Togetherness

It has been a while since all of us last sit and talk and laugh.

Having dinner together has never failed to tie the bond tighter.

But with exams coming up, commitments and so many things came up, don't u all realise that we've become so distant?

I miss those days when sit together laugh together eat together.

Have I told u all that I love us?

p/s : jangan salah faham, kami tak bergaduh, kami cuma tak selalu bersama-sama sahaja.

The Cold Cork

The winter this year is wayyyyyy colder as compared to last year..

Last year it was a rainy winter, the same old Irish winter style - no snow but a lot of waterrrrr (as per said by seniors) The only snowy experience that we could get is a 10 minute hidup-segan-mati-tamau light light snow (excuse my term. hihihi). Adalah dalam dua tiga kali dapat sepanjang musim sejuk..

But this year is a wee different (from the point of view of a second year student lah). The weather is freeeezinggg collddddd.. I have to wear the bubble jacket that made me look more like a panda bear rather than a human. Shheeeshhhh...

Eh tapi rakan-rakan di tempat yang biasa bersalji-salji seperti US, Czech, UK bagai ni jangan lah gelakkan..Saya orang kampung Cork mane pernah tengok salji tebal-tebal... T______T"

feels like -6 huh?

frosted bushes.

macam aiskrim kan? aum!

Lucky me my lil cozy room provides a very warm atmosphere. ^___^ --> kenapa harini sungguh hyper?

Mom : Mak nak gi umrah bulan Januari ni..ofismate mak ajak
Me : Oh yekee...mak doa2kan la adik..
Mom : InsyaAllah....
Me : Mak doakan adik dapat jodoh elok-elok jugak
Mom : Ha kalau macamtu kenalah slim dulu..

Hahahahahahhahaa..cis disitu!

WHATTTTTT??

I feel so left out. I didn't know Greys Anatomy Season 5 has been out since last September. Up until now,9 episodes has been aired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nasib la sekarang ade christmas break so usually they won't be airing any new episode for at least the next 4 weeks, if i'm not mistaken (I wonder what do they show on tv during this one month. Gossip Girl tadak, Greys Anatomy tadak..Zack, Zairin care to share?) So tak la jauh sangat nak catch up. Coz I'll give up the show if I have too many to catch up. Macam cerita House MD. Haihh...nantilah satu hari nanti akan ku kembali padamu, House!

Watde la weyyy...Nabila, mengapa kau tak khabarkan padaku??? You don't love me anymore, don't you??? (haha tetibe ayat emo)

Out of craziness, I bought the Rapid Share premium account for 3 days. Yes I know I can be THAT crazy and THAT impulsive.

premium user here we go (dgn kelajuan ditahap Loris Capirossi, bukan rempit ye kawan2)

Ayuh lancarkan episode mengdownload Greys Anatomy secara besar-besaran.

self-explanatory picture.

I sounded like someone who doesn't have exam, don't I? Hwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... :((

*gasping for air*

I need my momentum back. The study progress has not been good. Everything is all over the place.

I wish the exams are over. Tak tahan dah neh T_____T



adesapesapemahujaditukangbagisemangat?

Officially a K-Addict

www.karaokeparty.com

(no) thanks to Fiqahooo...I am now an official addict of this site. Damn it terganggu perjalanan study ini malam...


muahahahhaa...

Fuzahhhh jom lawan~~

p/s : Air Asia is doing promotion from KL (LCCT) to London (Stansted) from 99pound. BUT by midnite all cheap tickets are gone - no thanks to (most) students from UK. Semua bangga gila beli tiket return only for 290++pounds sahaja. Weyyy....simpan la sikit utk kitorangg..

Makkkkk...saya nak balik easter boleh takkkkkkk??? *kedip-kedip mata*

Rainbow? Is that you?

The weather has been so unpredictable for today.

Earlier this morning the sun was shining brightly. Nyaman je..Wany and I went merempit to Lidl (a supermarket) to shop for our groceries.

Tapi kusangkakan, panas berpanjangan..rupanya gerimis..rupanya gerimis mengundang-hang-hang-hang (nyanyi dalam nada Zamani dalam Slam, tenkiu)

On the way back, with our back loaded with vegetables, cooking oil, milk, nan bread, and segala whatnots household thingy..we had to cycle against the strong wind.

A few minutes after we reached home, it started to rain.

Continued with stronger rain for about urm..10-20 minutes?

Not long after that..

