Aku adalah emo lagi psycho

Seriously, this exam pressure has started to getting on me.

Sumpah stress.

Those things that really make me ticked off :

- balik Malaysia. or anything about balik Malaysia. Doesn't matter what part of balik Malaysia lah. Kau balik aku tak balik ke. Kau balik awal aku balik lambat ke. Kenapa kau tak balik ke. Kalau aku ada duit, aku balek. Kalau aku banyak masa, aku balek. Kalau aku takde manyak exam camni, aku balek. So yeah, i don't have money, i don't have enough time and i have loads of exam so I can't go back.

- Seeing the balance in my account. Although actually I have a saving account, but i really don't want to touch 'em. Lucky me I've still got people owing me some monay..Money makes the world goes around. But in my case, money makes me stay put in Cork. lolz. And money makes my bestfren sad too :( Please, don't be sad my frenggg..

- Seeing the amount of things that I need to revise within this short period of time. Yes, this is my own fault. Procrastinate lagi kan. ficketyfucketyfish

- oh i miss kueytiow goreng! especially mom's. but at this moment, any kind of kueytiow goreng would do me good. cork oh cork napa takde kueytiow :(

- i really wanna go somewhere but reason #2 doesn't allow me to do so. i wanna go to maksemah's. untung2 bleh dpt mkn kueytiow :) or i wanna go to wawa's. or to anyone who would actually can calm me down. blergh.


Arghhh...really need to KEEP IT COOL..KEEP IT COOL..

oh by the way, sapa yang terkena atau bakal kena serangan emo saya, SORRY!

A denied escapism

I am still in Cork. And I guess I'm not going anywhere this week *sigh*

It all began with the impulsive moment I had last week. A snowballing effect of stresses has made me crazy enough to book a ticket outside from Cork. A much needed escapism I call it.

A few days after my ticket has been confirmed it started to snow all over UK and even Ireland (and Cork!) I knew this is extraordinary.

But I never thought the sudden change in weather would cost me a heartbreak (acheh~) this weekend. When Ryanair has started to cancel flights last Monday, I began to start worrying. It got worse when Yahoo! news came out with a very devastating news saying that it's going to be an extreme and heavy snow the day I should be departing from Cork.

So the day has arrive. I've been constantly checking Ryanair website for updates since the night before and it all seemed good until this morning. But the friend said it was not at her side. And I started to tell myself to prepare for the worst. Prepare for the worst.

Nonetheless, I still kept hope that I would be able to fly to her. To get a fresh new air and to get around with people I'm comfortable with.

At the very last minute I packed my things and went to the airport, checked in and waited at the departure hall. Hurmm..it all looked so good at that moment.

The first announcement were made and at that instance I knew that it's not going to happen.
The second announcement and it's confirmed.

I am very frustrated but in a way I'm thankful because the flight is cancelled. Had it been delayed, I would not be able to get my refunds. So I went straightaway log on to the website to send my refund application and waited for my partner in crime to arrive to share the bad news.

But hey, I can still handle the frustration though. Even there are many a few regrets...
Like MacBabe not to be able to get her screen replaced.
And I will still stuck in the same 'ol Cork
And we had to cancel the date this Sunday

Maybe there are some plus points of me staying here rather than enjoying my ass there...
Like starting to dive into my notes
Or organizing my messy life
Or I may start appreciating Cork? (blah.)


I might just start swimming now. Maybe I can reach Malaysia just in time for Wani's birthday celebration? :D

Terkapai-kapai mencari pelampung

A few trivia about me :

- I tend to connect things quite fast. For instance, given a situation when A is teasing B with a few words that only can be understood by them (private jokes, private secret). Sometimes I'd like to think I can decipher the coded words they used. And hence the assumption made in my mind (which most of the time turned out to be quite true) So in the end, I knew one new secret/gosip of B :P Sometimes I also could understand some guys talk which explained why I used to have a few best guy friends back then..

