The day another father is lost

Losing someone we love is definitely something too painful of a news, eh?

Mak Pah : Assalamualaikum...adeekkkk atok dah takdeee *sound all cheerful and giddy up*

Me : Mak Pah ni janganlah cakap macam tu sedih tawww *started to cry again*

Mak Pah : Ala dekkk..nak buat camne. Ajal dan maut di tangan Tuhan..Tengok atok (referring to my atok pisah) tu senyumm je

Mak Pah : (and she repeated) tengok atok tu..senyum je..

That's why I wanna be there. Coz if I'm here alone I will keep on crying like a baby. But being around the aunts and uncles will definitely turn the atmosphere the other way round. >.<


To the man who raised up my mom and 12 other wonderful and kind hearted (eventho at times, very blunt :P) aunties and uncles..

To the man whom I always look up for a definition of a father (coz mine has *gone* long time ago)...


To the man whom I always call whevener I have big exams (UPSR, PMR, SPM, IB Exam) to ask to pray for my success..


And not to forget to the man whom genetics and facial resemblance I inherited from, for it has been a long 17 years (and more to come) without you,

Al Fatihah. May Allah bless the both of you.

And thanks for everyone especially Alya for the comforts. Your kindness-es are much appreciated :) Altho every text came in will always trigger another series of brokedown. (I don't know why I'm so cengeng like that) Maybe because I miss the family too much kot.

Rest assured I'm recovering now.

The last moment

It has been a ritual for our family to have potluck every Ramadhan. But since both of my grandparents' health condition are kinda worrying, we had to postpone it to the very last minute (for meself la). Alhamdulillah it still went on as planned.

At first I lost hope oredi.Tot they will never be a potluck for me this year. Hikhik.. Eventho the number of participants is lesser this year (Mak Limah, Uncle Halimi and Kak Jee couldn't make it) I still thank everyone from the bottom of my heart to make it happen..

Awal2 dah standby depan food. hihihi..

Heartiest thanks to Mak Pah for the awesome cookings. Kerabu kerang, sambal sotong, ayam masak kicap and special appearance of my bekal - RENDANG. And to CikPi for suggesting it out.

Menu of the nite : Scrumptuous daging masak lemak by Mak Tip, Yummy Ikan Goreng Masam Manis by Cik Kam, Tasty Bening Pucuk Paku with Mouthwatering Sambal by Cik Imah and the other 3 dishes aforementioned.

I said : Cepat2 pose ni untuk Mak Semah~

hikhikhikhik. Thanks everyone. I love uols. Mmmmmmwwaaahhhh!

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A part of my must-do thing during Ramadhan also is to visit Pa's kubur at Ampang. Urmm..tanah perkuburan Ampang also placed some other prominent figures like the late Saloma, P Ramlee and other big names. The place is as old as KL I guess. Tahun 1938 punya pun ado (T_T)"

My late father's late father. Urm..never had a chance to know him. Info about him pun I got from the biography book made by my cousin. Nobody really told me how he was, personality-wise (or I didn't really make an effort to ask? urmm). He was an ex Police and one of the top man in BPR back then if I'm not mistaken..

Pa's. He passed away during Ramadhan 1992 at JB. I was 4++ years old at that time. Quite young eh? urm..

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After we are done at kubur, we went to BB Plaza. I need to get another pair of jeans and my "bekalan cinta."

Bekalan cinta. XOXO

Some of ppl who didn't really understand my passion (acheehhh...) would go against me going through all the trouble to get copies of Shin Chan.But, u know love is blind. Hikhikhik..I need this to enlighten my bad day. I need this to "settle my business". I need this to go through the rainy days. huu...


To date, I have only these edition..

1, 2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 10, 14, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 32, 33, 34, 35, 43, 44, 47

Urm..must keep that in mind. I've bought two copies of #17 and #41 already!!

In the future, I would tell my future offspring "dulu _____ (insert appropriate title here) dpt SPM 10A sebab bace Shin Chan aa..."

And if anyone asked me how to survive IB and score a 42 (statement berlagak nauzubillah. kill kill kill die die die), I would say "bacalah Shin Chan". hikhik..

p/s : Anyone know where can I get a complete set of Shin Chan?? Please...pretty pretty please???

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And tonite I had this sudden craving of A&W's float and waffle. Took all the trouble to drive my nearly emptied-fuel Wira to A&W USJ. The journey was nervewrecking. The traffic was not good, the fuel kept on hitting the "zero" mark and I have only RM20 in my purse (deadbroke di akhir cuti. tsk. *menangis kuat*) but at the end of the day, I am one satisfied and happy lady.

At first I planned to hangout with Fuzah at A&W or Old Town White Coffee tonite.I texted her asking what she's doing tonite. But the message was still pending until now. urm...her phone might go crazy again or maybe urm whatever..

sugar high baby. grrrr....

Ahh..begitulah kisah hari-hari terakhirku di Malaysia. hurm.....

Next up - Summary of my summer holiday. hiks.

p/s : kak diah tag tu postpone dulu eh. heee...

Selamat merdeka!!

Selamat Merdeka MALAYSIA!!!! I love you!!!!

Bought my books . Alang2 dah ade kat KL so might as well asked my mom to drive me there. I thought the famous KAMAL BOOKSTORE would look more like a single building bookstore or at least as fine as Pustaka Mukmin of Jln TAR
but
turned out the bookstore was a small kedai-runcit-look alike but of course, with thousands of medical books!

And looking at the amount...*jawdropped* Thanx to the ppl who attended my kenduri and menghulur2...At least I got some $$ to pay the books (am going to ketuk my mom for bigger amount..yg 500-600 ni let me use my money la)

Since my next pay has been put aside for the digicam I ordered from Lan (all the way from Japan) so Mak...prepare your duit gaji!!!!
But as Mak always said "takperla...lepas ni adik dah gi mak dah tak spend2 utk adik lagi"
So...there goes my guilt - the devil part of moi dah muncul~

Oh ye..just as a reminder..Things I must do before 16th September :

• Visit Pa's kubur. And one visit during Ramadhan, at least!
• Mak Pah's house. oih ni bape lame dah put on hold ni
• Balik Muar meet my atoks.
• If got time, meet my Tok Bik & Tok Aman (at Muar too)
  
• Pay Tok Tam & Tok Busu (female) a visit
• Futsal!!!!!!!
• Swimming!!
• Sunway Lagoon
• Cycling!!!!!
• Naik eye on Malaysia

Oih byknye!!!

Berusaha Naddzirahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

A : tak sehatla..batuk2 ni..demam..tak sedap badan. kalu Nad doctor bleh la checkkan #@
Me : Nad bkan doctor..tp nak pesan ni..kurangkan smoke..byk2 minum air kosong.nnt x dpt blakon impian Ilyana
A : Baek doctor mengsyorkan Sensodyne~

It's in the gene

Pics & Post Courtesy to Abang's blog

Same tak same tak same tak?????
Same laaaaa same laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

R-L :
Mak Teh and Kin. same eye same teeth.
Busu and Kak Zura the eye the chin.
Anddddddddd to the left to the left.....
none other than my beloved papa. the cheek. the smile.

Pa..tho I couldn't think of any memorable memories with u...but I do remember singing to Suci Dalam Debu and also talking to u about tadika (wey btul ke tak ehh?) when u called.

Am I just too small or am I just too bimbo (byk makan smut kot sbb tu tak ingat) for not remembering anything?

Miss u too pa.

AlFatihah - Mohammed Suffian bin Mohamad Yusof
18 May 1951-18 March 1992