Frustration

When somebody become the exact thing that you hoped they don't be, it's very upsetting.

But I'm currently adopting a policy where I will go silent every time I'm upset. Well, it doesn't really affect me because whether I speak up or not, the outcome is still the same it's not like the other party will care about how I feel. But I go numb so that I don't speak the words that hurt the other party. At least I will be the only one hurting from inside, other people can enjoy their life.

My silence is golden for others, but cancerous for me. Pretty sure I'll die a slow death from swallowing this if I don't practice a zero fuck policy soon.