- Despite the infamous assumption of me being the gossip girl, I can keep secret quite well. I know when there is a need to zip off my mouth and never let the cat out of the bag. So you, the one who went bouncing-bouncing on my gymball and pull that you-are-not-supposed-to-know-that please-don't-tell-anyone look, your secret is safe with me. *wink* I can be a good secret keeper too, you know?

- However, in contrast, I find it rather excruciatingly painful not to have anyone from the same time zone (or better, same place) that I could trust to share my thoughts with. Back then in KMB, I would always reach my phone and dialled Ida, Wani or Fuzah's number whenever I feel the need to burst out something. The pain is really growing in me that I'm afraid the benign one might turn into malignant. The time difference between me and my life saviours in Malaysia is too long that I find it hard to meet them online. With classes going around during the day, it's too late to catch them up online everytime I log into my YM. Life has been quite tough these days. The hatred growing inside me is snowballing that I am starting to giving up already :(

- I tend to imagine each words I heard/read. Sometimes it can be quite annoying speshly when I read/heard something disgusting. And sometimes it is kinda torturing to imagine the unimaginable. Oh if only you could know what I mean...

Okay people. That's all for tonight. Am spending the rest of the night in the New Moon with my favourite bloodsucker Mr Edward *hot* Cullen :) Have a nice weekend everyone~

*angau*

Meroyan

I miss my phone.......

He's stranded in Dublin now :(

I miss my MacBabe.........

Yesterday I had a bad dream -> My current balance is €209 but my credit card total is €210.

Up until now, I'm still afraid to check the balance in the account and the credit card amount. Huhu..


Welcome 2009. An interesting opening indeed, huh? :(

Stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Oh stress mengapa tiada berhenti

Hai.

Blog sudah kembali cerah. Exam telah tahamat..

Tapi stress itu masih lagi bertapak didalam sahanubari kerana :

a) Apa yg saya rancang tidak terjahadi. Nak gi town - tup tup ptg ada meeting. Nak buat itu - tup tup jadi ini. Tup tap tup tap saya stay dlm bilik sahaja hari ini. Weh ini benar2 mengundang seteheress nih.

b) MacBabe cedera :( Screen cracked berbentuk spider web. Harap tihidak menjalar lah. Babe I'm so sorry....arghh steheressssssssssssssssssssssssss

c) Mahakan dengan banyaknya. Bahab* pun kalah. Behenciiiiiiiiiiiiii.

d) Terdehelete satu message berharga :(

Ok bye.

Behenciiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Kecil hati di pagi aidiladha

I am not going to..
Going to i am not..
Not going to i am..

Am I not going to?

Smile, for the life is too short to be wasted on this small-heartache

:(

Hiatus

When nowadays peeps are in the mood of going blogging, I am totally heading on the opposite way. There are just too many things that robbed my mood away. Mainly on the inexistence of internet in my house that forced me to be a parasite to others'. And other contributory factors that I can not include here. Once I get my life reorganize, we shall meet again (which I hope will be anytime soon). For the time being, if you wanna get some entertainment and a rough idea what's happening in Cork, tune to http://the63s.blogspot.com

yang bengang pagi2 kena kayuh beskal balik umah dari clashduv sebab baru tau pagi ni ada lab physio damn it la internet takde ni gua rasa duduk zaman batu sangatttt,

-nadz-

The day I felt like a true anak yatim.

Don't be startled by the title. I have always been anak yatim since '92, remember?

By the way saya minta sesapa yang terbaca post ini sedekahkan AlFatihah to my dad. May you rest in peace, daddy.

Back to the main story..today mom went back to kampung after she got news that my atok Pisah pulak fell ill. Mak went back to kampung with MakPah (WITHOUT ME SINCE I WAS ABOUT TO SETTLE SOMETHING TODAY BUT HEY IF SHE TOLD ME EARLIER I WOULD HAVE CANCELLED THE THING AND TAG HER ALONG OKAYYYY). Bro went out breaking fast with the loved one. And I was left alone to experience the ultimate feeling of being a loner. Hahaha...emo drama queen exaggeration disitu, tapi wtf, memang betul ia sungguh mengharukan.

