April 29, 2008
Was down with the biochem test. Tried to go on with the revision but failed :( I wanted to spend the money in the cafe for a therapy BUT due to the construction going on the College Road, bekalan air was cut down. Bengang bengang bengang. I tried to sleep off the resentment with my power nap strategy but again, it failed miserably.
Then Adilah came and inspired me to go to town. It was pouring down when I set off but I was so determined. Hopped on the bus and minutes later I realized I was, actually in town. Went to Zamzam to buy paratha and something convenient for exam's week. Went to Tesco. Bought things and took bus back to home.
Sekali balik-balik sedar-sedar 40euro abis. Huh...
But it's okay. at least I felt better now :)
It has been one month since the tragedy. It has been one month too since detik itu..Time flies so fast. I started from helpless-tak-bleh-mandi-sendiri-girl to a girl who can walk up the steep hill in UCC within 5 minutes (with crutch, of course) Bravo!! Bravo!!
My leg progress? I can bend...errr...75 degrees during yesterday's physiotherapy session. Ok lah tu kan. She puts me under some intensive exercises. Bet she must have sensed my laziness to exercise the leg! Hahaha..no..Not that I don't want to. I just don't have time. I spent my day nerding in library. Yesterday it was 9am to 9pm in library. Wake up in the morning. Took breakfast. Prepare my meals. Go to library. Nerding here and there. Mengelat here and there. Go back home. Tidied up my place then sleep. Sungguh bermakna bukan? I know, I know. I am surprised also with my ''achievement''. Library was so not my thang ok...
My biochem test? Disastrous. With a big D ok. I checked the answes from my notes straight away after the test and it all went...$%%^*&^(*%&^%$. Now let's just hope for the best.
Okayyhhh sepatutnya sekarang I should be all geared up for the finals. But because of the test, I had to pause sebentar. Nanti la after lunch sambung nerding balik.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....tak sabarnye nak abis exam. You know sometimes during revision, I have this tendency to go out of track. Visioning our plans after exam. Nak gi Belfast la. Nak gi Dublin la. Nak buat tu la. Nak buat ni la..OMG...sungguh tak focus okayh..
April 27, 2008
Lo and behold my friends,
The HoMeSiCk virus is attacking again..
Stress + exam + homesick = disaster.
Like..seriously seriously, perlu ke nak datang sekarang?!?!??!?!
I browsed thru the pictures. Worrying will I be able to recognize their face anymore? (hehe..over sikit baru 9 bulan tak jumpe)
Bosan lah kan asyik cerita homesick je? hehehhe..
P/S : Duit JPA baru masuk semalam. Elaun buku + perkakas + sara hidup 3 months. Bleh la saye bajet untuk bayar sewa rumah + joli di Oz & Melesia + simpanan di masa hadapan. Yeayyyy..tenkiu Encik JPA me laff u muah muah~~
April 25, 2008
I understand if they wanted us to appreciate materials used for dental fillings or for dentures but can they give comprehensible graphs/explanation instead of those complicated graphs...
Or else they just give us the pictures without explanation. (err...the lecturer did explained but I did not pay attention..but HEYYYYY...everyone did not understand what he said, so yeah, I am not alone okay). In our lengthy notes its either graphs or pictures of dentures..
Or amalgam fillings.
And that's all. Come 9 May they expect us to take the written test for 3 hours and come 13 May we are gonna be orally tested for those subjects. Oral test oh...it's for real..And it costs us freaking 50% okay...........
God, have mercy on me. Let me go through this smoothly, oh pretty pretty please?
Dam da da dee dam dam da da..I am so gonna dead...
April 24, 2008
Hey I took off my brace finally!!!!!!!!!!!!
That black thing is no longer clinging onto my leg and made me look like someone who suffered from untut / elephantiasis when I wear pants. Went for my medical checkup with Wany today and met Kak Aina there. Mr PF asked me whether I want to take off the cast I said YESSSS!!!!!! Hell yes I've been waiting for this moment since the day I saw that thing. He asked me to lift my right leg and hasil training saya buat self physiotherapy (of course from the guide given by my physiotherapist) managed to lift my leg. Then he felt my knee and yup, my muscles are erm...hardened? Stiff? He asked me whether I wanted to wear the brace for another few days and I said No No No (gaya Amy Winehouse).
