Bogoshipda.I miss you.ich vermisse dich.te echo de menos.Tu me manques.

Lately I've been quite busy and couldn't make time to call home. I miss my mom so much. Last weekend dah pergi Notts tak sempat nak call rumah. During weekdays there's no way I could catch suitable Malaysian time to call home. I am at hospital 8.30-5.30 mostly by the time I'm back home, orang Malaysia dah lena dibuai mimpi dah.Oh mak, I miss you so much. Ya Allah kau peliharalah kesihatan dan keselamatan ibuku. I can't wait for the weekend. Wanna call homeeeeee.

Selalunya kalau saya rindu rumah I will start to cook things that my mom always feed me. But I'm so busy with things that I cook once on Monday and ate the same thing for 3 days. My oh my. Once I get to loosen up a bit saya mahu masak kicap kari asam pedas suun goreng aumm oh makk i so miss you T___T

Whenever I start to miss mom, the feeling starts to spread and after my mom and family, my ex schoolmate would be the next in line for the list of people I will miss the most. Yes, I'm kinda obsessed with my friends from SMSS.

People might wonder apehal dia ni semangat sekolah lebih macam la orang lain tak duduk asrama. Oh well, simply said, you and I are different, boleh? These people, are the people that I grew up with. Cacat comot saya kat sekolah mereka saksi2nya. Time sekolah biasa la ada konflik sikit sana sini tapi as we grew up we start to accept each other better. Bila saya emo, saya marah, saya happy, saya sedih they stay by me. They might sit back quietly, but they never turn their backs from me.

10 years have passed since I knew them and I thank Allah for this friendship. I have to admit time and distance have set us apart slightly but I hope we could get back together like before one fine day.

34 days to go home. Saya mahu jumpa ibu saya mahu makan masakan ibu saya. Saya mahu jumpa itu gelfwen2 and bofwen2 saya. Saya mahu jumpa itu satu gelfwen saya dah setahun setengah tak jumpa.

Typed this post with this song in background. Baru feeling lebih ;

The (not so) amazing race : Nad's edition

Greetings all. I'm now safely in Dublin Airport :)

But the day (Thursday, that is) didn't go as smooth as I wish.

1. The filling I did on my patient previously in the morning was kinda unsuccessful due and the replacement supervisor decided to mark me down.

That....totally robbed off my mood and I nearly gave up going to Notts because of that.

2. The clinic ended at 12.30 (when I'm supposed to get everything done by 12)

3. The dental lab needed some other record of my patient and I had to send my patient's cast. That costed me another 15 mins from my already shortened lunch break.

Luckily my perio session went okay. My patient had to go for a hurling match at 5 so I had to finish treatment by then. But boy, he got a hella filthy breath (excuse me I know i'm not suppose to badtalk my patient T___T)

OKAY LISTEN HERE SMOKERS DENGAR SINI PEROKOK SEKALIAN

Obsesi dan kecintaan kamu semua pada asap, nikotin, tar serta segala bahan kimia dalam sepuntung rokok tu bukan sahaja mampu membunuh kamu dan membunuh orang sekitar kamu. Malahan bau nafas kamu boleh menjadi busuk dan mampu membunuh orang yang berurusan dengan kamu. Lepastu dah sakit gusi sakit gigi kamu datang ke doktor gigi dgn nafas berbau itu! Eh eh eh...

Your obsession and addiction to nicotine and smokes could kill you and the people around you. Plus, your breath stinks! BIG TIME!

So please, please please, kamu jangan nakal. Dan please, please please, do consider giving up smoking or tone down with your smoking addiction to the level that your breath won't stink and your life span and the people around you is not shorten by half or so.

Ok sambung cerita.

I finished clinic at reached home at about quarter past 5. Showered, prayed and packed up my things. Took a bus to the city at quarter past 6. At quarter past 7 the bus left Cork for Dublin and at about half past 11, here I am, in Dublin airport already. But the bus ride kinda sucky as well. There were this Spanish couple ke friends ke, tapi a boy and a girl lah...talking talking talking all the way. Loudly. Ok saya tak taulah dia Spanish ke tak but I assume they are. Macam nak cerita dekat semua orang dalam bas.

Oklah I better stop yapping yapping and try to get sleeping now before got really cranky tomorrow. Hopefully takda sapa nak curik mi goreng bekal ni time saya tido T__T

My sleeping partner(s) tonight

lol nampak kaki-kaki dan badan flat-flat saja.

my working station (attempted to write my lit review but naahhh...the bus ride gave me quite a headache that I can only blog now. lol

tuan empunya badan will only be seeing this post by Sunday. hehehehehehehehe...