(nyanyi dalam suara Ning Baizura. Yes, Ning Baizura. Tiada Siti Nurhaliza dibenarkan)

Mentari keemasan
Indah menyinar bumi
Burung bersiulan
Meniti pelangi
Ombak berlari-lari
Menyusur pantai impian
Membawa bersama
Misteri seribunya cinta
Engkau dan aku
Ada punya persamaan
Bagai alam diciptakan
Saling bergandingan
Berputik cinta asmara
Mekarnya berbunga
Menghiasi ruang taman hati ini

pemandangan luar bilik, when suddenly I saw something

Weeee......rainbowwwwwwwww...i've been searching for u!!!

(boleh lagukan mengikut Sudirman, Asheed of Def Gab C, or Faizal AF4 wtf??)

Kumeniti awan yang kelabu
Kutempuhi lorong yang berliku
Mencari sinar yang menerangi
Kegelapanku

Kupercaya pasti suatu masa
Sang suria kan menyinar jua
Membawa harapan yang menggunung
Bersamanya...

( korus )
Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi
Tak bercahya namun kau berseri
Tapi cukup menghiburkan
Hati ini

Seharian waktu bersamamu
Tak terasa saat yang berlalu
Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti
Pergi jua...

(ulang dari korus) --> jangan tak ulang okayyy!!

menangkap gambar rumah jiran depan rumah. jiran kah? jiran kot. cam kaya je jiran ktorang. ada anak hensem tak?

pandangan dalam bilik.

As the lyric said, kau pergi jua. Not long after that, it started to rain again. And stopped. And rain again. For few times. Haiyohh apakah Cork, apakah?

p/s : terimakasih kerana sudi meluangkan masa membaca saya merapu.

Nah saya hadiahkan lagu best


cam 4u2c kan...muahahahahhaa..

Aku, Sukan, Pelajaran, Beli-belahan, Tekanan dan Perasaan

Each week, I tried to make a point that I hit the gym at least once or twice. For each cycle of workout, I'll make sure I stay there no shorter than 45 minutes. My initial target was to shed off the extra kilos that I've been carrying around since forever...but later I realized that my stamina problem is more worrying than the former.

It all started when I was cycling to CUH 1 month ago. From my home to CUH, I need to cycle up one stretch of hilly road..which is very tiring. I ended up pushing my bicycle rather than riding it. One week ago when I went to swim, again my stamina has put me way behind the pakciks and makciks irish. So I have promised myself, that I am gonna work out harder to improve my stamina.

For the last 2 weeks I can cycle through the hilly road to CUH. Without stop. :) Ahh..seronoknya. Jadi rakan-rakan, bersenamlah! Demi kesihatan dan kesejahteraan hidup anda!

lebih kurang camnilah jalan berbukit tu.

p/s : tapi minggu ni saya pergi gym sekalii sahaja

Last Thursday I have revisited Brookfield library again. It has been about 6 months since I left the place. *haih* As always, the place doesn't dissappoint me. Saya sudah kembali berperang semula dengan matapelajaran NeuroPhysio yang memutarbelitkan minda itu..

Jadi kawan-kawan, jika kamu tidak boleh belajar dibilik, carilah tempat2 yang lebih menenangkan!

langit Maghrib from Brookfield's prayer room. Wani Ezryl kamu suka langit kan?

nice colours.

Last night I totally went out of my mind. I reverted to my old addiction - online shopping. The consequences? *haih* Almost bought totally crazy things. Mud Guard beskal pun hampir2 nak beli. Semua ni salah kedai2 kat Cork la sapa suruh boring2. hihihihi..

What did I buy? Huhhuhuh..dari ke berus gigi (an interdental toothbrush. not the ordinary one), bicycle light (WTF? I KNOWWW TAPI HARITUKAN SAYA JATUH BASIKAL SEBAB LAMPU BESKAL SAYA MENGONGS), dress, to bag. Aiyohh haritu kata tamau spend spenddddddddd..

Jadi kawan-kawan, jangan lah pergi ke kedai-kedai atas talian sekiranya anda tak mampu tahan godaan!

psstt..Zairin. Thank u so much yaa..jangan lupa postkan aku beg tu cepat2 tauuuu...nak bawak gi travellllllll...hihihihihihi

email dibanjiri dengan ebay dan ebags. ngehngeh

And excuse me. Right now I need to kick myself hard because I havent studied at all today. Melagha je kerjanya...hwaaaa....

Konsekuensi daripada aktiviti2 diatas?

Ahh..tekanan dan perasaan ku makin jauh dipisahkan :)

Jadi kawan-kawan, jangan lah tensi tensun selalu! Cari perkara yang menghiburkan diri sendiri

p/s : Sabtu...cepatnya kau berlaluuuuu

Ahadd..i hate yew

Pembetulan

The previous entry was done to emphasis on how I badly need a breakaway.

