Kawan ketawa banyak-banyak, kawan menangis? hurmm..awak ada berapa? Saya ada 2..

Epinephrine boosted :)

20 minutes on cross training, 20 minutes on bicycle and 10 minutes on weight training. Not so much, I know tapi kita pelan-pelan kayuh k? Wanted to complete my exercise with rowing tapi saya malu lah sorang-sorang dekat situ nak rowing sebelah pakcik2 tough. hahaha poyo..

Hurmm..

It is ironic when people be all happy for YOU when YOUR exams are done but you just can't feel the same. Oh I'm so sorry I just can't help it to show my real feeling. It is too big to be hidden. I feel so bad :( Thanks for reminding me I'm done with me exams though :)

It is ironic too when suddenly everyone is there to cheer you up with the finishing of your exam but who were there with you when you were all stressful and painful?

Hehe..saja je nak emo2. excuse me~

I Write Sins Not Tragedy

Today I've officially wrote down my name in one of the "cashier declaration" book.
No more duit saidina. For real, i'm playing with HUNDREDS/THOUSANDS RM okay?? At first few minutes Abg S monitored me. Then he left me for some invoice completion nye task.....and (Abg) A took over to "babysit" me.
But (Abg) A got his own work too, so at times he had to leave me ALONE. And I pulled that ngade2-oh-help-me-don't-leave-me look on my face every time the customer made any abnormal request/purchase, so he had to stay with me.

Haha gile nervous tau(jadi cashier)!!

By the way Mr Tall&Sweet is off today. Shuib resigned. Kak Su took an emergency leave. Kak Ain was on morning shift. And I was left with only the Abgs S n A until closing.

To my disappointment, I've just realised that I'll be working on FULL shift this Wednesday. FULL shift means from 9.30 am until 10pm ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh matilahhhhhhh kaki cramp2 sume...My next full shift is on SUNDAY! Weekend. Early July. Gaji baru masuk. Orang ramai. Matilahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Yeay!!!! Saya cuti esok!!!!!!
Been planning on karaoke-ing n cycling with Wani and Fuzah tomorrow.
Ooo La La...
But the next day kena go on full shift pula
)=


Moving on.....

I've made the biggest sin today. I feel soooooooo guilty. Extremely guilty that I feel like slamming myself towards the wall or strangling my own neck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What did I do? I took 5-6 suap-ful of rice at 10.15pm today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was seduced by my own childhood memory. Back when I was 5/6 my maid used to feed me my favourite nasi putih+telur hancur+kicap. At that time that was like food from heaven. And of course, my maid is very happy coz preparing the food took less than 10 minutes!
So today a sudden urge has forced myself to take that all time favourite nasi putih+telur hancur+kicap eventhough I had rotiboy and a slice of chicken sandwich during my evening break.
I ate nasik! For God sake, I haven't touched that sinful nasik for about 2 months!!!!!
Benciiiiiiiiiiiii
10 pm. Nasik. Double triple sins.

Benci!
Katakan TAK NAK pada nasik!
Tsk

Ma famille - hors de prix

The king and his men stole the queen from her bed
And bound her in her bones
The seas be ours and by the powers
Where we will, we'll roam...
Yo ho, all together...
Hoist the colors high...
Heave ho, thieves and beggars...
Never shall we die...
Uhuhuhuhhu....pirate fever~

Yesterday I went to Mak Pah's house in Kajang to visit herhusband, Uncle Mazlan. He just underwent a minor leg surgery and Alhamdulillah, he's all fine by now.Dapat cuti 3 weeks lagi! I haven't seen my aunts and uncles for months y'know?? And it was such a nice visit as I got to let go all the burden in my chest, rambling to my CikPi about in-house problems & worrisome future. I've even made a deal with MakPah to be her protege(in cookings)! And in return, I'll be tutoring her UPSR-PMR-SPM children. Triple trouble, triple kerisauan, and I hope I'll be able to provide useful helps to ease her burden, insyaAllah.

Last Sunday I went to Abdul Razak clan's Mothers' Day celebration - an annual celebration organised by my late father's family. Abdul Razak is my great great grandfather (I'm not sure how many greats should I put in though. I think he's my father's grandfather KOT) and he was honoured by the Dato' Setia Selangor title. I guessed he's really someone ait? So it was quite a merry family gathering, peeps were dancing, singing & laughing out louds but the atmosphere was just too different when I was around my maternal family. Perhaps the fact that my father has passed away and I don't get to see them more often made me feel very...alienated? Hohoho maybe it was just me. Saye..mmg agak susah utk memesrakan diri with new atmosphere or once-in-a-blue-moon-baru-jumpe-peeps.

But it's kinda sad actually. Here in my paternal side I've got lots of cousins with the similar age as moi. Kire byk teenagers la as compared to my maternal family, I'm the 4th grandchild out of 21++ so it made me the orang dewasa nye clan, which is not so many. It'll be lots of fun if I get to hang out with 'em berhooha like what they always do among them. But I think I shouldn't be blaming anyone/anything but me. Maybe I just don't smile that often and didn't put so much effort to be in the team. I prefer to lay back and join them upon invitation, no effort to contact them or whatever them cousins always do. Hohoho.. Erm..tapi aneh skali, with my bin/binti Haron's (my mom's side) family saye rase enjoy je mingling around wit my lil cousins coz I got to play the garang-mak-tiri-tapi-kadang2-kena-buli-gak part. Huu..