Rindu

Kadang-kadang makin kuat kita melawan perasaan makin susah kita nak kawal perasaan tu kan?

Tapi it just take one turning point to totally change the whole situation. I'm proud to say I'm totally through. My feeling was quite strong that it took nearly x years to erase everything. Slow and steady wins the race, eh? (ada kaitan ke?)

Hari ini saya jenguk page dia through page kawan saya. Rasa rindu slightly sparked tapi tak la seperti dulu. Sekarang ni nak benci nak lupa nak pura-pura rasa dia tak pernah ada pun no hal.

Saya dah tak mahu kembali ke kenangan dulu :)

Post yang dipost for the sake of having a post, posted!

Aiyaiyaiyaiyai malasnya mahu update blogggggggg..

It's the middle of October..meaning there are another 2 weeks to go before my allowance due. But I'm deadbroke already. Like really really really broken. If I clear up my credit card I would need to survive on eating dusts, I think (exaggerate much? :P) Oh cepatlah ini 2 minggu berlalu, saya ini risau melihat akaun bank yang makin hari makin surut tuuu...

lukisan huduh yg dibuat dengan membazirkan masa selama 10 minit di Paint.

Apa lagi mahu cirita? Tiada apa-apa. About another 2 months to go before I hop on another flight back home, insyaAllah. It is really handy to have something like this to look forward tu. Macam kau balik dari klinik pinggang nak patah bahu senget-senget, otak macam kosong, mata nak terpadam, tapi kau tengok-tengok countdown macam aaaaaaaaaaaahhh...dah nak balik rumah lagi dah. Jadi kau teruskan semangat untuk teruskan kehidupan. Haishkkkkk

Disebabkan saya tengah feeling-feeling boyan ini malam, I present you one of my favourite song back in the 90s ya'aw.

Till then, have a nice day people :)

My dear blog,

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kthxbai :)

Berehat sebentar bersama NidNad

Entry on Amsterdam will follow through after this. Nak masukkan entry bukan-bukan di tengah jap. Tak nzrasuffian.blogspot la kalau tak mengarut/mengomel kan :P

I have exams in a week. Tapi wah wah otak nih berkarat macam dah 6 bulan tak belajar. Lempang laju-laju kang. Lepas tu pulak rumah kitorang sekarang ada tetamu. They are very interesting entities :P Kira very the refreshing lah kan selama ni dok tengok muka samaaaa je sekarang dah ada variety. I enjoy their presence very much :) Pulak tu kerjanya asyik bantai menyanyiiii je sepanjang masa lagilah I sokaaa...

Tapi sekarang tetamus and housemates are in town pergi bersuka ria. I had to bow out sebab sedar diri ada exam. Been trying to study..tapi progress is very slow. Ada macam nak menangis pun ada neh. Nak enjoy tokleh. Nak study tokleh. Lempang laju-laju boleh?

Oklah oklah dah. Nak update pasal Amsterdam plak.

kthxbai

Crapulousity

Hello, I am not laDybug..I'm a laZybug!

I resent this daylight hour thing. I lost my one hour! It's supposed to be 10 now...but the clock said 11. Noooooooooooooooo.....why oh why? Ottoke? Pourqoi?

Oklah actually I'm not feeling okay now. Ada tengah ding dong sikit. I'm supposed to be doing something beneficial like STUDYING but here I am, on the net, browsing things aimlessly. I've been up since Subuh and didn't sleep back because I need to tune my sleeping time. And now I seriously can't do anything. Mind is blank. Helpppppppppppp meehhhhhh!!

Now I'm contemplating...whether to go for pros labs or not. The thing is.....we are done with the exams and the stuff we need to do (I think?) OK lah there's another exam for tooth arrangement. And we still have to prepare. We still need to build the occlusal rims. And he might do a demo for lower anterior tooth arrangement but I am so the very lazy ni how lah?

I have 53 minutes to think about it. And I still haven't showered. Tik tok tik tok...

Hidup si bosan

I went through several blog friends/kenalan who are studying abroad like moi and found out tch! gile bosan blog gua neh. Seminggu kalau takde entry jiwa kacau tak sah. lol. Okay okay. Dua hari ni dah buat muhasabah diri. I'm not gonna waste my time being sad for that long anymore. I mean, if the soul is disturbed (jiwa kacau?) raaaaaage for a day or two and then let's try to move on shall we? Eventually things are gonna slowly come to its places. Eh tapi ni cuba je cube tau..kalau tak jadi nak buat camno..

graf jiwa kacau ikut bulan. 1st wave dlu time winter. 2nd wave sedang berlangsung, selasa ni abis! haha..3rd wave nnt dkat2 summer exam. damnnnn..

