are upstairs in my room doing their thang. Oh the one with serkop is my tok pisah actually!

Kite pun boleh buat kucinggggg. uttered Qilah
Alaaaa kite pun boleh buat jugakkkkk Kak Ngah replied
Aida pun buat kucinggggg spoke Aida a bit pelatly.

7.00pm

Everybody has started to shower and change clothes. Come Maghrib they prayed berjemaah downstairs while the others are running here and there trying to fit in any vacant bathroom.

Hoii buat ape tu apasal tak mandi lagiiii.
Heyy cepat-cepat dah pukul 8
Cepattt..dah pukul 8.30

8.30pm

6 cars departed from my home to PJ. Met up with another 2 cars along the way.

9.15pm

The event started. Simple. Straight to the point.

blablabla..
saya ni abg kepada arwah ayah Redha
blablabla..
hajatnye...
blablabla..
saya ni abg kepada ayahnya..
blablabla..
Ogos..
...ribu.....
kalau boleh...

Eh. Dah setel?

Panggil keluar..panggil keluar..

Click click click
Snap snap snap
Kak Jiaaahhhhhh, Sarah nak kamera....Sarah tak tangkap gambarrr lagi

Ah
..sudah. Start dah.
Aida nak jugak..Aida nak tangkap gambarr...
Alaaaaa......kasi la dierrr....dier tak tangkap gambar lagiiiiiiii...

Ah...potong. Hilang dah mood nak tangkap gambar. The camera has been surrendered to the little rascals.


close to 10pm

Makan-makan session started. Cik Kam, in case you are reading and wondering, no worries, your 2 daughters are being well taken care of by Kak Jiah! ehehehhehehehe..
I had meehoon with ayam goreng and the scrumptious daging goreng and sambal udang which I shared with my 2 little sisters.

Little rascals pencopet kamera. *sigh*

ahh tatau sape tangkap gambar ni..nasib ade!

10.30pm

Bapaknye ni nak balik Johor malam ni jugak. Esok ade banyak undangan majlis kahwin. Balik dulu ye!
Ahhh yee...oklah..

*salam salam..salam salam*
This is my sister in law
...my sister...blablabla...
oh...this iss...
...this and that...

11.00pm

Ehhh..cokelettt...nak cokelettt...
Sedap oooo...cokelettt ni...
A'aaa...cokelet ni mahal oo...kat KLCC je dapat..
Din cube rase Din cokelet ni sedappp..
Burung dalam sangkar tu...jangan kasi terlepassss..
Ehhh laaaaa.....buah ni rupenye biskuttt...
Eh laaa...boleh makan kee.....
Ko nak ape? Manggis? Strawberi? Oren?
Tat la Pi...ko nak takkk...
Buat sendiri?? Wahhhhh...

12.00pm

The kids showed NO SIGN of sleeping at all. They were busy doing destructions to anything destructible. *sigh*

This is them busy writing down lyrics Aku Lebih Tahu by Mila. Who's the lyrics memorizer? Kak Ngah!

While the adults are busy discussing things downstairs.

Harbisah kot..
Naron pon ok...
Naron? Cam Laron je! *bursting laugh*

12.00ish pm

Salam salam atok...atok nak balik.
Time kasih ye pak, mak datang.

Assalamualaikum!~

1.50am

Tak boleh jadi ni dek..panas!!.ktorang tido bilik ko je lah
Nasibla mak besorkan bilik ko ni dek...
Hah bukak full blast dek..
Mak tip pun nak menyempit gak!
Heisshh...aku duduk hujung air-condnye tak dapat sangat lah!
Eyhh dah semayang Isya' blum
Kalau semayang pagi esok...sempat tak?

10 people. in MY room. Hahaha..meriah-meriah!

3.00 am

Mak Pah woke up
Dekkkk aircondnye ni knapa tertutup. Panas laaaa..

(I set up my aircond only up to 3am only. just to aid me sleeping)

Qilah was awake due to MakPah's noise
Aaaa...MakPah ni bising aaa (dalam keadaan separa nanges)

7.00 am

Dek dek..
*pats my back*
Dek dek...
*increases volume*
Subuh! Subuh! Bangunn!

1.00pm

Things became silent again. This IS silence NOT peace. I miss them already~

Bow-sun

Hergh...I wanted to update on what I did last weekend but most of the time my life revolved around my bedroom, toilet, kitchen and living room, back and forth. So basically I had nothing to do during the weekend. Except during Saturday when I followed my mum to Kajang to my aunt's house.

Eh by the way I have yet to update on my QUADRUPLE celebration. Yes, people, I did, had the 4th celebration with the 3rd cake of my birthday. All thanks to my favourite ppl in my life =) But lemme get the pictures first okay?