And it's even sadder when I only got to know that I'm gonna be left alone for today about 2 hours before Maghrib with high possibility that I'm gonna be stuck in the traffic jam (meaning => I have NO food for berbuka). But luckily thank God the traffic wasn't that bad afterall. It took me about 30 minutes to get home from Subang Parade (from the usual 15 minutes) and the slow traffic kinda give me chance to think what should I eat for berbuka.

Stopped by at the shops in my housing area. Bought macaroni from the convenient store and bought soup from the tiny mini so-called bazar Ramadhan. After everything had happened today I kinda lost my appetite already so I settled for this :

Macaroni with soup.

MAK SEMAH, KALAU MAK SEMAH BACE JANGAN RISAU ATOK OKAY JE. ADIK PUN TATAU TOK SAKIT APE LAGI SEBAB MAK BALIK KAMPUNG CEPAT2 TINGGALKAN ADIK SORANG2. HUU..PASTU ADIK TAK CALL LAGI MAK TANYE KHABAR ATOK SEBAB TERLUPA. KALAU DAH TAU NANTI ADIK BTAU MAK SEMAH YE

p/s : non-mak semah are not allowed to question further on the abovementioned statement. Thank you.


oh by the way here's a picture from our small get together at Hakim last nite. It's unplanned actually. Earlier yesterday I met up with Chemi, Shera and Fuzah for berbuka puasa since Chemi is gonna leave to Indonesia tomorrow and this might be the last time I see her for the next erm..11 months? Later that nite my ex roomate texted and ajak-ed us to meet up so I ajak-ed Syafiq and the other to join us to heat up (menghangatkan?) the mini gathering. So walla, this is the end product!

picture credit to mamak hakim yang tak abis2 dingorat Mala. haha

P/S : excuse the language. Gwe dah ala ala pening ni memikirkan kebangkrapan yang melanda diri setelah melakukan kemaskini akaun hari ini. Huuu.....

I am so tired this few days. Tired physically. Tired emotionally. Spiritually pun agak-agak tired gak.

Yesterday I went swimming alone. Yes, alone.
And today I played futsal at somewhere around Bukit Jalil. Some people asked whether my legs are okay or not. Err...honestly I don't know how to define okay la. The bump is still there but I still can walk properly and run and swim. That's why I've been challenging the legs to do some rough activities to find out whether it's okay or not. But not too much la. Main futsal pun takut-takut je. Orang sepak masuk goal pun blur2 biarkan. Nak rebut bola dari orang pun takut2. But I really need to go for a checkup since I need a qualified person to clarify the err..okayness of my legs.

Damn it la. Seriously penat secara emosional memudaratkan diri.Plus, the only hope to runaway from the everything next week is lost due to some reasons. I hope this pain is taken away from me. The faster the better :-(



pi/es: smuorangprivateprivateblog:(wapunnakprivatejugeklahcamneh:(

pi/pi/es : esok reunion! Whoaaahhhh tak sabaarrrrrr


Eh cop. Who watched Olympics' opening? Cool giler kan the drummsss (smpat tengok yg tu kejap and a bit of the dancing since I went out for dinner with mak and fuzah). Damn nanti kawen nak ade macamtu bleh ke tak aa...

Mahu pulang raya!!

I've been kinda busy lately. Terisi lah sikit hidup ni dengan benda2 yang berfaedah kan..

First thing up is my SK Hicom batch 99 reunion this Saturday. After much hassle and deep thoughts we finally decided to do it at Hotel Singgahsana, PJ, all thanks to Farah and her cousin for the special rate. RM30 per pax tu mungkin not bad la kot kan? Yesterday I went to settle everything with the hotel. Thanks it all went smoothly so far. Hopefully more of us could make it la especially when we kind of running out of time actually.

