Of Hopes and Desires

Roadtrip to Dingle

2012-01-31T23:20:00.000Z

Had a roadtrip last weekend to Dingle with my good friends. Despite the cold and wet weather, it was one enjoyable and fun trip :)

The girls

Waterstream at the valley

Journey up and down the hilly roads

In front of our cottage with our rides. Wira, Mini Cooper, Audi A4 and Ford Focus

Westlife wannabes

Dingle Valley

Jarang wa update blog lately. Mainly because 1) Tak jiwa kacau sangat 2) Otak more to pressure dengan hal-hal ke-akademik-an 3) Nothing much to be talked about

Tomorrow, it's February. 2 months before my other final exams start. *kesat peluh*

Unknown error!

2012-01-25T22:48:00.001Z

Sepatutnya perasaan dah stabil. Scholar baru masuk tadi, so that's one damn big relief considering how poor I've been this few weeks. Tiket rugby dah beli. Semua dah ada but I feel so lost these 2 days...

I was so motivated and all geared up last weekend. One of my productive weekends I must say. But when the new week started everything seemed to crumble apart. Sigh..dahla weekend ni teroccupied lagi!

Ya Allah, berikan aku ketenangan dan leraikan keserabutanku ini...

H A P P Y

2012-01-24T18:00:00.001Z

Heeeeellllllooooo. Managed to find somebody to tag along to the match. So...yeah..I'm going to the game next month!!!

Soooooooo sooooo excited.com! Tried on the jersey I bought 2 yrs ago. A bit tight but still wearable. But it's an old jersey tho.

Plus something happened that made me happy before it was cut off by something else. Pfffffffft.

Kthxbai. Imma move on with my life now!
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Nak tengok rugby :(

2012-01-24T14:28:00.001Z

Teringin nak tengok rugby tapi macam xde sapa nak teman. Sekali je seumur hidup nak tengok ireland lawan..

Masa2 camni rindu kat oreng2 yg boleh bawak/teman saya pi tengok rugby...

Sobs
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Bounjourno Milan - part dos

2012-01-18T00:59:00.003Z

So...after the 10 hours beauty sleep, we woke up all fresh and ready for the second part of the trip. Checked out of hotel and went to the metro station to go to Milano Centrale station.

Morning surprise

We were very surprised to find out the next train available was in...28 minutes. LOL. We initially planned to get the 10.40am train. We panicked, went out to find a taxy with hope we could still catch the train. Tapi, it was really hard because the people there don't speak English (almost at all) so it was really disappointing trying to get a taxy there. Turns out there was a strike going on that day so we decided to go back to the metro station.

Alhamdulillah everything went well after that. Bought our ticket at the machine. Costed us 4.45eu per pax for an hour train ride to Lake Como.

Arrived Como and was welcomed by a very beautiful view. Lake Como is claimed to be one of the most beautiful lakes in Italy. Shape dia macam Y if you look in the map.

We took a ferry to Bellagio, a very beautiful small town. The journey ride took about 50 minutes and costed us 11.80eu per ride, per pax.

Spent the whole day sightseeing, walked around Bellagio. I'll let the pictures do the talking..

Watched the sunset by the lake. Breathtaking and spectacular view. Took all the stresses away and I was much more relaxed after that.

The train ride from Como to Malpensa Airport costed us around 10eu.

We took a flight back later that night and it was delayed for about 30 mins or so because they had to de-ice the runway and the plane. YUP, de-ice, menyah-aiskan kapalterbang. Cam defrost ikan dalam peti sejuk. Gitu...The temperature was around -7 degrees that nite and it was freeeeeeeeeezing cold. Arrived London around 11.30pm. STUCK in the immigration around 30-40 minutes. The queue wasn't that long but there was only 1 officer at first attending to us the non-EU passport holders. Only after about 20mins or so they open up 1 more caunter. Cis betul.

I only managed to get a 3 hours sleep that night because we reached Fiqah's place at 2.15am and I had to catch train at 6.25am to go to London Stansted. My flight back to Cork was at 8.45 that Monday morning.

I reached Cork at 10.10am and was welcomed by a very very gloomy and depressing weather. Sighhhh..

The budget for the trip was around 100eu, inclusive food and transportation and accomodation. The flight costed me around 70eu but that was booked months ago. So...eventhough I'm almost deadbroke now, it was still an enjoyable trip. Takdelah kena ikat perut ke apa..

It was a really really good trip. Came at the right time as well. I only had a 3 hours sleep that night but still managed to attend the lecture and treat a patient that Monday. A demotivated and lazy me would skip the lecture and cancel my patient but I think I handled them well although I need to get a small help from Redbull to keep me energized.

My stress level was brought down from this trip. Thanks Afiqah for being my partner in crime. Now I'm all ready for second part of final year! Bring it on!

Bonjourno Milano - Parto One-o

2012-01-17T14:52:00.001Z

Alrighttt let's get this done while I'm still free. Soooo...last weekend I had a quick escape to Milan, Italy. It was planned months ago because I predicted I will need to destress after the exam.

I left Cork to London Stansted on Friday evening. "Miscalculated" the departure time so I had to leave early that Friday. Sooo glad the clinic went well and I managed to finish before 3.30. Went home, get ready and flew to London Stansted.

I had some time to kill before going to Luton because our flight was on Saturday. So, being the Malaysian I am, I decided to go to Bayswater to get dinner. Took a bus to Luton later that night.

Sleeping in Luton Airport

Well, let's say, it is not quite comfortable compared to sleeping in Stansted, especially before the check in area. We had to squeeze in ourselves on a bench very near to the window so it was quite cold. There were wheelchairs close to the bench so we use it to put our legs. Tried various position, managed to doze off for few minutes before we were woken up by bunch of noisy travellers.

So glad we were allowed to check in early. The benches in the departure hall were much more comfortable! We left for Milan Malpensa at 6.40am that morning...

Arriving Milan...

We arrived in Milan Malpensa airport around 11. Took a bus that was waiting us outside Terminal 2. I bought it online and it costed 7.50eu per pax. You can also get a train from Terminal 1, there was free shuttle connecting T1 and T2 but I figured out this was the cheapest, easiest and fastest option..

The temperature there in Milan ranges from -7 to 5 degrees. When we first arrived, it was so foggy so I was kinda disappointed at first. Luckily, the sun came out as we came closer to Milan city.

Took a metro to our hotel at Gambara area. Initially I booked a different hostel but I had a bad feeling about the hostel after reading the review....went to check at LastMinuterooms.com and found one affordable hotel with a very good review - Hotel Edy.

The hotel was okay, comfortable, the floor are not carpeted so it was a bit cold but they had plenty of duvet/blanket in the room so I used some of them to cover the floor. BUT, the lady at the receptionist DID NOT SPEAK ENGLISH at all. Hahaha it was hilarious when we first arrived. She was talking something like "kamera kamera" and all I imagined was the camera..camera. Turns out she wanted to say we can only check in at 1pm. LOL.

We were only allowed to check in after 1 so we had lunch at Megik Land - a restaurant across the road.

I have to say, the pizza and spaghetti there was so so so so cheap. The price for spaghetti ranges from 6-8eu and the price for a LARGE box of pizza was only 8eu. And the food was delicioussss as well! Tak puas rasanya sempat makan spaghetti sekali je...

After checking in, we showered, freshen up and got ready for our Milan city tour. Took Metro to Duomo Piazza.

Paid 10eu to go to the rooftop by lift. The staircase to the rooftop would cost you 6eu. We figured out we were too tired from the sleepless night so went on with the lift anyway.

Around the Duomo cathedral, there were shopping areas, yang, of course kitorang hanya mampu tengok je :P Didn't even dare to check the price ke apa.

Went and eat Panzerotti - a cakoi-like bread which was filled with mozarella cheese and tomato. Soooooo yummy. Mungkin bleh try buat nanti. We had to queue up to buy this so obviously it was one of the food to be eaten in Milan I supposed? Found this place thanks to Foursquare and Google Map! We also had the famous gelato icecream despite the freezing weather.

Spent that day touring the city until our legs gave up. There were few more places that we go but didn't quite had any idea what it was. LOL. Strolled around the duomo piazza area and had an encounter with a creepy man who gave me a creepy smile so we decided to just go back home after that.

Bought a box of pizza for our dinner at Megik Land (again!) and went back to the hostel quite early that day and had a good 10 hours sleep...

- to be continued-

Mencari ketenangan

2012-01-13T16:39:00.001Z

Jiwa adalah sedikit kacau these few days. I know exam is over..that was a relief. But that only 1 exam. 1 down tonnes more to go.

Lepastu hari selasa haritu kena bambu dgn cikgu. Benci. Robek mood seminggu.

So this weekend imma fly away somewhere to find peace. Hopefully everything goes smoothly..

Tata!
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My touristy London trip :P

2012-01-08T01:50:00.001Z

WARNING : THIS ENTRY IS HEAVILY LOADED WITH PICTURES (VAIN AND NON VAIN) CONTINUE AT YOUR OWN RISK :P

Soooooo...I spent my winter in London this year. We've been planning this since forever..bila dah dekat2 tu, duit macam nak habis plus risau nak exam and I almost didn't go tapi .... I went anyway.

Stayed at Royal Court Apartment in Gloucester Terrace. Recommended! Tempat dia just nice and senang nak ke mana-mana juga..

Day 1 - Saya sampai dalam pukul 10 lebih. Jumpa Fiqah, pergi breakfast dan berborak-borak catch up isu semasa :P Hantar barang pergi hotel dan jalan-jalan area Bayswater sementara tunggu Wany sampai. Lepastu kami late lunch dekat Melur Restaurant at Edgware Road. Combination of Indo and Malay food. I would rate this restaurant 4 out of 5. Kalau portion dia besar sikit kan puas hati sikit :P Tapi daging dendeng dia terbaik!

Lepastu singgah Harrods sementara tunggu teater nak tengok malam tu. Since Harrods punya sale will be starting on the 27th and kitorang takkan sempat pergi, so pergi la awal. Turns out dia punya perfume sale dah start and it is really cheap. Sesak nafas rebut2 dengan orang dalam tu menyesal tak beli banyak..

Lepas Harrods kitorang pergi tengok Wicked dekat Apollo Victoria Theatre. Ini pun tiket dah beli lama. Harga tiket dalam 30pounds tapi ada je lagi murah kalau jauh dari pentas. Kitorang penat gile dah by the time tengok teater ni but still tak tertido so that's a good sign eh?

Day 2 was our tourist-y day. Started the day jalan-jalan area Westminster. Lepastu naik London Eye. Ini pun tiket beli online awal-awal, combine dengan Madame Tussaud's punya admission costed us around 35pounds.

dalam Westminster Abbey

London Eye pura-pura sejuk

In the London Eye capsule dah penat berdiri

Geng The Beatles

Ahli terbaru the royal family, second wife Prince Charles. EH?

Day 3 was the christmas day. No buses tubes so we had a light and easy day. Pagi breakfast Malaysian hall lepastu jalan-jalan Hyde Park romentik sangattttsssss.

Self capture

HRC bukak that day

Royal Albert Hall

Sebab dah penat cross Hyde Park (ade dalam 1 hour sebab pace sangat slow) we rode bicycle to go back to our place. Bicycle ni kalau nak dapat access code bayar 1pound. Under 30mins free, 30-60minutes 1 pound. Makin lama makin mahal la. Gitu..

Ready to merempit!!

Lepastu balik hotel tido. The next day boxing day. Tak sempat tangkap gambar. Biasa jeee tak shopping banyak pun sebab takde la menarik sangat and takde duit sangat. HAHA.

HIMPUNAN MAKANAN-MAKANAN DI LONDON

Nasik, sambal paru dan tahu bersama milo ais - Malaysian Hall. Terbaikkk 4.5 out 5

Nando's. 4.5 out of 5!

Nasik goreng USA - Malaysian Hall - 4.8 out of 5!!

Mi goreng mamak MARA nye cafe mende tah nama. 0.5 out of 5. Harga mahal (charge extra 40% on christmas day Msian Hall charge lebih 1pound je!!) Dalam menu ada yg tulis **chef recommendation tapi rasa..haishk. menyedihkan

Daging dendeng, Ayam percik and kangkung masak belacan. 4.5 out of 5 - Melur Restaurant

Begitulah. Ok nak tidoooo. kthxbaiiiii

First Final

2012-01-05T18:06:00.003Z

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim. Doakan semuanya dipermudahkan yeh?