So back to the story. I went to my aunty's house in Kajang. Mom wanted to send the curtains to the tailor and check out progress of the hantarans at my other aunt's house. I did not follow mak to MakTip's house and stayed at MakPah's and started to busy-bodying Syukri with his homework. Syukri is MakPah's youngest son. Tatahu mengapa when I was helping him with the homework tetibe rasa sebak semacam. Wish I could have my own lil bro to teach. Hahahahahaku emo. Tau tau memang la suke emo2.

Yelah, I am the youngest. Of 2 je pulak tu. I hardly had times with my bro kekecik dulu. Back in primary school sempat setahun je sama sekolah ngan dia. Itu pun dia sekolah pagi den sekolah petang. The thing I remembered was he came to my class in the evening mintak duit when he had football training. Eh betulke...ke aku je yang berhalusinasi pun tatau lah. Muehehehe..Then he went to boarding skool at Perak (STAR). So I was left at home alone. Mom's working. He came back pun not that often. What I know bile mak start beli2 barang memenuhkan the fridge, hah that is when he's coming back. Adelah one time I couldn't really remember when he came back for his holiday. Time tu macam we were so close la. Gi sewa tape sesame. Naik 337c gi Alam Megah, Beli KFC. Jumpe Aunty Aida pastu dier belanja. Take turns to wash the clothes. Ngehehe...And when he went back to Perak, I cried my heart out.Pendekkan cerita..Then it came my turn to go to boarding skool. And bro went to UTP to further his studies. Jauh lagi. And the story goes on when I entered KMB and lastly going abroad...

Eh apsal cerita macam dah termelalut ni yeh? Anyway the main point is. Daku sayang lah kekandaku yang sorang itu walaupun dier suke merokok di dlm tandas. Haha matilah kutuk abang sendiri....

Moving on. I have finally finished the novel I got for my 21st birthday from my darling di Sydney itu. Thanks a lot weh. Daku appreciate it a lot. I took the whole nite to finish it. You know if the story is really good, I could not resist the temptation to keep on reading until the last page. OK tipulah. Last page tak bace lagi semalam sebab tak larat. Last page pun from author's comment je. The novel was so good. I like Khaled Hosseini's way of describing things. He takes u into his story. Kalau dier citer pasal kampung kat Herat ke kat Kabul ke, u'll feel the keindahan/kesengsaraan of that place. Kalau dier describe org tu..kalau buruk+jahat mmg buat ko rase menyampah. Sampai terbawa-bawa dalam mimpi okay. I dreamed about Afghan. Tapi watak-watak dia terdiri dari my friends sahaja. Apakah! Kartun sangat lah mimpi ni. I was Laila. And guess who was Tariq and Rasheed. Agagaggaa..I don't dare to tell u. They are the scandal of my past. Yg jadi Rasheed yg tak tahan tu. Sesuai sangat! Opss...terlebih sudahh..

Superb!!!

But all thanks to my other darling di Bukit Jalil juga kerana struggle memerahkan idea mencadangkan hadiah yang patut di beli oleh darling-darling lain. BUT I still want a funky pouch for my N95. Hwaaaa...mahuuu...mahuuu....Any colour as long as it's not black or purple inside. Lemme check sape yang tak bagi hadiah lagi..huerm...haha ok fine. At least tell me where can I get one. And plus I want a new, genuine fascia for my N95 sebab macam dah calar-balar sian dier. But that one I can get once I'm back in Eire from eBay UK!

Macam ni. Tapi tak mahu hitam saje. Mahu funky2. Mane mau cariii.

Happy Motha's Day

You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life

There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin’ me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

To MAK....

Thank you for everything. Words can't describe. So I dare not to utter any words anymore..



p/s : ohTAKUTgileEXAManatomyESOKraseCAMnakMATIbunuhDIRIbenciBENCIbenciAAAApastuTAKLEHstudySUDAHotakTEPUkonon!!!!!!

Not productive

I havent been to the gym

I am so lazy

I haven't done anything productive except calling Mak Semah

Wuhuuuu..everything's confirmed. Now I need to search for places to go around in Swiss and France

And how come I am the last one to know...Cik Lin dah almost 8 months?!?!??!!?

Yeayy....new baby in the family...it's been so long since...huerm...lemme think...since Fariq Imran?? Eh ke Afrina Maryam?? Owh I lost track already..

And Cik Pi's & Cik Imah's next! Aaaa...Alhamdulillah..the family is getting bigger..I loike!!

Oh I really miss everyone!!!!!!!!!

