Back here to my old tempat meluah segala kerisauan that I have abadoned for a while. Sorry blog. I turned to you only in sorrow and worries nowadays.
And I am in my highest peak of kitaran kerisauan these days.
People left and right are moving on with their lives. It kinda puts up pressure to me. Friends of my age are getting married. Friends having new babies. I mean, I am really happy for them but it kinda makes me more, like a loser. Am i going to end up alone for the rest of my life? I mean, for some reason I am not really that lonely. I do have my company but in the end, I am still all by myself with all the uncertainties.
Career wise, although I am very thankful with where I am right now but I still think I need to start doing more. Seeing people start progressing with the careers taking up courses here and there made me feel very much kebelakang. Of course I have taken the giant leap of faith by resigning almost a year ago, if I have stayed at the same place I don't know what will happen to my skills but I think it's just not enough.
All of these are making me worried and sad and I just don't know how to comfort myself. I always turned to working out for my source of endorphin but had my right leg injured so this is really a bummer. Ended up crying and worrying and more worrying. I know this won't solve the problem but at the moment that's all I can do.
Bersabarlah duhai hati. Just keep on trusting His plan. Sesungguhnya hanya Dia Maha Mengetahui 😔