Selamat

2011-12-31T21:16:00.001Z

Hello 2012. Next week saya exam. Otak tgh serabut antara nak exam and sedih cuti nak abis and ahh macam2 la.

Next week wa update pasal London janji tak tipu.

New year celebration? Tarak, wa nak tido dah ngantuk gile ni.

New year resolution? Haishk. Simpan dalam hati je lew.

K bai!
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Hello from London!

2011-12-24T23:35:00.001Z

Greetings, everyone, haro from London!

This trip has been planned since 3rd year.."Nnt final year kita kena gi London, proper2 macam pegi melancong tempat betul2. Selama ni datang makan malaysian hall and shop Oxford st je!" Soooo..the dream has been materialized.

Money is kinda tight but everything has been planned since months ago sooo nak taknak datang je lah..but I've been having good fooood non stop yaw!

I love London! Takde ke sugar daddy nak perempuan simpanan dekat London kahkahjustjokingkthxbai

Hello from London :)

2011-12-24T23:29:00.001Z

Greetings everyone, haro from London! This trip has been
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Deserted desserts

2011-12-21T11:10:00.002Z

Semalam masuk dapur tengok pisang hampir busuk..nak buang sayang so tetibe *plink* datang idea nak buat pengat pisang. Bukak fridge ada santan tinggal suku tin, ada jagung skett wahh memang cun ler...

Tetengah masak silap bajet gula melaka termanis pulak. Santan dah abis, susu nak jimat buat breakfast sampai jumaat terpaksa la tambah air..jadi dah kurang pekat la pengat gua. Pastu *plink* datang idea lagi kukus pulut makan dengan pengat yang dah berkuah tu since pisang ada sebijik je. Lepastu ada inti cucurbadak 3 hari lepas elok lagi makan dgn pulut bleh la feeling2 pulut panggang..

Idea sangat genius..memang sedap kedua2 makanan itu (puji diri sendiri)

Harini wa kemas2 dapur sekali jumpa 2 bijik pisang hampir busuk blakang langsir and satu tin susu sejat baru bukak belakang tingkap. Rumah ni memang sesuai buat main treasure hunt cari barang tersembunyi. Ah sudahhh..takkan nak kena buat pengat lagi nak suruh wa kena diabetes ke.

Tengah tunggu idea *plink* lagi nak buat apa. Kalau tak ke tongsampah leww..

Wa dah feeling cam mak-mak dah ni masak spontan2 cemni

Senang-lenang

2011-12-19T17:07:00.001Z

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Date: Mon, 19 Dec 2011 17:05:18
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Subject: Senang-lenang

Waking up knowing you have free day all along is such a bliss. I think I am much more calmer and happier now despite having the exam around the corner and being left alone in the house. I guess stresses from clinic really defeats exam stress.

I spent my morning doing light and easy things. I was up early but refused to go back to sleep so I browsed the net, played with my camera, tidied up the kitchen a bit and cooked for my lunch. I had sardin and telur goreng for lunch which reminds me of home. Yup, it sucks being alone because I'm paranoid like heck that ghost/robber and whatnot might pop in anytime but the peaceful atmosphere really gave me time to recuperate from all the stresses that accumulated since September.

Recharging my mind, body and soul for the second part of final year : Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim, may everything goes smoothly :)

Winter break!!!!

2011-12-16T21:12:00.001Z

Winter break : commence!

Yeayyyyyyyyyy

Of Radiology And Of Slowly Becoming A Psychotic

2011-12-13T21:42:00.001Z

Twice in 10 weeks, I'll be doing a rotation in the radiology department. What we did was mainly learning how to take a radiograph/xray (how to position it etc) and how to interpret the radiograph.

Since 3rd year, I've been witnessing seniors being what I used to think as a 'torture' whenever they are interpreting the radiograph..coz we have this one doctor who will be questioning us all sorts of stuff from A-Z..what crossed my mind at that time was I'll be definitely dead when I'm in the dept. The doctor is very well-known and is one of the best in oral radiology I must say.

Come 4th year..I only got like 3/4 chances to be in the dept. And I really didn't quite grasp the 'subject' yet. To master radiology I think you must first master your anatomy. One thing you should know nadzirah and anatomy doesn't really blend well.. But I got away in 4th year because most of the time there are 3 of us doing the rotation so I can always dodge the question and pass it to my partners..

Now that I'm a fifth year I realized that I need to stop running away from my disguise towards anatomy and start to face it. I tried to spend the night before the rotation trying to revise so I will look more of like a fifth year in front of him (the doctor).

Today I was alone in the dept. My partner was sick. I thought to myself that this is it. This is the time to face my 'fear'.

So there I was spending my 3 hours taking tonnes of radiographs and interpreting them one by one with him. I must say that was one of the best moments ever because it was kinda like a one to one tutorial and I learned a lot of stuff. The best thing was I managed to answer most of his braincracking questions although of course..there were few silly mistakes here and there (like what comes after 1? I answered 10. Lol it's 2 you bimbo!)

The tiredness of going to and fro taking r/g for 9-10 patients and going 3 hours without sitting paid off when he finally gave me an 'Excellent' remark. Other people might think it isn't a big deal but to me it is because I never got one from him. It was such a good feeling because I finally managed to impress him..although I think I should work on my confidence more because I kept on doubting myself eventho my answers are correct.

So that's how my Tuesday went by. 3 more days to go and I think I've started to losing my sanity. I became tired really easily, I became mad really reaaaaaaally easy. It's SAD (seasonal affective disorder) and pre exam stress disorder combined and I tell you it's a really really ugly condition..
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Ek-zos-ted

2011-12-12T21:58:00.000Z

"I've seen you did a work, a lot better than this. I know you all are exhausted. Get your christmas break, come back and refocus"

My supervisor, quoted. I was doing a filling today. I can't deny it, honestly I'm really really tired. 3 months has passed since we started clinics and we've been working our arses off day in day out.
We dealt with a lot of disappointments and we had to come and pretend we are strong the next day. Penat okay nak motivate diri sendiri untuk bertahan. Lagi penat bila kawan sekeliling kehidupan bahagia je..rasa macam nakkk je join berhoohaa sini sana tapi kau tau kau tak sama macam mereka.. Jadi kau pujuk hati kata takpe..bertabah..this is for the better.

Winter break in 4 days. I know I have to spend most of them studying for the finals. Tapi it's a big relief waking up knowing you don't have to see or treat a patient. Bukan tak suka, cuma penatlah sikit. I soooo need a break :)
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Unwell

2011-12-11T16:45:00.000Z

Wasted my weekend being unwell. Was down with diarrhoea since yesterday. At first I thought it was just a normal physiological process when I eat a little more than usual that Friday nite. It turned out, I was passing out everything that I ate yesterday. The climax point was when I woke up at 5 this morning with severe stomach cramp that felt even worse than a menstrual pain.

After 2 cups of sugarless tea and 2 capsules of Arret, I managed to get fully get out of bed, shower, and cooked something to eat. Fried the kuetiow but my appetite suddenly just disappeared even though I have been craving for kuetiow for a while.

So I turned to my fav dish when I'm unwell - chicken porridge.

There goes my weekend :(

Bad habit

2011-12-11T00:16:00.000Z

I have a very bad habit whereby when I'm mad at somebody I can't see their faces until my heart cools down. I can't talk can't reply to them until I think I'm okay.

Jumps up and down, and move it all around

2011-12-07T22:04:00.001Z

Dah siap dah logbooooooooook. Oh weeee!

Now let's concentrate on the exam. Hwarghhhhhhhhhh

Tak senang

2011-12-05T22:40:00.000Z

Tak senang bila hidup sorang
Tak senang bila semua riang kau sorang yang kelam
Tak senang bila hidup sorang
Tak senang bila keperitan itu kau sorang yang faham

May what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger

My kind of Sunday :)

2011-12-04T19:35:00.019Z

Scrubs - ironed

Room - slightly tidied :P

Laundry done

Watching my favourite show - Running Man

Stayed in my own world. It's quiet and lonely, but it definitely suits my current mood.

I love my Sunday :D

Tak stabil

2011-12-03T22:09:00.001Z

Study malas
Jumpe org malas
Buat keje malas
Makan banyak
Dengar berita ni emo
Tahu pasal tu emo

Hoih hormone cecepat lew stabil
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Cameraku sayang

2011-12-02T22:08:00.001Z

I lost my precious camera in the dental hospital a week ago. My friend borrowed it from me and I thought it was still somewhere around the hospital, but it doesn't seem like it is anymore.

That precious has been with me since 2009. We've traveled to Amsterdam, Austria, Czech Rep, Spore, Indonesia and Germany together.
I need a new camera for school (patient's picture) etc and to capture my memory of what hopefully to be one of my last moments here but I'm just too deadbroke right now. Can't afford to buy a new one..looked up in the internet a decent one would cost me around 180eu. If only I had money..

Sedihnye :(
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Whiny

2011-11-30T18:45:00.001Z

Forgive me if these days my posts seemed so whiny. Mcm tak bersyukur pulak but trust me I do. Dari saat dapat tawaran JPA sampai la ke sekarang saya bersyukur sangat2 dengan apa yg saya ada. Cuma tu lah cuma nak mengadu nasib kat belog (walaupun ntah ada tah tal yg baca)

So this morning was my last visit to paeds clinic in Dillons Cross. It was one heck of a tough morning to get up and get done. I was sleepy, I was tired and I really felt like just escaping but I managed to get out from the house at 8. Lo and behold, halfway thru the journey the bus driver told us there was an accident at the clinic area and they had to divert to another road?

So what does that means? That means we have to walk up the hill, the kinda steep hill to get to the clinic. It was the longest 15 mins I ever had, berpeluh-peluh gua dikala pagi yg sejuk menggigit tulang!

Jadi..begitulah sedikit sbyk hari saya. Esok pagi takde patient tp kena datang jugak hosp pagi tu ada kerja nak siapkan.

Akhir-akhir ni dgn gabungan kerja bersama patient makin menimbun, exam makin dekat dan cuaca makin buruk perlahan-lahan membunuh saya dari dalam. Ya Allah, pls give me strength..

Lalala hari-hari kerja!

2011-11-29T19:05:00.001Z

Today I had a day off except a 30 mins tutorial in the morning. However, there is no real day off in the dictionary of a clinical dental student. There are always things to be done either labwork, sorting out patients stuff etc.

After the tutorial I booked appointments for my patients. Went down to the lab and managed to do special trays and wax-ups for two different patients. Hopefully this 2 cases go smoothly. Amiinn..

Left the hospital at 1245 to view a house for a postgrad coming this Dec. 1315 I was already on the bus on my way to the city to watch Breaking Dawn part 1 :P

So yeah. Today I managed to sort out patient's stuff, found a house for the postgrad and managed to steal some time to watch a movie. That's quite an achievement innit?

Tp sekarang sudah mengantuk kronik but I still have some stuff lining up to be done. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Malu

2011-11-28T01:13:00.000Z

If any of you have been reading my blog for a while you might notice that I has just started to write/post frequently, again. I think the depression/anxiety/worriness is starting to kick in and I just need to channel my feeling somewhere, so I turn to my loyal friend, my blog.

Another weekend has passed. Another one wasted, like terribly wasted. Time like this, I should be doing intensive revision for the upcoming exam but I spent it on something rather un-beneficial. Bila dah hujung-hujung tu baru macam rasa tamparan kesedaran when I see my to-do list was unticked. Astaghfirullahalazim, what have I done to myself? I spent last 2 hours doing the tutorial for this week with hope I can move on with other stuff on the list starting tomorrow. Bila berjaya buat tu baru rasa macam sedar, if only I settled this earlier. Scrub for this week pun belum iron lagi, what have I done..

The final year pressure has finally kick in because winter break is just around the corner. Bila tengok tarikh, masa dah makin dekat otak dan perasaan mula berkecamuk. Bila hati tak tenang, mulalah mengadu pada Tuhan pohon diberikan kelapangan dan diperlancarkan kehidupan segala..Bila nak memohon sesuatu dariNya, tiba-tiba rasa macam malu sebab apa yang disuruh taknak ikut, tapi nak mintak pulak macam-macam.