But the problem is now....I am still afraid to bend my knee. Not until I got clarification from my physiotherapist...eventho Mr PF said OK when I asked him whether I can bend my knee. We walked back from CUH to Castlewhite and I tried to bend my knee but the greatest angle I could pull was about 10degree sahaja. Not impressive at all. I tried to walk normal or at least to look normal but instead it looked awkward. Cisss....takpe2. Come next Monday I'm gonna go for my next physiotherapy session and give my all to bend my knee. Berrruuussaaaaaahhhhaaaaa...
But of course I am still doing my part. I massage my muscles to make it less stiff. Lifted my leg and tried to bend it when I sit. I am giving my bestest to make sure I can make a full recovery and hit the gym again. I am also dying to play futsal oh bebeyhhhh tak sabar nak balik Malaysia oh tanah airkuuuu...Aiseyh...lupe plak nak tanye Mr PF whether is it okay if I wear knee brace if I were to play sports again coz I'm prone to another dislocation. Any doctors / future doctors care to advice? Hee...
Ciss..but now, slap back into reality. Tap tap I'm still in my shared room with sore knee and piles of notes to be read. *sigh*
April 22, 2008
What to wear. So I'll be comfortable and the cast don't go melorot.
What to bring. So I dun have to go here in there to get things.
What to eat. I have to prepare for my meals so I dun have to go to the cafe. Apeee nak bawak eh...huermphhh..
Haha..I felt like a seven years old kid going on the first day of the school.
Today I've been revising my Fundamental of Dental Practice subject. Seriously I don't know how my brain gonna digest this influx of info especially when this subject covers variety of topic under dentistry field. U think I just learn that 32 batang gigi in that tiny hole u call mouth but oh Lord, I feel like throwing up already. Tu lah last minute nak sumbat segala benda.
Hope tomorrow my leg is going to behave just fine. Lame nak duduk nih tau...
April 21, 2008
- a ShAiNa
- Posted 04/21/2008 6:42 am
- adekah ini nazira yg suatu ketika dahulu suke membuli daku??
I remembered one time me & Edmund (my neighbour depan umah) used sweets to lure the pity girl into the gabbage bin. Not the bin itself but the place where we put the bin. Yg pintu kecik tu kan, lepas tu kunci dier dalam tu. Hahahaha....I don't really remember whether our attempt was a success or not but I clearly remember that plan. Rase-rase cam berjaya je..
Then I remembered our neighbour, apek. He loves to give self-made ice cweam. Tatau la ape dier letak tapi kiteorang layannn jer. Pastu apek suke cite macam-macam.
Oh karma...hopefully my future child won't be bullied.
And today we finally settled the house matter. It sure damn nervewracking. But we've learned from lesson how competitive houses in Cork and how scary the prices could be are so we couldn't really be that fussy. We just don't want to bug our mind with this house problem. Plus lesson learned from the past. I don't want to talk about that again. Setiap perkara pasti ada hikmahnya. Cliche cliche.
The house is BIG. The location is STRATEGIC. And the price is oh.....I don't know how to express. Cukuplah untuk membuat kami runsing pusing-pusing memikirkannya. But we'll figure out ways to cope with the costs. Pepandai lah kami nanti. Mengemis ke..hheheeh takdelah. Our landlord is so nice. This is the 1st time he deals with students so he doesn't really know our needs. We demanded for study table, bigger wardrobe and all and luckily he's fine with that. Thank u Mr EK yang cool dan banyak bercakap. But next year definitely need to lessen the travelling and shopping expenses. Tralalala...
Now that every other things are settled, I just need to focus on my studies, SEPATUTNYE LAH KAN. But I seriously can't wait to get away from Castlewhite. Eeeee......tak sabarnyeeeeeeeee...My own room. My longed privacy. OMG excitednye!!! 4 of the rooms are ensuite but I think we have to be careful to minimize the ESB and gas costs. Mr EK let us to move in by the end of May. Heeeee.....KETIDAKSABARAN MELANDA BERTUBI-TUBI.