Neither to show tactics to get your mom's money.
Nor to say that I am a spoilt brat.

Bukan ye kawan-kawan, bukan.

I just don't know the best way to tell her that I am in kinda stressful condition. The easiest way is to tell her that I wanna go back home. Itu cukup untuk buat ibu saya tahu yang saya sedang mengalami ketidakbetulan disini. Bukan untuk buat ibu risau, sekadar ingin berkongsi. Sekadar ingin menyatakan padanya betapa saya mahu bangun pagi diatas katil saya yang empuk dan didalam bilik saya yang bersepah. Turun ke dapur dengan jiwa yang gembira lantas menghadap kueytiow goreng yang tersedia. Bukan bangun pagi didalam bilik yang kecil ini (tetapi masih bersepah.hihihi). Turun ke dapur dengan fikiran tertumpu kepada peperiksaan dan beberapa perkara picisan yang membosankan, lalu menghadap bijirin sarapan pagi, butir demi butir dalam kerisauan.

Ada faham?

Tapi saya rasa perkara ni normal lah. Hampir kesemua pelajar oversea ada moment-moment sebegini.Jarak yang memisahkan antara kami dan kesayangan-kesayangan terlalu jauh. Adakalanya kami juga mahu bermanja dengan ibu. Adakalanya kami juga mahu bergurau dengan bapa. Adakalanya kami juga rindu mahu bergaduh dengan mereka yang seibu sebapa. Adakalanya kami juga mahu bertemu dengan rakan-rakan yang sudah sebati dalam hidup kami. Dan bagi pihak saya, moment itu sedang menyerang *action kamen bip bip bip*

Apapun jua, no worries. Saya tahu bagaimana mahu memotivasikan diri. Saya sedang mengutip kembali kekuatan demi kekuatan untuk kembali bangun sendiri. I am not going to turn back and give up. I just need to take one step back and rest :) before I could go on fighting.

notakaki : dia yang bertudung, bukan yg berseluar pendek tu. masih single. ada siapa mahu mencuba? hhihiihih

Happy birthday, Che Mi.

Buat teman sedorm, sekelas, seSMSS, seSeoulllGarden (baca dalam nada yg betul), seswimming, sewayang, sefutsal, seMidValley, seLowYat, sePavillion, seiring sejalan (wtf?)
Moga tahun yang mendatang menjadikan kamu lebih hebat dan menjadikan persahabatan kita lebih erat.
Ketahuilah walaupun betapa confused nya saya pada tarikh kelahiran kamu, you are always in my heart (ceyyy..ayat cover baekkk punya)
Dan ketahuilah tiada siapa mampu menggantikan kalian semua dalam hidup saya.
SMSS in...ermmmmmmmm...out! SYA! *semangat rugby tetibe*
Terima kasih Tuhan, kerana menganugerahkan saya teman-teman sebegini dalam hidupku. =D

p/s : Fiqahoooooo...cerekarama dah habesss...Jalankan tugas anda mengsurvey tempat-tempat menarik hokayyyyyy

p/p/s : Maaflah kalian. Asyik baca saya mengarut jee...Rest assured that I am A Okay now. So shalala everyone~

saya yang kesewelan

Me : Mak...rase cam nak balik Malaysia aa..camne aa
Mak : Haa..*diam* balik Malaysia? Adek cuti bila?
Me : 13 Disember sampai 5 Januari
Mak : *checks calendar* hurm..tiket brapa balik
Me : Erm..haritu adek check dalam 1000 lebih
Mak : Tu yg online online tu tak check ke
Me : Haa..tu yg online la tuh..
Mak : Hurm..balek nnt...dalam 3 minggu. tapi haritu baru balik? nnt nak balik lagi kan
Me : Ha'a tu la..tapi rase nak balik la..
Mak : *diam* hurm..tapi aritu baru balik skang nak balik lagi
Me : Ha'a cam duduk kat KMB dulu
Mak : Ha'a dulu duduk KMB tapelah tiap2 minggu balek..tapi tu kate winter nak jalan2 tu..
Me : Tatau la mak..rase cam nak balik malaysia je
Mak : Hurmm...tak cam melampau sangat ke?
Me : Hurm..a'a la
Mak : Adek gi la jalan2. Gi la bla bla bla bla..gi sane bape?
Me : Haa..tu tak mahal sangat la dalam 100eu lebih je..
Mak : Ha tu ok la at least bla bla bla...nnt mak boleh bank in duit

Kalau tak ada scaffold, masakan basikal bergoyang

plan tempat kejadian. guna paint pastu jadi cam harma sahaja. tak kira nak upload jugakkk..bermula dari tempat saya melintas jalan (most right) sehingga saya terlanggar scaffold (ke?) di tempat construction. selepas itu menyeret basikal sahaja ke Mardyke kerana trauma.