But thank God I could make some time for swimming yesterday. Lame dah tak bersuKAN. maKAN je banyak la...*sigh* Tapi hairannya kakiku sakit semacam yesterday. I dunno why. Yup of course, the dislocated patella nye kaki la..Entah mengapa kau mendugaku si kaki

After swimming we went to William pulak. Cancel out the slimming swimming effect. Sabar je la

Today I had a meeting at PWTC regarding Pre Departure. Anyway if any of u are going to UK and Ireland to further your studies, do come to our pre-departure program anjuran Kementerian Pengajian Tinggi and dikelolakan by Kelab UMNO Luar Negara. It's going to be held at PWTC on 24th of August 2008 (Sunday). It's going to be a good help for those who are going this year coz we've arranged a few things which could ease your journey to the west. Seniors/representatives of almost every university in UK and Eire will be there if u need anything, aite?

Eh tetibe iklan pulak kan...

After the meeting Wany and I went to OU. Went to Seoul Garden and as expected, I'm too full to go shopping after that. Plus the kaki did not allow me to go more kilometres so I went back home instead...

Anyway here goes the 2nd iklan. Anyone interested in Escada Sunset Heat perfume for women? Selling at RM 119 for 100ml, compared to normal price retailing at RM280. It's a graabbbbb weyhhh....

and the price is still negotiable!

if u are interested, do mail me at nzra_007@yahoo.com . Thanks!

Sunset Heat for women has notes of papaya, lemon, mango sherbet, pineapple mousse, watermelon, peach lotus flower, hibiscus, sandalwood, musk and amber

On other note (baru teringat nak citer pasal pe lepas tengok tajuk), I'm envious when I heard some seberang laut student get to go back home or be at home for Aidilfitri this year. The thing is, Syawal is soooo close to the end the summer holiday. But my class starts at 22nd of September, and if I were to skip class.....I will need AT LEAST 2 weeks. 2 weeks to skip class...bagai agak berat sahajaaa... And by that time, my Garda card will be expired already. (Garda card=sorta immigration card for students or orang luar yg belajar/menetap di Ireland)

Tapi bila dipikir2kan realiti.....

1. sebenarnya saya harus pulang awal membantu saudara pengarah sambutan pelajar baru menguruskan sambutan pelajar baru, ada hati plak nak balik lambat
2. saya juga harus membantu pengarah sambutan raya utk raya tahun ni, ada hatiii lagi nak balik lambat
3. sebenarnya saya harus la suck up the realiti yang once sudah menjadi pelajar seberang laut,beraya2 bersama keluarga tuh adalah satu bonus sahajalah. kalau tak dapat tu duduk je lah diam2 jgn coba2 ponteng kelas!

hwaaa....cooooobaaaaannnnnnn

to update or to not update

I have uploaded Aussie pictures and kept it in draft. And I have a conflict whether to publish it or not.

But I don't think people reads my blog. So who cares whether it has been updated or not kan. Tunggu lah mood baik datang kembali...

Anyway I'm in Sydney staying at Epul's place. Epul sedang emosi melihat kerisik kelapa yang digoreng tetapi tak terguna. Kami baru selesai memasak nasi kerabu dan ayam percik. Walaupun rasa seperti....erm...agak syaiton. ahahhahahahhaa..

Ok sumpah dah mengarut. Bye

The Exam...

S to the U to the C to the K to the S

SUCKS big time.

Maybe I should consider working back in MPH. *sigh*


++ stress sebab stress++
+++stress sebab holiday yg patutnye jadi penghilang stress jadi pembuat stress+++
++++ stress sebab kat msia nanti takde kete. ohh patah kaki ++++

stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Losing the sanity

I am so not myself today.

Was down with the biochem test. Tried to go on with the revision but failed :( I wanted to spend the money in the cafe for a therapy BUT due to the construction going on the College Road, bekalan air was cut down. Bengang bengang bengang. I tried to sleep off the resentment with my power nap strategy but again, it failed miserably.

Then Adilah came and inspired me to go to town. It was pouring down when I set off but I was so determined. Hopped on the bus and minutes later I realized I was, actually in town. Went to Zamzam to buy paratha and something convenient for exam's week. Went to Tesco. Bought things and took bus back to home.

