Hidup si bosan

I went through several blog friends/kenalan who are studying abroad like moi and found out tch! gile bosan blog gua neh. Seminggu kalau takde entry jiwa kacau tak sah. lol. Okay okay. Dua hari ni dah buat muhasabah diri. I'm not gonna waste my time being sad for that long anymore. I mean, if the soul is disturbed (jiwa kacau?) raaaaaage for a day or two and then let's try to move on shall we? Eventually things are gonna slowly come to its places. Eh tapi ni cuba je cube tau..kalau tak jadi nak buat camno..

graf jiwa kacau ikut bulan. 1st wave dlu time winter. 2nd wave sedang berlangsung, selasa ni abis! haha..3rd wave nnt dkat2 summer exam. damnnnn..

I think one of the reason why I became depressed like this is because Cork itself is kinda boring place. Unlike Malaysia, seriously Malaysia adalah super cool. Agak-agak bosan sikit dah boleh drive gi sana sini tp kat Cork ni..blehhh. Entertainment ada, semangat yg takde. Nak gi karoke pun pikir seribu kali and ended up karaoke dlm bilik sendiri sambil mengannoy jiran-jiran. HAHAHA. Damn lah. Sebab tu saya suke mandi satu hari dua kali kat sini (mandi satu hari lebih dari sekali tak ramai org buat, I think :P) sebab bleh bantai nyanyi dlm shower. Shower rumah ktorang tengah gile bunyi dia bising nak mampus so kalau nak tarik lagu kuat-kuat nyanyi lagu Ziana Zain ke apa ke mungkin orang tak dengar sangat.

nah cabaran nyanyi lagu ni!

Oh ye dalam kesesakan duit ni tibe-tibe ZINNGGGG semalam beli tiket easter nak gi Amsterdam. Camne tu kawan-kawan? Nadzirah memang camni. Kalau dia stress tu mmg seboleh-bolehnye nak kuar dari Cork. Konon-konon prinsip biar pokai asalkan happy tp bile pokai kau jugak yg stress-stress kannn. Hahaha..adoih. Tapi travel ni sebenarnya cam a way of comforting myself yang berkali-kali rasa nak give up je duduk oversea neh. Best memang best tapi byk sangat pressure nak kena handle. Tp takpe, logo Perwira kata don't crack under pressure. Tak sabar nak gi Amsterdam dah bertahun-tahun mengidam nak gi situ eh nak buat apa dia tu mengidam nak gi situ. hehehe..mana ada buat apa-apa kite budak baik-baik kannn :] Dah pegi Amsterdam tu dah puas hati dah, tinggal Itali tak pegi lagi takpe tu nnt kite cari masa okeyy?

gileee pegi jauh2 nak tengok bunga je ke? kat fitzgerald park pun ada! cait...hahaha sukati lah weh!

Oklah. Konon tadi nak take 5 from study tp skarang cam dah take 5 times 10 je! Oh by the way mahu credit my cheerleaders. I can't thank u enough for staying there with me. Kau orang saje, selain my mom yg tahu nak tolerate orang gila macam saya ni :') And terima kasih jugak buat video2 yg diupload tu bisa buat saya gelak cam org gila balik tgk kerenah kawan-kawan sekolah yg dengar cite dah banyak matang-matang. Awhhhh I'm proud of u guys :') (walaupun dlm video...errr...tak ditonjolkan kematangannye)

Dari kiri, ketua2 cheerleaders saya, Ida, Wani dan Fuzah. :P Ida, kaki tu tak angkat cukup tinggi tu daa..

Of chicken and duck

Ayam dan itik ialah pasangan klinikal di suatu universiti. Mereka ialah pelajar pergigian. Sebenarnya ayam dan itik ni asalnya bukan berpasangan pun tapi sebab sh*t happens, mereka digandingkan bersama. Things didn't go pretty well between both of them jadi ayam bersabar je lah dengan harapan suatu hari nanti things will be better.


Pada minggu lepas, selepas dipressure oleh penyelaras subjek klinikal mereka, akhirnya penyelaras kumpulan itik dan ayam membuat keputusan agar mereka bekerjasama merawat pesakit yang sama. Itik yang membawa patient itu dahulu maka ayam tidak berapa tahu menahu apa yang patient itu perlukan memandangkan pada masa yang sama ayam ada patient sendiri. Ayam hanya datang di akhir session only to be her helper, mengemas unit kerusi dan menulis history diagnosis dan treatment sheet. Tapi memandangkan ayam akan bekerja dgn patient tu ayam pun baca lah chart dan tanya-tanye penyelaras kumpulan apa yang patut mereka lakukan di masa hadapan. Ayam was pretty sure of what she heard and been told.