I had my first bicycle accident today

On they way to Mardyke Gym, there was a construction work. I knew it was there but it was quite dark and all and I thought it has been removed (the last time I went to Mardyke was last Friday). So I cycled through confidently......

gambaran scaffold yang menjadi invisible ditengah malam...ciss kau hang jebat

*bangggg*

ok. darah tu tipu je.and bile budak kecil ini jatuh dia tampak comel berbeza dgn keadaan sebenar budak yg tak kecil langsung jatuh!!

Because the accident occurred before I reached Mardyke, I had to go on with my plan. Plus it doesn't feel so bad at that time.

After one hour or so, went back home. Had my shower. Had my dinner - fried chicken of kentucky flour (sesukahati je kasi nama camni) and mashed potato. Defeats the whole purpose of working out already T___T Penat2 gi gym siap jatuh tergolek tapi balik-balik makannn.

And right now my gluteus maximus and quadratus plantae muscle is hurrrrrrtingggg...I am physically olddddddddd :(

old, grumpy and demented. third stage paranoid. tapi sayang paranoia doesn't kill anyone. kalau tak sure dia ni dah mati.suka berfikiran bukan2 dan menjadi emosional. expert in making false assumptions *lalala* suka menyusahkan orang.a social disgrace. tembak dia kalau anda mahu tapi jika jumpa dia jatuh ditengah jalan boleh abaikan sahaja. padan muka dia jatuh bo0hooo~


They dont always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fears
But when youre blinded by your pain
Cant see the way, get through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says hope is very near

the day I felt like i can write again

Finally :) The new week has come..

Today I decided to write down everything that I went thru since this is the only therapy that I can opt right now. Yes, writing is a therapy. Retail therapy is a big NO NO since I have to restrict myself from spending unnecessarily so I could do so during this winter. Hahaha..delayed gratification, is how we call this :)

Last week I've been busy with the Annual General Meeting which suddenly being combined with another formal function with our new ambassador. As a project manager, I need to make sure everything runs smoothly on that day.

The day came and it sailed through quite okay, I guess. Working with a team of skillful and not too forget wonderful people has never been easier eventho there are bits and pieces of thing that went out of the track. Adat la tu kan..we can only plan, remember? Congrats and syabbas inspector syaab. Thanks to all people of Cork who came and sorry for any inconvenience caused.

After the events I was left with thousands of mixed feelings that sent me into state of depression until yesterday. I cried a lot. I had thousand of bad thoughts. I had thousand of fears. And being at home alone that night doesn't help at all. but I am glad for the existence of internet as I could always find my cyber shoulders to hear my rambles and gibbers. Thanks a lot darlings - you know who you are :) And not too forget the existence of television in my room has helped me to go thruout the nite better, speshly malam tu ade rugby game between Eire and Allblacks. Ahh..windu nak tengok rugby ;) And Shidot, ah, I watched the X Factor too! hiihiihihihi..

The next day (yesterday it is) I was still not myself. I cut my thumb (not purposedly of course!) when I was cutting the onions. Daging yang terpotong tu kalau masuk dalam mihun pun sedap but I am not turning myself into a cannibal lah kan..Sakit woo (sila rujuk gambar di bawah)

That evening I had myself tuned in after a few conversations with a few peeps. Alhamdulillah, the burden has finally got lighter..:)

cubaan menyorokkan jari gemuk. hihihiihihi..*tangan yang menggapaiii kini hancur terlerai*

This week I really need to push myself harder. I am activating my nerd mode *plink* again. Right now I need to dive into the sea to pick up my studies yang telah dicampak kelaottt pada minggu lepas. Hahahaha..physiology..neuroanatomy dan embryology, wait for meee....I'm coming to rescue uuuuuuu...And..oh! I hope I can juggle between studies and going to gym too.

I hope this week is gonna be a whole new, refreshing week. Yeehaaaa....and that's why I'm changing my background to a much groovier song. Enjoyy!

Special message to Zairin, Zack and Wani...wehh..ingat tak pakatan kita...I have started! Have you all started??? Hihihihiihihihih...saya rasa setakat ni dah 3 *toot* dibuang. Korang macammanee?? Update weh update. Sila laporkan kepada referee kita - Che'Mi

Preserving the positivity (and I am still searching for the rainbow)

Dear mom,

I miss you. I miss your kuetiow goreng. I hope you are doing just fine. I wanna go back home. huuu..

Dear brother,

How's your wedding prep? I hope everything goes well.

Dear room,

I miss your massive space and your massive destructions. I hope I'm sleeping on you now, my comfy bed.