Atas kesedaran tu tibe-tibe rasa nak tanam azam nak slowly buang sikit demi sikit perangai buruk..Ni bukan la sebab serabut nak exam je tapi macam jadikan ni my stepping stones to be a better person. It's gonna be one hell of a tough journey sebab nya perangai buruk ni humangaih banyaknya terhingga. So let's not be ambitious and start small shall we?

Dental Ball

2011-11-27T10:17:00.000Z

Second dental ball that I attended. This year around it was held in Cork International Aiport Hotel. It's a bit compact and I think there are more of us this year.

My dates, that night :D

Jo Lin, my classmates of 5 years

With other Malaysian students, most of them are dental students

With Frank and Kabe

Mich, Wani, Nadia and I

Dr Burke, my tutor

Class picture

What I love about the ball is...they provide halal food for the Muslim students. The day before the ball, one of the student who organized this came to me and asked besides the meat that needs to be halal, what are other things that they have to take into account? So considerate, right?

Vege soup. Yummy. Tatau sebab lapar ke ape..

Roasted chicken with seasoned vege. I like!

Dessert - profiteroles

The dinner started quite late and the Platinum Probe award presentation from each year was quite lengthy, in my opinion. We immediately leave when the After party started and spent a while being silly in front of the camera at the hotel reception.

Yours truly, feeling-feeling vain gittew

Things that can't be tweeted but I wanna say it out so bad so I blog instead

2011-11-25T12:49:00.001Z

Chihihihi :P

*Suke*

Sekian, budak excited benda bukan2
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Cerita Bergambar - my journey to paeds clinic

2011-11-23T21:03:00.000Z

Sat on the 2nd floor of the bus (it was a double decker) to enjoy the view

What they call a "Grotto" - located in front of the dental clinic

The clinic

The hill around the clinic

Cork City, bus view :P

Surgery

2011-11-22T13:00:00.001Z

Had my surgery attachment in the theatre today. It's been a while since my last time here. Things have changed around a bit.

In surgery we normally do extractions for lil kids (for Tuesdays). They are kids who either have too many teeth to be extracted, too nervous or has other complicated medical history that doesn't permit them to have normal "conscious" extraction under local anaesthesia.

Almost half of the kids will normally cry pre or post operation. But today we had one of the most angelic girl who maintained her smile throughout the op, pre and post. Kinda make my heart squeezed due to her cuteness. Ahh budak...awak buat kite rindu Nayli je!

Tp we also had another girl, whom half consciously during the op kept on moving her hands around trying to "fight" us. She even had her fist on one of the surgeon's chest..she must hated extractions/going to dentist a lot that she did that even when she's sedated.

So that's how half of my Tuesdays went :)

Ayuh Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku!

2011-11-21T11:02:00.001Z

Harimau Muda menentang Garuda - Final SEA Games 2011 @ 830pm.

Saya ada lecture dan patient time tu. Tak dapat nak tengok so sad :(

Apapepun semoga Harimau Malaya mampu tumpaskan Garuda. Show 'em what we got.

But of the utmost important, I hope they finish the game with pride and come back home in one piece, safe and sound. For all we know ANYTHING can happen in this intense game.

Otak Sembap

2011-11-20T16:16:00.000Z

Haishk tibe2 otak sembap lepastu protes tak nak study. After 30 mins of hanging around doing nothing, I decided to prepare my meal for next week. Ye, saya masak sekali banyak untuk tahan 3-4 hari sbb biasa balik kelas penat malas masak lepastu rasa nak beli je lepastu duit habis. Haishk..

Jadi harini chef onetwothree nak tunjuk macammana nak masak "spagheti fusion when east meet west" (SFWEMW) pergh nama nak gempak je khennn.

SFWEMW

Untuk kuah-
Onions (bawang besar)
Chilli powder (serbuk cili)
Spagheti sauce
Tuna (dalam tin)
Dried oregano
Olive oil
Salt and sugar

Sukatan takde ikut la sukahati perasaan apa nak letak banyak sikit. Blend bawang dgn serbuk cili, tumis. Dah masak letak tuna. Agak2 tuna dah ok, letak spagheti sauce, dried oregano, season to your taste.

Spaghetti - sphagetti rebus cam biasa je la

Walla dah siap untuk hidang. Bleh makan dgn telur rebus kalau nak feeling laksa. Bleh makan dgn cheese parmesan/mozarella/any grated cheese kalau nak feeling western.

Gittew. Slamat mencoba!

Dengarlah matahariku..

2011-11-19T13:48:00.001Z

Cork has been raining since last Thursday. The rain came with heavy wind too. It is really really depressing to wake up to the gloomy weather and it'll be really hard to drag the feet to the hospital. It will also affect your mood for the day. Macam silap sikit je jadik besar.

Today I woke up and found the sun has finally showed up. I miss you dear sun! Saya belajar menghargai awak bila datang sini sebab kat Malaysia awak selalu ada..dekat sini awak jarang2 ada..

Inilah manusia..nikmat didepan mata tak pernah nak disyukuri, bila dah ditarik baru tergagau mencari..

Keguguran

2011-11-18T22:28:00.000Z

Rambut saya mengalami keguguran kronik semenjak datang belajar disini. Mungkin faktor cuaca, mandi air panas, stress dan pemakanan kurang sihat yang menyebabkan terjadinya perkara ini.

Gambar merupakan bukti bagaimana rambut boleh randomly terkumpul atas laptop sewaktu saya menghadap laptopm.

Oh sungguh stress. Cik siantan apa saya boleh buat untuk mengelakkan kebotakan?

Gadis Runsing

Extra mural

2011-11-17T13:19:00.000Z

The fifth year student are required to go for extra mural paeds clinic once a week for 4 weeks. I'm on my 2nd week now and I have to say I can't wait to be back in the dental hospital.

Why so?

1. I have to take bus at 8 in order to avoid the heavy traffic. That means laeving home around 7.50am which in turn means I have to wake up at least at 645am. In winter..that's like one of the hardest thing to do!

2. We have 3 patients. It's really tiring.

3. We finish at 1230. Need to catch bus back home for my next clinical session in CUH at 2. Yesterday, I took bus at 1pm. I was in the same bus with my patient! Managed to be back in CUH before 2. Luckily I was fasting yesterday so I don't have to take lunch.

4. The environment is different there. Felt like an alien, even on my 2nd week.

2 more weeks to go! Can't wait to finish this. Prontooo!

Winter-ish

2011-11-14T20:09:00.001Z

Now that we are approaching the winter, the sun (if any) disappears really really fast in a day. This picture was taken at 5.10pm today after a long day in the hospital.
Despite the weather and the forever long night time (which brings along sleepiness with 'em. Hmpfff!), there's still a good thing about this. It's time to ganti puasa :P Subuh starts around 550ish and maghrib at 447pm.

Monday, a new week has begun. Another week closer to the exam. Another week done for my final year.

Bismillah, may everything goes smoothly this week.

Cork City

2011-11-12T20:36:00.001Z

Today I went out to town..for a mission. My initial plan was to wake up early and then walk to town. Wake up early - success. Walk to town - failed!

So I took the bus at half ten and started to search around. Luckily the mission was accomplished! Lepak minum hot choc, beli ayam and I took another bus home. The journey felt shorter with this new friend accompanying me :D

P.s. : yup, expect a lot of short picture-story posts like this in the future :P

I decided to be loyal

2011-11-11T20:20:00.001Z

And I hope my decision is right...

Thank you

2011-11-11T18:14:00.001Z

Goodbye to you my trusted friend.

You will be dearly missed...

Daily Routine

2011-11-10T22:38:00.000Z

Trying to procrastinate, maka marilah kita berbelogzzzz

This is for me, say, if this blog still exists in 2020, Nadzirah, this is what you used to do 9 years ago in your final year of dental school..

I usually wake up around 6.40-7. Depends on the time, I might perform my Subuh first or take a shower. After I'm done with both I will go down to prepare the breakfast and have breakfast in front of my laptop while watching Youtube videos, browsing 9gag, blogs yeah all those craps. Around 8-8.15 I will start to put on my proper clothes and get ready for the day..

8.20-8.30 I will depart for school. Took me 10 minutes on average walking journey to the hospital. Sampai hospital I will change into my scrub and go to wherever I need to go depending on the day. Normally for the morning sessions I have Oral Surgery on Tuesday, Paeds on Wednesday, Restorative clinic on Thursday and tutorial on Friday. Sometimes we have lecture on Friday morning so I have to be in school by 8.30.

Clinical sessions could last until 12-12.30. Sometimes if I'm doing Oral med/theatre it could go up to 1.30. We have break until 2. In between that time I will have my lunch and perform the prayer.

Next session starts at 2. Again, I have treatment sessions with patient on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. A session could last until 5-5.30. Sometimes I might have to stay back to do some labwork. And then I'll go back home. On the way back I might also make a detour to Tesco (mostly) or Neulook/Awear (occasionally)

Sampai rumah I will dig the fridge trying to get something to eat coz I'll be very hungry by then. Sometimes I prepare my dinner straightaway sometimes I will take a break first, depending on the level of energy.

Normally when I have a full day in the hospital (Wednesday, Thursday, Friday) I will be too tired to study. Sometimes I managed to do something sometimes I just can't. Might need to work on something with my energy level and motivation to start studying on those days coz exam is just like few weeks away!

Tapi tu lah, cakap je lebih. Sekarang kau tengah buat apa? Bazir masa tulis blog! Cit podaaah

Setting up priorities

2011-11-05T12:30:00.000Z

Luahan perasaan sekejap sementara tunggu nak Zohor. hewhewhew kena taip laju-laju sebab dah berjanji kat diri nak Zohor lepastu start prepare untuk tutorial.

So...sekarang nak final year, kan? Jadi workload adalah menimbun. Stress pun adalah banyaaaaaaaaak sangat. Masa tu kadang-kadang macam rasa tak cukup. Kalau hari ada klinik penuh, malam kadang-kadang dah terlalu penat untuk buat apa-apa. Malam pun saya dah kena start tidur awal nak dapatkan tenaga maksimum for the day. Itu pun kadang-kadang tak maksimum mana tengahari mengantuk mata berair-air. Kenapalah tenaga kurang sangat these days?

6 January ni ada first written final exam, RD. Banyaaaaaaak sangat benda nak cover takuuuuuut sangat sebenarnya. Exam tu of course la portion dia besar jugak besides clinical semua so I must pass it well no matter what. Sebulan lagi pulak nak kena hantar logbook. Patient-patient kat klinik pun agak tak teratur and requirement adalah agak tunggang-langgang sekarang, banyak faktor buat saya resah sekarang. Plus saya ini otaknya adalah pelan-pelan bertukar menjadi kurang pandai semenjak masuk yunibersiti ni jadi kena kerja lebih :(

Masa nak bergumbira sekarang pun patut dilimitkan. Ada, bukan tak ada. Tiap-tiap minggu pun adeeee je masa diperuntukkan. Kadang-kadang rasa bersalah kat diri sendiri tapi kadang-kadang rasa I needed that break. Tapi kadang-kadang I had to isolate myself kadang-kadang buat saya rasa ketinggalan kadang-kadang buat rasa sedih but I had to do this.. :(

Priorities, priorities. It is gonna be soooooo hard to put them on their right places, it takes a lot of sacrifices but hopefully it's gonna be worth it. Hopefully. Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan. Awak-awak yang terbaca ni doakan saya juga yeh?

Of creating a should-not-be-a-problem problem

2011-11-01T20:21:00.000Z

Hi all. First of all, I hope none of you will judge me after reading this phone. Eceyh risau plak apa orang kata. Eceyh ade ke orang baca blog ni lagi. Eceyh banyak plak eceyh.

I have this weird problem with phones. Almost every year, I must change to a new phone. No matter how attached I am to that phone, when the time comes, I started to get itchy and will search around for new phone.

I've been a loyal Nokia user ever since my first ever 3210 phone back in 2002. Last year, I kind of accidentally bought a 2nd hand BB from eBay and has been loving the phone since I started using it. I developed my loyalty towards BB....until the recent outage with the blackberry network around Europe/Mid East/US which got me thinking, a BB without it's BIS is just, a dumbphone (quoting Atiqah Mahmood's tweet)

Now...the time has come for another phone and I'm having this major (?) dilemma of what should be my next phone. Before the BB outage I was all geared up for the new Bold 9900. Post-BB-problem, I'm left with thousand of uncertainties..confusion..