When everything is really confirmed and settled, I would introduce our dearie new home yg beralamat serta bernama pelik itu.
Back to the reality. hoo yeah~
April 20, 2008
Tak clear plak. Cis..
Honestly, if I were given choice, I would ask for another one month to prepare for the exam. Biarlah balik lambat sikit pun takpe. hwaa.. X_X
Alamak Kak Saadah tak kasi kecoh.but..this story is just too bloggable to resist.huu...sori Kak Saadah.. But frankly speaking, I AM SO THE VERY MALU weyyhh...besar okay...Never thought it would come out in UCC's mini magazine-An Sceal. I don't even know the existence of the magazine ok. Tetibe terpampang muke bebesar. Waaaa.....Insaf already. Next time around I would try my best to avoid any outsider photographer! (bajet glamer gils)
Last but not least, Ya Rahman, whatever decision we took, we hope that it would be the best for us. We might be confused and uncertain, but please do guide us Ya Rahim. It's a hard decision. And we've thought any possibilities and difficulties we might encounter. We weighed the pros and cons. And we have decided. Oh...nervousnye saye (dan kami, mungkin) Pening serabut kelibut telipot kepala otak yang sememangnya dah ribut ni. Hope everything would go okay.
April 18, 2008
Today I went to CUH for physiotherapy. Thought it'll take so long but since the doctor hasn't removed my cast, so nothing much can be done. She taught me some simple exercises to train my quad and some knee muscles (ok giler tak precise tapi sukati la). Just some simple kembang kecut exercise saje..My 2 escorts siap dah gi library CUH worrying it'll take long tapi tak sempat nak duduk dah siap. Sorry la Nida and Alya eh. Ni la tak suke being handicapped ni...banyak susahkan orang :(
I have food for lunch today. Heee.... Just now I went into the kitchen to check up my things. Adela roti-roti nan I bought weeks ago and Brahims. Bleh la idup..
I walked back from CUH to Castlewhite. Hehe..What an achievement! Just wanted to try things. It was all fine except the fact that my cast dah melorot (perkataan Jawa kot ni) so sedikit cacat. And I met Frank on the way. Frank is my Botswana classmates. We foreign students tend to be closer since the rest are..erm...whatever je la kan. As always, he called me SAFFIAN instead of Nad or Nazira like others do. Ciss...bape kali dah cakap takmo dengar. He's on the way to library to study Biochem...OMG cuak gler...He said he didn't go anywhere, been slaving himself to the Biochem books sahaja. A total opposite of me. Anyway he knew about my injury. Pasal netball smua tau. Sapetah btau...heh...malu i~~
This evening the girls are going house haunting. Frankly speaking after what had happened I've lost hope already. Hope everything would be okay. Serabut giler kepala otak ok..
Been listening to David Cook's Always Be My Baby since yesterday. Ohh...I'm totally crazy over the song. I'll upload it in imeem and put up in my blog later. Biar smua dengar sampai telinga berdarah. Heee...
April 17, 2008
Currently unstable. ngeh.
I am currently repositioning my studying area to fit my unfit leg. Lenguh la study kat meja bile the leg is left hanging gittew. SO I'm studying on my bed. Phuhh...harap-haraplah boleh. I used to study on the bed during my SPM days and IB days. Should be okay I guess. Cuma kena menghadap view yang very the unpleasant sahajalah. Cobaan...
Since I'm staying with people from Iceland, I had to wear extra clothing in my own room. Benci bukan? Plus I'm having fever + runny nose at the moment. Demam tension..heh..
Medical bill settled. Queries on claim pon dah hantar kat En Jamal. Waiting for the reply. Appointment for 2nd varicella jap pon dah buat. Terbang lagi 40eu lah gamaknye..Printing dah pass kat Adilah. Now I am left with some money to be banked in. Tatau bile nak panjat bukit tu gi bank....Maybe I'm gonna do it next week sekali arung gi amik varicella jap.
