THE results

Alhamdulillah =)
Tho the marks are a bit macam syaiton, but, hey, I am soooooo relieved. I am moving to 2nd year!
Physiology as always tak mengecewakan saya, thanx physio!
Bleh lah keluar beli buku...heeeee......
Come next year I don't want to play no more. aceh..yeye je..Time to get serious. Bad marks are bad omen untuk kesihatan pelajaran. Harus diberambuskan dari hidup..

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Yesterday I went to Sunway Pyramid.for the first time.after the new building has been built. It was quite okay lah. Then I went to Mak Pah's house. Makan keli sambal. Yum yummyyy..And also helped Ain with her chemistry.

Today I went to PKNS Complex and SACC. Keluar membeli baju sopan. And found out my new style of wearing the hijab. Coz I wasnt quite confident to wear selendang before this kerana muka ku bulat bulat. Nanti orang tgk ku bagai mahu disepak2 kerana nampak bulat-bulat seperti bola. Then I remembered when I went to Klantan last year, one of the shopkeeper taught me how to wear selendang and not to look like a ball. So in the surau I borrowed Fuzah's shawl...coba-coba..Sekali rasa cumils. Terus turun beli pashmina. ngehehehehe..

*perasan cumils*

One of the reason why I wanted to change the style is because I'm gonna go to Aussie. I'm not going to bring my iron with me. Nanti tudung keromot keromot. Maka dengan pashmina, anda tidak perlulah risaukan keromot keromot!

At SACC I met Kak Su, Abg Den, Shah, Ain. Jo kat dalam bilik buat return. And 2 new guys. Am was on leave. Huhu...borak2 lepak2 jap...Then I went to Focus Point to buy this sunnies. It was on 40% discount so ok la...

Sunnies biase je.

Tepi dia chunted.

Ahhhh...okeh. Rasa L to the E to the G to the A, LEGA! 2nd year, here I come =)

p/s : esok kena gi PD amik specs tertinggal..waaaa...membazir minyakkk..pastu jumpe si kecik Kak Jid sebab dier nak belanje sayeeeee =D

Arrrrrggghhhh

Today's exam was a BLAST. NOT!!!!!!!!!!!

The paper was tough, really really really really tough that I was very close to hypoxia just now. It was divided into 4 sections :

• Section 1 was on General Dentistry. I never thought that the question on THE SIX STEP HAND WASHING TECHNIQUE would ever come out. Didn't even give a damn about that topic anyway. And questions on smoking cessation. I thought the lecture was more like a general knowledge lecture, not an exam killer question one!!!!!!!!!!! And how could I remember the ingredients of toothpaste..Arghhhhhh~~~ Luckily other questions were answerable though. But still....arghh!!! Tension gler okay

• Section 2 was on Material Science. This one I felt like pinching my lecturer sampai lebam (hahaha..sukatiiiii jerr) Tak ku sangka siap kena sketch here and there some more! And those questions on Per-Ingvar Branemark, cold working etc etc...arghhhh saye tidak memberikan perhatian langggssunnngggg~~~~~~

• Section 3 was os Behavioural Science. I answered question on Psychology. Dunno what was I crapping all along.

• Section 4 was on Ethics and Law. It should be easy and pretty straight forward provided I eat and digest and do not defecate the notes Mr KD given but sadly I did. So the rest was history...

Remember I was down with the Biochem exam? Yeah, the nitemare materialized. I passed cukup2 makan jaa...Kalau kurang sesuap nasik mampus dah jatuh fail. Surprisingly I felt relieved rather than frustrated. But that was not a good sign though. Since when do I satisfied with the least one (hamboi statement bongkak giler)!! Gonna strive harder for the finals. Luckily it was only 15% of my overall results (15% from 1st assessment, 10% from lab reports). So gonna strive for the best during finals. Aihh..cuak2...

Atau mungkin memang saya dah menjadi semakin kurang bijak akhir-akhir neh? Atau adakah saya memang tak bijak langsung? Hehehehe...mula lah tu nak paranoid..

He's coming back

After he went out from the glass door, turning to somewhere or nowhere....then found in JCo in Pavilion queing up to buy doughnuts (which I myself haven't even tasted before!!!!), I think, he's slowly coming back to me..


Yes...creeping slowly onto my arm and lifts up my energy. Hoo yeahhh..

tapi apsal lambat sangat aa..naik tongkang kot datang dari melesia??






Anatomy result was out. Alhamdulillah, I passed but not a good one though. But it's better than before I guess. Now all I need to do is strive hard for the finals. BUT I havent even started anatomy yet!!!!!!!! Gonna get physiology done by today and start it tomorrow, insyaAllah...yo yo je neh...

Once I got my pace back, I'm gonna race with all my heart til the end!!! ni apahal poyo sangat neh..

p/s : a big thanks to kak saadah for listening. At this moment, I admint I am being selfish. I need someone who really listens to me...but sadly no one really does :(

A for Alhamdulillah

Today I went back to Castlewhite. Alhamdulillah....laundry settled :)
I've finished packing for my trip too. Hopefully nothing will be left out...

