catatan perempuan yang sakit rumah kronik tahap 9

OH EM GEEEEEEE

POINT PERTAMA : I MISS HOME, I MISS MALAYSIA LIKE CRAZY. LIKE CRAZY CRAZY. RINDU RINDU RINDU NAK BALIK. TAHAP MENANGIS TAK BERLAGU :( TAHAP MERAUNG TAK BERAIRMATA. TAHAP DEWA. TAHAP MOKSYA.

POINT KEDUA : I AM VERY IMPULSIVE. I CAN DECIDE TO BUY A FLIGHT TICKETS TO ANYWHERE IF I FEEL LIKE DOING SO WITHIN 2 MINUTES.

Okay so today I had Histology paper at 430pm. I went out earlier as I'm afraid I might change my mind if I stayed longer because that's what usually happened. And I will end up changing to a wrong answer instead. While waiting for the cab, I had conversations with my classmates.

Until one point KB brought out this one point that changed my life forever (ceyywaaahh exagerrate nampak?) He said he's not staying long for the clinical attachment.Yes, THE clinical attachment - the one that kept me from going back earlier. And you know what my reaction would be - I WANNA GO BACK EARLIER TOO.

I know it hasn't been even one year since I left home. But the thing is, this year is so full of hardship. Saya penat. Started the year with 3 weeks of intensive classes. A few conflicts arose here and there towards the end of 2008. Endless assessments and draggy exams. Losing my beloved grandpa. Sejujurnya saya penat sangat. And I really need to go back to the faces that I longed for. The family. The friends. And hearing that one thing really made me go restless thinking should I or should I not change my ticket.

So should I? Should I not? Haihhh saya runsing lah ini :-( If I were to change my ticket, I'll make them earlier by a week. Maybe around 17th. But will there be any seat available? Will there be any difficulties? Hwaaaaaa....So, combining the abovementioned point 1 and point 2, I am seriously considering of changing my tickets. Mungkin perlu solat istikharah. Ya Allah berikanlah aku petunjuk. Tetapkan lah hatiku Ya Allah. Biarlah apa keputusan yang aku ambil ini adalah yang terbaik untukku Ya Allah.

tsk.