First of all, I love BB. The keyboard is a major factor here. I loathe touch screen phones. It's either my fingers are too fat for it or I simply love the idea of pressing the keypads you know..to type words. I used to have Nokia 5600 which is a combination of touchscreen and keypad phone and I kinda stopped texting with people for about a year....unless it's really important. Yup, it's THAT bad. Plus I get to reply text messages while I'm driving with those magnificent keypads.

Second of all, I'm gonna miss BBM - the ever great exclusive BB users only instant messaging system. I have few close friends in my BBM list that I can bug when I'm bored. I'm also in the BBM group consisting my ex schoolmates who sometimes went cuckoo and started talking rubbish but I still love them anyway. Sometimes I woke up in the morning to cute pics of my niece whom I'm missing badly from my sis-in-law in the BBM. Sometimes she changed her profile picture with my niece's pic, of which sometimes I stole and saved it in my phone. I know, we have Whatsapp but it's..just not the same.

The major drawback of having BB is it is pretty much a less fun-er phone as oppose to iphone and androids, application wise. That's why it became a dumb phone when the internet service is gone because no BBM, no twitter, no whatsapp. Plus it has No cool games (like angry bird :P), No rubbish farting apps etc. Sebagai orang berjiwa muda, this is quite a drawback lah :P

Another plus point of having a non-BB-smartphone is having Skype in the phone. Which made it easier if were to contact anyone from home when I'm away from the laptop. I must say, if the Bold 9900 has Skype and some fun photo editing app it would make my decision much easier.

I think if I were in Malaysia right now, I would definitely go for BB. Coz I drive a lot so I would prefer a keypad-phone. My families and close friends are around me so there is no necessity for Skype. I will be spending time in the mall, in the car, with the family with the friends so there is no need to dedicate my life to playing with phone apps. Plus I know my LFU (love friendship unite, SMSS 0004) bros would be nagging on staying with BB. Haha..

But now that I'm here, I would love to have Skype on my phone to communicate with those who are thousand miles away from me. I kind of does my stuff alone more (like going to class, shopping etc) so having a fun phone would be a major plus point here.

I give myself til the 8th of November to make decision oh em gee helppppppppppppp.

Oh yeah it's a BB vs iPhone coz the Droids came from all sorts of manufacturer which made it even more confusing. Plus, I don't like the design of most of the phones. Heheh..

I Miss You

2011-10-30T15:55:00.000Z

Boyce Avenue - I Miss You (Blink 182)

My all-time favourite song. My favourite YouTube artist. Combine together - it will simply made my day.

Hello there the angel from my nightmare

The shadow in backround of the morgue

The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

And we'll have Halloween on Christmas

And in the night we'll wish this never ends

We'll wish this never end

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime

And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders

catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head

"Will you come home and stop this pain tonight? Stop this pain tonight"

Mari Coba Update - Dublin Games!

2011-10-27T00:20:00.000+01:00

Sooooo, last weekend pergi Dublin for Dublin Games. Last year girls futsal tak dapat sambutan tinggal kitorang je yang semangat jadi tahun ni diorang buat netball. Sebenarnya takdela suka main netball and takdela power sangat main tapi pergi je lah buat kenangan..

Pergi kite drive, sewa kereta dari Cork. Bawak kereta manual ok! Not too bad la skill masih ada cuma penat nye lah hai main clutch semua. Cork - Dublin drive dalam around 3 hours. Malam highway gelap gulita kadang-kadang pakai je high light walaupun ada kereta dari sebelah sana sebab bukak-bukak lampu tinggi sekali dah nak selekoh tumpul (?) terkejutttttt oi. Tapi dalam gelap-gelap tu terbawak jugak la 160. Hehehe, Alhamdulillah pergi balik one piece.

Time main, lawan Dublin

Netball lawan 5 teams yang masuk. Main liga, lawan Manchester, Dublin and Galway. Lawan lawan lawan wah dapat la 2nd place. First place lawan Manchester diorang datang all the way dari UK, siap ada bip sendiri and jersey kalau tak menang memang saje la..

Habis lawan semua pergi tengok futsal wahhhh Cork FC (boys) menang juara keseluruhan. Wahh bangga-bangga. So proud of them.

Cork FC and Corkorocococrunch

Girls and medals :D

Malam tu, walaupun kepala sedikit pening and badan sedikit sakit redah jugak balik Cork sebab kalau boleh hari Ahad nak rehat-rehat. Alhamdulillah selamat sampai semua.

Begitulah, weekend Dublin Games haritu :)

Nak tulis

2011-10-26T20:20:00.000+01:00

Nak tulis, banyak nak tulis, tapi banyak benda emo nak tulis. Hehehehe.

Sekarang ni final year macam stress datang kiri kanan atas bawah dari semua arah. Tiap-tiap hari macam berdoa banyak supaya hari yang dilalui bakal berjalan lancar. Tapi sejak 2-3 minggu ni banyak benda serba tak kena. Supervisor cengeh, kadang-kadang cakap benda yang patahkan semangat saya.

Entahlah entahlah entahlah, rasa macam tak fit enough to be a final year. I hope I'll survive.

Tuhan, tolong daku. Kuatkan semangatku.

Pemalas

2011-10-15T23:01:00.001+01:00

Hi hi hi,

Once in a while I'll stop by me blog just to check if everything is fine. I wanna write more. I wanna share more. But every single time I hit "create post" my brain goes blank, my fingers become numb.

Brief updates...final year is so-so. I'm so afraid to even think of what awaits me next year. This past few weeks I've been slacking around A LOT! Til today I became seriously guilty...haishk.

Final year dah. Sedarlah diri haishk, kurangkan lah main-main tu. Tabahkan lah hati tu sket :S

Sorrylah, writers block on the move. See you when I see you again "publish post" button :P

Goodbye Syawal :)

2011-10-04T19:50:00.000+01:00

Second post of the week! Now that's kinda impressive innit? Huhu..tibe-tibe sedih plak mengenangkan blog ni terbiar begitu saja. Besides Twitter, I think another reason why I blog less nowadays is because I can't set up my email in my Blackberry. I dunno what has gone wrong. To type a blog with laptop nowadays, it takes a lot of effort..so yeah, begitulah...Unless I got extra money, bertahan saja lah bersama this old BB :)

Anyway here are some of the photos from the Eid celebrations I went in Cork. Dah 5 tahun dah dekat bumi bertuah ni :')

Kthxbai!

The housemates of THREE years :)

My beloved batchmates

Small gathering at my house

Some of the guests

Upacara khusyuk memakan :P

My beloved adik2 open housewarming

Cancellations

2011-10-03T16:36:00.000+01:00

This year I've been quite unlucky with the patients. To date, I've about 5 cancellations out of around 16 clinical sessions. That's about a week of NOT having a patient at all.

Requirements requirements requirements. I'm seriously worried. Time is running out and I'm staying still.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah :(

Bersyukur

2011-09-26T22:09:00.000+01:00

In the previous post I sounded rather emo-ish and very the ungrateful one for what have been given to me. Haishk...teruk betul. It could be because of the mood brought by the song we did.

Tapi saya terlupa nak bersyukur kepada Tuhan walaupun rupa tak sepwetty mana, badan tak kurus, kulit tak putih tapi saya diberi sedikit kelebihan dalam bahagian otak. Sikit je la tak banyak mana pun...and at the rate I am going right now kalau saya tak rajinkan diri dan terus bermalas-malas gini, nikmat otak begini akan start hilang.

Ya Allah, berikanlah saya pass final year in one go. Things are going rather rocky lately I really hope I'll be back on track soon.

Ugly

2011-09-25T23:01:00.001+01:00

Growing up, I struggle a lot in finding and establishing my self-esteem. I'm no pretty face. I struggle with body weight issue since almost forever. I grew up in a society where slim body and fair face are the definition of beautiful so being out from my comfort zone, I will usually stay low and won't appear my usual self because I just don't feel...worthy.

However I still thank God for granting me circle of friends whom I can declare my comfort zone. I can laugh I can talk I can cry I can scream I can do whatever I want without being afraid of being judged. And for that they have a special place in my heart, always.

However, I still realize that as the time goes by, as my friends start to tie the knot I will be left all by myself. I am twenty four, still single and with this non-existing self esteem I doubt that I will find a partner soon. I do have that one magical wish that someday somehow somebody will fall me for who I am and I can call him my own comfort zone.

With that, I end this post with a cover made by my friend as the guitarist cum vocalist and me as the co-vocalist. A song that is very close to my heart.

"cause I think I'm ugly, and nobody wants to love me"

Hello, stranger

2011-09-12T16:45:00.000+01:00

I'm already back in the land of Leprechauns...for about a week and a half already but I can't seem to bring myself to update the blog. Sorry blog sayang I still love you no matter what :P

Soo....I'm a fifth year dental student now. Fifth and FINAL year dental student. Can you actually believe that?? Tapi if I were to look back through the years nothing had really change but one thing for sure I had gain a lotta weight since I first came here. Yang lain-lain sama je.

I have to say I started this year pretty slow, compared to last year. Last year I remembered I was down with fever and had few episodes of headache attacks due to the overwhelming stress. But this year..I don't know. Missed a clinical session last week because I couldn't get a patient. Missed a clinical session this week (so far) because my patient fell sick. I kinda feel left out at the moment because the requirement is A LOT so every session matters.

On the other hand, I'm missing this lil munchkin so much. Hope she's doing well and she doesn't forget her makngah already :(

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiii

2011-09-02T19:13:00.001+01:00

Kembali bersiaran di blog ini. Oh I'm so sorry mi blog. I left you hanging like that.

Salam aidilfitri buat semua hadirin hadirat. Raya terindah setakat ini setelah 4 tahun beraya di perantauan. Terima kasih, Syukur Alhamdulillah pada nikmatmu ini yaAllah...

I'll be going back to Cork on the 10:05am flight. Promise I'll update more often because I'm going back to the painful reality. This wonderful wonderland had too many too offer that I forgot how to write already.

Bakal merindui tanah air yang tercinta. Tunggu aku pulang, sayangku Malaysia

DIlemma

2011-08-15T18:49:00.000+01:00

Nak update, tatau apa nak update.

Taknak update, rasa tak best lama tak update.

So sekarang tatau apa nak diupdate.

So update pasal cerita tatau nak update.

Faham tak cerita belit-belit ni faham tak???

12 Ramadhan 1432H - The buffets

2011-08-11T22:46:00.000+01:00

Alhamdulillah we are know in the second phase of Ramadhan. I'm so thankful to Allah for giving me the opportunity to live and spend another Ramadhan at home. Fufufuuuu bahagianya bangun sahur mak kejut, buka tak pening nak kena paksa diri masak sendiri lepas seharian penat kat kelas.

So far within the past 12 days I've been dining out twice, once yesterday and once last Tuesday. Actually, I feel quite guilty if I were to dine out because that means Mak will be all alone at home break-fasting by herself. I know she's been doing it for quite a while these past few years tapi since saya kat rumah ni apelah salahnye temankan ye dok?

Another cons of dining out for iftar would be.....the amount of food that will be taken in. Kalau kat rumah usually I can control what I eat tapi kalau buka kat luar tu tak ke asyik nak makan buffet je. Hari Selasa haritu pergi Bistro Qaseh in Seksyen 13, Shah Alam. RM22 per pax, the buffet spread was quite good. Limited to Malay dishes only la but still the food was quite tasty. Kuih muih, rojak buah, tahu sumbat, asam pedas daging, ikan keli, tenggiri masak lemak, sup cendawan and a lot more dishes. Praying area was provided in another shop a few blocks from the restaurant. Not that comfortable but gotta praise for their effort to provide one la kan?

As for yesterday I had another buffet gala at Shogun One Utama. For RM44++ per pax, I think it is worth it, looking at the choice of food. Ada sushi, sashimi, tempura, fried rices, teppanyaki, a few cooked dishes like lamb curry, sweet and sour fish, dim sum and many many more. Makan lah kau sampai mati. It was situated on the same level with the surau so it was quite convenient as I could take a break to pray first. Lepastu sambung makan sampai berbaloi 40hengget. heh..

What and where's next? Ade ke? Takde ke? Heheheh, only time will tell!

Potluck : The tradition continues...