And my physiology test's result is out. A for Alhamdulillah... :) I just can't stop smiling, since yesterday.. =) (=

One bad thing happened, many good ones came. Heeee......Alhamdulillah :)

Tomorrow (errr...which is actually today la kot) is gonna be my 1st appointment with orthopaedic, Mr Fleming.

errrr...saye rase saye dah boleh jalan lari-larilah. boleh lah nak gi gym pas ni..heeee...dayah takde dier dah gi german takde sape nak marah dahhh...muahaha...

BUT i almost trip down the stairs at Castlewhite. Luckily I managed to hold onto the wall and Wany was with me. Else I woulnt't know what's more to be dislocated. So I guess I have to tarik balik the above statement.

p/s : harini saya call bespreng saya, Cik Wani kedondeng yg hampir menjadi tanggang itu. hah macam tu lah diorg ni kalau saya tak call mmg tak contact lah kami sampai bile2. mmg nak kena pukul. saye windu sangat nak borak-borak ngan dia tapi sebab saya call pakai kredit orang jadi tokleh la call lame-lame :) sabar ye...pelan-pelan saya nak contact balik kawan-kawan lame okayhh...

Blues

I've got no mood to update the blog but heh...I'm still updating the blog.
Got my biochem results today..so far...okaylaaaa...I got honors only. But glad that I passed. 17 of my classmates failed o.O gler cuaks.

I just realised that my physiology test is next week and my anatomy test is the week after next week. Gile cepatttttttttttttttt!!!

That means....my mom is coming in about one month..and I'm going back in about another 2 months ++ (heh...in denial mode untuk mengatakan exam makin mampirrrr)

And I'm soooooo....happy today...becoz..becozz....erm....heeee....happy lah kire-kirenye =D

Still waiting for the stork to bring my baby....cepatlaaaa baby sampaiii~~

Last but not least, pesanan dari saya :

Physiology test saye dapat A

Alhamdulillah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

snyum sampai ke superior orbital fissure =D

Shattered heart

Angin harini bertiup kencang sampai rase nak teterbang. Rase kurus sekejap. heheh

"heart broken"

The news on the results spread fast. No, they may not know my result but the fact that our Malaysian friend got highest marks in our class really got me into hard times. They (med studs friends) are expecting my result is as good as his when the fact that it's totally the opposite.

No, I didn't fail. I just don't get good results.

I find it hard to look up the pages of topic covered in the previous test. Hati (atau jantung?) saya berdegup kencang. There's this one stinging pain that really hurts.
Usually I would opt to leave the hurting memories behind. Dulu ketika form 4 saya fail Biology kerana melabel struktur jantung. Since that I never dare to even learn them and I started to hate them. But this time around I won't repeat the same old mistakes.

My mom believes in me.
Fuzah said I just need time and space to alter my studying skills. She has been with me in my 5 (SMSS) + 2 (KMB) years and she knows eventually I would do better.

I wanna rise and shine. >.<

even if it gets me creeping before I could stand up and run, I really wanna shine..

.haha emo betul. baru 1st test.

~Those who cannot learn from history, are doomed to repeat it~

The day I cried again

Anatomy assessment result is out.
Honestly it's very frustrating yet it's expected.
When I mean VERY it's really a very very frustrating.
I know I'm never good in Science, Biology dan kini Anatomy?
And I'm never good in early days exams.

arghhh..
Maybe He wanted me to put more effort.
Maybe He wanted me to stop fooling around.
Maybe He wanted me to change.
Yes, He has His reason for every single thing happened.


Thanks Wani & Fuzah - you both are always my guardian angel.
and Thanks Sarah for the hug (my housemate happened to pass by when I was crying on the phone)

I miss home >.<

Alhamdulillah...

Syukurku kehadrat Ilahi atas segala nikmatNya.
Terima kasih atas anugerah ini, Ya Allah...

I'm just extremely happy.
Tho I sucked in HL subjects..but...wtffff...getting above 40 is not even in my dream.

Thanks to the friends who stayed by me.
KMB friends who stayed by my side. Motivated each other so we never give up.
SuperDearieSayngGile friends..the ones who stayed by me during ups and downs.Giving me strength to move on. Accompanied me here and there, even if I dragged them to spend holidays in library to do my EE research..
Mom and Bro who kept on supporting me..

I Love u all...mmmmuaaahhhhhhhhhh
thanx.....thanx a lot

Ireland...here I come~

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kebaabooom


2 years of pain.
Countless efforts.
Infinite heartbreaks.

Mental endurance. Hang in there Nadddddd....

Ya Allah. Ku berserah segalanya kepadaMu. Permudahkanlah perjalananku Ya Rabbi. Perlancarkanlah jalan hidupku Ya Rahman. Kau kurniakanlah aku kejayaan Ya Rahim. Sesungguhnya kepada engkaulah aku berserah, dan padaMu jua ku meminta pertolongan. Bantulah hambaMu ini Ya Allah..