Next thing coming up today...going to town and also Dr Shidi's house. I MUST find time to go to gym somewhere in between. Cannot lose the momentum wehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Blog mak Ida buat saya nangis :'(

Alangkah indahnya kalau saat ini langkahku masih kecil dan perlukan bantuan ibu
Alangkah indahnya kalau saat ini tubuhku masih kerdil dan masih dalam dukunganmu ibu

Tapi apakan daya, masa berlalu meninggalkan kita
Langkahku makin jauh, terpaksa kutinggalkan bonda
Tubuhku besar (ops..terperli diri sendiri) tanggungjawab berat didada

Tapi percayalah ibu, jauh disudut hati, kami amat merinduimu
Dan jika diri ini dapat dibelah seribu, 999 akan kuhantar menemani ibu.

Buat ibu saya, serta ibu2 yg ditinggalkan dirumah oleh puteri dan puteranya, bertabahlah dan percayalah, perjuangan kami, InsyaAllah turut menyelit misi mengiringi bonda ke syurga.

Hapuslah airmataku~

This year we had our potluck earlier, since Mom insisted to have one before I go. Mak Pah came earlier for preparation. This time around we (as if my house + mak pah) prepared sambal sotong, ikan kicap, pengat pisang, kerabu kerang and ayam goreng. A lil bit extra, I must say since every year, we played as the organizer and hence we took a lil mengelat decision to prepare the nasik and the air only =)

Then Cik Kam (eyhhh membace blog?!?!) brought in sumptous Kari daging, followed by Mak Tip's delicious Telur bungkus and kerabu mangge. The rest of the dishes was...er..history? We've got ayam goreng, ayam goreng berempah, ayam kurma, ayam percik, kari jantung, murtabak, tepung pelita, kuih koci, karipap on the floor..Enough to cater for a bazar Ramadhan, I wud say =)

I was a lil bit emotional this year. My mind went terganggu throughout the session as I took it as the last moment I'd have them by my side. That hoohaahh hoohaahhh that blabbers that laser-ed words..Glad most of them made it to my house (except Cik Co & Cik Din, forgiveable la they are like 200km away from my house). At least I could experience some mock Hari Raya session with them..

Sumpah sedih..

When I said to Qilah that I'm gonna meet them again only 1 year from now she came to hug me. So do Sarah and Kak Ngah (when the girls are having their CONCERT outside my house)

Even when the adorable Fariq Imran said "bye" my emotion was terribly shaken. Oh..cannot tahan...

When Mak Limah came into my room to say goodbye, I burst into tears coz I just couldn't bare the sadness. This was too heavy man...

When pakcik Man said "oh pegi Isnin? eh..Isnin ni bace surah pendek2 je la.." (He was imam-ing the masjid Wangsa Maju for teraweh.
And suddenly when I was isolating myself in my room just to gather myself again to go through this very last get together, I received a call that made myself bursting into tears. Empangan pecah sudeyh...There she was at the other end of the line, my very own best friend, my friend who used to be my tmpat menangis when I was having my tough days back in McB, my friend who used to stay at night mengumpat-ing on our bed back in SMSS. With the thought that she couldn't make it to KLIA this Monday, I just couldn't hold back my tears.

Now let's put this teary emotion aside. I have 20 kg box and 25++kg luggage to be handled. But seriously, thanks to those who are making the effort to send me off to KLIA.

To Makpah for preparing the sambal ikan bilis
To Cik Aris for the perencah mi bandung
To MakSemah for the perencah mi rebus and soto
And to all my family who made it today. I love u all so much!!

Rugby World Cuppa

My bro is a very passionate person (matila membuka rahsia abg sendiri)
Just now he was yelling and screaming like he always does when it comes to football, especially if it involves his favourite team.
But today the pitch and the enthusiasm was a bit different..
So I figured out..
Ahhh...the heat has started (when the weather is about to get chill-er)
Kerana saya tak berapa mengikuti arena rugby (all I know is NZ and the All Blacks) so I'm gonna be biased. Plus I remembered reading bout Ireland's glory in rugby..ermm...few months ago?
So I'm rooting for Ireland!!
Yeah baby!!!!

P/S : Mak, thanks...thanks a lot for everything. I'm totally speechless

OOps I did it again!

Yesterday I spent 6 hours hunting down some stuff and ended up with those 2 beautifooollll things I posted below.
Love it..and love the discounts too (MegaSale dah abes T_T)

Now I'm a bit stressed out since there are many more things to be bought while I think time is getting less and less.
Mid done. The Curve (half) done. OU done. So am going for my last resort - KLCC
Plus the fact that most of my friends are 90% done with their preparation - cam gile lagi cuak horror T_T Tomorrow is supposed to be my pay day but heck 100% of the amount has been spared for the new digicam.
Guess my spending lust is taking control over me. Someone save me!!