2011-08-07T09:39:00.000+01:00

Every year, my mom's siblings, will make an effort to gather around and have a potluck-style break fast. My mom has 7 brothers and 5 sisters, so that make them altogether 13..Yesterday, the tradition continues :)

Mak Pah was the first to arrive because mom asked for her help to make kerabu. Around 430pm MakPah's family was already at my home. As usual, Mak Pah transformed into her kitchen attire and started to make her wonders. I, on the other hand took Mira, my cousin to the bazaar Ramadhan at Alam Megah because I suddenly wanted a kuih tepung pelita. That was my first time to Bazaar because I've been restraining myself from going....takut tergoda iman :P

Lepastu around 630pm more and more people start to come. We spread the table cloth on the floor and divided the dishes to 3 portions.

The food : Mi goreng, Sambal udang petai , Daging salai masak lemak Sayur goreng , Ayam masak kicap

Soon after the Azan, the atmosphere turned into silence, mainly because everyone was busy concentrating on the delicious food in front of them.

The list of the food involved yesterday :

Solok ikan - by Cikpi and CikImah. My personal favourite!
Ikan masak sweet and sour - by Cikkam and Cikwa
Ikan bakar - by Uncle Halimi and Aunty Wan
Ayam masak kicap - by MakPah and Uncle Mazlan
Mi goreng - by Mak and CikKam/Cikwa
Sambal udang petai - by MakLimah and Uncle Azhar
Daging salai masak lemak - by Maktip and Uncle Kamal
Sayur goreng - by Maksemah and Uncle Dib
Kerabu daun selom - by Makpah and Mak
Apam polkadot - by Kakdiah
Murtabak and tepung pelita - by bazar ramadhan Alam Megah :P
Pengat pisang - by Makpah

Gitu..anak-cucu Haji Haron ni memang bab makan memang juara :P hahaha...

Dividing the food

All set to be eaten

Start to take places

Moment of silence :P

May the tradition continues, as long as possible. Amiin.

6 Ramadhan 1432H

2011-08-05T23:00:00.000+01:00

Sedar tak sedar, we are onto the 6th days of the fasting month already. Time flies innit. That means I've less than a month to enjoy home :(

How's Ramadhan this year? Definitely better than last year. Last year I only get to spend a day at Malaysia. The rest I was back in Cork. either studying or trying to adjust to the new environment in 4th year. Ramadhan during summer is quite a battle because we started fasting from 4ish until around 9ish. Fuuhh...

Ok this is just an update...for the sake of updating. Nothing much to be told. Nothing much happened. Oh my scholar is delayed until end of August because I sent my results to the wrong email. I'm lucky I still have some leftover from last 3 month's allowance to pay up my rent and bills...

Sighh..

Kerisauan. Of worries.

2011-08-02T18:07:00.000+01:00

Tibe-tibe harini macam risau. Like worried.

Nak masuk final year dah.

Adakah bersedia.

Double the workloads, quadruple the pressure.

Ya Allah, please ease my way, please make everything runs smoothly for me.

Tsk

Stay

2011-08-01T22:57:00.001+01:00

Sounds straight from the twilight

Has me up all night I can’t

Fall asleep coz I keep thinking of you

And I saw a shadow, outside my window

And it’s you!

All my sorrows flew away,

Hush keep quiet hear me say

I don’t ever want you to go

Please stay

With the moonlight dancing free

And there’s no one but you and me

There’s no reason to go astray

Please stay

Making up a story

It’s the way you’re looking at me

If you think that this is funny

It’s just you

Try and think about it

If your heart is closed don’t lock it

Keep your keys back in your pocket, think this through

Of turning a year older

2011-07-31T16:35:00.000+01:00

I turned a year older yesterday..I get a lil bit depressed everytime my birthday comes. What have I achieved in my life so far? Where am I right now? How's my attitude? Have they changed? Have they improved? And of the utmost worrisome..I am still single T____T

I had a simple but lovely celebration with my closed friends, enough to made my day :) Part of my wish was, I get to see this similar faces for the many years coming, plus few here and there who weren't able to make it. Am I being too selfish? I hope not. But I know it's kind of impossible. Come next year I don't know who's left. Nanti dah kahwin, dah ada anak, things must be changing :(

Me, blowing my candles, making my wishes..

The rich choc strawberry cupcakes made by Dila, the other half of one of my bros, Pueng..

This people + few others.I.wish.they.stay.forever.

Bermuka scary menangkap gambar T__T

Sooo yeah, I'm 24, insyaAllah will have another year to go to complete my studies. May Allah ease my journey and grant my wishes :')

Selamat berpuasa everyone. Have a blessed Ramadhan..

Our koooookeeeess project!

2011-07-30T01:26:00.000+01:00

3 not-so-little girls had a dream to sell cookies.

So they bought the ingredients and start making them cookies.

3 not-so-little girls got tired and gave up.

And the cookies were eaten among themselves. Hihu :P

Mixing the ingredients

Making the dough (?)

Our air tangan

End product! Yummss!

Malaysia vs Singapore - the day I sat with my fellow 85,000 Malaysian

2011-07-29T11:16:00.000+01:00

Soooo...yeah, yesterday was the historical game between my beloved Malaysia and another football team who claimed to represent a country when actually they are just bunch of people who can play football and ACT!

I went with my fellow bros and Unnie, we left my home after Asar..

Unnie made this cute jersey in 30 minutes!

We had to park up up and away nun disana atas kondo and had to walk. Well, before the game it was okay lah since the momentum was still good tapi bile balik tu...aiyoo...

Silap pilih tudung and attire nak pi stadium. Sigghhh

We had to wait for some other friends so we stayed in front of a car randomly parked there, for about, hmmm an hour? Cuci mata sikit..lalala~

Noww...onto the game. What can I say ye? Okay, I have to say the defends didn't really do a great job but there was our super Khairul Fahmi to save the balls. And Safee was really guarded by the actors oops, I mean the opponents. There were several attempts but they were to no avail. Bicycle kick, tanduk segala dah cuba, tapi still tak berkesan.

But what angers me the most is the lack of sportsmanship by the opponents. I know they are just trying to delay and kill the time and kill our momentum.Some of their dirty tactics include :

#1 Countless of fake injuries. Some of them weren't even touched by our players and yet they rolled on the grass like they were about to die. Say, if they were even touched pun lah, I don't think it's that bad. Plus, they are freakin football players setakat tersepak guna boots ke apa tu shouldn't be that hard lah. Kau pemain bola sepak ke kau pemain bola lain ni? They really should consider changing career as a makeup artist ka, traditional dancers ka apa. Takdak la nak kena sepak terajang.

#2 There were once, got two balls on the field. The picker didn't realize ke apa I don't know lah. One of the posers..oops I mean players complained. What the hell is wrong with you man, just kick the ball outside already can't you see we got hold the ball already and was preparing to make a throw in?

#3 The goalies who kept on holding his head. Complained of headache lah kunun-kunun. That one particular guy deserve a headshot...ya know maybe it can ease the pain ke?

#4 The exchanging of the players - how they catwalk-ed out of the field....sampai Safee Sali had to drag the guy out. Lepastu dia bengang. He deserved it pun jalan longlai-longlai!

Our Harimau Malaya, and bunch of actors

While singing the national anthem. Seriau semacam terasa time tu :')

The stadium got quiet at a few moments, especially bila takdak goal and after the opponent scored. But I was kinda glad the supporters didn't booooo the players. Lepas habis tu the players went around and apologized. Although I'm a bit sad, but I still have faith in them players. #HarimauMalaya all the way yaaaw..

Sooo...after the game ended, now another challenge going through the crowd. It was one hell of experience but we were led by our abang busat so senang je la ikut buntuit dia ja..Siap kena panjat one of the high divider I just grabbed whatever can be grabbed. We were all sweaty, smelly and hungry I swear I felt like passing out but thank God I didn't!

All in all, it was an experience really really worth it and I will treasure in my life forever :)

Bits and pieces of Nayli's akikah..

2011-07-26T16:27:00.000+01:00

Team Marhaban Taman Bukit Saga..heheheh. Omma giving her speech

Princess Nayli in her crib

Antara kawan-kawan saya yang hadir

The behind the scene. Tudung hitam - my super makpah

Moment I love the most, bila makcik2 duduk berkongsi cerita :')

Busu's family

Princess yang sedang minum air zamzam

tuesday blues

2011-07-25T18:38:00.000+01:00

4 days to turning 24th. what have I achieved in my life?

Of feelings

2011-07-24T04:26:00.001+01:00

Sekejap suka sekejap marah sekejap benci sekejap tak benci

Sekejap rindu sekejap menyampah sekejap teruja sekejap bosan

Dalam hidup tak semua yang kita mahu kita dapat

Tak semua yang kita dapat apa yang kita mahukan

Jadi disini apa yang kita perlukan??

Kerjaaaaaasama!

Otak dan hati perlu bekerja bersama.

Those unwanted feelings has got to go.

Araso?

Our short trip to Universal Studios, Singapore

2011-07-19T15:29:00.000+01:00

Lazy bug bit me. So Imma just let the pictures tell the story :)

Airasia flight (Single trip) - RM 50 perpax
Journey back home - ~RM100 for fuel and toll
Universal Studios - SD55.20 (20% off mastercard promotion) for 3 person and SD66 for 1 person (promo must be bought 5 days before trip)

Some trivia - I think the peak time is around 11-3. Queue for the boat ride was 1 hour 20 minutes! But after 3 I think the queue becomes better. If you are unlucky (like ME) you'll get really2 wet so be prepare with raincoat or spare clothes!

745am flight LCCT-Changi Airport

Zack picked us up at Changi Airport

We arrived at Universal Studios

Took our first ride

The many pictures of us in the long long waiting lines

We got hungrehh so we ate at Goldilocks, one of the fast food restaurant there

Went for another ride...the boat ride that killed my BB. My precious BB :(

The trip got better towards the end..

Watched an awesome Waterworld stunts

Went back to JB later that night at ate at Restaurant Singgah Selalu

Took a stroll at the overrated Danga Bay

The END!

Withdrawal Syndrome

2011-07-18T13:49:00.000+01:00

On Saturday, July 16th my beloved BB went in coma mode after being in a tragedy.

Til now she's being taken away from me.

I miss her so much.

Journey to Gabai

2011-07-13T03:19:00.001+01:00

My first time being to Sungai Gabai, all thanks to my retarded brothers and unnie for the trip :)

the waterfall

muka teruja

getting ready...

us, minus dila

I'm so happy my leave permission is approved by Prof A :) Now all I need is to contact school's secretary to officially "declare" my one week extra holiday. Raya di rumah tahun ni yaaaawwww

makngah's lollipop

2011-07-11T15:54:00.002+01:00

Senyum, tak perlu kata apa-apa

2011-07-10T16:08:00.001+01:00

Wazzup wazzup yaaaaaalllll. Alhamdulillah selesai sudah akikah my niece which was held today. Luckily we did it today instead of yesterday kalau tak, tak tahulah macammana nak handle.

I am so happy and relieved everything went well today. I know there are still loads of cleanings to be done...but at least one major thing settled.

The thing I love about gatherings is having my family around me. Being away for 4 years has made me always yearning, longing for family gatherings. Riuh rendah..walaupun katil saya patah ke ape ke saya tak kisah. As long as I don't feel too lonely..

Saya juga rasa happy kalau jumpa kawan2. Eventhough sedih sikitla some of my retarded bros aren't here. petang sikit kawan2 sekolah rendah saya datang. Hehehe..sempat la bercerita kejap pasal kenangan dolu2..

All in all I think this week is such a gleeful week, Alhamdulillah thanks to Allah for the blessings :)
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Some updates

2011-07-05T04:08:00.001+01:00

Sooooo..almost a week has gone. I just put a countdown it says about 58 days before I leave home again.

In the past 7 days I was totally car-less. Patah kaki. Being in Shah Alam..car is like the most important component because the nearest train st is 15 minutes away from my house.

So it gets annoying at times when I need to do some stuff that I usually do by myself....like trimming my hair, go to the bank, buy stuff to be shipped back to cork.. Semua tak dpt buat lagi. Yes, I've been going out here and there tp tu semua courtesy of somebody yg baik hati. Segan la pulak nak mintak dia bawak saya sana sini dah cukup baik ler dia nak bawak jalan tu..

I'm still waiting how long can I stand the days gone without the car. To be honest I kinda feel awkward driving around because I'm starting to feel comfortable being a passenger already :D Tapi tulah, kalau rasa2 tak tahan, imma go and rent a car kot. That's the only solution that I can see so far.