I think one of the reason why I became depressed like this is because Cork itself is kinda boring place. Unlike Malaysia, seriously Malaysia adalah super cool. Agak-agak bosan sikit dah boleh drive gi sana sini tp kat Cork ni..blehhh. Entertainment ada, semangat yg takde. Nak gi karoke pun pikir seribu kali and ended up karaoke dlm bilik sendiri sambil mengannoy jiran-jiran. HAHAHA. Damn lah. Sebab tu saya suke mandi satu hari dua kali kat sini (mandi satu hari lebih dari sekali tak ramai org buat, I think :P) sebab bleh bantai nyanyi dlm shower. Shower rumah ktorang tengah gile bunyi dia bising nak mampus so kalau nak tarik lagu kuat-kuat nyanyi lagu Ziana Zain ke apa ke mungkin orang tak dengar sangat.

nah cabaran nyanyi lagu ni!

Oh ye dalam kesesakan duit ni tibe-tibe ZINNGGGG semalam beli tiket easter nak gi Amsterdam. Camne tu kawan-kawan? Nadzirah memang camni. Kalau dia stress tu mmg seboleh-bolehnye nak kuar dari Cork. Konon-konon prinsip biar pokai asalkan happy tp bile pokai kau jugak yg stress-stress kannn. Hahaha..adoih. Tapi travel ni sebenarnya cam a way of comforting myself yang berkali-kali rasa nak give up je duduk oversea neh. Best memang best tapi byk sangat pressure nak kena handle. Tp takpe, logo Perwira kata don't crack under pressure. Tak sabar nak gi Amsterdam dah bertahun-tahun mengidam nak gi situ eh nak buat apa dia tu mengidam nak gi situ. hehehe..mana ada buat apa-apa kite budak baik-baik kannn :] Dah pegi Amsterdam tu dah puas hati dah, tinggal Itali tak pegi lagi takpe tu nnt kite cari masa okeyy?

gileee pegi jauh2 nak tengok bunga je ke? kat fitzgerald park pun ada! cait...hahaha sukati lah weh!

Oklah. Konon tadi nak take 5 from study tp skarang cam dah take 5 times 10 je! Oh by the way mahu credit my cheerleaders. I can't thank u enough for staying there with me. Kau orang saje, selain my mom yg tahu nak tolerate orang gila macam saya ni :') And terima kasih jugak buat video2 yg diupload tu bisa buat saya gelak cam org gila balik tgk kerenah kawan-kawan sekolah yg dengar cite dah banyak matang-matang. Awhhhh I'm proud of u guys :') (walaupun dlm video...errr...tak ditonjolkan kematangannye)

Dari kiri, ketua2 cheerleaders saya, Ida, Wani dan Fuzah. :P Ida, kaki tu tak angkat cukup tinggi tu daa..

I'm still here

It's just too many things are going around in my mind. Couldn't bring myself to come out with a decent post. Rest assured I'm doing alright. Hurmm..Pharmacology exam is up on the 8th. I've amalgam exam this Wednesday and I'm still trying to adjust things around me.


I'll be back when I've cleared my minds off,k?

No words

Living up the legacy

Dulu saya ingat dalam stor rumah saya ada sebuah keyboard dipercayai milik arwah ayah saya. Ia dibiar usang disitu semenjak saya kecil, sepi tak berpenghuni.


Kini saya membesar dengan sedikit kepercayaan that I can play musical instrument like him. Like what I did when I started taking up sports. Dalam folio sejarah tingkatan 1 abang saya kata something like this ;

"walaupun adik saya tidak pandai bersukan, dia sering berjaya dalam pelajaran"

that got me smacked on the face because when I read up what he wrote about my father, he used to be kinda athletic. Jadi to live up his legacy, I started to take up sports and I must say at least now I've proven my bro's statement in his folio sejarah is untrue :P Now I want to start to play musical instrument and because I think I failed in my several attempts to play guitar, I decided to go with the keyboard.