Dear Fuzah,

I hope time flies faster. I hope you could come anywhere nearer so I could always run to you whenever I need someone to talk too. Then we can go shopping together2.

Dear Ida,

I hope your mom could send you to my place faster.

Dear Chemi, Wani, Zack and Zairin,

I miss all of u dearly. Bile lah kite bleh nak menggila-gila lagi?

Dear Wawa,

Cepat lah winter.

Dear myself,

I hope you can stop thinking now and start studying.

Dear rainbow,

where art thou?



p/s : BE Positive positive positive positive positive positive positive positive

p/s/s : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS DIAHLICIOUS AND MR REDHUAN. MAY GOD BLESS THE BOTH OF YOU :)

Searching for the rainbow part two

Random fact numero uno : I dont want to see cupcakes in a month time. And also any kind of cakes in general I guess.
Random fact numero des : I dont want to see egg sandwich for the next 33 days.

Embarrassing fact numero uno : I rambled in front of 90++ people today. Not a good place to show off your mengaruting skill, eh?
Embarrassing fact numero des : I nearly awarded people with a SUGAR, for his achievement in academic field. Urmm...

Serious fact numero uno : I know I am not perfect, and that I need to improve a lot on myself.
Serious fact numero des : Believe in me will you?

Worrying fact numero uno : Minggu-minggu yang penuh cabaran suka dan duka ini membuatkan saya meninggalkan pelajaran saya jauh kelaut. Boy, now I'm so scaredddd
Worrying fact numero des : Saya TERmakan sesenduk nasik tadiiiiii...cis

Important fact numero uno, des, tres : I am homesick. I wanna go home. I wanna gooooo hoommmmeee...

Schweeemeeeennggss..

Heyy Nad:) do you want to go swimming tomorrow morning at 7?

-Mich

I woke up earlyyyyy this morning to go kecebur kecebur at Mardyke. Tak sempat nak say bye bye to Wanybebii yang akan berangkat ke Dublin today for the weekend. Byebye Wanybebii I'll be missing u muah muah. hahahhaha..

Surprisingly the pool was quite crowded, not as expected. I thought Irish doesn't wake up early. Sangkaan meleset disitu..BUT as usual lah kan...it was full with people of the golden age. Swim ke kiri nampak makcik rambut putih, lane seblah nampak pakcik perut boroi..At first they had this weird look on me. Mesti diorang nak kate "Dek, kat sini swimming pool lah. Bukan tempat senamrobik" since my clothes are..u know..covers more area than they do.But they are all VERY VERY friendly. They greeted me..with smiles some more..memang lah elder Irish memang sangat friendly :)

Today I had to really push myself to the limit. Back in Malaysia when me and Fuzah (or sometimes..Ida) go swimming, we would only go half of the size of the pool. But here in Eire, I had to finish the laps. Coz everyone does it too! EVERYONE. Even the old lady. Even the pakcik tua boroi!!!! Dengan takde stamina nye..dengan dah lama tak swimnya...adoiyaii..penat okayyy...But thank God I managed to finish the laps..adalah dalam 15-20 laps kot..But not continuously lah of course. One lap down..bubbling bubbling bubbling..another lap done..relax relax relax..hohoho..teruk gils tak fit :(

Anyway Michele and I planned to do this more often after this. Wanybebii pun selalu tinggalkan i pegi swimming sorang2 tak ajakk...hehehhe...hopefully my stamina will improve after this. Jangan hangat2 tahi ayam sudeyhhhh...hohohoho..


P/S : I wanna get over this hellish weeks faster. Cepatlahhhhhhhhhhh...I need a breakkkk..

A few weeks ago..

XX : lame dah tak nampak ko
nzra_007 : ha'a tu la ingat ko dah tak ingat aku
XX : ko la yg lame x online
nzra_007 : haha tenet aku baru masuk la
XX : tulah aku sampai dah kawen dah pun skarang
nzra_007 : yekeeee???? congratsss??? bile kau kawennnnn??
XX : baru sangat..jun haritu..tu lah dulu aku tunggu ko tanak
nzra_007 : alaaaaaa...kecewenyaaaaa...

(still the same people)

XX : fuyo
XX : comelnye
XX : anak sapa tu?? (referring to my profile image)
nzra_007 : anak cupcakes..huhuuhuh
XX : cup2 jgn sbut..sensitif
nzra_007 : gilo...bgtau bini kangggggggg

moral of the story, jarakkan diri anda dari orang telah berkahwin..runnnn runn for ur life.....

