Ugly

Growing up, I struggle a lot in finding and establishing my self-esteem. I'm no pretty face. I struggle with body weight issue since almost forever. I grew up in a society where slim body and fair face are the definition of beautiful so being out from my comfort zone, I will usually stay low and won't appear my usual self because I just don't feel...worthy.




 However I still thank God for granting me circle of friends whom I can declare my comfort zone. I can laugh I can talk I can cry I can scream I can do whatever I want without being afraid of being judged. And for that they have a special place in my heart, always.

However, I still realize that as the time goes by, as my friends start to tie the knot I will be left all by myself. I am twenty four, still single and with this non-existing self esteem I doubt that I will find a partner soon. I do have that one magical wish that someday somehow somebody will fall me for who I am and I can call him my own comfort zone.


With that, I end this post with a cover made by my friend as the guitarist cum vocalist and me as the co-vocalist. A song that is very close to my heart.

 "cause I think I'm ugly, and nobody wants to love me"