happy bday to me

This is my 1st post at my official age of 19 *nyaha*

Erm.Actually I had one of my toughest time yesterday. Especially when I had to celebrate my failure on the same day of my bday

Neway frester testimonials had somehow make me smile...Ramaiiii org wish bday gue =) =) I got 16 testimonials from my frens so kire cam gembira la..I'm smiling now..My 1st sincere smile from past 24 hours or shud I say 48 hours?

Well at least my smile now can put my depression aside..maybe for few hours? ENough to make me survive until my maths test kot?

I have to vomit this thing out. Benci sangat. I am stucked at a course whing I thing the input is very...helpful. Tapi kem ni jadi tensen sebab ada......Having to witness their very frendly ka lovely bond cam buat gue lagi sedih? Again I am haunted by this pathetic feeling. Siot tul la!!

Ok Ok...My sympathetic nerves aint functioning correctly. I'll be back

Ta~

accident

I met an accident

With a motorcycle

Lost my sense of direction

Bang!!

Again, a very unthrilling accident

Just near the junction at bukit saga

I have to pay rm15

Pity that guy

Cannot work

I feel guilty

Scolded by mom

Life sucks

apologi buat mahfuzah

Ouch,once again I screwed up.This entry is called apologi buat mahfuzah..

Need I explain to y'all wut had happened? Aint think that one wud be necessary. But it's just another emo silly thing. I am haunted by my guilt. Especially the fact that she's my bestest fwen ever and I shud be there to chill her down actually. But what did I do??? I just poured more acid on her profusely bleeding heart. Hwa hwa....There she goes. I dunno what she's doin now. Am feeling extremely guilty. Paiseyh..

Quoting my own saying :
"Ye aku tensen ngan ko.Tp stkt mane je la aku mampu bngang. U r my bestest fwen.."

tataulah ape yg saye dah buat
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Malaysian drama is seriously shuucckksss..Sheeshh..(courtesy to McB english dept yg mengsilibuskan cerita pasal niggers.huhu) Last nite after watching one in a million I wandered around the channels is astro (eh skati je kuar terms camni)Then I tried channel 1 n 2, just wanted to see if there's any improvement. Since my ability of multitasking is undeniable, I watched the drama in ch 1 n 2 at the same time. Huh...serious dier nye stupidity tahap...tahap...huh speechless. People who sell chicken kat pasar yg bersih gila (which is so..tipu) is having a better life than people who are pampered in air cond'd room. Hoh....tipu tipu tipuuuuuuuu. Hwaa...I felt so stupid due to my stupid decision of watching those shows.Ciss...tahapahapetah

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Oh yeah..my group, INSYIRAH, won the best group MPI!! Haha..it was worthy experience tho. It didnt affect me much on my penghayatan in islam except the fact that I am certain that my religion is the one n only religion yg sangat beauttifulll n relevant. I'm proud to be a muslim, seriously. But I met great bunch of fwens yg sebnanye byk kali terserempak dah pon. Cuma skang je get to know them better. Best best. My groupmate rocks!! Gabungan perempuan bising n suke glak. Oh..our cooking n slaughtering competition, we won!! Hahaha..Jenazah?...we won!!! hahaha. Best best best

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I'm going out wif z today. See toldcha that I'll be missing her. Sebab lately (NOTE:my lately is this recent 3 months)I've been going out with her. Hwa hwa z....jgn tinggal daku..sape lagi nak usha crop zara bersama?? But seriously I am not in my best mood, especially after what had happend. Tu pasal gue ajak dier tgk wayang....Erm..whatever.Let's just pray that in the coming hours, I'll get better and regain my stability,

happy happy

10.28pm,July 18 2006.


This is a happier version of me =)(= and I just feel like blogginggggg

Burp...kenyangnyer makan eksrem cappucino Shazif blanje. Mekasih Encek Shazif Othman.Moga eskrem yang bakal menambah lemak di badan saya ini diberkati dan halal sempena expo halal yang bakal berlangsung esok. *talking craps*

Suddenly I feel happier today. Nothing happened today. Class went like usual. I didnt go to the tayangan (a slot, part of our MPI) instead went to library to read the newspaper. To my dissapointment the main topic at ALL papers are on that Shhtuupiid Siti and Pil KK. Yah wutever. Do whatever u want to do but pls stop making such gimmick no-comment-biarlah-rahsia statement. That is just...so...lame.

I just went for the taska meeting. Sheesshh menyesal capub bday gue. Tak pasal2 I was appointed to be the project manager next week. The agenda is birthday party so Shazif cruelly assigned me and....IJOY???? to be the project manager. Uwaaa..saye takut dengan Ijoy. Dier cam...garang. Walaupun dier jadi badut aritu...tapi..dier...cam..garang. Nanti dier...uwaa..takut. Ijoy is like..pejuang-islam-muslimin-sejati and I am perempuan-biasa-takut-dengan-ijoy

Tomorrow is my maths QUIZ. Cis..takut seyh

Dahlah. Nak sambung buat maths


N.B: I have new strategy on blogging. I'll just write up on the notepad and paste it whenever I get the chance to surf the net. So jimat mase. While waiting for the so-called hotspotz yg nak sampai ke hostel....terpakse lah wat camtuuuuuu

an attempt to write

This post is called an attempt to write.



Yesterday I checked my bank account. Oh now it was not on pupose tho. Just to kill time while waiting for my mom to withdraw her money. Then guess wut??

Your balance is RM***.25

And I was like....yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Duitku udah masukkk...Thanx mr jpa thanx mr govt for giving me chance to spend n spend n shop n shop. But the big Q is,


When will I get the chance to shop till I drop????

Okayh, there are few problems here:
1. I dun have time. Next week is our MPI which I think I am not siot enuff to create a reason n fly back home. I think it's a NO NO, for now at least. Next 2 weeks is my KEM SASTERA SIOT GILAK. End of July? Hurmm..maybe..
2. I am not in my best figure. Meaning I have to cut down my weight more. Tsk..I think this is the hardest part especially when my class is now faaaaaaaaaaaaaarrr away from everywhere. Makes me feel hungry easily, pluss the aircond pon make me hungry easily (yaa..shivering otot, more energy, yada yada bla bla)
3. Erm...


Sem 3 exam is cancelled or wut the college called as "postponed". Wut am I supposed to feel eh? Happy ke? Not really. No exam meaning I have to stay focus. Sebab wut makes me focus is............exam of course. Kalo tak mesti gue nak enjoy je rasenya.Hwaaaaa...takuttttttttttttttttt. What will happen next? Just wait n see.

So far my sem 3 life is not bad. My social life...is not that bad. Except for the fact that I played roughly during the sports carnival, maybe ade induce kebengangan org terhadap gue. Sorry ler sesangat. Nyaha. But my procrastinationata disease still ade.Worsen maybe. Paiseyh, I really need to get back on track kan..kan..kan...

Oh I have this new disease. Even I myself am terrified with this disease. He kept on popping out in my mind.The thoughts on him is undeletable. To make it worst, arghh..he is he. He is not other he or that he or this he. Nyaha...who is HE? No one shud know. No one wud ever know. Trust me. Any clue?? He is not from sains selangor obviously. So enough said. No one knows. I've never told anyone. Even my McB fren. Even my SMSS fren.


tatau ape motif gambar neyh >.<

~~~nyaha nyehe. I think I am crazy. Tell me wut's goin on...~~~~~

Ta~