Saya nak taco chips yang tidak berkambing. Mahuuuuuu...

ni nama dia hot water bottle with cover aliyah ngan adilah kasik saya sebab saye suke sakit perut (saya tak suke sakit perut sbnanye. tapi perut yg suke sakit.). schweet tak diorang...hahahaha..tengs korengs.

Jadi seperti biasa hari ini saya bercerita lagi (minggu ni mood nak bercerita)...

I woke up as usual. Check out the net..Being bombarded by emails of the thing that nearly makes me go insane this week...which I'll blog later when everything is done.

And I was surprised to find out that this week is my group's turn for the Communication Skills Training. Nasib dah letak reminder dalam phone..haiyohhhh..so I had to cancel my plan to go kecebur kecebur at Mardyke. Siap-siap ke kelas semua...

I went to class as usual. This week we discussed about "Culture and Perception", which should be interesting lah kan. When we were discussing about Perception, our lecturer gave us two different photos. 2 models, one is plus size and the other one is the typical skinny model. We were told to explain what can we describe the models from the photos. Their lifestyle, image, eating habits etc etc...What amazed me was...how they judge the plus size model over the typical model. One of the point being raised was, we cannot really judge their eating habits from their sizes coz the skinny model may eat like a horse but still end up..being skinny while the plus size model may have different metabolic rates, genes eventhough they don't really eat that much..

sekadar gambar hiasan..

Menarik kan? I think if the same photos were given to urm..people of our country they would go.."eh gemuknye yang sebelah tu. model jugak ke??" "makan banyak ade hati nak jadik model" and etcetera..Hurm..this is some of the points to ponder and reflect jugak..

Moving on after the CST class I rushed to Boole Basement for our Histology class. Bottom line is B.O.R.I.N.G. heheheheh...

After the histology class..I was kinda in dilemma. To go to gym or to go to Wilton Shopping Centre. So I leave it to destiny to decide my destination. If I wait at the bus stop and the bus comes no later than 10 minutes, I'll go to Wilton.

gambar hiasan jugak lah!

Amazingly the bus came after only 2-3 minutes I reached there. BUT. heheheheh...the bus was full. So I guess this is a sign for me not so waste my money again lah...So to Mardyke I go..

BUT BUT BUT...On the way back from Mardyke to ma home sweet home..I accidentally stopped by at Fusion Cuisine coz I had this taco chips craving since last week. Sinful - I know..Gemuk - I know. Sia-sia je gi gym - I know. Diet konon - I know.But I just cant help it. Ngehngehngeh..While waiting for the taco chips AGAIN, I accidentally bought a cone icecream. Ish ish ish ish....ape nak jadi nihhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Tapi kan best tau berjalan pulang sambil makan icecweamm..tak rasa jaohhhh pun....hehehehhe..

Back at home, I was so dissappointed when I found out the taco chips was a combination of CHEESE and minced LAMB. Oh tidak. Kalau nak rasa pening semalaman..ha cubalah. So I digged out the fries and left the cheese + lamb to my housemates. Betul la bak kata pepatah..if u cannot go slimmer, make everyone else fatter. hahaha (pepatah buat sendiri)

makan fries dan sos lingham. aum sedappp..tapi ade bau-bau kambing lahhh..kenapalahhhh kambing yang murah disini...banyak kambing sangat yeee

hahahaha that's all from now. minggu ni minggu pening so in full blast of crapping....

P/S; Al Fatihah buat Arwah Tok Aman (datuk saudara saya) who passed away yesterday, 4pm Malaysian time. Semoga dia di tempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman. Amiin..

Hari Busuk Sedunia

Today I woke up as usual..

Went online and checked for something..

And I felt like giving up again and again and again...

But the next second I had a deeper thought. Tried to absorb everything and surrender to whatever they are doing. I had enuff. Buatlah apape and I'll try to make things better for myself..

I opted to resort my heartache to something healthier. Something that doesn't involve anyone else. Just me myself and I.

So the day of Hari Busuk Sedunia starts...

The only place in my mind that can ease my stressfulness is none other than Mardyke aka the gym. Since I've got no class today, I decided to extend my steps (memanjangkan langkah?) to town.

Tapi satu persoalan timbul....perlukah saya membawa baju salinan untuk ke town setelah ke gym? Huerm..

So without a morning shower (hey hey saya mandi selalunya DUA kali sehari ok. lagipun rugilah kalau mandi pagi nanti mahu bersenam berpeluh lagi..), I put on my clothes and walked to Mardyke..

muka terlebih masam.

right or left?