Jadi pada minggu hadapannya, sehari sebelum hari clinical mereka ayam tanya itik, bukankah mereka sepatutnya bersedia utk sterilize dengan alatan untuk menampal gigi pesakit mereka. Itik menidakkan dengan sehebat-hebatnya dgn begitu yakin sekali. Kali ni ayam beranikan diri cakap apa yang doktor itu cakap tapi dicantas hebat dengan itik dengan begitu confident. Ayam malas nak argue further sebab ayam tau things would only get worst if ayam were to utter other words. So ayam swallow her words and tried to keep her anger aside. Ayam balik rumah dengan perasaan marah yang membuak-buak nasib petang dan melepaskan geram pada pinggan mangkuk di rumah. Nasib petang tu makan ikan keli.


Pada hari klinikal, doktor datang dan mendapati itik tidak sterilize barang-barang yang diperlukan utk menampal gigi sebab dia yakin je dia takyah buat tu minggu ni. Doktor siap kata "didn't I told you last week we are going to do scaling AND fillings at the same time" Doktor mengeluh dan ayam hanya berdiam diri memandangkan itik yang yakin sangat dengan pendirian dia. Ayam rasa macam nakkkkk je cakap yang "I TOLD YOU SO!" dekat muka itik dan put the blame on itik like what itik did to her 2 months ago but ayam kept it to herself. Yes, sebelum ni itik ada buat salah dan dia blame ayam memang kurang asam sungguh.


Setiap kali ada konflik begini, ayam simpan harapan nak panggang je itik tu tapi ayam tetap bersabar. Mari sama-sama doakan ayam di kurniakan kesabaran yang berpanjangan sehingga akhir hayat. Amiin.

Of endless ramblings

seriously. nak balik sekolah. go back to my wonderful friends and teachers. go back to less stressful life :(

Currently there are too many things that are going around in my head that sometimes makes me wanna jump off the cliff. To whom I wanna tell I also dunno because most of them are school matters, and not many could understand. Mich, if you read this (I somehow suspected you read my blog. LOL) I miss you! I miss bitching and talking about school things over the lunch with you :( I hope you are doing fine over there.


So what is burdening me so much? First off let me start with prosthetic labs. Over the time I started to develop hatred towards this supposed-to-be-easy-and-leisure subject. I can't seem to understand whatever things that we are working on now. The thing is there is no clear syllabus and objective of this subject. Everytime we come, we do one thing and then that's there. The next day we come he demonstrate, and we do again. I really hate doing something without knowing the direction. I felt clueless and hopeless! Moreover, I'm currently having problem with mounting the cast coz I can't seem to get the occlusion right! I did that 3 times only to find the results are still the same. Still not right! Dang hopeless man!


Secondly, of OTL, I just had the exams today so I kinda been stressing about the exam for the past few days. I was having problems with the amalgam so it really annoys me a lot. Preparing cavity tak jadi-jadi. Buat amalgam tak siap-siap. I just hope that I passed today's practical exam. .Plus, my right hand is currently in pain that really makes me worried. I've been trying to lessen the usage of my right hand these days to reduce the pain. At one time I even wanted to take painkillers because the pain is really starting to kill me x___x


Next up in the list is pharmaco exam next week. I don't know there are just too many things to be remembered that I've started to give up alread. Every night I had to force myself at least to read a bit because I just don't have the motivation anymore. I really wanna get over this exam ASAP! And last but not least it of course the endless story of my clinical session. The requirements, the partner, all this bullsh*t that really pisses me off.


Other minor things that been bugging me of course including financial prob and 2PM. The purchase of ticket to Malaysia for summer holiday has put me into some kind of financial crisis. Bukanlah nak kata I don't have money at all tu tipulah. I have a bit left in case I'm going to travel this easter holiday than that's it (tapi tu tak kire hutang credit card lagi.lol lol). It's only less that 2 months to go before next allowance so I hope I can make it. On the other hand, of 2PM? Let's not elaborate this further because this is something that's only can be understood between me and the Hottest. Enough to say that my heart has shattered to pieces of what's happening lately around the fandom.


There you go. The things that has been making me so stressful lately. The classes itself are very tiring and this things just make me ran out of energy. I've been sleeping during the evening lately because I'm just too tired and sometimes I just wanna sleep off the problems. I hope all the things that I'm going through right now will make me a stronger in the future. Afterall He won't burden us with something that we can't handle, yes?


p.s : And if anybody who went across my ramblings in twitter of anything, and thinks I've went too far, I sincerely apologize. You see, twitter is a place where I blurt out feeling that I'm having at that instance. So it's usually full of emotion. It's something I wrote out of anger without thinking. I love you all my girlfriends back in Malaysia..you are my cheerleaders, my 54 housemates..you are the only family I have here in Eire.And to my family, my source of strength, I miss you all so much :(

Of lovely clouds and weather

The weather is super nice and the clouds are so beautiful today.


Cuma hati saya saja yang serabut. School things are stepping in to show them that they actually rule my life. Not anything else. I seriously need to reorganize my life now X___X

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