Went to Hospital Serdang to meet my uncle doctor. A cardiologist at the age of 36. Duncha think he's quite young? Mom took the opportunity to seek advice upon her Hypertension problem and the answer is a big YES. She needs treatment.
Another thing to be added to my TO BE WORRIED OF list. Haih...
Abg's down with kidney problem.
Mak with HPT.
And the latest - Pak Long with colon cancer.
Life is not always easy breezy beautiful (covergirl~) kan?

To end the super-mind-torturing day, I went to Kak Aidah saloon of Section 18. Went out of my mind and Oops..I did it again T_T


By the way...thanks Dr Zamri! And thanks kak Norasikin of JPA for the help!

Teary Eyes

I promised my atoks I'm going back to Muar before I go. Time is running out so the last Merdeka holiday was the most appropriate time to do so...
After lots of thinking, 2 hours after I reached home from the shopping outing, I told mak "Jom balik kampung"

And after 3 pit stops (Projet Bkt Saga/Seremban R&R/Tangkak Tol Plaza) and 130-140-150km/h later..we reached Muar safe and sound.
I saw Cik Aris (mom's bro) at his favourite spot and to my surprise, my atok haron wasn't in his bed yet. My atok pisah wasn't even back at home coz she was busy MEREWANG (sape tatau maksud gi usaha gigih tanye org) at a neighour's home. Unload our bags (eleh stakal 2 ketul je) and checked out our rooms (we have 6 extended rooms for the anak cucu).
30 minutes later, I heard a very cute voice shouting out in surprise

"ehhhhh...ni sapa yang balik niiiiii!!!!"

I knew that cute voice.
I recognised that petite figure.
It was my atok pisah!
And the rest was history. Spent a nite there. Had breakfast. Learned how to cook sambal udang and helped mom to cook.
We told my atoks that my flight might be on 16th september. Tok Haron looked quite dissapointed. Problem is..it's Ramadhan. And with the terawih and the fact that he can't travel much during Ramadhan due to his gastric problem..it's quite impossible for him to send me off at KLIA. Mom had told me earlier. Expect nothing. They are not going to be there.
Tok said "kalau ade org bawak btul2 ye boleh aje" (means if the arrangements of sending him to KLIA and back to Muar is smooth and possible, he would have no problem sending me off)
But being a nice and understanding daughter, mak told tok that It's okay if they couldn't make it.
The last moment there, I hugged tok pisah and cried. And her eyes were quite reddish too. Made me cried more terrible la of course. Salam my atok haron and again, cried.

It's damn saddening =(

Selamat merdeka!!

Selamat Merdeka MALAYSIA!!!! I love you!!!!

Bought my books . Alang2 dah ade kat KL so might as well asked my mom to drive me there. I thought the famous KAMAL BOOKSTORE would look more like a single building bookstore or at least as fine as Pustaka Mukmin of Jln TAR
but
turned out the bookstore was a small kedai-runcit-look alike but of course, with thousands of medical books!

And looking at the amount...*jawdropped* Thanx to the ppl who attended my kenduri and menghulur2...At least I got some $$ to pay the books (am going to ketuk my mom for bigger amount..yg 500-600 ni let me use my money la)

Since my next pay has been put aside for the digicam I ordered from Lan (all the way from Japan) so Mak...prepare your duit gaji!!!!
But as Mak always said "takperla...lepas ni adik dah gi mak dah tak spend2 utk adik lagi"
So...there goes my guilt - the devil part of moi dah muncul~

Oh ye..just as a reminder..Things I must do before 16th September :

• Visit Pa's kubur. And one visit during Ramadhan, at least!
• Mak Pah's house. oih ni bape lame dah put on hold ni
• Balik Muar meet my atoks.
• If got time, meet my Tok Bik & Tok Aman (at Muar too)
  
• Pay Tok Tam & Tok Busu (female) a visit
• Futsal!!!!!!!
• Swimming!!
• Sunway Lagoon
• Cycling!!!!!
• Naik eye on Malaysia

Oih byknye!!!

Berusaha Naddzirahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

A : tak sehatla..batuk2 ni..demam..tak sedap badan. kalu Nad doctor bleh la checkkan #@
Me : Nad bkan doctor..tp nak pesan ni..kurangkan smoke..byk2 minum air kosong.nnt x dpt blakon impian Ilyana
A : Baek doctor mengsyorkan Sensodyne~