Anywayyy my days so far has been good. Semalam berjaya jugak tengok transformers. Lepastu semalam I had DOUBLE buffet! Siang dekat seoul garden malam dekat renaissance for abang's delayed bday dinner. Fuuuuhhhhh ini mmg resipi mengundang kematian express ni!

Alrighty that's my updates so far (eceyh not like anyone cares pun :P) I shall go and shower now. Ta~
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Congratulations!

2011-07-03T17:06:00.000+01:00

The 2nd and 3rd person in my batch to wed. Both of them looked really happy!

Congrats Samihah and Shedot. Samihah looked really really pretty and mad duan pon nampak segak jugak.

Time flies. Dari 1st year dok buat perangai kanak2...tak sangka dah besaq dah smuorang kawen2.

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What I've done so far

2011-06-30T19:39:00.000+01:00

-watched football match Malaysia vs Chinese Taipei

-ate rojak and cendol salim

Will there be more to come?

I don't know.

I honestly don't.
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Duhai hati

2011-06-29T02:18:00.001+01:00

is freaking confused.

Breathe in and out. Rationalize and let's move one!

Meet Nayli, cutest baby in the world because I'm biased like that!

2011-06-27T11:41:00.000+01:00

Nayli trying to figure out what is this orange thing. even nenek confused and call Tigger a Garfield :P

Nayli got distracted with fans and lights

Nayli was awed to see herself in the webcam

Nayli tried to bite off Tigger's nose

I'm home with the family yawwwwww

Final year, here I come!

2011-06-24T17:21:00.003+01:00

Salam everyone, I just wanna share a good news. I just passed my fourth year and am officially a FINAL year dental student. Alhamdulillah sangat2 this is really a BIG relieve knowing how bad my history with exams.

I'm not bragging but I'm just sharing the news, because only God knows how painful 4th year has been. There were a lot of rocky roads. It was a big transition from 3rd year to 4th year and I really had problem adapting initially. I almost gave up at every possible point but with Allah's will and prayers from, especially, my beloved Mak and my friends, I made it.

Today I finished my last clinics for the fourth year, delivered 2 dentures to my patients. The atmosphere of the clinic was so bright eventhough the weather outside was hella gloomy. As soon as I got my charts signed off, I went around and bid goodbye to my classmates. I went in to the office to settle stuff with patients and met with Dr B, my tutor. He had this really one big smile on his face, which is realllllly rare. He congratulated me, saying a job well done and gave me a very firm yet warm handshake. Bumped into him again on the way out of the hospital and he gave a piece of advice :

Just forget everything, and enjoy your holidays fully.

So yeah, i think Imma take his advice seriously :D

I'm just making this post to motivate my (future) final year self that I survived the turbulence from 4th year and I gotta pushhhhhhhhh through final year no matter how hard it gets. Ingat ni N woi kena bertabah bertabah bertabah!!!!!

Finally, I'm heading tomorrow and insyaAllah for the first time in the past 5 years, I'm celebrating Eid at home this year =D

Sikit lagi, sikit lagi, sikit lagi

2011-06-23T13:16:00.000+01:00

I'm having my 3rd mornings off for this week because my patient canceled on my, at 9pm yesterday.

Sigh...so mad yet I couldn't do anything. Too late to ring in a new patient. That's the 2nd patient to cancel on me in this week. First one was last Tuesday, sekarang pakcik ni pulak...Aaaa amarah tau saya innieyy...

So..yesterday I had my very first ever consultant clinics. It's like normal seeing patient, do history and examination thingy but this is more like preparing ourselves for the final year exam. We have this one part where they call "unseen case", where I have to meet a patient that I've never met before, do history and examination, come up with the diagnosis and the treatment plan within the time limit.

I think it went well yesterday except I have to do TWO full pocket chartings. Full pocket charting is measuring the depth of the pockets of the gum that surrounds your teeth. In healthy gum, there shouldn't be any pocket but the patient yesterday had a few spots of pocket depth going over 3mm so I had to do a full mouth pocket charting. It's tiring sebab bayangkan gigi, in normal person ada around 32 batang. Lepastu kena buat surface yang menghadap pipi, satu lagi surface menghadap lidah/lelangit (one buccal one lingual/palatal) Lepastu utk setiap gigi kena buat 6 permukaan, tepi kiri, tengah, tepi kanan apsal beria nak terangkan ni but you geddit it's really tiring lah..

My favourite girls :)

Lepastu after consultant clinic I bid goodbye to my adik2 who are going home. They are one of the reasons why leaving alone is bearable. I go to their house a lot. Sampai Nadia rasa I'm one of their housemates already. So it was actually pretty sad to say goodbye to them...

But luckily I had two Xmen came to save me. Kamil's patient was really nice to give him a 50eu coupon to dine in a restaurant so we had dinner in a restaurant cum bar nearby my old house in Model Farm Road. First time ni masuk bar ni takde pape pun. It's all very chillax and dapatla tengok bola/rugby sambil makan..After the dinner we went to town. Initial planning was to watch Green Lantern. Lepastu adala rezeki tetiba ada satu tiket free tengok Xmen :P I've watched XMen 2 weeks ago, but I had no problem watching it again because I like it. So, cut the story short, we went to see XMen.

Jadi begitulah so far how I survived. Malam ni harap2 dapat bertahan lagi. 1.5 days to go baby chyeahhhhh

Detik demi detik..

2011-06-20T21:56:00.000+01:00

Wasssupppp yaaaallllllll.

I'm 5 days from home yaww...FIVE days. Tapi bila takde exam ni it feels like forever. Last weekend I spent a day doing a bit of shopping and a bit of packing. and the other day was spent sticking my butt on the bed as long as possible. Adalah sekejap I went to my junior's house to help them for their oral exams.

As for today, clinics resume. We had seminar on Implant this morning. More like a promotion rather than a seminar to me. But it's all good, we get to do a bit of hands-on thing on the second half of the morning and we got a 2GB USB stick as a freebie. But I have to say the first half was a bit boring, I yawned more than hundred times kot..

Petang plak I was in MOS (minor oral surgery) for my Oral Surgery rotation. It's gonna be my last rotation for fourth year (insyaAllah). Get to assist removal of horizontal impacted of lower left 8, which was a bit scary. The tooth was quite big and the surgeon had to keep on digging the bone to disimpact and take out the bits of roots left. The guy was only given local anaesthesia so he started to feel pain as she dug out the bone.

At around 5++pm I got a text message from my patient canceling her appointment tomorrow coz she had mid ear infection. It's too late to ring another patient so I might not come to clinic tomorrow. Cisss makcik bazir session gua je..Tapi tu lah, what to do. Since I've no clinics tomorrow morning I decided to start cleaning the house again. Cleaned the kitchen and the bathroom. All left to be done is the floors and my very own room. And then I'm good to go :D

I'm praying the remaining 5 days pass by as quickly as possible...and..as smooth as possible..

Ucapan yang tak terucap

2011-06-18T18:48:00.001+01:00

Every year when June comes, I've always felt left behind. When the day comes nearer, everybody would be putting up statuses on how they are planning to celebrate the day and how awesome their dad is..How envious..

Al-Fatihah, daddy. Adek will always love and miss you.

Langkawi, more than 20 years ago..

Our weekend getaway - Part Four

2011-06-14T21:28:00.000+01:00

Inchydoney Beach, about 1 hour ++ from Skibbereen...and around 45 minutes away from our home in Cork. The road was better there probably because it's not that faraway from city...

Initial plan was to swim...but when we got there it was too cold and very windy. Reached there around 6 plus...Air laut pun tengah surut. So we just dipped our feets, just playing, enjoying the soothing sound of beach. I love beach and its sound so so much. I could spend the whole day just chillaxing given the chance to do so!

Sampai-sampai makan dulu. Finish the leftovers. Semua-semua kelaparan juga ya...

The water was cold, but I think once you get in it should be ok kot kan?

Loved this jumpshot.

Just fooling around the beach

Us...

The water..nice and slow. Hwarghhhhhh I want them!!

We left for home around 7ish-8ish and reached Cork safe and sound as hoped. Total journey was 12 hours and total hours driven was 4 hours 59 minutes, as quoted by Google Map. And the best part was, the total of petrol usage, 5 hours journey on Saturday + some short journey around Cork city, Lidl, CX market, semua costed only 26.17eu! Totalllllly worth it. So altogether plus food, entrance to Mizen Head semua we spent about 40eu la per pax, maximum. Sangat-sangat berbaloi ok!

Thank you to all my adik2 in 3rd years who went with me. I was in so much stress for the last few weeks/months but I'm all feeling better and positive now.

and...of course a lil video at the beach and to sum up our journey :)

Our weekend getaway - Part Three

2011-06-14T15:28:00.000+01:00

Lough Hyne, Skibbereen

It took about 1 hours ++ from Mizen Head. Tapi sebenarnya takdepape sangat pun Lough Hyne ni. Was just another lake, tapi cantek la...

I think it's more suitable for family..fishing ka...kayaking ka..can go swimming also..

The lake

Duduk sesado sambil makan roti

Saw two swans getting close to us. I think they were expecting for food from us..

Some people were kayaking. But I think that's their own sebab takde pun orang bukak business ke apa area tu...Toilet pun tak nampak mana..

So yeah, we just chilled a bit and moved onto our next destination. Lagipun dah tak sabar nak pergi pantai :D

Our weekend getaway - Part Two

2011-06-14T04:04:00.002+01:00

Mizen Head, the most Southwest point in Ireland.

It was about 2+++ hours from Gougane Barra. The most challenging road I must say. Dah lah naik bukit, lepastu very the sempit one. And it's a loooooonggg journey especially when you just got back from hiking. Kaki pun dah lenguh2 my knee started to misbehave again. So I was getting cranky by the time we reach there. All hungry and getting angry..

But after the scrumptious lunch, I was back in happy mode. Hahaha nampak sangat budak gemok ni senang kena sogok dgn food. Changed to a proper clothes coz I was wearing black shirt and the sun was shining sooooo bright so I began to feel the heat already. Lunch was prepared by the girls, and it was delicious. Yup, kami bawak bekal and ate there :D

The entrance fee for Mizen Head was 4.50eu per person for students. There were a few viewing points where we can enjoy the sceneries and I tell ya, it was breathtaking!

The cliff and the sea. We were not allowed to go near there unfortunately..

The water was sooooooooo inviting. Patutla dia letak pagar kalau tak semua rasa nak terjun

The pathway to the viewing points..

We crossed the Mizen Bridge. Tak mencabar pun very stable tak goyang2. Tapi the wind was quite heavy..

The caves and the lake

Viewing point that faces the sea. So beautiful..

Air celah2. We saw a boat and some people swimming in the sea. So jealous!!

and....a little video from Mizen Head

Next stop? Skibbereen!

Our weekend getaway - Part One

2011-06-13T21:00:00.000+01:00

Alright, let's start with the stories shall we? Sooo...last Saturday me and my 4 others adik2 went for our weekend getaway..ya know to shake a bit the stress out of our mind. I was done with my exams...so this is a much needed break!

We rented a car, a manual car to be exact. The last time I drove a manual car like really drive it for long journey more than 10-20minutes-try2-tengok-boleh-tak-bawak-lagi was 5 years ago, maybe? I used to drive abang's satria for first 2-3 years after I got license but once mom let me drove automatic, I've never looked back again..lol. So yeah, I was pretty nervous..but turned out, it was okay! Still had it in me.

The greens that accompanied us...

The roads were very narrow and totally not as smooth as malaysian highway. At times we passed a road very narrow that we had to let the car from the opposite pass us first. But Alhamdulillah we managed to pass all the obstacles so sekarang I'm totally confident with my manual driving skill. Cuma of course, the legs were soooo tired la by the end of the journey.

We went out from home at 8ish am. Reached out first destination- Gougane Barra around 940am at there were only us and the other 2 person I think from another car. So we kinda had the whole place/jungle to ourselves...

Greeted by this lake of Gougane Barra - the source of River Lee. Was mesmerized by the beauty

We had to climb the hill to get to the waterfall area and chose the most strenuous trail..

The journey starts...

Took a lot of stops to take pictures...and also catch a breath..

View from the top. The picture doesnt do justice to the place. You have to actually be there to enjoy it. Totally worth the journey!