Here goes the challenges I need to overcome :

1. I know nothing about reading music sheets
2. I am very impatient
3. The only musical instrument that I managed to do well WAS recorder. tu pun sebab wajib belajar time sekolah dulu
4. I get bored pretty easily
5. I seriously think I am suck with musical instrument. LOL
6. If I don't take formal lessons, I think I might take a lonnnnnnnnngggg time to learn
7. I find using the right and left hand simultaneously verrrrrry confusing. Speshly the left hand yang required me to struck a few notes at the same time. lenguhhhh
   

Jadi marilah bersama-sama berharap ini bukan sekadar impian hangat-hangat tahi ayam :P

Again and Again - chorus

After a few hours of "testing" At least it slightly sounded like the real song kan :P

Pada suatu hari, 4 sekawan takde keje nak buat :P

More than hope, more than faith

Saya sungguh bangge hari ini saye bangun awal! *tepuk tepuk kuat kuat* Berjaya jugak memotivasikan diri untuk bangunnnnn jugak tak kira apa terjadi. Hehe...Pukul 1 baru ade kelas tapi nak biasakan diri sebab esok saya dah kena bangun pagi ada practical session. I'm back to my student life..now that I'm done with Pathology lectures, my timetable is more relaxed lah.


My classmate from KMB is getting married this January. The second one from my class, that is. As always kalau ada berita perkahwinan rakan-rakan ni mula lah nak risau-risau..hahaha..macam tak biasa :P Takpe-takpe...Sekarang target saya lain dulu. Nanti dah capai target kita start risau-risau balik. Haha..

I'm so sorry I love you..
buat that's all a lie.

Cita-citaku

Tadi clinical seperti biasa saya buat kat partner, partner buat kat saya
Time saya tengah fix facebow tu tiba-tiba blushing sebab partner tengok saya
Hahaha memang psycho dan perasan, sedia maklum thank you
Pastu saya terpikir camne nanti kalau jadi dentist, and tengah merawat orang hensem
Sure nervous
Nak drill gigi nanti koyak gusi


Pastu dapat ilham


Dapat jadi dentist saya nak buat part time amik kelas language Korea
Lepastu further master
Jadi dentist terkenal
Migrate pergi Korea
Rapat-rapat dengan JYP
So that bleh jadi dentist 2PM
Lepastu...

aah...you know what I wanna say already don't you?


Ok dah nak sambung Patho supaya bleh jadi dentist

Throwing the burden off my shoulder

Tak tenang this few days and hence the short hiatus (eleh baru 3 hari tak tulis dah hiatus) Been contemplating whether to stay or to bid goodbye...



AGM is finally over, Alhamdulillah! Taktau macam mana nak cakap how thankful I am..but oh I'm so happy that I am through with it.


Honestly, I'm sad to leave the comittee. After 2 years of working for/with the comittee and community it taught me a lot of things. I learned how to think things thoroughly. How to plan. How to attract people. How to manage things. I am so glad to have been given the chance to do something like that. And with the people I'm working with, minus all the shits they are such a wonderful people.


On why I decided to leave..let this be a secret I'll never tell (XOXO, Gossip Girl!) Simply said, there are things that I'm not happy with and I don't think I can carry on with that anymore. I'm afraid I might just explode one day. I just couldn't be bothered anymore and wanna live a less stressful life.


All the best to the newly chosen (ke...decided? lalala~) committee.


p/s : No naughty2 things done this year and oh u people who think you won successfully, that's just simply because we don't do anything :)

When shitty feeling strikes

Result Patho dah keluar! Result adalah seperti gambar diatas sekian terimakasih.
Pesanan kepada diri sendiri : layan lah sangat sedih tu sebelum malam exam.

To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization I can't control another.

To let go is not to enable, but allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try to change or blame another, it's to make the most of myself.

To let go is not to care for, but to care about.

To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies.

To let go is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny, but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more.

(author unknown)

p/s : My heart hurts the most when it comes to people that I care. But everybody in the world know it takes two to tango. I'm trying my best to convince myself to let go now.


Let's hope Imma get over this shits ASAP.

Konon-konon takde idea nak update tapi sekali update panjang jugak. Ok tajuk sebenar : A fattening weekend

Uh uh...I love weekend. Like..who doesn't?


This weekend is weekend full of food and fatnesssss. Kalau lah dalam dunia ni ada tugas inspektor mengawal kegemukan, saya boleh dihukum bunuh dah. Hari Jumaat haritu makan di restoran itali. Tau-tau ah Malaysian ni kalau dengarrrrrrrr je restoran tu ada makanan halal boleh makan laju je nak penuhkan satu restoran amik meja tarik panjang-panjang buat restoran romantik jadi macam mapley Hakim seksyen 7. Mesti lepas ni orang restoran tu berazam taknak dah letak dah halal meat.

good ambience. lomentik awww

si tukang layan sabar melayan kerenah orangkampung HAHAHAHHAHAHAH

Semalam pula openhaus adik-adik first year. Memang dah jadi tradisi dah. Tradisi dibuat-buat ke apa saya tatau la tapi memang tiap-tiap tahun mesti nanti dah standby dah nak cakap "eh eh junior jgn lupa buat openhaus tau tiap-tiap tahun junior kena buat openhaus" Kalau nanti junior datang lepas raya apa alasan plak kita nak suruh diorg buat openhaus eh. Haha..Makanan mereka sedap-sedap not too bad. Ada mee bandung, nasi butter, ayam bakar, salad and deserts. Time-time ni lah nak menguji bakat memasak terpendam.