Today I'm fasting (insyaAllah). Food pun takde. Nak keluar pun susah. Kitchen like hell with occupied devils. So might as well fast. Bleh la shed off fat yang dikumpul the last 2 weeks...hee...
Yada yada bla bla...complaint je keje. Study tak lagi!
- Balik bilik. Berselerak. Kotor. Keadaan membencikan. Just another one and half month to go Nadz..
- Exams. In less than 3 weeks oh damn it............How am I gonna sort things out
- Leftover classes. Nak jalan kesana sini with this condition. I don't have problem walking on a straight road but to walk to Brookfield, I had to climb over 1 steep hill..which is very hard for me.
- Bank and bills settlement. Money to bank in. Medical bill and claim to be made
- Future house. Umah idaman sudah diambil oleh orang yg should understand how badly we need the house that can accomodate 6 ppl. huermm...itulah realiti kehidupan yang sedikit kejam *sigh*
- Medical checkups and physiotherapy sessions. Jauh nak gi CUH...taxy lagi..itu lagi..ini lagi..
- The responsibilities. With exams approaching and also urusan sambutan pelajar baru and things.
But I have faith in Him that everything destined for me, happened for good reasons. I'll try my best to hold onto that to keep me going to the other end. I don't want to lose my sanity..
I am not giving up. I am just struggling to gain my self confidence back. It will take time, but I'll promise not to let down of myself. Never!
April 16, 2008
Interior house of my aunty's. Oh sangat cantek dan bebebeeesarr..
Mom and Mak Semah at Backyard of her house. Again, sangat bebebebesar. Dayah, Cork Games agak2 tak de tempat, sini nak buat 2 padang pon boleh!!!
Souvenirs from the 3 places. Some for me some for the friends. I remembered puan Syazwani Md Sith ittew suka shell chocs ni so I got this for the girlfwens. And the small cushion is bought because of another Belgic famous tappestry. Struggle gile sumbat-sumbat okayh. My beg is overweight already. Donno what's gonna happen at the airport later...
April 15, 2008
I am almost definitely not going to return to Switzerland. Cukuplah hanya sekali. Anyway I realised that attraction of Europe countries, from the point of view of someone who doesnt really give a damn about the historical values are the preserved bulding. If you look around at almost all of the countries, the ancient buildings are the dominants, unlike Malaysia who would go demolish everything and replace it with something we claim modernized. But for the sake of menjejakkan kaki ke smua negara...well...ok lah...
To see Malaysia becoming as tourist friendly as them...huerm...I doubt. Here in Europe, the public transport are very efficient and the map are fixed. You look back to 5-10 years ago the roads and landmarks are all the same but in Malaysia, in 5 years time you could see a lot of changes. But of course, people like me would definitely be rooting for Malaysia coz I appreciate the natural element like beaches and see a lot more than the static buildings who didnt meant anything to me..hee...
Next places up on the list - Paris to be revisited. Madrid & Barcelona, Italy and Czech Republic to meet CheNad and Ila. Lain-lain tempat belum terfikir lagi. Would love to visit Turki, Croatia, Morocco smua2 tu..
A dream come true- Eiffel
Eiffel - tatau ape dah caption
Weird drawing in Paris. Near Champ de Elysees.
April 13, 2008
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April 06, 2008
I even bought a new flight ticket to go back to Cork. Initially my plan was to take train from Bruxelles to Amsterdam as my ticket is a direct flight from Amsterdam to Cork. But looking at my condition, mom asked me to buy a flight ticket from Brux to Amsterdam since I'll be facing lot of hassle bringing my stuff if I were to travel alone by train. Unfortunately the cheapest tix from Brux to Amsterdam is 300euro. Cehhh..baik gwe beli diamond ring dari tiket tu..So I'll be going thru the same route I took here. Brux-Dublin-Cork. Costed me about 75euro. Burnt my 65 euro ticket from Amsterdam to Cork. Haih....takpelah....nak buat camne kan....And I am definitely going to request for special assistance again. Lalala...takpelah naik wheelchair pon...tiada perlu lah saya berjalan-jalan...Lalala...
April 05, 2008
Like she said, maybe Allah has a better plan for me. Fine. I'll just live with that..