To make things worse, I don't really know their (dad's side) names and how are we related (means=dier ni pakngah anak sape, anak maklong mane, nak panggil ape.sepupu ke,2 pupu ke kupukupu ke) except my father's siblings and their families je la..Oh..jahatnye saye T_T But Alhamdulillah, my existence is still-known? Takdela rase cam UFO sangat. They know me as anak arwah yan (my dad) and thanks to the gene, my face resembles my dad very much that I don't even have to introduce myself further.


Exclusive old skool pics- credit to Uncle Idham (satu lagi masalah-org panggil dier camtu ke?? ke pak long idham ke..ke ape ke??) my dad's family. Standing L-R = busu (dr aziah), my oh-so-cute dad, mak teh (datin zaiton). Sitting L-R = my granddad (never met him-he passed away in 1970s), my paklong and my grandmom (passed away in 2004)

Errmmm..this topic is quite sensitive actually. If someone/anyone from the family happened to read this post, thousand apologizes. It's just a luahan hati and dun get me wrong, I love all my relatives and am glad to be one of the clan.

2nd trip Cerakah

2nd trip to Cerakah- with a special guest --> Fuzah.huhu.Left out jogging coz we need to save up energy to cycle up the hill and it was such a WISE decision! We were a bit lost, and ended up climbing up the hill and speeding down the hill most of the time.

I'm still traumatized with the bad experience I had when I was speeding (cycling) down the hill 7 yrs ago. Sangat scarry ok, saye jatuh dgn kelajuan yg tinggi and can u imagine the impact?!!? So I was too careful when cycling down the hill, and ended up being the left-one. Sebab 2 makcik itu speeding dgn riangnye meninggalkan saye. Anyway if they are the star of cycling down the hill, saye pula queen of naik bukit! haha....sebab saye sangat bersemangat naik bukit mengayuh penat oh hebat hebat~~

After cycling we rushed to OU for Pirates of The Carribean : The World's End. Credit to Fiqah and Wani for the tickets. And POC is seriously amazing! Sangat best! Jack Sparrow sgt cute! Capt Will Turner pun drop dead gorgeous. Ngeahahaha..

More pics at My FOTOPAGES Seriously, nature offers us a wide range of indescribable tranquility. We just need to find 'em.

In a nutshell, for the time being, I just want to find the tranquility..And try as I might, I don't want to meet anyone that I know in this few weeks. Yup, I could not disengage myself from the seductive movies and shopping complexes but tolonglah...gue ngak ada mood utk bersosial. Those are the ppl that I'm willing to meet for the time being:

• Wani - hari2 jumpe hahah
• Ida - coz I wanna ride on the newly bought Myvi--cpat amik aku kat umah!!!
• Fuzah - perlu reason ke? hahah
• Bella - coz I haven't met her for about ONE damn year. gler lamer
• Nadiah - dah lame tak dgr dier merengek dan mencarut. hahah
• Epul - nak kasi badge~
• Others? to be decided later~

Ta~

Cycling? 7 yrs ago? maybe?

I came across this website when I was bloghopping. Erm.. pity her,eh? Yes, I know, there are many other kids/ppl are suffering from segala-segali diseases but this one lil kid is fortunate enough to have ppl who fights for her. Let's pray for her health and insyaAllah, I'll figure out some way to help her too.

Today we went for more challenging activity. Luckily I woke up quite early and managed to get out from my house before the traffic worsen. We went jogging as usual (usual? baru sehari~) and since today's schedule is quite packed, we had to cut down time spent for jogging.

Approx at 9, we rushed to Bukit Cerakah/ Taman Cahaya Seri Alam. Frankly speaking, eventhough I've been residing Shah Alam since 1991/2, as far as I could remember, today was my 1st visit to Bkt Cerakah! Sadly the place was abandoned. Dull. Inattractive. Boring. Nonetheless, nature-wise it was such a wonderful place to find solace.


I have also made an achievement, by riding the bike semi-successfully (semi: at first few minutes I was quite reluctant to ride on the bike. Wani had to stop several time so I could catch up. I handled the pedal clumsily but somehow managed to control the bike from attacking the longkangs/hutan). We cycled around the "vast" area, stopped by at Taman Haiwan (see my picture- phyton tuh...cuak gler!) and Rumah 4 Musim but didn't take a tour inside the house because it'd cost us another RM3! (RM 3 may looked cheap but heck we paid RM 3 for entrance RM 3 for the bicycle and now another RM3?!?!?)




Sharp at 10, we made our way out from the so-called preserved forest. We had our breakfast at the carpark, headed to tasik, changed clothes and changed direction to JJ Bkt Raja to catch up Sumolah! How's Sumolah!? It was quite good story. I expected more from Afdlin but I think this movie is cute enough. Simple yet meaningful- dgn ada unsur2 sarcastic disitu...A good attempt to bridge Japan culture and Malaysia and let ppl judge which customs are good to be developed or which are'nt to be ditched from ourselves. There'll never be one particular perfect adat that could make us a better person so yeah, let's adopt and adapt!

Ended up the day with a quick window shopping. But I've intended to buy a track bottom since mine are mostly torn due to some stunt actions I did when playing volley back at McB.



Ahh..how I missed volleyball.. )=