Kalau macam kitorang dulu lagi awal dah diuji. Masuk-masuk awal-awal dah kena MASAK AYAM MERAH UNTUK BERPULUH-PULUH ORANG MAKAN SEBAGAI MAIN DISH RAYA. Bijak betul sapa yang dapat idea macamtu. Sampai sekarang terlupa nak terimakasih kat orang yg bagi tugas macamtu kat ktorang.

nilah dia kenangan memasak ayam merah guna periuk yang sangat susah penas dimasak atas dapur eletrik kecil yang tak berapi.

ni plak dish kami dulu time 1st year.

Malam pula kita sambut birthday Iera secara kecil-kecilan. Tapi sambutan je kecil-kecilan, makan mesti la besar-besaran kan. Ish ish ish..Memang seryes boleh mati gemuk anytime.


Harini pula saya membayar nazar untuk memasak untuk batch. Saya suka je buat nazar macam tu biar senang ingat. Ada la benda lain jugak yang saya nazarkan tapi ini...memang cam dah my norm la gitu. Harap-harap nasi kerabu and ayam percik will turn out okay. Sumpah skill memasak saya sudah deteriorate ditelan summer holiday. Jadi kena cari permata yang hilang itu. Wah permata ke kau..Tapi mungkin ada sedikit cranky harini SEBAB SEMALAM JIRAN SEBELAH PARTAYY PARTAAAYYY EEEEEEE SUMPAH RASA NAK BAWAK LESUNG BATU CAMPAK KAT RUMAH MEREKA SEMALAM. Serius. Nak partaaaayyy pergi la clubbbbb..Jangan ah partayyyy kat rumah. Dahlah tingkat bawah rumah tu adalah klinik kamu berjimba-jimba nanti montot tercucuk ubat ke ape ke..eeeeee....


Oh oh lupa nak cerita...semalam pagi-pagi kita, kak iera and sedikit wany dirasuk hantu karaoke. Pagi-pagi kitorang bukak lagu rock kapak cinta pantai merdeka la salam sejahtera la seroja la, dangdut sikit-sikit disana sini memekak. Puas hati ohh karaoke sambil makan cucur seafood. Mungkin jiran terdengar lalu berazam membalas dendam dengan berpartaaaayyy...Haaaa..itu yang kita tatau!


Ada satu lagi benda lupa nak cerita...Semalam pergi town tershopping lagi wehhhhh...Jadi kesimpulannya, semakin seorang sengkek, semakin kuat nafsu bershopping.

Sekian.

Kelas kewangan 101

Pagi ni saya tabah bangun pagi-pagi jalan sejuk-sejuk naik bas pergi buat Gar*da Card (cam Immigration card la gittew)


8.45 dah sampai, 9.30 baru kaunter bukak. Tapi pukul 8.50 ada orang kiasu dah nak beratur depan sekali. Saya pun pegi laju2 duduk tapi dapat nombor empat je T___T" Dah sampai giliran saya baca doa puh kanan puh kiri mintak-mintak takde problem kali ini..Pom pang pom pang dah setel Alhamdulillahhh..9.50 saya jalan muka bangga keluar dari Gar*da sebelah orang yang kena beratur sampai ke pintu. Siaaannn....


Sambil jalan kearah town sambil pikir. Banyak betul dalam list bajet kewangan. Winter... Kelas Korea... Trip Dasar Pandang ke Timur summer.. Keyboard... Kerusi belajar..Kebab Istanbul..oh tiba-tiba mengidam kebab istanbul. Sambil jalan lagi sambil pikir lagi pusing-pusing beli lesung batu kat TK Maxx.


Pergi Istanbul tapi sayang, kedai tutup...Jadi oleh kerana duit jimat 7eu dah tak beli kebab Istanbul, terus pergi Argos beli kerusi belajar 67eu T__T" Kelas pengurusan kewangan mana saya amik pun saya tak tau. Tapi takpe...tu Aset..tu Aset...tu berguna untuk study (dari tadi sedapkan diri cakap macam ni)

perkenalkan aset terbaru saya, Dodi (nama random yang terkeluar sewaktu menaip)


Pathology tak abis baca lagi matiiilahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh