Good luck card :D

Simply made my day :') Ingatan tulus ikhlas from Nabila, my bestfwen in Bristol.

Doa dan harapan

More often than not, our prayers are centred around us, what we want, what we hoped for, what we desire. Tapi it's time for me to be unselfish and widespread the doa to everyone else.

May Allah grant strength to everyone around me. May Allah lead us to the path to Jannah. May Allah soften and open the hearts of everyone around me.

From today, my doa priorities shouldn't always be on the exams. It's for something bigger and meant so much for me. For the people I love dearly.
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Bingit

"Malasnya nak pergi oral surgery harini. Dahlah tak selesa perut ni. Lepak rumah je lah"

Ngeeeeeeeeengggggggggggggg ngeng ngeng ngenggggggggggggggggggg

-___-" lupe plak rumah tgh renovate.

Haishk.

Cpatlah habis renovation ni. Tiap2 hari terpaksa keluar rumah. In a way baguslah sebab terpaksa study kt hospital tp kadang2 nak la rest kat rumah jugak..
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2 months

2 months from this date, our result is supposed to come out.

2 months.

Pergh.

Time flies!

Rabbi yassir wa la tuassir.
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Dadah

Ini dadah saya. Dia perlu ada kala saya duka kala saya stress nak exam..

Dulu zaman kanak2 mak selalu tinggal kita dekat kfc atau a&w jalan tar kalau dia nak gi shopping. Jadinya dari kecik dah terbiasa dgn a&w. Pastu rasa mcm ada sikit2 bahagian dlm otak flashback singgah a&w kalau pergi golf range dkat PJ tu. Tah betul tah tak memori tu ye ye je..

Tp serius, ini comfort drink saya. Kalau minum jd tenang sikit. Sbb tu saye suke kedekut a&w. Hikhikhik.

Proving yourself

Yesterday I had my orthodontics mock exam. I know it's just a mock. But it carried a bigger meaning to me - having the advantage to prove myself in front of prof.

All this while in tutorial I was all nervous and tensed up so I was overshadowed by my groupmates. However, yesterday, we had one-to-one session so I managed to show him I can do better. Not the best session ever, but way much better than in tutorials and finally got a "very good" from him. it wasn't all perfect yesterday, I stuttered on few questions, got one part of the diagnosis wrong, but it was still very satisfying.

A few more miles to go. Let's do this right.

How your body reacts to stress?

Selalu kalau datang psycho nak exam, apart from crazy mood swings, I get some some physical presentations as well. This would include -

1) Eczema on my fingers. Sometimes they become so dry they bleed. Zzzz

2) Pericoronitis on my partially erupted lower left 8. One day I'm going to get this tooth pulled out!

3) Headache, sometimes unilateral, sometimes my forehead feels really tight.

Fifuh kthxbai!
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Eau So Fresh!

Went to my first Paddy's day parade yesterday! Unfortunately my spot was very unstrategic so the pictures are mostly interrupted by people's head..

Treated myself to a new parfumeee and I'm addicted to it already. Sprayed it on the bed and kept on sniffing the bottle like one crazy person.

It had been one shitty week with physical and emotional pain kept on coming my way but it ended pretty well. Managed to convinced myself to push through and keep on swimming til the end.

Let's do this! Berusahaaaaa. Bertahaaan. Coz what doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger!

Wordless Wednessday - a token of appreciation from my patient

:)

Attracting positivitiessss

20th April - Oral Surgery final paper

*23rd April - logbook submission

4th May - Oral Health and Development final paper (Paediatrics, Orthodontics, Public Health)

9-10th May -  Oral Surgery Clinics and viva

*11th May - Requirement completion

17-18th May - Oral Health and Development Clinics and viva

22-23rd May - Restorative seen and unseen cases

25th May - Exam board (Results)

14th June - Graduation ---- 92 days before graduation!!

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim. In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Another sad day in my life

I don't know if I'm just overreacting over small things, or it's the time of the month or I'm just so fragile right now. But whatever it is, this thing is fucking killing me from inside as I have lost wills to do stuff already. I abandoned my clinical session and tutorial today coz I just can't bring myself up today.

So I've been told that my only brother, my sis in law and my niece are not coming to my graduation. It was 3 in the morning when I read the msg, took me 10 minutes to digest the info before I broke down. Only my mom will come, probably with her friend. Her friend! Not someone related to me. Just someone random.

All this while I've been trying to push myself to go through allll this shits so I can graduate and my whole small family will be with me on what supposed to be the happiest day in my life. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom with all my heart but I would really love to see my bro my sis and my niece to be there as well. So what happens when your motivation lets you down? You become as sad as hell. Sad. Frustrated. Broken hearted.

If I have money I will all my family here. My makcik pakcik who've been with me all my life. My close friends. If and only if I have loads of money..But what the heck, not even my brother will be there.

So sad,papa. If you're still will us, will you come to my graduation day too?

Papa I miss you so much :(
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F my life

I've already reach to the level where I breakdown to every possible points.

Yesterday was a very shitty day and today at 3 in the morning i got like one of the saddest news ever.

F my life.

Satu kesedihan yang susah saya nak explain.
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Bosan hoih!

Momentum nak study xdaaaak. Machiam mana innieyyyyyy.

Bosan hoih bosan.
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Hai

Tibe-tibe macam happy pulak harini ^__^


Hihi...excuse the gedikness. Kasi can la gua perasan sekali sekala~

Life's brief update

Hellooooo..it's been a while innit?

Final year pressure has started to take its full effect. My next exam is about a month time and my revisions are still very shaky. Its worrying but sometimes it is so hard to get started to study after a long day in clinic..

My stress-induced headache is back! I used to have this during the start of 4th year..continuous eye twitching, throbbing headache sometimes unilateral sometimes bilateral..sometimes I even broke down and felt like I can't take it anymore..

At this moment I'm just praying for strength to go through this few months. May my sanity remain intact and hopefully, ya Allah please let me pass this final year in one go.
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