Relaxing by the waterfall. The water was sooooo cold.

The trees around Gougane Barra were all very straight. Very the discipline one. And it was also one chilly morning because the sun wasn't quite out yet..

The lake, again..

A little video I made about our journey in Gougane Barra :)

Next stop? Mizen Head!

Journey to the west - TEASER

2011-06-12T00:34:00.000+01:00

TUNGGU~

Life, exam-free..

2011-06-10T20:25:00.000+01:00

....wasn't quite like what I imagined. Ya know, I expected to be jolly free, can sleep more, watch movies more relax more but nada...Nope, that's just not how it is..

Now that we are at the end of fourth year, we are expected to do advanced stuffs, on our own. Which is very scary. Coz the patient will be our total responsible. Kinda like being a qualified dentist already, except this wannabe dentist is a clueless one!

For the past few days, I haven't been able to cook myself a decent food to eat. It's either the one that I just shove into the oven, or the ones that arrives after a call away. That's a major thing because being me, I always make sure I cook something to eat. Busy macammana pun malam2 mesti I cook something to eat..

My daily routine now is pretty much like this -In the morning I will take bread and milo for my breakfast.8.20am I leave home for school. during lunchtime I'll make sure I'm busy enough that I won't have time to be hungry. 5.45pm I'm home from hospital and I'll be as hungry as a bear so I would gobbled down a tuna sandwich. Malam sikit I would take a heavier meal, depends on what's available. Patut la working mothers either need maids or dine out. It's just too tiring to cook after a long day at work!Continue this trend I can shed some weight hopefully tapi of course la balik Malaysia sekilo dua yang hilang tu ditopup sepuluh kilo tanpa menunggu lama T__T

Anyywaaaaaaaaaaay I'm 15 days away from home..so that is always a good motivation. Hopefully I could adjust and adapt to this lifestyle soon :)

Apa dalam hati?

2011-06-09T00:18:00.000+01:00

Exam's over yaawww! How was it? I think ortho was slightly hard. But paeds was grand. I was lucky this time around both of my examiners are the helpful ones. Ya know the one that would lead you into giving the answers not the one that would just stare at you waiting for answers. Tapi with ortho I still couldn't be helped lah. They asked me like what are the forces to produce tipping and bodily movements too detailed, sorry lah Dr McD I just don't know..

As for the Medicine oral....I dunno. I'm kind of confused. It's an invited oral, so Alhamdulillah that's a good sign. That means I'm passed already but at the end she was saying something about competitive apakah I'm not quite sure. But hey, I don't care, really. Pass ka honours ka, as long as I don't fail, it's all good :)

Now that all the exams are over, it feels slightly better. My head are still messed up and I'm not totally relieved yet, but I hope it'll be over soon. I'm planning a getaway this weekend and really hope it'll take away the stress. It's been a loooooongggggggg 6 months since I started 2nd semester I've never really had an exam free moment so times like this are really precious.

Tapi dalam hati saya ada satu unexplainable sorrow feeling yang sukar diexpress. Apa itu? Apa itu yang membelenggu?
Tak tahulah. Or mungkin saya tahu sebenarnya?

Entahlah...

4th year last summer exam, insyaAllah

2011-06-07T23:45:00.000+01:00

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim..

June 8th, 2011

10.30am - Orthodontics and Paediatrics viva

11.50am - Human Disease Relevance to Dentistry (Medicine and Surgery) oral examination

My fight doesn't stop tomorrow. Still got loads of patients to attend to. But at least I can get a good sleep at nights, knowing I don't need to wake up and shove myself with books and notes anymore (hopefully) for the next 2 weeks :)

Aku ada disini

2011-06-06T17:55:00.000+01:00

Kehadapan saudari N,

Aku ada disini. Masih disini. Setia menanti dikau yang tak tiba-tiba lagi. Kau pergi berjimba tak ingat dunia lepastu kau kata aku hilang. Hamboihamboihamboi. Lempang kang nak?

Peperiksaan tinggal dua lagi. Habis peperiksaan logbook jangan dilupakan. Ada lagi 13 patients nak dihabiskan. Lepastu jangan lupa urusan bersama patient2 tu. Call mana2 yang patut. Habiskan semua minggu ini dan hidupmu akan tenang bermula minggu hadapan. Ada faham?

Yang tersisih,
Momentum

Kemana hilangmu momentumku?

2011-06-05T22:28:00.000+01:00

Kehadapan diri sendiri,

Apa khabar saudari disana? Semoga saudari sihat hendaknya.

Tujuan saya menulis post ini adalah ingin mengingatkan saudari bahawa exam belum habis lagi. In fact, penting juga exam rabu ini memandangkan ujian pertama saudari tiadalah keputusannya boleh dibanggakan. Exam bertulis itu juga saudari tiada membuat dengan bagusnya bukan? Jadi sedarlah diri wahai saudari, bangun dan bangkitlah untuk study.

Apa tunggu lagi?

Yang risau tapi tak study,
Diri sendiri

Ahoy!

2011-06-04T16:51:00.000+01:00

Ahoy lovely people all over the world...I could be chasing but my time would be wasted..they got nothing on youuuuuu babyyy..

I've been very very whiny in my posts these days innit? I hope nobody gets fed up because of it because well, this blog is where I throw in my crap. Things that I can't really say to real people directly because nobody cares about our crap anyway..well maybe a few exceptions kot..

So what's up? I'm left with one viva (Oral Health and Development) and one oral (Medicine and Surgery) examination this Wednesday. Suddenly there is an addition of another oral exam but hey, Alhamdulillah, I'm not complaining much. Cuma kena study la sikit kot I don't want to appear very stupid in front of the examiners.

oh, I was having this severe back pain starting last Monday. Went to a GP, which is also my beloved landlord and he gave me a diclofenac shot (anti-inflammatory), difene and diazepam to ease the pain. Was supposed to get another shot because I was still in pain tapi last Friday I had to stay back at school until late and missed it. Takpelah hopefully it'll be gone soon. I was out from 830am in the morning sampaiiii 6.15pm yaaaaawww! Alhamdulillah got a new case with this pt hopefully everything goes well :)

As of now I'm currently making amendments to patients case report that is due next next Monday. Thank God they extended the submission date. At least we've got another weekend to get it settled. I probably should be doing some studying for my viva exam because it's a part of my finals and I don't think I do good in my written but I just feel so sick of studying. No mood at all so I'm just chillaxing doing light works with hope that I'll get back my momentum soon. One last week of examination yawww lepas ni boleh concentrate on patients je!

Anyway I hope whoever came across this blog or is a reader of this blog (yes the 3 of you. LOL) excuse me for all my ramblings and stuff. I do this so that when I have passed all this hardship, onak ranjau berduri I can look back through what I've gone and smile through it. Don't take me as being a whiny non bersyukur bitch ok? I am more than thankful to Allah for giving me this kind of "opportunities" for I know He's preparing me to be a stronger person. So just bear with my bebelan ok darlings?

Medicine and Surgery for Dental Students - OSCE

2011-06-01T13:01:00.006+01:00

5 stations (with real patient)

1. Squamous cell carcinoma
-skin lesion on forehead, give :
Differential diagnosis
Most likely diagnosis
Risk factor
I was asked to palpate the lymph nodes as well. Quite a heartbreak to see this old guy actually :( I think I gave the diagnosis OK but the examiner was quite ermm..strict? Didn't smile at all.

2. Jaundice
-yellow skin and sclera
-what is the cause?
-causes of liver disease
-possible problem with dental treatment

I finished this station quite early and had a chance to chat with the patient. He's very nice!

3.Acromegaly
-describe the man (large hands, coarse facial features, separated teeth)
-cause of the condition, treatment of the condition (medically, surgically, radiotherapy)
-possible medical complications

The examiner was super nice. Had a chance to chit chat with her about why there are a lot of Malaysian students bla bla bla..Pokcik patient ni pun baikk sangat. Cumels je. I always imagine org yg acromegaly ni cam tinggi besar. Eh ke sebab dia duduk? huhu..

4.Facial palsy/stroke
-the examiner did the cranial examination for me. I was asked about the condition.
Basically I suck in this station so I won't elaborate more coz it will cause more heartache. HAHA

5.Parotid gl inflammation
-the patient went out to the loo so I was cut short of 2 mins. the examiner asked me about facial nerve examination sigh sigh sighhhh
-palpate lymph nodes, describe
-palpate parotid gland, describe the swelling
-cause of parotid gland inflammation
I messed up this station too. Hwahwahwa..

During the transition between my 1st and 2nd station, we had like 10 minutes break because the patients needed toilet break, nappy change and kena betulkan position because some of them are immobile. Duduklah melangut kat luar gagaga..

Data Interpretation

1. Picture of a guy with moonface, acne. Patient had ulcerative collitis and underwent a long term course of treatment bla bla bla.
a) Describe the appearance
b) Give 6 Adverse effects of chronic course of therapy (long term steroid I supposed?)
c) Supposed the guy needs to go for surgery, what should you recommend about his medication regime?

2.69 y o, Female,on warfarin mitral valve replacement after rheumatic heart failure. INR record is 3.3 2 days earlier. Went to dental surgery for extraction of 2 teeth.
a)What is inr, what does it indicates?
b)If warfarin was stopped acutely, what are the likely effects?
c)Patient returned because of post extraction infection.Metronidazole and amoxycillin was prescribed.2 days later she went to GP because of nose bleeding, INR is 8. Why?

3. Picture of the Lesion at the side of tongue
a) Give Differential diagnosis
b) What should you check
c)Appropriate investigations
d)Oral complication of treatment (wasn't quite sure what they want with this question)

4.Pt with squamous cell carcinoma proven by 3x3 biopsy is going to surgery. SCC is at buccal mucosa of left cheek. Pt is 50 y o, smokes 20/day, drinks alcohol 40 unit/ week
a) Why kind of perioperative investigations would you undertake, give reasons
b)
c) Possible post op complication, give reason
d)How nutrition should be managed post operatively

5. Pt is Type 1 diabetes mellitus. Molar is abscessed and doesn't resolve with antibiotics. She is scheduled for incision and drainage which to be done at local dental surgery with local anaesthesia.
a) Something like giving comment on : the Need of fasting. Pre op insulin regime. How to schedule treatment
b) The surgery was 90minutes late, pt appear sweaty, agitated and something2 tak ingat. What is the differential diagnosis, most likely diagnosis be given first?
c) Glucose capillary test done, result of the glucose is 2.0mmol/L. How to manage?

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Sakit apa tok wi?

2011-05-31T20:12:00.000+01:00

Anak itik tok wi mandi dalam kolam
Sakit apa tokwi
Sakit sendi tulang
Ubat apa tokwi
Ubat limau lelang
Sakit apa tokwi
Sakit sengal tulang

Lu langsi lu mati!

2011-05-29T22:00:00.002+01:00

Sooooooo..I've been trying my best to combat this gloomy mood and depression shiznit that has been infecting me. I dedicated my time cleaning the house. Like menyental dishwasher yang ada petanda to grow mould, scrubbing the dirt off the floor, disinfecting, yup you heard me right, disinfecting the plates cups tupperwares and whatnots in the kitchen. Not all, but I'm trying to do as much as I could.

Apart from that, I also tried to watch movies, Malay movies to be exact. I am a very impatient person so watching Malay movies has been a serious battle for me. BUT, by downloading the movie, I have my very own power to fast forward all the crap that I don't wanna see.

#1 Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa

All I can say, this movie is awesome. The effects are awesome. The story lines are not too bad, albeit it being a bit rushed and I feel like they are trying to cramp everything in a 1.5hours (?) movie. The actors and actresses..well I don't quite have the problem with them. Maybe I was awed by the CGI effects that I don't give a damn to the flaws.

Verdict after watching : I'd say I would give this movie 4.8 stars out of 5 because it kinda lifted out my spirit after watching it! I didn't fast forward any part at all so that's a good thing!

#2 Kongsi

I watch it because it has Shaheizy Sam in it, and he's one hell of a good actor. No matter how crappy the story is, I know I can rely on him to make it better. Tapi I can't help but to notice all the other sidekicks / co actors and actresses are very the tak reti berlakon. The story line sucks, but I've kept in mind that no Malay stories are ever logical anyway so that helped a lot in getting me watching this movie towards the end. It's pretty funny actually. I would rather categorize this as comedy than action.