Sekali balik-balik sedar-sedar 40euro abis. Huh...

But it's okay. at least I felt better now :)

Gibberish

2 minggu jalan-jalan...mak saye yang pakaikan stokin kanan ngan kasut. Now that I have to stand on my own feet, I have to find ways of wearing sock on my own. Struggle-struggle 5 mins, walla...bolehla tahan...sebak pulak rase. hehehehe...emo~

I am currently repositioning my studying area to fit my unfit leg. Lenguh la study kat meja bile the leg is left hanging gittew. SO I'm studying on my bed. Phuhh...harap-haraplah boleh. I used to study on the bed during my SPM days and IB days. Should be okay I guess. Cuma kena menghadap view yang very the unpleasant sahajalah. Cobaan...

Since I'm staying with people from Iceland, I had to wear extra clothing in my own room. Benci bukan? Plus I'm having fever + runny nose at the moment. Demam tension..heh..

Medical bill settled. Queries on claim pon dah hantar kat En Jamal. Waiting for the reply. Appointment for 2nd varicella jap pon dah buat. Terbang lagi 40eu lah gamaknye..Printing dah pass kat Adilah. Now I am left with some money to be banked in. Tatau bile nak panjat bukit tu gi bank....Maybe I'm gonna do it next week sekali arung gi amik varicella jap.

Today I'm fasting (insyaAllah). Food pun takde. Nak keluar pun susah. Kitchen like hell with occupied devils. So might as well fast. Bleh la shed off fat yang dikumpul the last 2 weeks...hee...

Yada yada bla bla...complaint je keje. Study tak lagi!

Lowest point

The reasons I don't wanna go back to Cork :

• Balik bilik. Berselerak. Kotor. Keadaan membencikan. Just another one and half month to go Nadz..
  
• Exams. In less than 3 weeks oh damn it............How am I gonna sort things out
  
• Leftover classes. Nak jalan kesana sini with this condition. I don't have problem walking on a straight road but to walk to Brookfield, I had to climb over 1 steep hill..which is very hard for me.
  
• Bank and bills settlement. Money to bank in. Medical bill and claim to be made
  
• Future house. Umah idaman sudah diambil oleh orang yg should understand how badly we need the house that can accomodate 6 ppl. huermm...itulah realiti kehidupan yang sedikit kejam *sigh*
• Medical checkups and physiotherapy sessions. Jauh nak gi CUH...taxy lagi..itu lagi..ini lagi..
  
• The responsibilities. With exams approaching and also urusan sambutan pelajar baru and things.
  

I don't wanna blame my leg. I don't wanna blame my fate. But I just want to let it out. At this point, I think I am at my weakest position. Physically I may look all happy and all giddy up but truth be told, I think I just wanted to give up and run away. Everything seem so hard and goes against me...

But I have faith in Him that everything destined for me, happened for good reasons. I'll try my best to hold onto that to keep me going to the other end. I don't want to lose my sanity..

I am not giving up. I am just struggling to gain my self confidence back. It will take time, but I'll promise not to let down of myself. Never!

O Allah. Make easy, and do not make difficult :|

Brugge, Belgium

Brugge, Belgium Reunited. hehhehehe..

Still wearing a pant eventho my leg is casted. Gigih tak gigih la kan...but the crutch mencacatkan keadaan...cisss

Yummy waffles

Tappestry

Boat ride around Brugge. I hit my leg when I stepped into the boat. It hurted like helllllll okayhh...Hopefully everything is fine :(

Sadly to say people, eventho I am currently on holiday , I just received the most painful news I ever heard. One of the painful since 2004.....Hopefully this holiday could take away this pain out from me. I don't want to go back to Cork :(

Like she said, maybe Allah has a better plan for me. Fine. I'll just live with that..

Tekanan perasaan

It's so hard to do everything......everything including covering up my feet with duvet.

I want to shower. I want to move around. But all I can do is lying still on the bed.

I feel so hopeless and useless. Last night I went to sleep with the hope that today's gonna be better than yesterday.

Than when I think of how disorganized my things are in my apartment...erghhh..I've got my laundry to be done. My bed to be tidied up....everything was put on hold because of the games but now I can't do anything................................................

Now I feel like jumping off 80 storeys building. Biar senang everything takyah susahkan orang!

Wa.... Rabbi Yassir wa la tu'assir...

Cork Games disaster

The day started with a heavy rain. And all of us were kinda worried. But we moved on like nothing happens. Bajet semangat kesukanan la~

The game went on. And we lost the first game. The day got worst. Light storm it was. It had to be stopped several times. Until our second match against the Galway girls..

We played as usual. I took my GS position. The enthusiasm has reduced to 50% already but we played the game for the sake of err...playing the game. Until something happened..

A collision happened between me and one other girl. I fell down and I knew my knee was twisted coz it hurts like hell. So I laid down on earth and kept on shouting "sakettttt...lutut saye sakettttt"

They thought it was a normal cramp. Not until they seen my retarded twisted knee cap. My patella was dislocated laterally. At that time I was so nervous thinking how are they going to handle this extra heavyweight me to the side....so I kept on ranting and ranting...*sigh* One of my nitemare materialised.

They convinced me to let them lift me. I tried to walk. But it hurts like $£^$(@ so I gave up. They lifted me up out from the court and I tried to stand by myself but failed and I passed out a little while while waiting for the AMBULANCE to come. My 1st ride by ambulance. 15-20 mis later the paramedics came. Asked me what happened and stuff. Lifted me to the ambulance. Took my blood pressure. IV dripped me with morphine. 3 doses of them if I'm not mistaken since I kept on rating the painfulness scale 8 and 7. Hehehehh..They were so nice. Paul and Jen. My hands were so cold that they took sometime before they put on morphine on me. My blood pressure also was so low at that time.

I reached CUH later. Nida accompanied me. I was put on the "laughing gas" that made me felt more lightheaded. I was brought to Accident & Emergency department. It was kinda crowded that time but luckily I didn't have to wait long until I was treated. The doctor sedated me so I didn't realize how and when did they relocated my patella. Nida said the doctor even had to think and pause a while when he was relocating my patella. All I knew after I open my eyes again was I was all wrapped with this black thingy and the pain didn't go away either.

I was put on NaCl and oxygen so I had to wait for sometime before I was released. Called my mom but guess she didn't get the real idea but she did sounded worry by the way. Approx at 4.15pm I was released from A&E and Mr Muizz was already waiting for me outside. I had to rely on the walking stick!!!!!!! I am partially handicapped and it was so hard to walk on the walking stick!!!!!!!!!!

When I fell all I think was how are they going to lift me up. No other worrisome problem. But now that I've to lay still on the bed and rely on the walking stick. It is so hard even to go to pee and I seriously felt like breaking down. Man..it's so hard...and painful too :(

My team and I when I collapsed outside the court. Managed to pull a smile..

My dislocated patella. Cacats!!

At the treatment room. They cut my pants off!!! Waaa.....rosak my favourite sluar!!!!

The x-ray room. Didn't realize when did they take my x-ray and all..

High on morphine and sedated. Been put on oxygen..

My leg..for the next few weeks. :(

Tell me how am I gonna go on my holiday. How am I gonna take my flights? How am I gonna push my bag while struggling to bring up myself from one place to another. *sigh*

My next appointment with the orthopaedic is on Wednesday and I'm gonna leave Cork on Thursday. Hope things will get better somewhere in between...I'm gonna be staying in senior's house since I'm not fit enuff to walk up the stairs in my apartment..

Thanks Paul & Jen for the kindness. Thanks Nida for accompanying me and gathering up my things. Thanks Muizz for the ride. Thanks Dayah for giving up ur room. Thanks everyone for the concern... :)

COBAAN...~

Arosa oh Arosa..