And I arrived Mardyke at about 11..(kantoi bangun tak pagi sangat sebnanye). Went to the female's gym. Turn on my iPod, created a world of my own, and worked out my unfit body, surrounded by a few old ladies yang sedang melakukan latihan fitness. Yes. Old ladies of the age 50s-60s-70s, in the GYM, doing some fitness steps. A rare sight in Malaysia bukan?

tangkap gambar laju-laju sebab segan. hohoho..

After 45 mins or so I left Mardyke to town. WITH MY GYM OUTFIT AND WITHOUT SHOWER. Hehehehhe..at that time I could only pray that all Malaysians would be attending their classes/hospital attachments and be at anywhere else but not town. Segan la den..Kalau Irish takpe diorang dah biasa pegi mana-mana pakai tracksuit je..

After 2++ hours and 2 bags of miscellaneous items, I finally reached home.

Up until right now, while I am typing my blog, I still haven't had myself in the shower just to preserve the gist of this Hari Busuk Sedunia so I can get the feeling to write this post better (alasannnn). Ngehngehngeh..

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

WTH

Tagged oleh budakkecikgilersukemenyusahkanakulah.

State 15 weird/mean/ undescribable things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself.
*The 5 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.**

1. Not really a fan of cheese. Despite the craziness of almost everyone I know towards cheese, I beg to differ. Tapi cheese light2 dalam pizza ke ape tu boleh la tolerate lagi..To generalize bleh la kata i'm not a fan of dairy product. I don't like yoghurt. Not a fan of milk (in term of, drinking a cup of unflavoured milk. just like that.yikes.)

2. I am not really vocal on speaking out my opinions/feelings etc. Sebab tu kalau merajuk, I prefer to give silence treatment. Tapi kalau marah...hurm...I chose to ramble it to my close friends. Tapi agak2 seksa la kalau tak puas hati with something coz I tend to swallow everything and explode it within myself.

3. Am a universal music lover. I listen to what I wanna listen. No spesific genre. In my playlist u can see dangdut songs walking side by side with rock/metal songs. Altho in real life kalau Mas Idayu jumpa The Strokes pasti mereka tak akan bertegur sapa.

4. I used to memorize phone number so well. Especially those who are close to me, telephone-nically. Ngehngeh..But now the ability is decreasing since I've too many things to do beside remembering phone numbers..

5. I don't really have a picture of me, alone. Just found out this fact when I was browsing my pictures to be sent to the comittee Low self esteem disitu...

6. I hate being forced. Sometimes, the more u force me, the harder I run. I believe if I wanna do something it must come within me. But not to say forcing ppl to pursue good things are bad. They are good, really. But leave the rest for me to decide whether I wanna do it or not.

7. I like sports. Hurmm..walaupun dulu abang saya tulis dalam buku skrap Sejarah dia something like this "walaupun adik saya tidak suka bersukan, tetapi dia bagus dlm akademik" Hahaha...ouch abang ouchh..DULU. Itu DULU. I guest the genetic predisposition is just too strong to resist the fact that all of us (you, bapak, urmm mak?) love sports.
Which reminds me I haven't been to gym not even once since skool started. Haih...not good not good..

8. As an extension to fact #2, when someone hurts me (mind u,hurts is so general), I need to take a break from him/her. Tengok muka tableh. Cakap face to face ke dlm fon pun tableh. Ngehngehngeh..

9. Am a total sucker with roads and directions. Hanya jalan di Shah Alam di hatiku~ hahaha..

10. I am very hard to smile. Penat lah senyum ni banyak muscle kena strech...can be mistakenly understood as fierce/snob too. :( Dan saya rasa saya akan cepat berkedut kerana selalu frown. Hurmm..

11. I can be a good listener, I think. In this case i need my friends to testify lah..But I think I am..hurmm..

12. I hate hypocrites and hypocrisy. Juga unloyal lovers and two-timers. Nuff said.

13. Deep within me, I always think I am not good in anything. It's very hard for me to get the idea that I'm good at something. That's why I always need other people clarification. Eh ape ni bencinya statement gayak gini..

14. I love beaches, seas, oceans.

15. I hate guys with long hair. Such a turn-off. Kalau Fahrin Ahmad berambut panjang pun MUNGKIN saya tak suka jugak. And anyone (girls/guys) with rambut yang tutup dahi tu. Rimas. Rasa nak potongkan je..

I am tagging :

• Kamil
• Shidot
• Fendi
• Bazli
• Usop
  

of the 63s.

A ONE-der-full Saturday

Exclusively brought to you......

A Day In Laburnum B&B's Kitchen...

Today, Dayah & Wany has got a crazy plan to mess up the kitchen. As an effort to make my resume of second degree (Degree in Culinary aka CooOooking) more colourful, I tagged along with their mission possible. Plus, today is my turn to cook (Yes, turn hari Sabtu sangat bahagia kerana boleh mengelat selalu)

Early in the morning, they went to Tesco to get the things...

