Ada Orang Lagi Ke?

Knock knock. Just wondering if there are any people still reading my blog. I mean..people don't really write things in blog anymore these days of instagram and facebook and twitter and other socmeds don't they? 

Unless, when there are things can't really be expressed through other mediums. Something lengthier. Something that comes from heart. Something that look like a ramble that you need to let it off but would like a smaller audience. Something more...personal. I know there are diaries but who does that anymore?

At least for me, blog is medium where I vent off my frustrations, talk out about my insecurities. My self-esteem is very low. There are things I don't prefer to discuss with other people. So I discussed with myself here. Whatever I put out here is in no mean to show-off. It's just for me to look through my life, what I have achieved and to reassure myself that I'm doing okay. Keep going, keep swimming.

I have been writing for more than 10 years. The frequency has reduced, but I still write every now and then whenever I am not happy or when I need to let go. My writings reflect what i felt DURING THE TIME THE POST WAS MADE and might not be relevant during any other time. Like how I think I was so into somebody before? Now no more, not a single cent. So yeah we all have our phase right?

Whatever it is, I think when you read others blog, you shouldn't take it personally even it is about you. No need to make it a big deal. Especially when no names are thrown. Especially blog with small audience like mine. Maybe take it as a reflection of whatever people think of you no matter whether YOU think it's true or not. 

Adios

Semangat Baru

Last year was one of my peak year where I managed to achieve 2 big targets in a year - travelled to NZ and buying my teratak kecil. I was so motivated the moment we started planning for NZ on March last year.

This year I felt empty. No target. No motivations. No nothing..and I haven't even managed to save up that much pun. Entahlah macam takde drive. 

Until I got an enlightenment earlier this morning - I wanna buy a new car! 

You see..my baby V is 9 years old already. As much as I love it and how good it is, it will need to be replaced. Car is a liability. Tarak untung, manyak rugi. So I don't want to spend too much on a car monthly but I am not keen to buy a second hand either. 

So here's a new plan. In 4 years, I'm going to buy a new car. I will *try* to gather a higher deposit and make sure the loan is paid within 7 years. 

I am also going to travel oversea next year. Where and when still a question mark, but I prolly be following Wany and her parents IF I managed to save up enough money.

Here's to new found spirit. May this one be the drive for me to keep on living..