Verdict after watching : Almost all of the leader of the gangs opens restaurant as their cover-up business. This got me thinking, apakah William itu sebenarnya ketua gangster? hmmmmm...I give 3 out of 5 purely because of the comedy. I needed that laugh! But I had to admit I fast forwarded a few parts here and there sebab tak tahan.

I might be downloading more and more stories to keep me occupied for the next 26 days!

p.s : Langsi tu amende tah?

Serabut

2011-05-27T22:03:00.000+01:00

Life has been going on rocky road lately. It's like a domino effect. When one bad thing happened, every possible bad thing starts to follow. Again, I'm on another fall on this rollercoaster ride where I feel like quitting. This is like, the 2nd time in this month.

I'm pretty much done with the writing exams. All that's left are 1 OSCE exam, 1 oral, shitloads of patients' case report and of course, THE requirement. I don't wanna talk so much on my written exam. All I can do is to pray everything goes well.

My main main concern now is of course, the requirement. There's this one particular requirement that I'm very worried of - root canal treatment. I have a patient, but everything seemed to be wrong with this particular patient. Cikgu saya tak membantu. Something happened last Thursday. Patient got kinda ornery towards the end of the treatment. Today,the patient told me she's been getting awful pain that doesn't resolve with painkiller. I've been trying to sort her out. I'm supposed to spend this afternoon reorganizing my life but up until now my room is still in kinda big mess.

To make things worst, the housemates are leaving the house one by one and the feeling of emptiness starts to kill me from inside. I don't think I have much of motivation left inside me already. I think if I lost my mind I could really start planning suicide. But no, that's just wrong!

Ya Allah, I beg for your mercy. please give me strength to keep going on.

Medicine and Surgery for Dental Students - MCQ

2011-05-25T12:33:00.009+01:00

30 questions, 5 stems. Answer : True/False/Do Not Know. Negative Marking. 1.5hours.
These are roughly the questions. Some of the choice of answer could be wrong tho. Haha..tak ingat sangat..
I'll add more when I remember

1. Herpetic whitlow
- can recur
- incidence among dentist is increasing
-acyclovir eradicate permanently
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2. Immunodeficiency
- oral candidiasis in 1st 2 months warrants for investigation of primary immunodefficiency
- scid below 1 year old
-methrotrexate causes neutropenia

-infliximab and bone marrow suppression

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3. L/A
- high doses cause convulsion, tachycardia,
- effect on sensory
- must inject at muscle
- adrenaline must be given at end stage to reduce bleeding
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4.(Maxillofacial trauma)
25 y/o male, unrestrained, road traffic accident causing multiple injuries. Only response to pain stimuli, tachycardia.
-ensanguinal haemorrhage is single possible cause of death
-airway is not primary care
-a few scale to determine prognosis
- need of intubation and ventilation
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5. Maxillofacial trauma
- need blood transfusion
- CT scan and xrays
- something about anaesthetic and facial injury
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6 Syncope vs seizure. Which differentiate syncope from seizure.
-urine incontinence
-pallor
-tongue biting
- dilated pupil
- hypotension

7. and 8. Trigeminal neuralgia
- 1st presentation of multiple sclerosis
- ?radioesthatic surgery as effective as microvascular decompression in long term
- microvascular decompression
- commonly in people at age 50 - 60
- clinical signs usually show neurological deficit or something like this tak sure
- surgery access from retromastoid area
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9. and 10. Radiation - this is kinda like a bonus question cause out of 5 choices, there's only 1 True answer.
-fractionate therapy (2Gy /day)
-total dose for primary treatment head and neck cancer -no prior surgery (60-70 Gy/day)

11. Perioperative
- chest x ray is essential for every patient
- tpn vs enteral - which is effective to replace nutrient if nutritional deficiency
- stop steroid at least 10 days prior to surgery
- in diabetic patient, they need to take insulin when they are fasting prior to surgery

12. Medication that need to be stopped before surgery
-warfarin
-prednisolone
-clopidrogel
-propanolol
-aspirin

13. Wound healing
-debridement increase risk infection
-haematoma is a space occupying lesion that contains blood
-haematoma increase risk of infection
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14. Steroid therapy causes
- sleeping disturbance
- hypertension
- osteoporosis
- easy bruising + friable skin
- Addison's disease

15. Diabetes
- ketoacidosis most common cause of trauma
-increase oral candidiasis
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16. Oral manifestation of GI disorder
-coeliac - dental erosion
- Crohns on tongue
- ulcer on ulcerative colitis
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17. Kaposi sarcoma
-can occur in oral cavity
- cause by Human Herpes Simplex 8
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18. Melanoma
- in male, occurs at sun exposed face??
-?breschow thickness
-poor prognosis spreading superficially
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19. Squamous cell carcinoma and basal cell carcinoma
-SCC occurs in preexisting naevi
-SCC is sensitive to radiotherapy
-BCC on lip
-SCC usually metastasize to regional lymphatic
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20. Asthma
-NSAID exacerbates
-presents with finger clubbing
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21. Systematic inflammatory disorder
- giant cell arteritis causes jaw claudication
- rheumatoid arthritis causes TMJ problem (this was repeated twice!)
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22. Coeliac
- causes dental erosion
- causes angular chelitis and anaemia
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23. Chronic renal failure
-hypertension
-pulmonary fibrosis
-causes hypoparathyroidism
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24. Thyroid disorder
- hypertension and throtoxicosis
-macroglossia and thyrotoxicosis
- hypothyroidism (?) and Addison's
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25. Rheumatoid
-rheumatoid factor is spesific to rheumatoid arthritis
-anti-Ro in sjogren
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26. Osteoathritis
- cause dry eyes and mouth
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27. Hepatitis
- in ireland, most of hepatitis is caused by hep A
- hep B can be prevented by vaccination
- hep C can be prevented by vaccination
- antiretroviral therapy in hiv needle stick injury reduce 80%
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28. Bell's palsy, on affected side
- can't close eye
- can't open mouth
- can't wrinkle forehead
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29. ENT
- lamina whatthefuck (par something2 tak ingat tak reti woi) separates maxillary sinus from the orbit
- meningitis, subdural abscess are complications of acute sinusitis
- paranasal sinuses something something
- plain x-ray can be used to diagnose sinusitis
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Losing (Kehilangan)

2011-05-22T11:03:00.001+01:00

Growing up, fatherless*, I tend to be really attached to people who are close to me. Like, I have lost a very important person in my life and I can't afford to lose more.

Mom and bro had a couple of "moment" where they fall sick and I would start to tremble and cry to myself as if the world is gonna end. They are my everything. I used to have phobia with riding airplane and when mom had to go to New Zealand when I was at school I was really really worried. Bro had one difficult time and he was admitted to hospital close to my IB final exam. I almost lost it but thank God I managed to finish the exam well. My aunties and uncles used to live with me come and go and each time they had to bid goodbye there's this indescribable painful feeling starts to radiate from my heart. Tok Haron passed away when I was in second year and I was really really shaken with the news.

All I wanna say is, losing the ones that you love, be it to death or as life moves on really really hurts. This entry was inspired from the sad news that struck our country - landslide tragedy at an orphanage house in Hulu Langat. One of the survivor had to witness his own brother being trapped underneath the rushing Earth. I can imagine how hard it is to lose someone you love when they are all you've got in this world. Especially living in that house, where you tend to rely on each other a lot..

Al Fatihah to all the victim of the landslide.

I am so not good in arranging my thoughts into words...

*I was born in 1987. Dad passed away 1992. At present it is 2011.

Randomitis Lazyarsitis

2011-05-21T12:15:00.000+01:00

Pagi tadi tiba-tiba saya kembali ke asrama SMSS. Masih katil double decker yang sama, masih dorm yang sama. Typical pagi weekend, tiada kelas jadi bermalas-malas.

Lepastu Fahrin Ahmad BBM saya kata nak jumpa. Awwwww dia melawat saya kat asrama, how sweet of him.

Saya lekas bersiap turun bawah, jumpa, kita borak berbicara gembira. That smiling eyes ~_~

Of course la semua tu mimpi cuma. Lepastu saya kena bangun Subuh sebab dah nak habis waktu.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2011-05-20T12:07:00.000+01:00

Nak update sangat-sangat tapinya tatau apa mau cilita. Exam? Susah harem? Bukan cerita luar biasa. Perasaan? Bosan dan hampir homesick. It's not homesick but it's more like sick of living here. huhuhu..I wanna go back to the place where I'm most familiar with.

By next weekend I'll be home alone already. The housemates are going back home starting from next Friday, next Saturday and lastly next next Monday. Tapi Wany is going to Norway next Friday so I prolly will be left alone by Thursday. I was supposed to follow, I bought the tickets already but after giving a deep thought I think I won't risk the OSCE for a 3 days of holiday. Takpelah nok pelajaran comes first..Ada rezeki nak travel nanti aaaadelah..

Queen Elizabeth is in Cork today visiting. The main roads are close but thank God we stay far from the city. I couldn't be bothered joining the crowd at town welcoming her coz I've got exam next week! Hwarghhh..3 more exams to go. MCQ Medicine, OSCE Medicine and viva Oral Health Development. Bosan dah weh dah lama tak dapat tido dengan tenang bangun lambat dengan gembira. Even for the weekend. pfftt

Just in case my juniors wanna make reference for the exam the questions were :

1) Inhalation sedation. Dia kasi gambar, cakap what type of sedation, what is the agent (drug), how it is stored and the properties

2) Steps of surgical removal procedure of roots of 36.

3) Picture of a lesion on tongue. Everyone said it's an aphtous ulcer. I DIDN'T. So I basically messed up the question pretty badly coz once you got the lesion wrong, everything would go wrong. Anyway the questions were likely diagnosis, different categories of the lesion, investigation, type of drugs for treatment and underlying systemic condition associated with the lesion

4) A periapical radiograph, ada 11, 12 and prolly 13. 11 and 12 ada post crown. Describe 5 radiographic findings of 12, the diagnosis and the treatment options

5) Types of impaction of third molar (radiograph)

6) 5 petanda? landmark? haiyooo not quite sure but 5 things that show the inferior dental canal is in close proximity with the 3rd molar. Loss of tremlines, radiolucency within the band, diilustration etc

The Internet Distractions

2011-05-15T21:55:00.001+01:00

...complications of teeth extractions includes postoperative infections and postoperative bleeding..

Eh post-op bleeding apa management dia eh?

*checks Master Dentistry...tak menarik. checks oxford handbook...tak clear..eh tengok kat internet la

*opens new tab initially to open Google homepage.

Eh ada orang update blog tak weekend-weekend ni

*clicks Google reader

Eh kak Green Apple update blog dia

cantiknya beg...beg Coach ke. Aaaa..macam nak beli mahal tak

*opens Coach website

browsed through the bags...Eh tiba2 teringat Zack's online business at facebook. Tengoklah dia ada jual tak

*opens Facebook

Bestnya....final year dah abis exam, dah jalan sana sini. Bestnya...kawan ni dah grad dah nak keja. Oh, another wedding invitation? Eh nak tulis blog lah pasal banyak wedding invitation

*opens Blogger. Reflects what I've been doing for the past 2 hours.And here comes this post

Inilah dia dinamakan the internet distractions. Elok tengah baca-baca sekali terupdate blog pulak. Sighh

Skype with my my beloveds

2011-05-14T21:16:00.000+01:00

This morning I saw Kak Diah put her BBM status - "Nayli is going to have busy day today" and I asked her why. Long story short, I found out she'll be going back to my home in Shah Alam so I texted mom to go on Skype so I can see her.

So today...is kinda like my first informal meeting with her. I am not used to call myself Makngah yet simply because I just don't quite like calling people with makngah maklong as it gets pretty confusing when the circle gets bigger. Another reason would be because I'm in denial eventhough i'm a makngah i'm also a maksu HA HA HA nak jugak tuuuu. So we'll see nanti balik Malaysia what would I call myself!

"who's this woman calling my name. why does she live in a box", that's prolly what's going on her mind

The first time I saw her online, I kinda think that Nayli looks like me. I mean, not me at my current age la tapi when I was at her age.

Nayli's looking at her mom @ aunty Ain not quite sure

lil Nayli starts to get fussy

undressed and ready for a bath!

It was quite a short meeting but I was satisfied enough. I left the conversation on while hearing my mom and bro talking over there, just to get the feeling as if I was there. Huhu...can't wait to get back home!