Baking butter, flour,sugar

Dayah started off the day with her signature brownies..

Dayah cutting the maltesers

Walla...dah siap! Yummylicious. Siap ada part without the walnut she made for me. Yes, despite the name...Nad...I am not really a fan of any kind of nuts.

Brownies with maltesers and white chocolat

Then we proceed with the cupcakes puansri. Mandor cupcakes kita pada hari ini ialah PuanSri Wany..

Our excited faces when the cakes became cupcakes.

Since it's my turn to cook today, I had to take a break from the cupcake business and concentrate on the dinner's menu..

At about 5ish, the electricity were cut off due to some problem with the ESB. I was kinda worry and disappointed since I intended to make sambal udang and I haven't blended the onions and all..

So I settled for the traditional way => Lesung batu. *tumbuk tumbuk sambil menangis kepedihan*

Thank God it didn't last long...by 6 it went on back...

Once in a blue moon I wanted to eat something different. Hari-hari ayam ayam ayam ayam ayam. Sampai habis idea nak buat ayam masak apa...sekali sekala makan la udang..dapat la..3 ketul (kecil) sorang...

This one inspired by Mak Semah. But since we got no sawi, I replaced it with the lettuce. And added sliced potatoes to make it merrier. Ngehngeh...

The menu for today : Ikan bilis goreng cili & kicap with potato, sambal udang, and tomyam (ayam) putih (masak from scratch okay tak guna perisa pun~~)

After I'm done with the dinner dishes, I joined Dayah and Wany who seemed to enjoy doing the deco on the cupcakes so much..

Rasa macam blajar seni kat sekolah rendah. Main campur warna water colour semua...hehe

Due to the uncreativeness, I just managed to come out with these simple cuppycakes.

nadz

nzra...

nadzirah!

this one is wany's.

dayah's. Paling manyak effort and paling warna warni..

Camwhore with cuppies is a must since this is a rare opportunity seeing us doing this crazy things..

After several attempts..

Our cupp-o-cakes

3 budak penat yang tamao menatap cupcakes selama sebulan~

Jalan turun laluan memori

Before I start studying today (as if la rajin sangat kan..)...let me bring you down MY memory lane..

Here goes my classmates of 3 years. MAJUrians 2000-2002. A mixture of different personalities and attitudes. But hey, we survived THREE years together, okay.

My classmates of 2 years. 4/5 Setia 2003-2004. There are some familiar faces from the previous picture too. Especially this orang gile. Mana gua pergi dier nak ikot. Hahahahhaa..

The great teachers. Sapolah photographer ni nampak jalan lebih dari cikgu-cikgi T___T But I can still spot teacher Irene. the fifth one from left. Hehehehe..Ms Alice plak the 6th from right. Cikgu laen tak sure sebab pakai tudung muka lebih kurang..

I miss my dormate-ka kora,kora. Menggemuk di kantin ibuk di pagi hari sebelum kesekolah. Bibik, nasi goreng campur kueytiow letak telur satu!

Fifth formers in front of the laundry. Makcik dobi suka bebel sebab budak lelaki suka TERhantar seluar kecik gi dobi. Hahaha..TER ke tu..TER keee...

PMR Camp at UPM. Aisar & Ain the leader for that camp. That's our baju batik by the way...

Me, Ameen, presenting the decorating lamp (a gift from the fifth formers) to Cikgu Roslina. Haha..bagi lampu pon nak gegempak. I was the batch leader back then..That's our Kain Jumaat by the way. Kat skolah dulu slalu tertukar2 kalau jemur kat ampaian T___T

Us girls during teachers' day. Cikgu-cikgi ada mesyuarat so we enjoyed ourselves instead.

The boys playing NETBY. A combination of netball and rugby. It's weird to see those guys struggled to step their feet on the ground everytime they got the ball. But it's cool tho to see those guys jumping here and there..haha

Kantoi feeling terlebih nyanyi at diner f5. Hahahahah malunyeeerrrr

Us Perwira girls after dinner. Muka memasing dah ngantuk

Exclusive pitchas. Duuno what was I thinking when I agreed on the idea of me singing on the stage. Gile....sumpah gile...We sang to Joget Bertepuk Tangan (Siti Nurhaliza's) and I screwed up my lines. Too nervous..

During our mini convo. Ngaha...

Lihat Syahir, berbeza bukan kamu? hehehhehe...

Kehdo Ki Tum Mere Dil Mein Rahoge, Kehdo Ki Tum Mujhse Dosti Karoge

Say that you'll remain in my heart, say that you'll be my friend :P