Today we went for a house-hunting appointment. The house i located strategically close to the Cork University Hospital, and it is just 10-15minutes walkaway from Brookfield. And of the utmost important, it can occupy 6 person with 6 bedrooms. Now how desirable is that??

Before we went, I called the landlord. I did ask her about us moving in during late of May since we are still bounded to the current contract and the sponsors are still paying for our current apartment. She said "YES" and I was so happy.....but not so long until we actually met and she said "NO". Guess it was a miscommunication or just plain misunderstanding T_T

By the way the house is superb. There are 6 bedrooms and yet there is still a living room. The kitchen is quite spacey and the backyard was awesome. Before the bad news were broken we even imagined ourselves getting the house and started to choose which bedroom we wanted to..

Alas, that was all left in our imagination. Goodbye our dream house. Hope nobody wants you so u'll finally be ours! Muahahahhahaha...in ur dream la!

Most of the rooms are decorated with flowery wallpaper. Damn nice.

The kitchen.

The living room. Small and cozy. :(

Had I have some €€€€€€ I would just go for this house...this house is close to perfect! Guess it's just not our rezeki..

Why am I all-geared to find the house? I dunno. Maybe the current situation has just made me wanna leave this place ASAP so I'll no longer need to confront any unpleasant face(s). This is just so torturing. Knowing that u have to breathe the same oxygen with the ppl u don't really want to, it just make me wanna puke to death.....

Castlewhite Apartment. Mine is on the 2nd floor and Wany+Mihah is on the 3rd floor. So glad I have them as my jiran coz I just could runaway upstairs had I feel not good.

O our Lord, make easy, and do not make difficult :)

OMG It's been 6 months......sudah ENAM bulan since I left Malaysia. And there's about 2 and half months till we meet again. Waaaaaa.....homesickkkkkkk =(
Cepatla April...............saya mahu jumpe mak sayeeeeee...... *humming to Fazley's Bila April* eee...gile lame!!!

Writer's block (la sangat...)

Well, I guess this time around, my post exam syndrome is kinda passive, but I can assure u the ASSessment went excruciatingly painful. I don't expect those tiny weeny little bits super detailed and specific things would come out, like those N-acetylmuramic acid, weird alpha and beta glucose linkage yada yada bla bla bla...It was like the, most painful 60 minutes (48 minutes actually. I had to give them up earlier before my brain explodes) brain torturing session I ever had. U were forced to squeeze out your brain juice or any cerebrospinal fluid u have there.

But I'm glad I had those mnemonic and the amino acid interactive game Dr.KD put up was so helpful. Hadn't been them I would lose the lovely +1 marks and it'll cost me another -0.5 marks. The thing is...we just had Biochem this semester. The lecturer was in rush is one thing. And the syllabus being complicated is another. We had the nucleic acid lecture in the last 10 minutes of our lecture!!

And with the International Cultural Week went on the very same day I had the test, it just made it even more painful. It's a legacy for our batch. Even if we did, delegated some tasks to the 2nd years, we are still the main player. And to not being able to stay with them thru the hard times, I felt so bad. That's the gist of working in team. U see some ppl's reaching their boiling temperature. U see some faces turning green. U see ppl's sacrificing their sleeping time or even starved throughout the day. That's why I still showed up my face even the centre of my mind has been focusing on the Biochem test. HOWEVER with the few minutes appearance I made on the two days event, I still could feel the tension though =P
But my presence wasn't worth it pun. I know they would nail the event even without my presence. It was proven pun. And to see their pictures together, it just made me a bit sad...I feel so left out.
It's better for me not to see the pictures or I might go sorrowing again =)

And heyyyy Exam's timetable is out! Here goes :

• 6 May => Physiology (wtf?!?!!?)
• 8 May => Fundamental of Dental Practice
• 12 May => Anatomical Basis of Dentistry
• 13 May => Fundamental of Dental Practice (oral)
• 16 May => Biochemistry
• 19 May => Principles of Human Structure

o.O it ends at 19 May!!!!!!! I have 14 days before I go back...and I am seriously thinking of changing the flight tickets earlier....